The day after :
Waking up was hard as much for Lois as Clark .
Lois was a bit disappointed seeing Clark really didn't came home last night to let her breathe . The sheets next to her were made and she felt a pain in her heart besides her .
It wasn't because she had cancelled the wedding that Clark couldn't sleep next to her . They were still together . Although , she had a lot of calls to make today . She sighed and slowly walked down toward the kitchen . She sat at the bar and had her breakfast without being hungry … Usually Clark would take care of the breakfast but this morning , it had a bitter taste .
She couldn't even finish eating , she wasn't hungry at all and with her nauseas , she didn't feel that need either.
She had some kind of headache and all she wanted was seeing that day, which was supposed to be their day , going faster than usual so everything would be back to the way they were .
After taking a good shower , she got dressed for work , even though she didn't want to . No conviction .. But she needed to confront all this damn paper work which was waiting for her .
Clark wasn't in a better mood himself . He didn't sleep last night ; not that he really needed it but without Lois being in his arms , it was really hard .
So he did what he could do the best … Checking on the city , sometimes checking on his apartment to watch Lois but he didn't lie next to her as he was usually doing .
Even if he didn't show it , he was really hurt . He knew that Lois loved him and so he did but Jor-el had played an important role into their relationship and now he was scared that the voice in the ice completely killed Lois brain .
This was for that main reason he didn't want to get involved with his father anymore , he has been hurt too much through the years . And if this trial had as point to make him understand that as a Super hero , he will end up alone , nothing in this world would make him listen to Jor-el .
His was seeing his life now with Lois and their child , their friends , family and nothing more . He could handle his super hero side , he always did . So married or not , things will never change .
He looked at the clock … It was time to work . He let some space to Lois . He didn't get home and sounded like things always look better in the morning so he hoped she will be back on her decision that she could jump on him and rushed him to be ready and she will be the last one to be .
At the Daily Planet , they met to take the elevator . They barely looked at each other , especially Lois who was more embarrassed than he was . They muttered a ' hello ' and Clark started the conversation .
- Some people take time off when it's their wedding day .
Lois bit her lips , sighing and they came into the elevator .
- There is no wedding . Don't pretend you didn't hear what I said last night .
She looked at him .. Apparently last night was as hard for him as for her . He forgot to being dress up well .
- And you're one to talk . That blue underoo .. Sticking out of your collar means you're on the job too .
Clark looked down to him and fixed his tie and smiled
- I was keeping busy . I didn't wanna crowd you . You know , you haven't called in eight hours . Usually you figure things out when I give you some space .
Lois looked right in front of her , blushing about this conversation and more embarrassing too . She didn't wish that deep down but Clark will feel better that way .
- don't worry ! Even if we're not married , Junior will grow in his parents love .
The " ding " knocked and they stepped out . Lois first , walking down fast . Clark was a bit offended.
- Or you can just keep avoiding me .
Lois was far away forward to him .
- I'm not avoiding you . I have work to do . The president just arrived in town for a fundraiser plus a huge stack of police reports just came in
They came into Lois office and she turned to him with a list of phone numbers .
- And I have to call all the guests and let them know that big day has been cancelled .
Clark has stopped in the front door and wasn't sharing her opinion . There was no way this wedding would be canceled . He super speed to her and caught up the list .
She rolled her eyes .
- nice try speedy but you can't make 411 disappeared .
She took her old cell phone and started to do the numbers but Clark repeated what he just did , took away her phone and shook it right in front her eyes .
She tried to get it back but he didn't allow her to do that .
She sighed and looked at him , angry .
- Your Copperfield act is impressive but it won't change my mind .
She showed him the door and told him
- go out there and save the day . Wherever it needs saving .
Clark smiled , thinking she was adorable to being in every kind of mood .
- Lois ! There's a team of heroes out there protecting the world . So we can get married .
Lois cannot believe what she has just heard .. Hand on the belly …Usual now . He wouldn't let go … Her heart started to pound faster , he loved her so much and she was hurting him … But a mountain of other people needed him and no … She just couldn't be so selfish .
- you really don't see it , do you ? You're a hero and that's how it should be . You've gotten so used to the fact you know you're gonna be able to fix everything and make everything right that you cut out any possibility that there are some things that you just .. You can't fix .
