Sora
"Seriously, Kairi... why won't you get over this nervousness?" I ask her again, finally sobering up. The six pizzas we all went through after our game of truth or dare definitely helped. "I let you fake your dare, but... Part of me was wishing you would've just done it." We're in my bedroom now, and she's still refusing to explore each other's bodies.
"I just... I don't know what to do... I don't want to make a fool out of myself..." she finally admits, trying to hide under the covers.
I pull them down off her face and look into her eyes, "Kairi... you know how much I love you, right?"
"Of course, Sora..." she says, blushing deeply.
"Then just relax... stop worrying about what I'm going to think and just go with it. I'm not going to think you're a fool, I'm not going to laugh or make fun of you. I'm going to enjoy whatever you do, and whatever you let me do to you," I tell her, brushing my thumb against her cheek softly and kissing her on the tip of the nose.
She seems to relax a little, I can feel her muscles loosen up under me. "You're right, Sora... I'm sorry I've been so silly..."
"Shh..." I whisper, moving my hand to her bikini top and untying it. She lets me undress her without protest, but she still isn't doing much. "Honey, relax," I tell her again, feeling her tense back up when I run my hands over her sides.
"Sora... what are you...?" she starts, but quiets back down when I brush my fingers over her nipples. I see goosebumps raise up on her skin and travel down over her body and smile a little, looking up at her. I lean down and take one of her nipples into my mouth, running my tongue over it in circles as she squirms under me. "Nn... Sora..." she whispers, letting out a soft moan.
It's hard to believe she would deny herself this... I kind of regret that our first few times together were so... bland. "Quiet... just enjoy it..." I say softly against her skin, moving my mouth to the other nipple and sucking softly. My right hand trails down her body and when I reach her lower stomach, she gasps and tenses up, crossing her legs.
"Sora..." she whines, looking down at me. I pull her legs apart and slip my hand between them, starting to rub at her clit softly. I see her eyes widen and she finally relaxes all the way and lets me do what I want. She's incredibly aroused, so it's easy for me to slip two fingers inside of her and startle her. "Sora!" she exclaims, writhing in pleasure under me. I bite softly at her nipple and start pumping my fingers inside her, eliciting adorable moans from her mouth.
"Does that feel good, baby?" I ask her, looking up at her as I finger her a little more quickly.
She nods, biting her lower lip. "I want more..." she groans, making me grin. I pull my fingers out of her, then quickly slam them back in, adding a third one this time. I start to fuck her with them roughly, nearly lifting her off the bed with each thrust. And she just loves it... I've got her moaning so loudly I'm sure every other person in the house can hear her. "Fuck, Sora!" she yelps, and I feel her pussy contract and her sweet cum rush around my fingers. I wait a few moments before pulling them out, then smile up at her. "You... win... I shouldn't be so nervous..." she pants, still squirming a little.
"Good girl..." I say, sitting up against the headboard and grabbing a tissue off the nightstand to clean my fingers.
"Want..." she whispers, pulling on my arm and looking up at me.
I chuckle and kiss her on the forehead. "You want more?" I tease her. She nods quickly and drapes her arms around me, giving me a deep kiss. But I cut her short and grin evilly, "If you want more, you're going to have to work for it," I tell her, sitting back and getting comfortable, putting my hands behind my head. "Go ahead, do what you want."'
This throws her off and she stammers for something to say, "I... but... you... I don't know... Sora!"
"Well, if you aren't going to do anything, I'll just read my book," I say, grabbing it off the nightstand and trying to remain serious. I'm so hard right now it almost hurts, but I need to get her out of her mental jam.
She lets me flip open my book, sitting back on her knees and having a war with her own mind. I start reading, completely ignoring her, which is bothering her even more. It takes her awhile, but she eventually starts kissing my neck softly, trying to gain my attention again. She's turning me on so much, but I keep pretending like I don't notice her.
"Sora, come on!" she exclaims, sitting back again and pouting.
