xxPUDDxx - haha! *virtual hugs you* well we'll have to see if this mood continues or if it goes away again xD
122 Dougies POV
Eventually, Misha got enough pictures of Tom giggling, and told one of us to swap with him, so Danny reluctantly got up and swapped. Tom headed towards us for once, and we stopped our tickle war, looking up at him, seeing what he wanted to say. "erm, I'm going to the dressing room for a while. In case I'm needed again." Tom mumbled, before heading over to the dressing room, pulling the toy he was still clinging to towards his chest. "I'm following him, I don't want him on his own." I sighed, wriggling out of Harrys arms and getting up, pulling him with me.
"awesome job out there Tom, Misha has got some really good photos." I smiled, not really sure on what to say to him. "I'm sorry, that it took so long. I'll do better next time." Tom whispered, curling up in the corner of the room like he normally would. "don't worry about it, sometimes it just takes a little time to get back into the swing of things. And there's no need to worry about doing better next time, just do stuff the best you can, you'll get used to it again soon." Harry encouraged, shuffling us both over until we were sat on either side of Tom, surrounding him in the hope he would feel less isolated.
"I'm still sorry." Tom mumbled, biting at his fingers. "already forgiven mate." I knew he would just say he was sorry over and over, so I thought it was better to say he was forgiven. "Misha wants one of you now, he's done with me." Danny came in and fell down next to Harry. "I'll go next, be back in a minute." Harry got up, running out to do his solo shoot. "so hows the party in here?" Danny smiled, crossing his legs and getting comfy. "we're alright, aren't we?" I replied, nudging Toms side, encouraging him to say something. "yeah, sorry, for not being able to smile. Nerves kicked in, you know?" Tom apologised again, staring at Mickey Mouse, like he was trying to decide something.
"its okay, its been a year, nothing you can help. You did well out there, once you got going, you were on fire." Danny encouraged, pulling Toms fingers from his mouth before he actually chewed them off, "you hungry Tom? Cause I'm sure there's more food out there if you want some, and if not, we can get something from somewhere." He continued, rubbing Toms knee until he straightened his leg and pulled it away. "not hungry, just nervous." Tom fiddled with his fingers, pulling off any loose nails off.
123 Toms POV
I was lying when I said I wasn't hungry, I was starving, I was surprised my stomach wasn't growling at me, but secretly quite glad too. I didn't want to eat, I didn't deserve the food around here, I had seen it, fresh, hot, perfectly cooked. How could I eat that? I couldn't, I just couldn't. "ah, okay. I'll still get you something anyway, just in case." Danny jumped up, leaving me and Dougie alone. "its gunna be my turn in a minute, then I think we're going home, at last. Today has kinda dragged, hasn't it?" Dougie sent me that look, meaning it was my fault today was dragging because I couldn't smile and act happy properly. "yeah, a bit." I agreed half heartedly, not knowing why I was actually trying to speak right now. It just made me feel a little better, talking to people, I felt human.
"got you an apple, everything else has gone unfortunately." Danny sighed, handing me the red apple. I stared at it for a few moments, seeing how it was shining slightly in the florescent lights. "Dougs, swap over." Harry walked in, kissing his husband gently as they passed, whispering something in his ear. Then he dropped down in Dougies old place. "we'll be home in an hour I recon, Doug wont take long." Harry smiled, putting an arm around my shoulders. "better make sure I have everything then." I stood back up, making sure I had all of my stuff I had brought.
Harry had been right, Dougie only took about 20 minutes (less than a third of the time it took for me) and we bundled into the car again, finally going home. Paul was still there, keeping his beady eyes on me. It freaked me out so much. "hey Tom, wanna help me with a song I'm trying to tweak tonight? I need a bit of help." Danny asked, probably picking up on my unease under Pauls gaze. "I cant, not tonight." I shook my head, gaining everyones attention, perfect. "why not?" Danny looked confused. "er, I just, want a night to cool down, you know? I'm not used to that many people." I lied, I wanted to go home and vent my anger at myself. I shouldn't have almost cried, I should have just pretended to smile, I should have done so many things, but I didn't. It made me so angry with myself, I just needed some time to vent anger.
"well, alright, tomorrow then? We have a free day, don't we?" Danny suggested, looking to Fletch for confirmation. "yeah, free day tomorrow." Fletch nodded, fixing me with another glare. He had seemed so nice before Christmas, he had just turned suddenly, it scared me. "yeah, we'll write tomorrow." I looked away from his glare, always the weaker one to the master of our group. "okay, cool. I'll tweak a few tonight, see if I can finish more than one." Danny smiled, rubbing my back gently. I inwardly cringed, but welcomed the feeling of comfort. "alright, I'll tweak a few of mine then." I strictly warned myself to not lean into that large hand, or lean back onto him, or do anything stupid like that.
"awesome, well, we're home, see you three later, good day today." Danny practically ran out of minivan the second it parked, Fletch stopped him. "I'm going to talk to you in a minute, so stay there." Fletch warned him, grabbing his right arm, Danny held in a wince, paling a little. "well, we'll be seeing you Tom, good shoot today, we're proud of you." Harry gave me a quick hug before him and Dougie set off back to their own house. "see you Tommy, I'll bring my lyric book over, your choice of song to work on." Danny smiled shakily, yanking on Fletchs hand, trying to get out of his grip. "yeah, thanks, I'll show you mine too." I replied, going inside the empty house I called mine. I sighed, why couldn't I have said yes to Danny coming round? That way I wouldn't feel so lonely.