Jasper's POV:

I laid on the left hand side of the large bed and felt weirdly empty. I had only been laying there in only pyjama bottoms for a few minutes when I heard soft cries from just opposite the wall behind me and my heart clenched.

I had wanted her to stay with me for some reason but I knew she was right- we shouldn't share a bed until we figured out what was going on between us.

I laid on my back my arms behind my head and stared through the darkness at the ceiling and listened helplessly to Bella's cries.

Her cries were cut off by the loud angry cries of our young son and I stood, careful of my wound, to see if I could help in any way.

I wasn't fast enough though and by the time I peeked into the nursery that was softly illuminated by a spinning night light that threw silhouettes of stars and space ships around the room, Bella was standing over the crib lifting a fussing Cole into her arms.

She was so tiny, yet astounding. Her dark locks perfectly suited her fair skin and her petite build I'd discovered earlier fit perfectly against my body.

She soothed him so well that within mere moments he was quiet again as she settled them into the rocking chair and rocked slowly. I watched intently as she covered them with a large, soft blanket.

I stood and watched her for the next little while completely enthralled by her presence and by the way she acted towards our son.

I stood to leave and was taken by another flash of memory.

Flash:

"Bella!" I called out from the nursery "Bring Cole in here."

"I'm coming," Her laughter rang out from down the hall.

She entered the room and looked around a large smile on her face. She was holding our infant son carefully in her arms and she laid him down in the crib.

"Everything looks really great Jazz." She said leaning back into me as I wrapped my arms around her tiny waist.

"I'm just sorry we didn't have it set up sooner," I laughed and placed a gentle kiss at the crook of her neck. She shivered and it made warm waves of pleasure course through my body.

"All that counts is its set up now and we have our room back." She giggled and twisted in my arms to wrap her arms around my neck "Now why don't we go and take advantage of that fact."

I couldn't hold back the grin that spread across my face as she leaned up and kissed me passionately.

I just started to kiss her back as she pulled away and started to lead me down the darkened hallway and into our room.

She flopped back onto the bed bringing me down on top of her.

Our kisses grew more passionate and eager as I pressed my body fully against hers.

Present:

I loved her. I realized in that instant that I had never not loved her it was just buried under all the muck and confusion the memory loss had caused and I wanted nothing more than to scoop her into my arms and kiss her senseless.

I only had that one memory of us together but it was more than enough to reignite the feelings of love and lust inside of me.

I kept watching until I could hardly keep my eyes open before retreating to the bedroom.

I didn't sleep well that night I was just eager to tell Bella about my late night revelation.

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I awoke the next morning exhausted but relieved. Hopefully today I'd be able to talk to Bella about last night.

She was in the living room playing Candyland with Charlotte when I peeked my head in.

I decided not to interrupt and instead went to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast. I couldn't do much with my one arm tied up but I managed to scramble some eggs and make some toast and just as I was dishing it out Bella and the kids came in to investigate the smells.

"Mmm," Bella placed Cole in the high chair that stood beside the counter "Smells good in here Jazz."

She gave me a small smile and took the dishes I had filled for the kids and gave it to each of them.

"Nummy daddy!" Charlotte grinned widely at me and started eating.

Cole banged his fork on the table and giggled wildly.

If this was what my family was like everyday then I couldn't wait to get my memories back.

"Bella?" I asked as we sat down "You said something the other day about Charlotte having been in the hospital before."

I waited for her to nod before I continued "What was that for?"

"Charlotte has a heart condition," She started and my heart dropped "She's had two surgeries so far and they're hoping that she won't need another until she's five or six. If we're really lucky she'll make it to eight or nine before it's needed. If she doesn't they are worried she may need a heart transplant."

"What does that mean for her?" I asked "What do we have to watch for?"

"We take her pulse a few times every day," Bella explained "We watch for her heart racing erratically, her breathing becoming heavy without explanation, blue tinge to her lips, skin and fingernails, abnormal sleep patterns, and extreme mood swings."

Her voice faded as I had a flash of memory.

Flash:

Charlotte and I had just gotten back from the park and she was fast asleep in my arms.

"Come on Char," I gently shook her shoulder "We're home princess."

"No daddy," She said and held onto me tighter.

I tried to put her down on the couch so I could take her shoes off but as I started to she began to cry and scream.

