I DON'T OWN THE CHARACTERS OR THE SONG! THE SONG IS OWNED BY Brian Mcknight I DO HOWEVER OWN NETFLIX AND GET TO WATCH THE VAMPIRE DIARIES WHENEVER I WANT. I ALSO OWN THE STORYLINE, I LOVE WHERE I'M GOING WITH THE STORYLINE.
Quinn's Pov (Hmmm)
I've never been a big Rachel fan; she stole Finn twice from me, she's made me hate glee club, but all that aside, she has become one of my best friends. And the last thing I want to see is her in this much pain…You're probably wondering what I mean by it, to really understand I'm going to take you back to New York.I had moved away from the school dorms to live with Kurt and Rachel because Rachel was missing Finn and it was affecting her studies. So being the new person I was I got on a plane and moved with them I felt for them. I knew how it felt to not be able to be with the person I loved.
Ever since High school ended Puck and I had began dating. It wasn't easy, with him being in training and me being at Yale, but we made it work for us. No one knew about Puck and I until about a month into me living with my friends. Puck had sent me my first letter, I didn't think Rachel would've taken the news so hard..
Flashback (Three years ago.)
"Mail call!" Kurt yelled throughout the nice size apartment. "Okay two for Rachel and one for Santana…and a box for Quinn." He handed everyone their mail and then my box. "Who is it from Quinn?"
"Puck…" Everyone's eyes went from Rachel and then me. "He's been sending me stuff since he and uh Finn got to Iraq."
"Well Read it bitch." Santana ignored all the awkwardness.
I looked from Rachel then to the letter.
"Dear Q,
I miss you, I beyond miss you…I just hate doing this but I have to be here for Finn. He needs all the support right now. I sat here last night wondering how to tell you that he's been so down since she left… she was his everything and now he's empty. I know you're probably wondering why does that have to do with us. But they're our friends and I hate seeing them like this. Baby, don't worry okay we'll be okay. Take back the tears, I love you beyond words and I'll be there before you know it. Promise to wait for me…All I can offer is in two years I'll me home and we'll be getting married and having that family we've always dreamed about. Take care, my boss is calling me. Send my love to everyone..
Forever yours Puckerman!"
Rachel's tears fell down her eyes. You could easily see the hurt in her eyes. Finding out Finn actually went away, he made good on his words. Sighing she rose from her seat and quickly walked to her room.
It had been a few hours till we finally saw her again. She really didn't talk to any of us, she just ate in silence. "I'm sorry Rach…" I felt like I needed to apologize for the letter, for reopening old wounds.
"Not your fault Quinn…I guess I was just kidding myself to think he wasn't going to leave. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did, I've been avoiding all of those feelings since, you know." Nodding we started to eat dinner. I couldn't stand to see one of the nicest (yes annoying as well) people I know to go through this pain. I looked at Kurt then at the sad singer, and hoped things would change for her…I just had to hold on to the hope that things would finally go in everyones favor…
End Flashback
Not even 5 months later I was gone and moving in with Santana and Britney, I couldn't take the mopeyness. So now here we are in his backyard suppose to be celebrating, while Rachel was sleeping in the guest room… Sleeping in the guest room "Hey guys…You know Rachel's back right?" Everyone shook their heads. "She's sleeping downstairs; come on this is perfect time."
"What can we do?" Santana asked "It's not like they run out as soon as they saw each other."
Britney shrugs "Lock them in for the rest of the night…Tell momma Carol and Burt to stay at the Berry's house, we all stay here to make sure neither is dead when the sun comes up."
Shrugging we all looked around. "It's a plan," Tina looked at us then at Amy. "I think Puck and Quinn should stay and we'll all return tomorrow morning and deal with the consequence of our dumb plan." We all knew we were gambling with time, we didn't know how much longer Rachel could remain sane without talking to Finn.Carol's POV
Sitting in the kitchen after Rachel had went to lay down, I was left with my thoughts. How could life have put these two perfect people alone? Sitting there I began to clean up the mess our friends had left. While cleaning my step son and his friends began to pile in one by one. "Hey guys what can I help you with?"
