A/N: Now back to Bella's POV! Thanks for reading all- this chapter may not have much Jasper but we'll get him back soon- he's out for some modifications right now ;).

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Bella's POV:

My date night with Jasper was great and I was the most relaxed I had been in a very long time. Sleeping in Jasper's arms was so soothing but at the same time I was aching to get back to Charlotte.

Jasper dropped me off in the morning at my apartment before he headed off to work. As I danced up the stairs, carefully of course, I knew I was practically beaming.

Opening the door to my apartment I saw a great sight- Emmett rocking Charlotte gently back and forth in the rocking chair my dad had bought me and he was talking softly to her.

He was so enthralled he didn't even hear me until I slammed the door shut.

"Morning sis," He laughed boisterously.

"How are my brother and daughter?" I asked dropping my bag on the counter and sitting down on the couch across from Emmett.

"We're both good," He smiled at me "Charlotte ate well and slept well and we gave her her medications on time."

"Where's Rose?" I asked.

"Rose had a doctor's appointment this morning- she said she was going to call you later." Emmett said and he didn't look worried so I didn't think it was a big deal. "Did you and Jasper have a good night?"

"We had a great night," I nodded "Dinner and just relaxing and enjoying each other a little bit. We are doing this whole relationship thing a little out of order so being alone for a while was good for us though neither of us was very happy not being around Charlotte."

"Has he said anything to you about adopting Charlotte in the future?" He asked. He looked so cute with Charlotte in his arms like that. Her tiny body curled tightly against his monstrous frame.

Moving to grab my camera off the counter I spoke quietly "No we haven't talked about it. I want her to have his last name though."

I clicked a few quick pictures of the pair and set my camera back down. "Bells he wants her to be legally his too." Emmett laughed.

"He does?" I questioned.

"He's just nervous you'll say no. He loves you both so much Bella." Emmett explained and I felt torn. Happy that Jasper wants to do this with me and have a future as a family but concerned that he didn't tell me this himself.

"Do you think we'll last? I'm worried we're moving a little fast." I asked softly wringing my hands nervously.

"He loves you Bella and you love him. I have no doubt that you'll last."

"I'm scared," I admitted "What if I'm more like mom than I thought or what if he abandons us?"

"Baby," Emmett cajoled sternly "You are nothing like mom. Never have been, you are the most stable, mature, caring soul I have ever met. You could never abandon your family the way she did and Jasper wouldn't dare hurt you that way. He knows our past and he knows how much it hurts to be abandoned- his father died when he was only 8 and his mom when he was 17, Bella he's not going to disappear on you."

I nodded without a word mulling over my brother's words.

"You have to trust him," Emmett continued "You have to take both feet and jump right in. I know you're scared Bella and I know that Charlotte is involved now but you haven't fully trusted someone outside this family since mom left and Jasper is the guy for you. You can't live life with one foot firmly planted all the time you need to just let go and jump."

"And he's not Edward. He would never even think about cheating on you." He winked at me "You've been the only girl on his mind for years and while he may have dated others his heart was yours even if you didn't know it."

I nodded again- jeez for someone most people refer to as a typical jock my brother sure can be insightful!

He was right. I was so close to Jasper but I was still wary and scared. Scared that he was going to leave me, that after I let him all the way in and he'd torn down my walls I wouldn't be able to keep my heart from breaking again.

Edward and my mother had destroyed my trust in people and while they were only two people in a world of many they were two people who had major roles in my life- my first love and the woman who gave birth to me.

I leaned back against the couch and Emmett watched me with a shit eating grin on his face, he knew he was right and he knew that I knew that!

"Well I better go and meet Rose," He said standing and gingerly handed a now sleeping Charlotte to me.

I smiled at him and he bent again to kiss the top of my head "Love you Em!" I said giving him a squeeze.

"Love you too Bells," He grinned and tore out of the apartment.

I glanced down at Charlotte and ran a finger along her soft cheek. She looked so peaceful when she slept and sighing I stood to put her in her crib.

I had a phone call to make.

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"Hello," my dad's gruff voice filled the line and I instantly relaxed. His voice was always so soothing.

"Hey dad," I said unable to keep the smile off my face "How's it going?"

"Bells," I could tell he was smiling by the sound of his voice, much freer and less guarded. It made me wonder if I sounded that guarded. "How's my daughter? I'm alright you just caught me."

"Oh sorry dad," I said "I'll make this quick then. I just wanted to know- have you been in love since mom left?"

I hated bringing it up but I needed to know. If my dad could let someone in than I had no excuse to even consider pushing Jasper away, which I wasn't planning on doing but lord knows I really was scared.

Charlie sighed and said "Bella, no I haven't been in love since your mother. Not because I don't want to be but I was raising you and Emmett. I needed to concentrate on you guys and now I just haven't found the right person. Am I averse to being in love again? No. I don't think anyone could hurt me the way your mother did and I can't hold the sins of my past affect my future. Is this about that boy? Jasper?"

"Ya," I laughed nervously "I think, no I know, I'm in love with him. I'm just scared all of a sudden."

My dad sighed again but said "He's good for you and he's good for Char. There's nothing more I need to know about the boy than he's been there for you when you needed someone most. Like I said at the hospital it's time someone else held your hand my girl."

"Thanks dad," I said grinning broadly and feeling much more at ease with the whole situation again.

"Any time Bells, but I better get going Billy will have my head if I am late again!" and with a laugh we hung up.