Clark frowned and slowly walked toward her , trying to understand what she meant .
- we don't need fixing .
She shook her head .
- We don't . But we are in an impossible situation .. With everything which coming for the next months . One that you can't super-speed or super hear or super leap your way out of . Clark every minute that you spend with me , having dinner , arguing about paint colors , arguing about whether or not to get married , you could be out there saving someone .
The situation was escaping Clark . He moved toward her
- Lois this is my future and I want you to be a part of it
She moved backward like she was definitely breaking up with him
- yeah well maybe we don't get what we want .
He felt like his heart had being stabbed , she really had a weird behavior . He looked at her , sad .
- I'm just in your way - she said , trying to keep her tears for her .
He watched her without saying anything , he stepped out and stopped in the front door , turned around to face her .
- you're not in my way Lois … You're by my side . But if you really want to cancel the wedding then you're gonna have to leave me standing at the altar .
He put his glasses on and went away . Lois watched him left and felt tears again in her eyes . She felt her heartbeat and the baby's becoming more and more regular . She reached for her couch and let her down on it to cry .
Later in the morning , Clark went to the farm and found his mother who was watching some old pictures and her poor home which was so empty and boring to death even though a little bit sad . Where was the love and warm this home she always knew ? This home that her and Jonathan had built ? She was expecting seeing Clark and Lois starting a life here .
- Mom . I thought you were staying at the bed and breakfast .
Martha turned to face him and seemed shocked by his words .
- And I thought I was coming back to a home that you and Lois were building together .
Clark was confused and raised his shoulders .
- We are in Metropolis . I hope . I sent you a message . We close escrow in a few days .
Martha was most shaken up.
- Clark .. I think you misunderstood when I sent you the deed . This is our home .
- We've already accepted the offer . You're in the middle of a campaign .
Martha hardly believed that the farm she has spent her whole life would be selled , knowing that Clark has also spent the last 20 years in it and didn't feel sorry to sell it .
- just because I'm moving ahead with my life doesn't mean I'm letting go of everything that came before . That was a hard lesson to learn .
Clark did understand but if his mum was always playing the same song , they couldn't move forward .
- Is this about Dad ?
Martha looked around her , feeling a frog in her throat .
- I know it's been tough since he died being the one left behind
Martha turned and cut him off
- That's just it . I was never left behind . No matter where I am or who I'm choosing to bring into my life , your father is always with me . And he's with you if you just allow yourself to see him .
- I did
He moved to his mother .
- Last year , I thought I was talking to him , but I realized it was just an excuse for me not to face my future . Just like I was waiting for Jor-el to show me the way . I had to move on
Martha watched him … She was touched and moved to him , putting her hands in his .
- I'm so proud of the man you've become .
- But why bring up Dad today of all days ?
Martha wondered if he was really that naive of he was doing it on purpose .
- Because this is a day to celebrate next step in the journey you're on . And everyone who's been a part of it .
- And you don't think I'm doing that ?
- Clark , you're so focused on what's ahead that you're starting to cut out the parts of your past that made you who you are . I .. I can't begin to imagine the pain you see every day when you're out there . I know you have to put blinders on to cope with your responsibilities , but if you turn your back on all the experiences that made you strong and compassionate because they hurt . I'm afraid that one day everything you learned in Smallville will have been for nothing .
- I'm never gonna let that happen .
- You already are and you don't see it .
She sighed and took a deep breath to look for her words .
- Sweetheart all I'm saying is you don't have to let go of the past to move on
Clark shook his head and put his hand on her shoulders .
- Yes , you do mom ! I'm sorry . I love you but you have to find a way to put all this behind you just like I did . It's the only way to move on .
And he went away . He didn't tell her yet that Lois was pregnant , they were about to make the announcement the night before during the dinner and now even if Lois was saying otherwise , Clark counted on the wedding party to tell the good news .
Martha looked at him go and start to cry . She cannot believe her son could be so indifferent and there was another person who agreed with her .
Jonathan Kent was in the house , as spirit but he heard all the conversation between his wife and his son and he would like to be among them , hugging Martha and saying to Clark that he was doing a mistake .