I DON'T OWN THE CHARACTERS OR THE SONG! THE SONG IS OWNED BY COLBIE CAILLIAT AND THE SECOND ONE IS FLORIDA GEORGIA LINE I DO HOWEVER OWN NETFLIX AND GET TO WATCH GLEE WHENEVER I WANT. I ALSO OWN THE STORYLINE, I LOVE WHERE I'M GOING WITH THE STORYLINE.
Third person POV
It had been a week since the welcome home party for Finn and Puck. Today was Christmas for the former students of the Glee club. Everyone was doing their own thing. Puck and Quinn were enjoying their new house with Britney and Santana. Puck had gotten her a brand new car as a pre-engagement/ Christmas gift. Britney had promised she'd give up her addiction bringing in stray animals for Santana as a Christmas gift. Santana had given Brit a new mini TV and asked her to keep it away from Brit's house. Every time in high school when Santana would give her girlfriend something somehow her cat would sale it on EBay, It was pretty bad when Santana would have to buy her gifts back from EBay. "Britt I'm not buy this back from 'your cat' again." Nodding Britney smiled softly turning on her favorite childhood shows.
After a bit of time Santana walked outside and watched the snow fall to the ground. Why couldn't life be as simple as it once was. Being here being home, it was heaven but with a slice of Hell. Yes she was queen bitch in high school but ever since she finally got to know her friends outside of the high school life, she became a better person. "You need to get over whatever you have against Finn and show Rachel that she can trust him…" Facing away from the beautiful snow and onto the ex that once made her feel something for the opposite sex. "He has made mistakes Sans, but he's trying to fix his mistake."
"His mistake costed us everything!" Santana glared at her ex. "He almost made us lose her! He basically took her dam heart and broke it! To make matters worse he was in New York and just left her! Forgiving him went out the door the second he decided to not tell her he was there!"
"Since when do you care so much about their relationship. Last time I checked you hated Berry, and whatever happened between the two of them isn't our place to decide what should or shouldn't happen." Puck pleaded frustrated. For him it was hard because they were both his friends and though he didn't see Rachel after the whole train incident he saw Finn.
"Tell me what can we actually do to fix this, because I can't sit here and just let it go…I cannot let her live with the regret of never trying to fix this." Yes this side of her was new to her best friends but Santana had always had a soft spot for Finchel, probably it reminded her of her parents love. "I can't, and won't let him hurt her again." With that Santana walked back inside and sat with her wife and Quinn.
Puck came inside and looked over at the group. "Look I know both of you are pissed and I get it, but he and Rachel need their own space to figure these things out. I get it he's an ass for leaving her…for breaking her heart, but in the end he did it and there's nothing any of us can do to prevent it." Britney raised her hand, but before she could speak Puck shook his head "You cannot get a car and go super fast and turn back time Britt, we've been through this every time we've watched Back to the Future it's not possible."
Quinn ran her hand softly through her dirty blond hair."Sans, he's right. I want them happy just as much as any of us do, but we can't push them anymore. I don't want them to hate us in the end. They've made their bed and we can't lay in it for them."
Christmas wasn't a hugely celebrated event in the Berry household (due to them being Jewish), but both her dads liked to spoil her, even with this year, they'd hoped that this would brighten her mood as well as help her forgive them for the little set up they were involved in. By the time she'd gotten home last week her dads were gone. It seemed every time Rachel tried talking to Hirman or LeRoy, they seem to be out the door with something to do for the whole day. She didn't really know how to handle this snowy Christmas morning..For Rachel she didn't really care at the moment her mind was still on the previous week.
Flashback.
Laying in his arms made her feel so light and free. Yes she was upset at him, but the longer she laid there with him her anger was being replace by regret and thoughts of how much she was missing him.
"Finn?" she whispered softly, part of her was hopeful he didn't hear her, but the other half wanted to speak to him.
Finn turned to face the one person he let get away. "What's wrong Rachel?"
"Do you regret it?" she simply asked unafraid for once of the reply she may receive.