I placed the phone back in its cradle before picking it up again and looked down at my watch 2:30 I still had some time, both before Charlotte woke up and before Jasper got off of work and I had another phone call to make, one that could possibly change the rest of my life.

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"Jenks and Co. How can I direct your call today?" A perky voice answered my call.

"Jenks please," I said "Tell him it's Bella Swan calling in reference to Charlotte."

"One moment please," the perky voice said and I was put on hold.

"Bella," Jenks said cheerfully "What can I do for you today?"

"I was wondering if it would affect the adoption if Charlotte was adopted by two people."

"Like a father?"

"Yes," I said "I know it may not be orthodox but he loves her like a daughter and I think that both of us together could give her so much more than just me."

"It shouldn't be a problem." Jenks said "I'd have to perform a criminal record check and child abuse registry check and it'll take an extra week to draw up the changed papers but it should be alright. What's the name?"

I told him and thanked him for his time and hung up the butterflies in my stomach working overtime.

Now I just needed to talk to Jasper.

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Charlotte woke up within half an hour of my hanging up the phone after talking with Jenks and started screaming blue murder.

"Ok, ok," I said testing the bottle I'd just heated on the inside of my elbow "I'm coming. Hold your horses."

Her sobs turned to sniffles when she saw me and the bottle and she reached towards me making a grabbing motion with her fists.

"Yes little miss impatient," I laughed as I picked her up and she eagerly started gulping her bottle down "Jeez someone was hungry. Did Uncle Emmy starve you or something?"

Still laughing I moved to the living room and put her in the swing so I could continue writing my letter to Jasper. I had decided that it would be easier to write how I felt in a letter than to try to get it all out at once face to face.

Charlotte let out a contented sigh as she sucked happily away and I turned the swing onto rock. It would keep her busy long enough for me to finish this.

After another half hour of writing I looked down at the finished product in front of me and I was happy with the way it turned out.

Dear Jasper,

I know you'll probably think this is stupid that I am writing you when we could just talk but it feels right to put all these thoughts and feelings onto a piece of paper.

I love you and that I am one hundred and ten percent certain of and I just hope that you will continue to be patient with me as I work through my obvious trust issues.

I know I have told you about my mother and that she abandoned us but I think I should tell you the whole story.

She and dad were always fighting- she wanted to move to the city and dad had to stay for his job in Forks. She hated it there with such a passion. She showed disdain towards all the people who actually enjoyed living there and made it perfectly clear to Emmett and I that we were the reason she was stuck there.

She'd been planning on taking Emmett and leaving when she found out she was pregnant with me and I think she took her frustration out on me more than Emmett.

I remember the day she left clear as if it were yesterday. It was just before Christmas and I was in the pageant at school. I'd just gotten over the chicken pox and all I could think and talk about was this pageant.

I was Mrs. Claus. It was right after school and I knew Charlie couldn't make it but mom promised that she'd be there 'with bells on' and she'd seemed sincere and that she'd tape it so dad and I could watch it later in the evening.

Throughout the whole thing I looked at the audience trying to see her. She wasn't there. Afterwards I waited until almost 8 with a teacher's assistant for someone to pick me up.

Rosie's parents picked me up after my dad called them saying he was looking for my mom.

She left without a note, without a call, without goodbye. I took it so hard and I hated that all my girlfriend's had mom's who braided their hair, who took them to girly movies, who talked boys.

She calls Emmett but you know never once has she ever tried to call me.

My walls were already put up when I met Edward and he tore them down and then destroyed me again but you know that.

But with you Jasper it's so easy. I feel so safe and wanted and for once in my life since I was seven years old I don't feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

With you I've finally found a place into which I fit perfectly, safely and securely with no doubts, fears, sadness or tears. This place is filled with happiness and laughter yet is spacious enough to allow me the freedom to move around, to live my life and to be myself. This wonderful place which I never believed truly existed, I have found finally in your arms, your life and your heart.

With Charlotte I feel like I am getting the chance to right all the wrongs my mother did to me and to prove to the world that just because I had an awful mother doesn't mean I'll be an awful mother and I hope that you'll truly find yourself being Charlotte's father.

I know it's a lot and that its sudden but we've spent two years being in love with each other from a far and a wise guy told me that it's time I just jumped in and I hope you'll take the leap with me.

I'm writing this to ask not only for your patience but to ask if there was any way you would consider legally being Charlotte's father? If you aren't ready or don't want to I won't think any less of you I just wanted that option to be thrown out there.

You're it for me Jasper. I think I've known since that first night I spent in your arms and I want us to be a family.

Loving you always,

Bella.

It wasn't going to get any better than that and I just hoped Jasper answered yes.

I wanted him to be my family.

Taking a deep breath I folded the letter and placed it in an envelope and slipped in a photo of Jasper and Charlotte I'd taken the other day when he fell asleep on the couch in the living room with Charlotte napping on top of him.

Optimistically I wrote 'Daddy and daughter' in cursive on the back.

I put the letter onto the counter and moved to pick up Charlotte.

Now all I would have to do was hand it to Jasper when he got here after work tonight. I couldn't wait

A/N: "Finally I have found a place into which I fit perfectly, safely, and securely with no doubts, fears, sadness, or tears. This place is filled with happiness and laughter, yet it is spacious enough to allow me the freedom to move around, to live my life, and to be myself. This wonderful place, which I never believed really existed, I have found finally in your arms, in your heart, in your love." Is not my quote. I found it on a fabulous quotation website called Lua quotes.

Hope you all enjoyed.