"Hm?" I question, looking up at her like I didn't know she was there. When she doesn't say anything else, I go back to reading. I haven't even been paying attention to the book, I just keep turning pages when appropriate.
She waits so long this time that I almost forget what I'm doing, and when I suddenly feel her hand rubbing my jeans I nearly drop my book. I continue my ruse, trying really hard not to squirm at her touch. I can feel her tiny hands unbuttoning my jeans and dragging the zipper down, and the anticipation makes my breath hitch in my throat. The tiny sound seems to drive her further and she pulls my pants and my underwear down, throwing them off the side of the bed. I hear her take a couple of deep breaths before she wraps her hand around my cock and starts sliding it up and down.
I let out a couple of moans to let her know how much I'm enjoying it, but continue to act like I'm reading to see if she'll take it any further. A couple minutes later I've totally spaced out, and I'm just laying back with my eyes closed letting her play. When I feel her lips wrap around the head of my cock I nearly jump through the roof, dropping my book and startling her. "God damn it, Kairi... please don't stop that..."
She smiles up at me smugly. "Got your attention, didn't I?"
"Shut up and keep going..." I growl, grabbing her hair softly in my fist and pushing her lips back down around my cock. I'm done with games... I just want her. At first she just runs her tongue over it, but then she starts sucking softly and I nearly lose it right there and then. I can only take a couple of minutes of it before I pull her off and pat my lap. "C'mere."
She looks at me curiously and furrows her brow, "What do you mean?"
"Come get on my lap, silly..." I tell her, trying to yank her up towards me.
"But... but I..."
I raise an eyebrow and stare down at her. "Really, baby? You'll suck my cock but you won't ride it?"
"Fine!" she exclaims defiantly, crawling up onto my lap and trying to get in the right position. I help her out a little, placing my cock at her entrance. "Do I just...?" she tries to ask, but I'm done with her ridiculous questions so I place my hands on her shoulders and push her down, sliding into her entirely in one fluid motion. She cries out in pleasure and places a hand on the wall behind me to steady herself. It takes her awhile to figure out the best way to move, but soon she's bouncing up and down on me like a professional.
"Agh... damn it, Kai... I'm..." I start, and she nods vigorously to tell me she's about to cum too. Only moments later, I gasp loudly and fill her with cum, her own orgasm milking more out of me.
When we finally calm down enough for her to crawl off me, I look over at her and smile. "You did good, baby..."
"Damn straight," she jokes, kissing me on the cheek and walking to the bathroom to clean up. I hear her start the shower and get up, following her in and slamming the door behind me.
"You didn't think we were done, did you?" I ask, sporting a devilish smile.
Demyx
"What the...? OW!" I shout, cracking my head on the bottom of the coffee table. I roll out from under it, groaning a little and massaging my temples. I must have passed out underneath it... the room is dark, and nobody else seems to be around.
"Why are you yelling...?" I hear a faint voice from the couch. I squint into the darkness and find Zexion sitting up and rubbing his eyes.
I blush a little and laugh nervously, "Sorry... I hit my head on the coffee table..."
"That somehow doesn't surprise me... I didn't know if you were ever going to come out of there."
I don't even remember getting under it, but then... I have no idea what happened earlier. "Why was I under there...?"
"You don't remember?" he wonders, looking more alert.
"Not a clue... did I totally humiliate myself?" I ask, grimacing a little.
He chuckles softly and shakes his head, "You uhm... you passed out early on, didn't have a chance to."
"Oh... well... that's good... did I miss anything epic?"
"Nah, not really... well, actually... yeah, you kinda did. Riku told us a pretty intense secret, and Namine and Yuffie finally confessed their love to each other. Do you wanna... take a walk and I'll tell you everything?" he suggests, his eyes sparkling in the faint moonlight.
I smile a little and nod. "Sure, Zex..."