Sitting up he opened his eyes and faced his biggest fear, "Rach, I don't, you lived your dream. You got to be on Broadway and live a life that was without me. Like I told you at the train station, if things were meant to be we'd find each other again. I will always love you Rachel, but I had to let you go finally, you'd never leave if I didn't push you. So no I don't regret putting you on the train." Rachel looked away and down as he put his hand in hers. "Rachel, if we would've gotten married and stayed here we wouldn't have been happy. You would've regretted in years if not months, maybe even days after, but I did it for you. I suffered too, it wasn't just you nor just me we suffered together. No matter the distance, believe me I felt your pain."
After a few minutes of silence Finn assumed Rachel was upset again with his answer. Before he could apologize Rachel turned back to look at him. "What's going to happen in the future?"
"Rachel I would give anything to be with you and to be loved again by you, but we need time to even think of the idea. We need to figure out things before we decide to rush into us again. Give it a week let this set in." Nodding Rachel leaned back into his arms and began to rest her eyes. "I love you Rachel Berry, I'll always be yours." He whispered before dozing off himself.
End Flashback
Sitting in the living room she leaned against the window she watched the snow fall. Closing her eyes she began hum a melody stuck in her mind. (I never told you Colbie Caillat)
I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
Opening her eyes she saw Finn and herself standing outside the window looking up at the stars. "There it is, Now no matter where you are Rachel, I'll always be looking down at you. No matter the distance, I'll be there." Shaking her head the memory was gone and they were no longer standing there.
But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe that, I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you
Walking down the hall she saw the pictures, the memories flowing back to her when she touched the picture at graduation. "I'm setting you free…" Tears continued to fall as she sang her heart out.
I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you
It's like you're not with me
But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone)
I can't believe that, I still want you
(And I'm lovin' you, I never should've walked away)Quinn, and Santana's voices ringing in her head.
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again) Tina and Britney begin they're turn in her head.
I miss everything about you, without you
But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in
And now I miss everything about you
(Still, you're gone) all the girls finally chimed in together every time she thought they were there she realized she was alone again.
I can't believe that, I still want you
(And I'm lovin' you, I never should've walked away)
After all the things we've been through
(I know it's never gonna come again)
"Darling your gifts are here. Why don't we open gifts and enjoy some quality time by the fire."
I miss everything about you, without you
Nodding she walked over to her fathers and began to look through the piles. Singing the song made her realize that maybe it was time she really thought about things, maybe reconsidering her old thoughts.. Rachel looked at her excited dads, but for her she felt numb, like nothing that were in these boxes could fill the void that was now fuelling missing in her heart.
Not that she forgave him, but being so close to him made her remember what it felt like to e loved and happy, even if for a few moments. Was it a crime for one last chance to feel the love? Wasn't it time for her roots to finally become branches?
At the Hummel-Hudson home Kurt Hummel was sitting at the table waiting for Dinner with his boyfriend, dad and step-mother. They hadn't really talked about last week, Finn was hardly around and when he was it was very quiet. No one spoke of the fact Kurt had caught them snuggling in each other's arms, especially when Finn was in the room. When the door became unjammed everyone thought it would be a good idea for him to wake Finn and Rachel up, what he saw was something no one would've believed without seeing it for themselves… Looking in front of him, he saw Rachel laying closely to Finn, Finn's arms were wrapped as if they were lovers again, but who were we kidding they weren't and there was no for sure that they'd be again. "So is he going to spend all of Christmas in the bedroom?" Kurt asked quietly.
Carol sighed looking over at her husband, step son and Blaine. "I wish I could say yes, but this probably has to be hard for both of them. They were finally reunited and it wasn't as if it was by choice guys. Being faced with that kind of reality must have been hard for them." Leaning over the counter she looked down the hall towards the guest room. "I'm sure it's not easy for him to be home and have to have the memory of her and what he had to deal with back in Iraq."
Without warning Finn walked out watching his small family looking back at him. "What? Shouldn't we be by the tree and opening gifts?" He watched as everyone continued to stare at him. "Okay well can we hurry this up cause I was going out after breakfast and gifts."