Finn's two time ex girlfriend sat down first crossing her arms as she leaned back. "We need to get the two of them together and we need you and Burt's help."
I stop cleaning and turn back to them, "How?"
"Simple, jam the door that way once Finn shuts it the door can't open. We tell him he'd have to wait till the morning." Britney explained. "I mean he will probably be believe it, I mean hes the most likely to believe anything anyone says, mind you he thought for awhile Quinn was pregnant with his baby after never having sex with her…" Everyone of us in the room looked at the serious looking Blond. "What?"
Santana shook her head. "Minus her outburst, Brit is right simply put we lock the door, don't let them out till their at least talking and reaching some kind of compromise."
As much as I agreed with the former friends she had her doubts. "Look I get where you guys are coming from. Honestly I want them to finally get back together, but maybe were rushing this…Maybe they need more time."
Noah shook his head rapidly, "They'll never get to that point without us. He wont try because she can't stand to be even in the same room as him. They are to much alike that they don't care if it means breaking their own heart they will never let themselves be the one that caves first. Everyone needs to buckle up because we need to help them see they need each other. This Distance is not healthy."
I knew he was right, we all did, "I'll do what I can, but I don't want to be the reason they don't ever try to fix things if this doesn't work." As a mother I worried about my son and just wanted him to see the love that they once had can become a reality again.
Rachel's Pov
After talking to Carol, I needed some time to really think about everything that has happened. I loved these people more than anything, but I was thinking it was time for me to go back to New York. This place suddenly made me feel like I wasn't suppose to be back. I made it up in my mind that iw asn't going to stay for New Years anymore, I just wanted to get back home to New York and wollow in my missory that was my ex. I missed him yes, but I couldn't do it again. Like I told my friends repeatedly this was not the best idea for me to come back. He didn't even have the balls to say Hi or how have you been since I've left. Nothing…
Leaving the door ajared, I began to lay in the spare room in a pair of Kurt's old boxers and shirt, I couldn't help but muse over why I wanted to go back to New York. All my reasons were reasonable but the times I felt like I was second guessing myself was the moment I turned over to see a few old pictures from the four years we were in glee club. Why did I chose this room? Why couldn't I have just gone home? 'Note to self bring seprete car so if dads decide to leave you're not stuck at your ex fiance's house. Brightness Rachel Berry!' Turning over she wrappend her body around one of the pillows, trying to pretend it was him holding me. I blocked out everything as I laid there, I didn't care about anything or anyone at this moment but myself and getting through the night knowing he was across the hall.
Finn's Pov
Walking into the house I watched my mother put away glasses, I could tell something was wrong. "Can I help you?" She shook her head still facing away from me. This was how my mom dealt with being mad at me without facing it head on. "What did I do now mom? I just got home why are you mad me?"
When she turned to face me I honestly could see nothing but hurt in her eyes. "You never told me you were back in the states…" Fucking Puck. "How could you not tell Rachel…Your father and I saw you opening night…you didn't think to tell us. Or her."
"Mom I couldn't see her. If Rachel would've seen me she would have tried to make me stay and it would have hurt both of you if I was there for two days then had to leave again. I couldn't do that to either of you."
"Finn, you have to get over it and go to her. She needs you more than you will ever realize. Rachel can only be her strongest when you two are together and happy. It isn't fair that you are too stubborn to face your fears." I sat down on the stool next to the counter. "Finn, you need to tell her how you feel. Let her explain why she's hurt and take what she says, feels and expresses to you."
Looking at my mom I knew she was right, it didn't make it easy to admit it or even do it. How was I supposed to confront Rachel if neither of us are in the same room? "Mom she won't talk to me, she can't even stand to be in the same room as me. Why do I even try?"
"Because you two have been through too much to lose it all now." My mom was right again. We've been through everything possible to get to this point. Yes for five years we didn't talk, but I love her and even if she didn't want to admit it, I knew she loved me. "I know you have a lot to think about, but can you move your bags into the guest room downstairs? Kurt and Blaine are sleeping in your old room." Nodding I got out of the chair, picking up my bags I took them downstairs to the spare room. As I walked downstairs I couldn't help but think about what my mom and I discussed upstairs. Maybe I should have told Rachel I was there; even if we only had one moment together wouldn't have been enough to surrender for one night. I loved her; it should have been enough for us.