We put on our shoes and head out to the beach. He looks so incredibly sexy... he's wearing skinny jeans and a black button-down shirt, the sleeves rolled to his elbows and the top half of the buttons undone. His hair is just the right kind of messy, hanging into his eyes a little and tousled up in the back.
"So... What happened with Riku?" I break the silence, making him jump a little.
"Oh... Man, he told us some crazy story about how he shot a guy! He said a couple of years ago he was mugged, and while he was wrestling with the guy, he grabbed his gun and shot him in the kneecap! He said he had no choice, but... wow. It was pretty insane."
"Damn... I can't believe I missed that! How did you get him to tell you?"
He laughs, "You really don't remember? Roxas started a game of truth or dare and we all played."
"Oh god... Please tell me I was passed out already!" I exclaim, knowing how much of an idiot I can be during those games.
"Not... exactly," he says, suddenly seeming uncomfortable.
"What was my dare?" I ask him, stopping and stepping in front of him. "I always pick dare, what did I do?!"
He shakes his head, "You picked truth... it was harmless."
"Zexion, tell me..."
"All they did was ask if you ever had a crush on Axel..." he says quickly, brushing past me and continuing to walk down the beach.
I catch up with him, sighing in relief. "Thank God... That's a big no."
He stops and grabs me by the wrist, looking up into my eyes. "I thought you always had a crush on him!"
"Nah... We just messed around for fun sometimes, I never really had feelings for him," I say, shrugging. "Why?"
"Uh... no reason," he mumbles, dropping my wrist.
I have to run a little to keep up with him again, and I furrow my brow in confusion, "Why do you care if I liked Axel or not?"
"I don't... I was just shocked to hear it, is all. Everyone thought you had a big crush on him."
"God, no... I could never see him that way after what he did..." I say, remembering the night he confessed to me about burning his house down... He had no idea his little sister was inside, and she got trapped in her room... His parents didn't turn him in, but they moved out of the country and paid for him to stay as far away from them as possible.
Zexion seems to be relaxed a little more, so I change the subject. "So what happened with Nami and Yuffie?"
"Well, you dared Namine to kiss her... and then later, I asked Yuffie how long she's wanted to screw her. Namine seemed pretty shocked to find out, but... I think they might finally start dating," he tells me.
"Sounds like something I would do," I say, chuckling. "Good for them, they needed to get it out in the open... we keep too many damned secrets."
He coughs a little and slows down. "Yeah... yeah we do. Demyx, stop."
"What is it, Zex?" I ask, stopping and looking down at him. He looks oddly guilty.
"Uh... lets go up in the treehouse, it's kind of cold out here," he says, pointing up at a pretty big treehouse, with a rope ladder leading up to it.
We crawl up and find some lanterns and candles. He pulls a cigarette lighter out of his pocket and lights them, illuminating the room in a beautiful glow.
"Wow... Sora was really lucky to grow up somewhere like this," I comment, looking around at the traces of his childhood. I turn my head back towards him and gasp softly when his lavender eyes meet mine. The look in his eyes is... it's enough to stop my heart.
"You really don't remember..." he whispers, frowning a little.
I cock my head to the side, curious about what he means. "Remember what?"
He groans a little, biting his lower lip. "You're too God damn adorable!" he exclaims suddenly, laying back on the floor. "I can't even handle it!"
"Zexy...? Are you okay...?" I ask, leaning over him. I yelp a little when he grabs me and yanks me into the most intense, passionate kiss I've ever experienced. He sits up and leans into me more, gripping my hair a little and deepening the kiss. When he pulls away, I just sit there in shock, trying to catch my breath. "I... I remember now... you said you loved me..."
"I thought that might jog your memory..." he says, smiling softly in the candlelight.
Laughing quietly, I push him back down and crawl over him so I'm straddling his lap. "Why didn't you tell me sooner, Zex...?"
"Like I said, I thought you liked Axel..." he tells me, placing his hands on my hips.
"You're ridiculous... I love you, Zexion."
He grins up at me, "I love you too, Demy..."