Within seconds her cries became weaker and I began to worry as I looked her over. She had uncharacteristic dark circles under her eyes, she looked pale and clammy and when I touched her forehead with my wrist she was burning up.

I stopped attempting to pull her shoes off and instead grabbed the phone off the side table. I dialled Bella's work number and she picked up on the second ring.

"Char's not doing so well," I explained "I'm bringing her down to the emergency room. Meet me there in ten minutes?"

"I will," she said and I picked up the worry in her voice easily. "Is Cole still with Emmett and Rose?"

"They have him still," I assured her "I'll call them when we get there."

I hung up the phone after we exchanged 'love you's and 'be safe's.

I scooped my toddler into my arms and held her tightly as I raced out to the truck.

Present:

"She's so fragile," I muttered. I would never have guessed how sick she was just by looking at her with her big smile and wide happy eyes.

"We just have to be a little more careful with her," Bella said and gave me a reassuring smile. I saw her reach out towards me and stop herself reluctantly.

We spent the rest of the morning just hanging out as a family with me getting to know the kids a little bit better.

"Jazz can you put Cole down?" Bella asked as she carried an already half asleep Charlotte to her bedroom for a nap.

"Of course," I nodded scooping my son up and he giggled wildly as I playfully spun around.

Hopefully after the kids were put down for naps I'd get a chance to talk to Bella about the fact that I remembered that I loved her.

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Bella was leaning into the closet in our bedroom when I came back in and I couldn't help but stare at her.

I took a few long quick strides forward and spun her around. I pressed my lips against hers before she could figure out was going on.

She stood stock still for a moment and then started melting into the kiss and I held her against me with my free hand on the small of her back.

She pulled away seconds later and looked at me wide eyed and confused, her face flushed and her hair mussed "What was that?"

"I'm in love with you Bella Whitlock," I reached out and took her hand in mine.

"Don't tease me," She said and I heard the quiver in her voice.

"I'm not." I said and leaned forward pressing a kiss against her lips for a second before I continued "I was up most of the night and I heard you crying and then I watched you with Cole and I remembered the day we set up the nursery."

She blushed slightly as the memory came to mind.

"You remember that?" She asked shyly.

"I may not remember anything else but I know how much I love you Bella," I pulled her so we were sitting on the bed together "I don't want you to hurt anymore and I don't want me to be the cause of that hurt."

"You're not," She tried to argue and I shook my head.

"Bella I am," I said "I am causing you so much pain and I never want you to hurt this way again."

"It's not your fault," She said vehemently "It was Edward's. He shot you, he hurt you, and he's the one who caused your memory loss."

She leaned forward shyly and kissed me. As her lips played over mine the kiss became less nervous and more passionate.

I winced when she pulled me towards her and she pulled away quickly as though burned.

"I'm so sorry," She covered her mouth and I thought she might start crying.

I wrapped my good arm around her shoulder "Don't apologize feeling a little bit of pain just means I am alive to feel the pain."

We shifted so we were laying down, Bella's head resting on the right side of my chest, her hand fisted into my shirt and I felt wetness soak through my shirt.

"Are you alright?" I asked kissing the top of her head gently.

"I'm just happy that you remember something." She whispered "I was glad you remembered our kids but I need you so badly that I was devastated that you didn't remember me at all."

I nodded and tightened my grip on her as if she was going to disappear in a puff of smoke.

"I love you," Bella sighed and I could tell she was starting to nod off.

"I love you too," I muttered and let my eyes droop closed

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I woke up with a jolt when the bed shifted underneath me and blinked furiously to get a look at the alarm clock on the bedside table.

It read two o'clock and I noticed that Bella was no longer in my arms.

"Bella?" I called anxiously. I didn't like not knowing where she was all of a sudden.

"I'm just going to take a shower," She called "The kids will probably nap for another hour or so."

"Oh," I sighed and laid back again.

She poked her head out of the master bathroom and said "Why don't you try to rest some more. Your body is still healing and it could use all the rest it can get."

I nodded and let my eyes slide shut again. As soon as I did I was hit by another memory.

Flash:

"Jasper come on before the water gets cold!" Bella called out eagerly.

"I'm coming," I called and picked up my pace to the shower. Charlotte was fast asleep for once and we were trying to celebrate our engagement.

I opened the apartment's bathroom door and was hit by a wave of heat and steam and I shed my clothes eagerly.

Bella was already in the water and I happily slid in behind her.