Chapter 3: Memories

Nessie's POV

Just looking at the picture of her brought back way to many unpleasant memories. It was the very reason that my stay here was nothing but pure hell.

I could remember it clearly. Since the day she arrived I just knew that their was something seriously wrong with her in the head. First day that she was here she thought that it would be funny to burn me with coffee when I didn't do what she wanted me to do. That was just the very beginning.

Things with her just got way worse from then on out. She tried drowning me several times. She used to cut me and burn me, and I still have all the scars to prove it. One night she chopped almost all my hair off in the middle of the night. She used to push me out of and off of things all the time and I almost died a couple of times because I used to hit my head. I'm lucky that I never did sustain even a permanent injury. She used to laugh at me during those moments.

The worst part is that nobody ever believed when I told them what was happening because somehow Erin would act all innocent and it was my own fault for everything that would happen to me. I never told Jacob, Sam, or Emily what was happening to me because I didn't want them to worry about me even more then they already were.

Then it happened. One night I was sitting on the branches of one of my favorite trees with my stuffed wolf. I felt like that stuffed wolf was the only true friend that I had in the world besides Jacob. That tree was the only place in the orphanage that I truly felt at peace.

Then she appeared.

Flashback:

"What you doing there Nessie?" she said.

I immediately tensed up when I heard her voice. I had learned to fear her voice whenever we were alone. Somehow she had climbed the tree and I didn't even notice.

"Nnnotthinng" I stuttered out. I could feel my heart racing.

"Talking to your stupid stuff wolf again like the stupid little baby you are?" she said in a menacing way.

Then she snatched him from me. "Come and get it" she sneered.

I grabbed onto the wolf and successfully snatched it back from her. The force caused her to lose her balance and fall. I watched as her body hit the ground and become lifeless.

I screamed in terror.

Mrs. Dixon came running out. "Renesmee what have you done?!" she screamed in terror at what she saw.

"It was an accident!" I said frantically.

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She was still alive; but barely. They managed to save her life. She did become paralyzed from the waist down though. After I gave my part of the story the police ruled it an accident.

As revenge for the accident Erin told on me and Natalie and how we used to sneak out together. Natalie was arrested immediately and the judge wanted me to go and give a statement at her trial.

I didn't want Natalie to get sent to jail so I wasn't going to say anything that would hurt her. Unfortunately that didn't work at so well since I was only six years old and could easily be manipulated into telling the truth. I told them how I would only steal things that had been stolen from her and her friends. I told them about how she was a wonderful friend to me and that I only had to do these missions for her to get back what was stolen..

I didn't realize that I accidentally got Natalie in even more trouble.

"I hate you!" was the last thing that Natalie had screamed at me as they dragged her away. I never saw her again. She was charged with breaking and entering, drug selling, and child endangerment.

It wasn't until I was older that I realized that the white powdery stuff was drugs. They had me steal drugs that they would in turn sell to other kids on the streets. They had a secret business that I unknowingly took part in.

As for Erin, I'm not quite sure what happened to her. Later on I learned from the social workers that she had lost her mom when she was a baby and that her father was a very abusive man. Now I understood why she was so messed up.

After all that happened Sam and Emily adopted me. Jake, Sam, and Emily wanted me to get out of that place as fast as possible. It was the happiest day of my life. I was finally going to be happy, and I would never have to separate from my Jacob again.

Of course my life still wasn't easy, but at least I had a family now. At least all of the wolves were my friends and family.

"Are you okay Renesmee?" Mrs. Dixon asked.

"I'm okay, but I think I should go home now" I said.

"Okay Nessie, it was nice seeing you again" she said.

"Yeah, it was nice seeing you to" I said.

I started running as soon as I left. It was definitely a bad idea to go back there. I was not ready for that trip down memory lane.

I kept on running. I didn't see the uneven pavement until it was to late. I took a nasty fall and scraped my knee, arm, and shoulder. And I'm pretty sure that I twisted my ankle as well because it hurt like hell.

This just wasn't my day.

I looked at my watch and was surprised when it read 5 o clock. I hadn't realized that I had been gone so long. I should go back home now. My parents, and Jacob are probably worried sick by now. I had never disappeared like this before. I always told them what I was doing and where I was going.

I looked inside of my bag for my money only to realize that I had one dollar left, and that I had forgotten my cellphone at home. Great! Just great! What was I thinking?! I should've never run away like this! This was a stupid thing for me to do! Now I had no money to buy another ticket home, and I had no phone to let everyone know where I was. To top it all off my injuries were starting to hurt a lot more; especially my ankle; which was starting to look swollen now. Then it started raining.