As they all walked to the tree Carol walked with her son. "Where are you going sweetie?" She asked softly.
"I'm going to probably go visit the football field or something." Finn shook his head hoping the conversation was over and they could proceed with their morning. As his mom distributed the gifts Finn's mind was clouded with thoughts of last week, having Rachel in his arms again was a reality he had been dreaming about for five long years.
Sitting there in a room full of his family and he felt like he wasn't anymore. Looking around he realized he wasn't there anymore; he was in the auditorium with his friends. Puck smirked as he started playing the base. Finn instantly noticed the rhythm they were playing. (My favorite song Florida Georgia Line's Stay!)
I'd sell my soul just to see your face
and I'd break my bones just to heal your pain
In these times I need a saving grace
but time is running out
and I'm starting to lose my faith
Playing the drums made him feel like himself again. The passion flowing out of him and his friends playing together. Feeling it he grabbed the mic.
But if I told you I loved you
would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you
and making you walk away
(I should have took the time to tell you)
And if I wrote you a love song
and sang it to you every day
would it ever be enough
to make you wanna come back home and stay?
looking out and into the audience he noticed Rachel standing there watching him sing. Shaking his head he began to look around noticing she was the only one. Wasn't she in New York?
(I can't go another day without you)
Would it make you,
make you wanna stay?
(girl you gotta know I love you)
My heart's on my sleeve but it's turning black
(I guess I know what it feels like it to be alone)
Without your touch I'm not gonna last
(I know you know that I need ya just to carry on)
It feels like my walls are caving in
(You'd always hold me before I left you hanging on)
And I'll do anything to have you here again
"Will you marry me?" Turning he heard his own voice. Finn's heart raced, the pace so quick that he threw the drum sticks and continued to sing with Puck this time playing on the guitar. How could this be happening again…
But if I told you I loved you
would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you
and making you walk away
And if I wrote you a love song
and sang it to you every day
would it ever be enough
to make you wanna come back home and stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Throwing the guitar he ran to her. It was as if the goal was souly to hold her, if he was lucky enough to feel her lips against his one more time. He missed this, the taste of her sweet lips…
Yeah, the days are cold
the nights are long
and I can't stand to be alone
Please know this is not your fault
and all I want
Holding her close their hearts raced, their eyes meeting again it was just as if they were back to the start. "Finn I love you…" She looked deep into his eyes, the love was the same as before, something that probably never would change.
Is to tell you I love you and make you wanna stay
there's gotta be a way
cause going on without you is killing me everyday
"Finn, don't leave me, I can't do it again please." Rachel held onto him.
"Rachel I'm not leaving you…" Finn shook her but it was as if he wasn't even there. "Rachel no!" Her hand slipped out of his and she disappeared.
And if I wrote you a love song
and sang it to you every day
would it ever be enough
to make you wanna come back home and stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
Would it make you,
make you wanna stay?
(Girl you gotta know I love you)
Would it make you,
make you wanna stay?
(I can't go another day without you)
It was another dream…Looking around he was alone on stage, shaking his head softly he began to end the song as he fought back the tears. The lips he hoped to be kissing were no longer there, they were a hopeful dream that wouldn't be a reality endless he did something about it.
Would it make you,
make you wanna stay?
"NO!" Everyone's eyes went back to Finn.
"Finn what?" Burt stood up and walked over to Finn, concern plagued his voice, everyone was starting to worry about the way Finn had been acting, but they never really had to deal with it first hand, "Son talk to us…"
Quickly Finn shook his head grabbing his phone he ran out the door. Being around everyone was stressing him out. He didn't have a real way of dealing with his thoughts if everyone was staring at him and questioning his body language. Running his hand through his short hair. Taking his phone out he dialed a number and closed his eyes. *Can you meet me at the school? I need to talk to someone…* Pressing send he began his journey to the school on the snowy Christmas.
woooooooooooooooo so who do you think Mr. Hudson is Calling? I really wanna hear what you guys think! I promise I will update sooner. I was swamped with finals! SO read and review my loves