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185 Toms POV
I ignored the noises Harry and Dougie were making, instead, focused on hiding away in Dannys neck. I had no idea what was going on anywhere else in the room, but I didn't want to turn around and look, that meant facing the toys, and getting used to them being back again. If that happened, I wouldn't take them down, and then I would be viewed as a child who needed looking after, I did not need looking after! I was taking them all down again tonight, I decided, I would take them all down tonight, once everyone was in bed.
"you okay baby?" Danny asked, here we go again with the baby thing, yes, there were toys out again, this did not mean I was a baby! I nodded anyway and curled up more to him, knowing that I had to be disgusting him by now but not really caring at this very second. I would make it up to him, but right now, I just needed to hide in his embrace, just for today. "alright, but if you need to talk or something, I'm here, okay?" Danny whispered, I nodded, "good, now relax a little, you're all tense. Need any pain killers?" a hand started stroking my side, trying to relax the muscle that was starting to strain after being twisted for so long. My foot was still on the table so it was elevated, so the rest of me was twisted so I could be hidden inside Dannys comforting embrace. The pain of my straining muscles was distracting me from my throbbing foot, so I didn't really need pain killers, so I shook my head.
"alright then, well come here, we can still sit here and hug." Danny pulled me closer, practically sitting me on his lap, his long arms wrapped around my body. I whimpered but that was my only protest, I was too preoccupied with worry over my toys, I wanted them here again, but I didn't want them here either. I didn't want to be seen as a baby anymore, but I had missed all these toys so much, I didn't want to lose them. Before now, I hadn't realised how much I loved them, how much they kept me safe, but now I did, they kept all my fears about monsters and aliens away, and now the only thing that kept me safe was Danny. And he wasn't going to be around for long, if he carried on looking after me while I couldn't walk, he was going to get so angry, I didn't want to risk it.
We cuddled all day until it was time for bed, after I had successfully dodged another meal. I still didn't eat normal food, or anything around people, I hated the idea, what if they saw me like a pig? Or if I gained a huge amount of weight? I couldn't risk that, there was too much to lose by that.
"you coming to bed now Tommy?" Danny asked, standing by the stairs, holding onto my hands gently. "er, yeah, but...can I, have tonight on my own? I would like to spend tonight on my own." I whispered, scared that this would hurt Dannys feelings, but we had promised to take things slow, sleeping in the same bed every day wasn't taking things slow, was it? "yeah, sure you can! Of course you can spend tonight on your own, any reasons why?" Danny smiled, not looking hurt in the slightest. "we promised to take things slow, this isn't taking things slow." I explained, still in a whisper. "oh, alright, yeah that makes sense. Well, I'll be back tomorrow, alright? And if you need anything, just phone me, I'll be round like a shot to help. Or, call Carrie, she's only down the hallway, she'll help you, alright? Now promise me you'll ask for help and not hurt yourself more by trying to do stuff, alright?" Danny worried, squeezing my hands in his, they were so soft, it was heavenly. "I will, I'll ask for help." I lied, I wasn't going to disturb someone just so I could have some ease, I would do it myself, I wasn't a baby.
Danny did end up helping me up the stairs, and doing his usual trick on tucking me into bed, I did my best to not protest and not to scream at him that I was capable of looking after myself. "well, I'm going to home, alright? Good night Tommy, I love you." Danny grinned, kissing my lips gently. "good night." I replied, watching Danny walk out and turn off the light.
DANNY
I sighed as I closed the door and shuffled home, wanting to go back to Toms and curl up in bed with him again. I was going to miss him so much tonight, I just hoped he stayed in bed and had a good nights sleep. Opening the door, I found that the dogs were still awake, and apparently they had been fed recently. "ah, hello Brucie! Did you miss me?" I giggled, as soon as I was jumped on by the small dog. Bruce barked loudly, his tail wagging excitedly. I hugged him close, and held Ralphie too, having missed my dogs for the past few days. "right, you two will be replacing Tom tonight then, I guess." I sighed, holding onto both of the dogs, that seemed to sense that I needed a hug.
"come on guys, bed time, follow me." I picked up Bruce and carried him upstairs to my bed, knowing that Ralphie would follow along behind dutifully. I practically fell into bed, curling up under the covers, feeling exhausted. Ralphie curled up at my feet and Brucie curled up next to me, in my arms, I smiled, at least I had something I loved to hold. "night boys, we'll be alright. Cause I'll have Tommy soon again, and we'll be together, and you'll have to share with Marvin." I giggled, knowing all the pets wouldn't mind at all, they were almost used to it now. With that, I fell asleep, and actually had a good nights sleep, holding my arms around my dog.
186 Toms POV
I tried so hard to be silent as I hopped round my house, collecting up all my toys again, I didn't want them here, was it too much to ask to keep them out of my eyesight? I just didn't want to be a baby anymore, I wanted to be an adult, that could actually be liked, and maybe even loved. "Tom, what are you doing?" Carrie made me jump, I span round, biting back a scream of pain as my foot touched the floor. "I, er, was trying to find...Wall-E!" I lied, grabbing the toy from the windowsill, dropping the rest of the toys I was holding. "right, well now that you've found him, come to bed! Its 2am!" Carrie sighed, grabbing my hand and leading me back upstairs again, careful of my throbbing foot. She made sure I was in bed and dosed up with the dreaded pain killers, before going back to her own room again. I barely had time to get out of bed before I was asleep again, curled up on the floor where I belonged.
Luckily, I woke up before her in the morning, managing to get washed and dressed before she even surfaced from sleep. As I heard the shower going I was eating my breakfast, secretly, last night, after scavenging some scraps from last nights dinner, I had made this mornings cereal and put it in the fridge. Now it was a gloopy, congealed mess, just how I liked it. I had somehow managed to finish it by the time Carrie was downstairs, she smiled at me when she realised I was awake and eating, sitting down next to me with a large bowl of rice krispies. "morning." I whispered first, fiddling with my fingers for lack of anything else better to do. "morning! I've got a busy day today, I'm not sure about you though." Carrie replied, grinning widely in between mouthfuls. "no, nothing happening today. Where are you going?" I asked politely, wondering where she was going.
"I'm visiting Charlie today! I haven't seen him in a week, cause he's been busy at university. So I'm going down to see him today, wanna come with?" Carrie explained, twirling her curly hair around her finger. "no, you go, I'll stay here, my foot hurts anyway." This was a perfect opportunity to get rid of all the toys again, no-one was going to be in the house looking after me all day today, so I could get everything down again! "alright, well, I better go get ready and go out, have fun today!" Carrie kissed my cheek and ran back upstairs again, all hyper because she was seeing her boyfriend again. I couldn't help but feel a little guilty for keeping her here all week so she could 'look after me', she hadn't seen her boyfriend in so long because of me, and that wasn't fair, not on anyone.
I waited until she went out then set to work again, grabbing all the toys in the front room and chucking them in black sacks, I would hide them better today, instead of just chucking them in the spare room, I would put them somewhere else, where they wouldn't be found. I sort of went into autopilot, shutting out the pain I was feeling from doing this, getting rid of all the things I loved. All I concentrated on was the future, if I grew up, got rid of the toys, became a normal human being, then maybe Danny would love me, maybe I would actually be accepted for once. No-one had ever accepted me, not even my own family had accepted me for the way I was, I could only hope that changing would help that.