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84 Dannys POV
The next morning, we were up and ready to go around to see Tom at 10. To give Tom some little more time to wake up and stuff, we walked all of our dogs, taking a quick look into Toms house, and see if we could see him. Again, we couldn't, so hurried to finish walking all 6 dogs, then ran around to see him. "Tom? Tom where are you?" I called out, looking around to see if Tom actually was downstairs. I had a vain hope to hear him call back to me, shouting something like 'in here Dan!' but of course, I didn't get it, so had to search for my Tom instead.
When I found him, he was sitting on the floor under the table in the front room, picking at his fingers. "hey, honey!" I smiled, crouching down in front of Tom, I noticed he had his lyric book on his lap, "what have you got there? Have you been drawing and writing again?" I asked, picking the book up, only to have it snatched back. "ah, is it not ready yet then? Alright, show me later, when its ready. So, what are you doing underneath the table, huh? It can't be comfy under there!" I joked, moving to sit down properly, sitting cross legged in front of the unresponsive blonde.
I persisted talking to Tom for the rest of the day, telling everything that popped into my head, trying to get an answer, or to get him out from under that table. "hey, I have an idea, how about we go do some band practise? Its been ages since we last had a practise, and I know you've been practising, but we haven't. We're probably a bit rusty." It was true, I hadn't picked up my guitar for about a month and a half, longer for Harry and Dougie. There we go, Tom moved, crawling out of his hiding place, following me upstairs with the married couple in front of us. I didn't dare to take us down to our studio down the road, terrified Tom would try to run off, it wouldn't be hard to catch him, but I didn't want him running at all.
It didn't take a minute to set up all the instruments in the music room, but I felt like something was missing. There was no laughter, no joking, not even people talking. We were silent, the only sound was of the guitar strings being plucked and Harry testing his drums, making sure they were all still in tune. "right, where are we going to start?" I broke the silence, plucking randomly at some strings on my guitar. "well, how about if we start with...Party Girl, its always our show opener." Harry suggested, sending me and Dougie a look, clearing saying 'Tom doesn't sing much in this, so he can slowly get used to singing again'. I agreed slowly, joining in playing when the time called for it, feeling a little better as the familiar song filled my ears.
But it was shattered by the time we had played the whole song through, because Tom hadn't even opened his mouth to sing once, he had just sat there and played. He had played it perfectly, but more than anything, I wanted to hear him sing, hear him sing and sound free, like he always did. Tom was always the happiest when he was singing, and performing in general, he had told me once he thought he was free as he sang, that singing was better than speaking. It killed me to think that in a way, by Tom not singing, he was locking himself into himself, keeping everything locked in, and eventually, he would explode.
85 Toms POV
I dutifully played every song with everyone else when they suggested it, managing to sound almost half as good as they did. But I still refused to sing, because I sounded awful when I sang, and I didn't want to be kicked out of the band, it was up to Dougie now to sing my parts. He never usually got the chance to sing much, so now it was his turn to take my spot and really start to shine. I knew he would love it, because I knew how much he loved singing Transylvania on stage.
"hey, I have this new song, do you guys wanna hear it?" Danny asked, getting agreements from the others. He quickly grabbed his acoustic guitar and his lyric book (how was that in my music room and not his?!), and he played the song quietly, like he meant to only play it for Harry and Dougie, not me, who was sat in the corner, tucked between the desk and the keyboard.
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a boy
That gives a sh*t
Behind this wall
You just walk through it
And I remember all those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You're always there
You're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there
You're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
I love the way you are
It's who I am
Don't have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really miss
All those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You're always there
You're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there
You're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
No, I don't want to let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go (repeats)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
"I have a few others that I've written, but at the moment, I'm keeping them to myself for a while longer. They're not ready yet, and I can't think of anything else to write for them." Danny shrugged after finishing playing and getting back the well deserved praise from Harry and Dougie. "well, why don't you ask Tom to help you out a little? I'm sure he'll come up with a few ideas." Harry gave Danny a look that I couldn't quite decipher. "good point, hey Tom, wanna kick these two out and get some writing done?" Danny turned to me, I just carried on sitting there. I didn't really mind, I would have loved to spend some time with Danny, doing something we both enjoyed, so I could fool myself into believing it was just like old times. But I didn't want to ruin his lyrics and make them turn out depressing and awful, maybe I could just give him a few ideas?
"I'm taking that as a yes, right you two out! And no coming back until morning!" Danny winked at them, shoving the boys quickly out of the door, slamming it loudly behind him. "right, lets get started, shall we?" he grinned, and it warmed my heart a little.
song credit has to be given to Avril Lavigne, as its hers, and its called Wish You Were Here.