This time I lean down and kiss him-a soft, sweet kiss that makes me shiver a little.
Finally...
Namine
"Hey Nami...?"
I blink a couple times and yawn softly, looking up at my girlfriend. "Hm?"
"Oh, I didn't mean to wake you..." she whispers, stroking my hair absent-mindedly. "Sorry, honey."
"I wasn't really asleep," I tell her, sitting up a little and leaning my head on her shoulder. "Did you need something?"
"Well... I was just thinking... We've been best friends since we were toddlers, right? So, I mean... this wasn't rushed, was it?"
I shrug a little, my eyes starting to close again. "I don't think so... Why do you ask?"
Yuffie sighs softly and kisses the top of my head. "I just wanted to make sure I didn't push you into anything..."
"If you're referring to what we did earlier... don't worry. That was fantastic..." I smile a little, remembering our incredible sex fondly. "Besides... everyone else is doing it. I could hear Kairi from here, and she's upstairs."
"Good..." she says, hugging me close to her. "There's just... there's something else... but I don't wanna move too quickly..."
I giggle a little, "You know I love you, Yuffie... you don't have to be afraid to say it."
"No, you silly girl..." she chuckles softly, "It's very clear that we love each other. Which is why... well, I kind of have a question."
This peaks my interest and I perk up a little, looking into her eyes. "What is it, Yuffie?"
She leans over the side of the bed and fumbles through her bag for something, hiding it in her hand. "I've been carrying this around since freshman year... And I mean... we'd have to wait until you're eighteen..." she starts, making me even more curious. "I hope I don't freak you out or anything... but I just... I've been waiting so long to hear that you love me too..."
"Yuffie, just ask the question," I cut her off, taking her other hand in mine.
"Namine... would you... would you marry me?" she asks, opening her palm to reveal a beautiful ring.
It takes me awhile to realize I've been holding my breath, and I inhale deeply, a huge grin spreading across my face. "Yes! Of course, Yuffie!"
I can tell she's been holding her breath too, and when I answer her it's almost like she doesn't hear it at first. "Wait... wait, did you say yes?"
"Yes, you dork!" I exclaim, flinging myself into her arms. "Have you really been carrying that around since we were freshmen?"
She takes my hand and slides it onto my finger, a perfect fit. "I have... I saw it when we were window shopping one evening, and I knew that if I ever had the chance to propose to you... it had to be with that ring. It took a long time to save up the money, but it was worth it."
"So... your part time job wasn't to help your family..." I realize, admiring the beautiful ring.
"No... we're doing fine, if our week long vacation didn't make it obvious," she jokes, giggling a little. "God, that was the hardest week of my life, being without you so long..."
I sink into her arms and sigh contentedly, "Same here... but you're back now, and... we're engaged! I feel bad, though... you should have a ring too."
She shrugs, "I don't need one, honey... I'm happy enough to see that on your finger."
An idea sparks in my mind and I slide a different ring off my finger, one I wear all the time. "Here, now you get one too!" I say, grabbing her hand and slipping it on.
"But this is your favourite, Nami..."
"Nope... this one is," I say proudly.
She smiles, "Then this one is my favourite now."
Suddenly an idea crosses my mind and I grin, "Wanna mess with everyone tomorrow?"
"How...?"
"Well... you could do some huge, crazy proposal in front of everybody-really push it over the top. The looks on their faces alone would be sooo worth it."
This makes her grin as well, and she nods. "Oh my God... that'd be perfect! Besides... you deserve a huge, crazy, over the top proposal, baby."
I blush a little, "You don't need to go out of your way for me all the time, Yuffie..."
"But I want to, baby... you deserve the best..."
"So do you! If it were up to me, I'd be taking care of you all the time... catering to your every whim! Doing whatever you want!"
Suddenly she starts giggling, "That makes you sound incredibly submissive, Nami..."
"Well... What if I am?"
Riku
"Why would you not tell me?"