Opening the door I walked in setting my bags down I shut the door. Turning around I couldn't believe my eyes, there laying there was the only person who could ever have my heart and keep it safe for years. Rachel the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, even as she laid there cuddled up against the pillow, my heart swelled with love. Her long brunette hair scattered across her pillow, her tiny petite body curled up around the pillow as if trying to hold onto someone.
My heart busted with love seeing an angel lay there happily. She was everything and more to me, but sometimes I wondered if she remembered what we once had. What we once cherished more than any of our friendships, our old relationships, but every time I thought of it, I wondered if she and I could go back to that place that we once were.
(Brian McKnight Anytime) Finn sings quietly
I can't remember, why we fell apart
From something that was so meant to be
Forever was the promise in our hearts
Now more and more, I wonder where you are
Slowly I run the back of my hand across her face. Smiling she felt so soft, just as I remembered. The moments and memories coming back to me.
Flash back New York 2011
"You two have always been what makes since." My best friend smiled as we tried to come up with a song for Rachel and I to sing. "I don't get it, why can't you just tell her you love her?"
"I wish it was simple, there's Jessie," Shaking my head everyone knew that I was just trying to fight my real reasons.
"Show here that you love her." Sam explained looking at him. "Take her out and show her what she's missing man…"
They were right? Why didn't I remember this when I was back in New York.
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
I miss you
Flashback
The day after her last West Side Story show, waking up next to her naked soft body made me smile. "I love you Rachel…"
She smiled turning to face me, her eyes beaming up at me. "I love you Finn Hudson. No matter what."
Will she still love me when she finds out I was at opening night and didn't think to see her, will she still love me when she finds out I was there for her tony awards and didn't say hi or I've been missing you. How could I face her now?
Still have your picture in a frame
Hear your footsteps down the hall
I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane
How I wish that you would call to say
Looking at the room I notice the old pictures from the last ten years. Seeing them they reminded me of all the times we'd had with our friends and how much I've missed over time. The birth of a friend's child, weddings, engagements…Who em I to walk back here trying to be part of their lives..or even hers.
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
I miss her, even seeing her here I cant believe its real. I've missed us, I've missed the love we once shared. Why was it so easy to break but not put back the pieces.
(No more)
Loneliness and heartache
(No more)
Crying myself to sleep
(No more)
Wondering about tomorrow
Won't you come back to me, come back to me?
Seeing her getting on the train was the worst feeling in the world. I don't know how to describe it…the only thing I could tell you is that I needed her to go, to let her wings spread even if it broke my heart.
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me?
Do I ever cross your mind, any time?
I miss you
Every day I tried to write her, I tried to write down my thoughts and say I'm sorry. To tell her I love her. I tried to, I really did, but every time I tried it would just end up sounding stupid…
I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
Looking back at her I just wanted to give her time to sleep. Or maybe I was attempting to hide. I don't know but I just decided I needed to get out of here. Attempting to turn the knob I noticed that the door was locked. Grabbing my phone I texted my mom *Why is the door locked?* I waited and tried to be quiet. Quickly I got a reply *Dam forgot to tell you when you shut the door it get jams. Burt said he won't be able to fix it until morning*
Looking down at Rachel I knew my friends and family were playing dirty. *What about Rachel?* It only took my mom a few minutes to reply. *Oh was she in there? Well looks like it's time for the two of you to talk.* Again I wasn't happy, why was everyone trying to force this to happen. Why couldn't everyone just let us find our way to each other? Why did everyone feel the need to just push us…push me to apologize for something I'm going to spend the rest of my life trying to ask for forgiveness.
As Rachel began to stir I started to panic, we hadn't spoken in five years and now we were locked in a room together. "Rachel.." I whispered.
What do you guys think? I'm going to be requesting everyone pick two songs that could be sung between Rachel and Finn in the next chapter. Mind this is where thtey finally talk. It can be an angry song or a song confessing love. I'll take every song into consideration! Hoping to hear from you!