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92 Toms POV
I leapt feet when I heard the door open and close, at 11, I hadn't thought anyone was coming round today because it was so late, guess I was wrong. "Tom? We're here now, where are you honey?" Danny called out, soon finding me laying on my front room floor. I had given up hiding for now, I was always found anyway, and I had to start proving I was okay to go back to interviews and shows again. Actually coming out and showing my face occasionally will probably help. "hey honey, how are you this morning? You look tired, you had a late night last night, didn't you?" Danny half smiled, sitting next to me on the floor.
There was a few moments of awkward silence, Harry broke it again. "so, Tom, we need to talk to you, about Christmas. Me and Dougs are at his parents from next Saturday until New Years. And Dannys going to Bolton, we need to know where your going, we don't want you to be on your own, so maybe, you could go to Carries if you want." Harry explained, stroking Dougies side. "or you could go with me? Up to Bolton, you know my family have practically adopted you, and Carrie could come too." Danny joined in, hugging his knees.
I just shrugged, wanting them to go home and stop trying to organise stuff for me. I could organise stuff for myself, and to be honest, I just wanted to spend some time by myself and not have everyone worrying about me. "well, I'll phone Carrie and see what she wants to do, then we'll go from there." Danny sighed in the end, getting out his phone and walking off, talking quietly on the phone to my little sister.
"so, I take it yesterdays webchat went alright then?" Dougie half whispered, leaning back into Harrys arms. I nodded, showing that I was responsive so we could go and do interviews and things again, I didn't want to delay getting back to normal any further. "thats good, I take it we'll be doing a band webchat before long, because Fletch will probably ask us to do one." Harry smiled a little, so I knew I had no regrets in forcing ourselves back into business again. I knew it was the right choice to carry on with the band almost straight away, so we could put the running away behind us and could go back to being happy again. Well, I wouldn't be as happy as everyone else, but I knew that Danny, Harry and Dougie would be, performing would be my source of happiness, and seeing my band mates happy would make me smile. Everything else I could fake, easily, I was a theatre school child, I knew exactly how to act happy.
You see, I had this all planned out, we would go back to being McFLY, like nothing happened, and eventually this year would be forgotten. The guys would go back to being who they were, and I would hide in the background more, and let Dougie have his chance as a lead singer instead of me. I would still write and play guitar, but not sing as much, because I couldn't sing. Everything would be better now, ten times better, even if I wasn't as happy, I didn't care, we would be a stronger band, and it would be so worth it.
93 Dougies POV
Soon, Danny came back in again, telling us that Carrie would phone Tom later and discuss Christmas with him. So now, we were just sitting in the front room, surrounding the blonde was who still laying on the floor. "so, are we just going to sit here? Or are we going to actually do something today?" I asked, breaking the tension that was building up in the room. "I dunno, what do you feel like doing?" Harry rested his head on my shoulder, rocking us slightly from side to side.
"I don't know, any ideas guys?" I looked to Tom and Danny, Tom had now pulled a blanket over his head and body, I could hear how his breathing was turning a little ragged. Danny noticed it too, he was sitting on his hands so he didn't hug the poor boy. To be honest, I think we all wanted to pull Tom onto the sofa and sit him on our laps, cuddle him until he couldn't help but smile and be happy again. But, we couldn't really come up with a way to subtly get him into that position, so he was going to have to stay on the floor.
"I have no idea, Tommy, honey, any ideas?" Danny turned to Tom, getting nothing but a shrug in return. Dannys shoulders slumped even further, he started to bite at his lip too, his fingers twitching from under his legs. "well, it is a week before Christmas, we could put up the decorations." The idea suddenly popped into my head, Tom loved putting up the Christmas decorations up, usually he had at least the tree up by December 1st. But this year was obviously going to be different, and there was nothing wrong with putting them up now, was there? "yeah! Alright then, we're late this year! Come on Tom, time to put up the decorations!" Danny seemed to bounce back to life again, running up the stairs and straight to the room where the tree and everything else was.
Single handedly, Danny brought down all the boxes and set them out in the front room, excitedly bringing out all the different bits of lighting and tinsel, including the Christmas duvet for Toms bed, and blanket, that went with the duvet. "right, Tom, wheres this all going then?" I turned to Tom, who had now moved so he was sat up, still wrapped up in his new Star Wars blanket, clutching at it like a child would clutch a teddy when they were scared.