I groan, sitting down on the edge of the bed. "Xion, I've answered that question a million times..."
"I just don't understand why you feel comfortable telling those... those strangers... and not me!"
"They're our friends, Xion!" I bark, having about enough of her bullshit.
She raises an eyebrow, letting out her cackle of a laugh, "Friends? They're my sisters and the people they sleep with. I don't even know what the hell is up with Kairi... she finally starts getting laid and suddenly she isn't sick anymore?"
"Xion!" I scold her, "She's your sister! Can't you even pretend to care about her?!"
"I just don't understand it! Now suddenly we're friends with that weird guy Demyx too?"
"What, you didn't think we were going to go our entire lives just hanging out with Namine?" I wonder, dumbfounded by her at this point.
She sneers, "Well I didn't think we'd end up like this, with eight other God damned people up our asses all the time!"
"Wh... where the hell is this even coming from, Xion?! You seemed all excited to meet Sora!"
"Oh, yeah... you mean the guy who broke up your family? If he hadn't showed up, your parents would still be together, Riku!" she yells, slamming her fist against the wall. "Did you ever think about that?!"
I sigh heavily, "Yeah, and Dad would've been miserable the rest of his life! Mom would've found out eventually... it's better now than later! And it wasn't Sora's fault, it was his dad's! I know I was mad that first night... but I've come to terms with this, Xion!"
"All they do is mock you, Riku! How many times did they call you a buzzkill?"
"Yeah, and who was laughing right along with them?!" I shout, standing up and getting in her face. I stare down at her, furious with how she's acting. I can tolerate a lot, but... this is too much.
She just glares up at me defiantly. "You act like you hate being around them, why are you defending them?!"
"They're my friends, Xion! Apparently friendship is a concept you don't understand!"
"Yeah, friends... I see how you look at him, Riku... are we really going to do this again?"
I look away from her, turning towards the door. "You don't know what you're talking about, so just don't go there..."
"I know about Ventus, Riku... Come on, they look exactly alike. Did you think I wouldn't notice?"
I swallow the lump rising in my throat and lean against the door, trying not to show her how distraught I am. "You have no idea what happened..."
"I know that you were sleeping together during the first year we were together. I didn't call you on it then because I thought I loved you..."
"We've been together for two years, and you only thought you loved me?" I ask, turning on her, "You made me suffer through the past two years knowing I didn't want to be with you, and you didn't even love me?!"
She slams her fist down on the dresser, shaking the walls a little. "Why would you stay with me if you didn't want me?!"
"We were stuck, Xion! After Ventus left me, I didn't think I had a reason to break up with you... I figured as long as you loved me, we'd somehow make it work!"
"You know how hard it's been putting on a show for everyone?! They think we're fucking in the damn bathroom, when all we do is run from each other!"
"Putting on a show... oh, what the actress you really are, Xion!" I shout, hoping everyone else is preoccupied enough with each other to ignore it. "You act like you love me, you act like we're all your friends, you act like you aren't the biggest bitch to ever walk the Earth!"
She starts laughing, a dark and insane sound. "At least I don't want to bang one of my friends! Are you going to ruin their relationship too?"
"Roxas... he's with Axel, I understand that... I'm not going to go after him."
"Ha!" she exclaims, sitting down at the desk chair and shaking her head in disbelief. "Ventus was in a happy relationship with Aqua, and you ruined that!"
I can't believe she's going to bring up the past after all this time... I always had a feeling she knew about my affair with Ventus, but... I thought that if she could forgive me, then that would be that.
"Xion... he obviously wasn't happy, or he wouldn't have cheated on her with me," I tell her. She knows that I have a point... but she won't admit it. "Look, I'm sorry for what I did to you. I should never have expected to get away with it, and I should've come clean about it sooner."
"Jesus, Riku... now you wanna apologize? After all these years?"
"Better than never, Xion! At least now I don't have to put up with you anymore!" Before I even know what's happening, I'm laying on my back on the floor. "Really, Xion?! You're gonna punch me now?!"
