Chapter 8

February 6, 2015
Will's POV

When Will sat up that morning he grimaced from the pain. He had never felt so sore in that intimate area. Will started to panic when he realized Sonny wasn't in the bed beside him. Will slowly walked out of the room and saw Sonny asleep on the couch. The physical pain was nothing compared to the emotional pain he now felt. He was questioning if last night had been just sex for Sonny. Sonny had always been so careful to make sure their sex was meaningful. Sonny had never been rough with him like this before.

Despite the pain Will was experiencing now, Will had felt amazing last night. Will had been desperate to quench his need for Sonny. He thought Sonny's roughness was displaying the same need for Will. Last night had been meaningful for Will, but now Sonny was on the couch. This was confusing.

Will went to jump in the shower, probably in an attempt to wash away the terrible thoughts that were taking over his mind. He realized he had been in there too long when the water turned freezing cold. He quickly got out and dried off. He tried to get dressed quickly, but it was too painful. When he finally went to the living room to apologize to Sonny for using all of the hot water, Sonny was gone.

Will started yelling Sonny's name all around the apartment. The yelling must have scared Arianna who started to cry.

Will decided he needed to know that Sonny was at work, so he got Arianna ready for a walk and they slowly headed to Club TBD.

Will was so relieved to see Sonny at the club that he could have run. When their eyes met Sonny looked guilty. Will tried to smile in an attempt to reassure Sonny that he was OK. They must have been standing there for awhile, because suddenly T was standing by Will, saying, "hey man. Are you OK?"

"Yes. Fine. Why?" Will finally looked at T after he asked the question.

"I don't know man. You just look like someone stole your lunch money." Will thought maybe that is why Sonny looked guilty. Maybe he thought he had made Will sad. Will looked for Sonny but didn't see him. Will abruptly left T to head towards the back to find Sonny.

But as soon as he started in that direction Sonny came out from the back carrying supplies. Sonny put the supplies down on the table next to Will and directed his attention to Arianna. He lifted her out of the stroller and said, "did you come to see me at work, baby girl? I am so happy to see you."

"We missed you this morning," Will added.

"I know I wanted to see you guys too, but someone was sleeping," Sonny said looking at Arianna, "and someone else was taking the world's longest shower," Sonny looked at Will while wearing a smile.

Will let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding. He was suddenly filled with hope. Maybe counseling was working. Maybe his Sonny had come back. He smiled and said, "you could have joined me." Will thought his voice sounded more whiny and less seductive than he had intended.

"Maybe next time." Sonny gave Will a half smile then directed his attention back to Arianna. "Well sweetheart, I need to do the hospital run and some other errands. This was a nice surprise." Will found himself being jealous of the smile Sonny was giving to their daughter. As Sonny was putting Ari back in the stroller Will took a deep breath trying to control his jealousy of his own child.

"Umm Will are you OK? Are you in pain or anything?" Sonny asked with the guilty look back in his eyes.

"I am better than OK, Sonny." Will kissed Sonny. Will intended it to be deeper, but Sonny just returned the kiss with a peck and then pulled away. S onny quickly scooped up the box and was gone before Will could even say goodbye.

Sonny's POV

Sonny felt horrible. He knew Will had to be hurting after last night both physically and emotionally. When Will had walked into the club earlier he looked so sad and Sonny noticed he was walking and standing differently.

Sonny's mind had been so clouded with hurt and anger last night; he didn't think about what Will was feeling or how Will would feel later on. Sonny didn't know if he was using Will last night, but he knew he shouldn't have let it happen.

Sonny could tell Will had been trying to be a better husband, but Will wasn't giving him the one thing he really needed, honesty. It hurt like hell and pissed him off everyday that he knew Will was lying to him.

Sonny didn't think he could handle being around Will anymore. He didn't know what to say or do. He didn't know how to act. When he was in the room with Will it felt like his heart was being ripped out of his chest over and over and over again.

Sonny's phone began to ring pulling him from his trance. He saw Paul's name on the phone and smiled. They fell into an easy conversation.

When Sonny hung up with Paul he thought about Will's question. Was he still in love with Paul? He definitely enjoyed talking to Paul. He was finding himself thinking about Paul frequently. Maybe he was still in love with Paul.

February 12, 2015
Will's POV

It had become apparent to Will that Sonny was avoiding him this past week. So Will was surprised when Sonny woke him up that morning.

Sonny stuttered, "Good morning, Will. I... uh... I forgot to tell you that... Um... after you left last week Dr. McGraw set up another appointment for us... today. It is... um... at the same time so..."

Will had no idea what to say.

"Do you want me to cancel it?" Sonny asked.

"No," Will said quickly, "I will be there."

"Ok. My mom agreed to babysit Ari again. See you there." Sonny smiled, but Will didn't believe the smile was genuine.

At the appointment, Sonny and Dr. McGraw were having a pleasant conversation. Will wanted to add to the conversation, but his insecurities were clouding his mind making it impossible for him to concentrate.

Suddenly Dr. McGraw clears his throat and Will realizes he is staring at him expectantly. "Will, do you think that is a good idea?"

Sh*t, Will thought, This is not going to look good to Sonny. "Which idea?" Will nervously asked.

"Sonny was saying he would like the two of you to put everything on the table. And on Valentine's Day he wants to prepare a romantic dinner where you both decide whether or not you would like to recommit to one another. What do you think of that idea?" Dr. McGraw asked, studying Will.

"That is a good idea," Will said, forcing a smile.

"Great," Dr. McGraw said. Then he asked, "Will, is there anything you would like to share with Sonny while you are here?"

"Yes," Will said quickly. He wanted to tell Sonny everything. He knew now was the time, but instead he said, "I am so sorry about everything Sonny. LA. Lying about why I came home. My articles. Everything. I will never put anything before our relationship again." Will took both of Sonny's hands and said, "Sonny, please know you and Ari are the most important things in the world to me. I want to start proving that to you everyday."

Will saw tears rolling down Sonny's face. He wiped them away. Then Sonny did the same for Will.