The only things that I had on me were my school books and my stuffed wolf.

I continued to walk around for a while as it started raining harder and harder. I felt so stupid. I shouldn't have done this.

Once I couldn't walk anymore I went into an alley and sat next to a dumpster. I felt horrible. It was dark, I was alone, I was in pain, and I was starving. I missed my family so much.

I just sat there and cried softly for a long time.

Then I felt a cold hand gently touch me. I jumped a little at the ice cold touch. It was a young man, probably in his early 20s. His golden eyes showed compassion and worry as he looked at me.

"You feel to warm. Are you okay young lady?" he asked. Now that he mentioned it I did feel a lot warmer then usual.

"No" I barely managed to say.

"It's okay, I can help you" he said.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"My name is Carlisle Cullen. What's yours?" he asked.

"Renesmee" I said.

"Renesmee, I can help you. I'm a doctor and I don't like seeing young teens such as yourself alone at this time a night" he said.

I looked at the man. For some reason I felt safe with him. I didn't know why, after all he was a stranger to me and I should never trust strangers. Yet, somehow I knew he was telling the truth and I felt safe.

"Okay" I said.

He helped me stand up. When he saw that I was having a hard time walking he just picked me up and carried me to his car.

"Renesmee what are you doing out here all by yourself at night?" he asked.

"I ran away. I had to many problems at school and I couldn't take it anymore" I said.

"Why would you do that? Running is never the answer" he said.

"I just acted on impulse. It was stupid, I know" I said.

"Renesmee how old are you?" he asked.

"15 years old today. It's my birthday" I said.

He then smiled me at me. "Well happy birthday dear"

"I'm not sure if today really is my birthday. I think "happy found day" might be better" I said.

"Why would that be better?" he asked, curiosity coloring his voice.

"Because 15 years ago today was the day that I was found. I had been abandoned deep in the woods" I said.

That ended the conversation right there. That usually was a conversation stopper because nobody knew what to say to me when I told them that. "I'm sorry" seems kind of vague for a situation like mine.

I think that I must've fallen asleep on the way to his house because one moment I'm looking at the road from the back seat and the next I'm being gently woken up by Dr. Cullen.

His icy cold hand is what woke me up.

"I'm sorry Renesmee, I'd let you sleep but I really do need to treat you" he said.

"It's okay Dr. Cullen, and you can call me Nessie. It's my nickname" I said.

"And you young lady can call me Carlisle" he said before smiling another heart warming smile at me.

Again he lifted me easily and carried me into his huge mansion like house.

Right away a beautiful woman who I assumed to be his wife appeared.

"Who's this Carlisle?" she asked.

"This is Renesmee. I found her on the streets and she's injured. I hope it's okay with you if she stays here for the night" he said.

"Of course it's okay. The poor dear" she said.

Then she looked right at me. "You just make yourself comfortable. If there's anything that you need don't hesitate to ask" she said.

"Well thanks, um-"

"It's Esme" she said.

"Well thanks Esme. Can I maybe have something to eat? I'm really hungry" I said.

"Of course dear. Anything in particular that you like?" she asked. She was so kind and sweet.

"Spaghetti" I said.

"Sure" she said. Then she did something that surprised me. She kissed me on the cheek. The way that a mother would.

I was stunned.

"She really loves children" Carlisle said.

"Do you two have any children?" I asked as he put me down. He left for a few minutes and came back with some tools.

"We have six adopted kids. They're all teenagers" he said.

"Oh, well they're really lucky then" I said.

He cleaned and bandaged up all the scrapes. One of them was starting to get infected and that's why I had started to develop a fever.

He had just started working on my ankle when a beautiful brown haired woman walked into the room. She stopped and stared at me with those gold eyes of hers.

She had to be the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen. I also felt connected to her somehow. I wanted to reach out to her and hug her.

"Hi Bella" Carlisle said.

Bella didn't say anything. She just stayed there until a bronze haired boy appeared. He looked at me briefly before leading Bella out of the room.

"I'm sorry you'll have to forgive her" Carlisle said.

"Did I do something?" I asked.

"No, you didn't do anything. It's just that a few years ago Bella had a baby girl. But that little baby died right after she was born. It devastated her and it continues to hurt her because she loved that baby girl so much. Honestly I have never seen a mother love a baby as much as she loved hers. This time of the year is always extremely hard for her because it's when her baby was born. In fact, today would've been her baby's birthday" he explained.

"I'm sorry" I said.

How can life be so cruel? I was abandoned by my own mother, and Bella lost her own baby. It's just really sad.

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