She growls and kicks me in the ribs, making me curl up into a ball. "You deserve it, you lying piece of shit. I'm leaving... don't expect to ever speak to me again. Have fun pining after that fruitball Roxas."
As I lay there on the floor groaning in pain, she grabs her bag and leaves. I hear the front door slam and sigh deeply, glad it's finally over.
"Riku...?" I hear a timid voice and a knock on the bedroom door.
I lift myself off the floor and sit on the edge of the bed. "Come in..."
"Axel fell asleep, and I heard shouting... are you okay?" the familiar blond sticks his head into the room.
I nod, looking over at the clock, "Jesus... is it really four in the morning?"
He shuts the door and sits down next to me. "Yeah... Your eye is starting to bruise, did Xion hit you?"
"Uhm... yeah, she did... I'm fine, I deserved it..." I tell him, trying not to show how much pain I'm in.
"I don't think anybody deserves being hit, Riku... Do you wanna tell me what happened?" he asks, brushing the hair out of my eyes. His touch is... electric, and it stirs up feelings I haven't felt since Ventus. Xion was right... Roxas looks just like him.
I let out a deep breath, "We started out arguing because I never told her about that mugger... And then... she brought up an affair I had last year, that I didn't even think she knew about. Turns out, we've been together all this time for no reason, we hate each other..."
"But... I don't understand... why would you stay with her if you didn't love her?"
"I thought she loved me, and after Ventus 'broke up' with me, I... I used her as a crutch. I was emotionally devastated... I thought me and him were going to leave our girlfriends and be together, but it turns out he was just in it for the sex..."
I can tell I've peaked his interest. "You... had an affair with a man?"
"Yeah, Rox... Turns out, I'm just like my dad..." I realize, knowing I'm in almost the same situation. "But unlike Cloud, Ventus never loved me."
"I'm sorry to hear that, Riku..." he says, looking down at the floor.
I shrug, "I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, Roxas... What are you doing up anyways?"
Suddenly he huffs and lays back on the bed, his legs dangling off the side. "Axel and I haven't had a great night either..."
I lie down next to him and turn on my side. "What's up, Rox?"
He turns towards me as well, clearly blushing. "I... well, I've never dated a man before... I have no idea what I'm doing, and I just get so nervous... I know he wants to go further with our... intimacy, but I just can't..."
I chuckle a little, remembering my first time with a man. "Roxy, it's okay... it's normal to be nervous, especially in your situation. Look, it's really not much different from a woman... besides the appendage," I tell him, making him smile a little. "I personally think it's even more intimate than a woman... You just have to be straightforward with him, let him know what you like and what you don't like."
"It's not even that... I know how to speak up, but... when it comes to how I ...touch him... I have no idea what to do..." he stammers, hiding his face in the blankets.
I pull them away, smiling at him. "Just go with your instinct, Rox... There's no set rules for gay sex. You just have to go with it..."
"But... but what if all this means that I'm not really gay? I just... rushed right into it..." he says, rolling onto his back again.
I furrow my brow and sit up a little, leaning over him so I can look into his eyes. "You don't seriously doubt it, do you?"
"I... I don't know..." he whispers, his clear blue eyes sparkling against the soft lighting.
I have no idea what drives me to do it... but I lean down and kiss him on the lips. He gasps and struggles under me for a moment, but in another few seconds I feel his lips press back against mine in a hungry, needy way. As much as I want to keep kissing him... to just strip him down and fuck him into the bed... I pull away, visibly trembling.
"Wh...why...?" he stammers, eyes wide.
"Do you have any doubts now?" I ask, trying as hard as I can to resist the urge to kiss him again.
He lays there for a minute, trying to find the words to say. "Riku..."
"Yeah?"
"C...can you show me... what to do...? Show me how to be with Axel...?" he asks, in such a quiet, tame voice I can barely understand him.
