xxPUDDxx - hmmm, we'll have to see xD
104 Harrys POV
Danny sighed and slumped against the wall, shoving his phone back into his pocket, telling us that Tom was now staying at home. "he's going to bed, apparently, why dont I believe that?" Danny looked heartbroken, and ready to cry, so me and Dougie came over and hugged him. "I dont know." I rubbed his back gently, feeling his arm tighten around me. "I want to go over and check on him, but I dont want to wake him up if he is sleeping." Danny sighed, whimpering into our shoulders. "then we'll be really quiet, won't we? So we dont wake him up." I suggested, then thought of something. "we've got to go round anyway, the doors unlocked, he could easily get out." I could almost feel Danny and Dougie pale, the realisation just hitting them. "sh*t, your right, we have to go and lock the doors now, or Tom could run away again!" Danny pulled out from our embrace and raced out the door, running down the road to Toms house. We ran along behind, opening the door to find an empty house.
"f*ck, Tom why? Why did you run away again?" Danny whimpered, falling onto the sofa, whimpering uselessly to himself. "I dont know Danny, we dont know whats going on in his head. Toms confused at the moment, we'll find him again soon. We'll phone the police in the morning, give him the chance to think and come back. You never know, he could just be going out for a walk." the chance that that theory was true was almost nil, and it seemed that Danny didn't pay attention to my words.
"fat chance of that. He's run away again, and now he knows that we'll be looking for him. He'll be even more clever at hiding, we'll never see him again." Danny whimpered loudly, barely managing to hold in tears. "Danny you dont know that! You never know, Tom could just be out for a walk or something. We will see him again, I know we will, you said that before, and we got him back, didn't we?" I encouraged, kneeling down and wrapping an arm around him.
10 minutes of comforting silence later, I heard footsteps on the stairs and whipped round to see Toms legs disappearing upstairs. "Tom? Tom, where are you going?" Dougie called, running up after him before me and Danny even had a chance to react. We dashed up after him, reaching the landing just as the door slammed in Dougies face. "was it Tom?" Danny gasped as he caught up to the door. "yeah, its him. I just missed him, by a second." Dougie nodded, leaning on the door, out of breath. "thank god for that. Tom, honey, open the door for us, where were you?" Danny called through the door, pressing close. "Tom, please, where were you, we were worried about you. You scared us by disappearing like that." Danny called again when he got no answer. "okay, so you dont want to talk now, we'll talk in the morning, okay? Happy new year Tommy." Danny sighed, doing his usual trick of calling Tom 'Tommy' when he got emotional. Downhearted, he slumped downstairs, not even stopping when we did to lock the door, he just, shuffled back to his own house. "should we follow him?" Dougie whispered, looking up to me for guidance. "no, leave him to cry and think by himself for a while. I'm sure he'll be fine after a while." I shook my head, leading us back to our own house, just as the fireworks started, signalling new year.
105 Toms POV
The fireworks went off and I stumbled over to my window, tears blurring my vision of the displays in the sky, signalling new year. Last new year had been even worse than this, it had been freezing cold, below zero, and my cars heater wouldn't work. I had sat in my car, wearing 2 jumpers, shivering in cold, missing my best friends and lover. Today wasn't much better, I was still crying, missing my so called friends, but at least I was warm, and could see the fireworks displays.
I had been waiting to see them all day, and had been sat outside in my garden, waiting for them. But, I had heard the door opening and closing, and had come in to see, Danny, Harry and Dougie sitting in my front room, holding each other. That had hurt, hurt so, so badly. They were rubbing it in now, rubbing in the fact that I wasn't a part of their group, their three way love affair, just so I knew that I wasn't welcome to them anymore, I wasn't Dannys boyfriend anymore, if I ever had been. Had they been together even before I realised how much of a lie everything was? Or had they gotten together after I left? I didn't know, and didn't particularly want to find out either, it already hurt to think I had been lied to for so many years, I didn't want to know how much of my life had been a lie.
The night past without much incident, I just basically cried all night long, unable to even get up and cut away the pain with a knife or anything. So I was starving myself some more, all the food in my house was mouldy anyway, for the past week I had been eating around the mould, and through the left over stale cookies me and Carrie had made while she was round. It was all sickeningly disgusting to eat, but it still felt a little too good for me, but there was nothing else I could do, apart from eat from the bin, if there was anything actually in there to eat. So tonight, after realising that I really was unwanted around here anymore, I was starving myself, punishing myself through lack of food to my rumbling stomach.
"Tom, its time to wake up now, we have 3 more days of rest before we have a meeting with Fletch and the rest of the management, about getting back to the band." Dannys voice broke the sleep I hadn't even realised I was having. I opened my eyes slowly to see him looking sadly at me, his knees pulled to his chest, facing me, though he wasn't physically touching me. He must really had not wanted to be here waking me up then. "morning, happy new year Tom. So, we need to talk." Danny looked away and bit his lip, he looked so out of place and awkward, like he was forcing himself to look like he cared about me, probably was, he wouldn't be able to lie to my face, he was too kind. Harry and Dougie as well wouldn't lie to my face, but they would (and were) send me signals that I wasn't wanted and they didn't want to be with me, like when they decided to sit in my own front room and hold Danny, telling me that he was theirs now.
"so, where did you go last night? We were worried." Danny lied, fiddling with his sleeves, keeping them pulled down over his hands. He had small flakes of red under his nails, he must have been redecorating his house, like he said he wanted too. I shrugged at him, keeping my face against the window, looking out of it to see the garden, and the large field behind it. "did you go for a walk or something? You just disappeared last night, I was worried you had run away again." Danny asked, so I nodded a little, so he could go and stop forcing himself to be here with me. "oh, alright then, why didn't you tell us that was where you were going? We wouldn't have minded or anything, its just that you disappeared so suddenly that it freaked me out a little. Next time tell me, okay? I was scared I would never see you again." Danny lied yet again, leaning on the window like I was, trying to make eye contact with me through the window glass, I wouldn't let him. I couldnt look him in the eye and watch him make up lies, make it seem like I was important to him, like he would actually be concerned if I disappeared again. I just couldnt take that, couldnt take that forced kindness, it felt so wrong now, so wrong it made me feel guilty and disgusted with myself for not explaining that I knew now. I knew the truth, it wasn't a pleasant truth, but it was the truth, that kept on being said to me, like I was to be believe it and carry on like nothing had happened.