xxPUDDxx - thanks, the song is called Naked, and its by Avril Lavigne :)
150 Dougies POV
We spent the whole day in the studio, managing to record the song fully and get most of it sounding amazing by the end of the day. The only thing that still needed doing was sorting out who sung what, Tom wanted me to sing in there somewhere, while Danny wanted Tom to sing the whole thing, while me and Harry wanted them to sing it together. It was a bit confusing I must admit, and I had no idea on how to find a arrangement we all liked.
In the end, we just gave up and went home, thinking sleeping on it might help. "so, anyone up for a sleep over round ours?" I asked as we drove up to our houses, after having a discussion with Harry. After Fletchs rant at Tom today, we both wanted to keep an eye on him, just in case. I could sense that there was something I didn't know too, that everyone else did, and I wanted to find out what it was. "yeah alright then, whats the plan?" Danny got out the car, keeping a hold on Toms sleeve so he didn't go anywhere. "er, pizza, movie, couple of beers. The usual." Harry shrugged, slipping his hand into my own.
"alright, I'm game for that. Up for it Tom?" Danny moved his hand so it was holding onto the blondes fingers. "no, I'm tired, I'll just go to bed." Tom shook his head, trying to walk away, Danny yanked him back. "yeah right, come with us. It'll be fun, you need a little bit of fun after the past few days." I encouraged, grabbing his other hand, squeezing his cold, bony fingers. "I'm fine, just leave me alone. I want to go to bed." Tom pulled himself away from us and started walking back to his house. "no! Tom you can't be alone right now!" Danny panicked, running after him, catching the blonde before he got too far away. "why can't I be alone? I'm fine!" Tom looked half way between annoyed and scared.
"no you're not! I'm scared you'll hurt yourself!" Danny blurted, wait, what did he mean by that?! "sh*t, Dougs, we better go inside, you don't want to see this." Harry jumped into action, trying to push me down the road. "what? Harry whats going on?" I dug my heels in and fought against his pushing. "nothing, but lets go inside, leave Tom and Danny to talk it out okay? And get ready for them coming round." Harry was panicking, and nothing good was happening when Harry was panicking. That was almost as bad as when Danny panicked, because if Danny was panicking it had to be bad. And considering both of them were panicking something extremely bad was going on, and I was being kept out of it.
"no! Harry tell me whats going on, don't lie to me! You promised to never lie to me so tell me whats happening right now!" I argued, I didn't care how bad it was, I needed to know what was happening! "Dougie, you really don't want to hear this." Harry sighed, holding onto my arms to keep me looking at him. "why not? Whats happening? Why is everyone panicking?" I had an awful feeling that this was going to turn out very badly. "because, you know Danny said he was scared Tom was going to hurt himself?" as soon as Harry said it, the penny dropped. "cuts?" I whispered, feeling tears well in my eyes and my lungs close off, I couldn't breathe properly already. "yeah, I'm so sorry Doug, I am so sorry. I didn't mean for you to find out this way." Harry pulled me close, wrapping me into his arms to calm me down.
151 Toms POV
In the middle of my argument with Danny, I whipped my head round to see Dougie crying into Harrys chest, the older trying to comfort the blonde. "why Tom?! Why are you doing that to yourself?!" Dougie cried, he looked so angry, so, so angry. "I-I, I just... wait, you told them?" I turned back to Danny, who now looked sheepish. "I didn't! I didn't tell Dougie at least! It may have...slipped to Harry but it wasn't my fault!" Danny admitted, paling right in front of me. "you what? You told him! You promised me you wouldn't tell! You f*cking promised me! You lied to me and I believed you! Why did you lie to me?!" I shouted, the loudest I had used my voice in over a year. I knew I was supposed to be blending into the background and not being so attention seeking, but I couldn't just leave this. Danny had told me yet another lie, I couldn't just leave it be anymore.
"I didn't! I wasn't going to tell anyone! It just slipped out this morning! I never meant to!" Danny lied yet again, his acting had gotten better because it actually looked like he was panicking over this. "yeah right! You lied to me again! Do you ever not lie to me? How could you lie to me like this, over and over again?" I cried, tears blurring my vision. Why did he have to lie to me all the time? I never did anything to him! I only ever told him the truth (okay, I lied a few times, but nothing as big as this) and all I got were lies in return! I hated it!
"what? Tommy, I've never lied to you, what are you talking about?" Danny looked confused and scared, yep, I had cornered him now. "don't call me Tommy! I'm not 'Tommy' okay? And stop lying to me! You lie to me every single day! Do you know how much that hurts? Do you know how much pain I'm being put through by you lying to me, by all of you lying to me? I know the truth okay? So stop f*cking lying and saying stuff that isn't true! Just tell me the truth okay?" I cried out, tugging at my hair as a panic attack hit me.
I couldn't even breathe through tears and panic, it hurt so much to know that they were talking about me behind my back, then lying to my face constantly about everything. "Tom, you need to calm down, you're hyperventilating." Danny stepped forward, putting his hands on my shoulders. "don't touch me! Don't you dare touch me!" I pulled away and fell over, flat onto the tarmac of my driveway, black spots came over my vision but I fought them away, fighting to stand back up again. "Tom, calm down! You have to stop crying now, let me see your head, and we can talk about this." Danny tried to reason with me, I was having none of it.
"no! Don't touch me, don't come near me! You'll only lie! You always lie! Leave me alone!" I shouted, stumbling backwards every time Danny stepped forward until I hit my front door. "fine I won't touch you, but listen to me okay? Calm down, before you pass out. And once you're calm we can talk about this, no lies, just honest truth, okay?" Danny reasoned, but that thought made me panic even more. I didn't want the truth either! I didn't want to be told that I was ugly and disgusting, that I couldn't sing and didn't deserve to be in the band. I didn't want to hear what that magazine had said again, only this time worse because it was from the people I loved so much. "no! Just, don't talk to me! Please, don't talk to me! Leave me alone!" I cried, finally finding the doorknob and running inside, locking the door from the inside and running upstairs, falling to the bathroom floor and sobbing until I blacked out.