I shake my head, crawling off of him and walking over to the window. "I can't do that, Roxas... And you can't do that to Axel... Cheating on him is not the way to solve your problems..."
"I don't think it's cheating... it'd be like... lessons..." he says, turning over and watching me. "I love Axel... more than anything. But I don't want to make a fool out of myself in front of him. I want our first time to mean something to both of us... to be a fond memory... My first time with Olette was horrible, nothing we ever wanted to remember. I don't want it to be like that this time!"
"Roxas, that might all make sense right now... but you'd hate yourself later for doing that to Axel. I can't help you break his heart."
He whines a little. "If he doesn't ever find out..."
"Rox, stop! He'll find out! They always find out!" I shout, looking out the window. I can faintly see his reflection in the glass as he walks towards me.
"Please, Riku... help me..." he begs, wrapping his small arms around my waist and burying his face in the back of my shirt. I can feel his tears soaking through to my back, and I turn around in his arms and hold him close to me.
"We can't, Roxas... You would hate yourself..." I try to explain, "As much as I want to... I can't let you destroy your relationship like that."
He looks up at me, his eyes glistening with tears. "You... you said you want to...?" he wonders, sniffling a little.
"I didn't want you to know, Roxas..."
"Know what?"
His innocence is heart-wrenching, and I have no idea what to say to him that won't make me sound like an idiot. "I... Ever since we met, I've kind of had a crush on you... but you're with Axel, so I didn't want to say anything..."
"I don't understand..." he says, stepping away and sitting back down on the bed. "Why...?"
I chuckle a little and sit down next to him. "Why do you think, Roxas? You're adorable... And there's just something incredibly ...enticing about you."
"I don't understand you people... Does everyone from your school fall in love instantly? Is it a bug going around?" he jokes, cracking an amazing smile.
He does have a point, and it makes me laugh. "Maybe... I think we're all just damn insane."
"Hey Riku...?" he asks, making me look over at him. Before I can even blink, his lips are on mine again.
My first instinct is to pull away, to tell him to go back to his room and forget this entire night... but he tastes so good, and I want him so badly that I can't break the kiss. I wrap my arms around him and lay him back on the bed, deepening the kiss further.
Roxas
"Axel," I whisper, shaking him lightly. "Axel, wake up..."
He stirs a little, turning towards me. "What's wrong, babe?"
"Axel, I did something really stupid and I don't even know why..." I ramble quickly, "God, was I stupid!"
"Whoa, whoa... slow down, Roxas. What did you do?" he asks, sitting up and rubbing his eyes.
I take a deep breath and start, "After you fell asleep, I heard Riku and Xion fighting, so I went to check on them... I guess they broke up and she left, and he told me about some affair he'd had with a guy named Ventus... Anyways, then we started talking about my problems... I was freaking out because I wasn't sure if I was actually gay, which I am, but... he kissed me, Axel... I mean, it was just to prove a point, but... then he told me he had a crush on me! And, well... I mean, you and I rushed into things so quickly... I just wanted to make sure..."
"What did you do, Roxas...?" His voice is so serious, I've never heard him so upset.
"I... I kissed him again... but only once, and only because I got really confused..." I try to explain, starting to cry again. "I'm so sorry, Axel... I understand if you hate me..."
He sits there for a long moment just staring at me, and the hurt in his eyes makes my heart ache. "Roxas..." he whispers, his words getting caught up in his throat, "If you needed to kiss Riku ...twice... to make sure you want to be with me... Then I suppose I should just be happy that you chose me..."
"You... you aren't mad?"
Suddenly I'm in his arms, and he's got his face tucked into my neck. "Don't scare me like that, Roxas... I thought you were going to say that you slept with him..." he says, sighing deeply.
I know I'll never be able to tell him what I suggested to Riku... I couldn't ever hurt him like that. "I would never do that to you, Axel..."
"Roxas... do you not find me attractive...?" he asks, taking me off guard.
"What the hell kind of a question is that...?" I wonder, holding him close. I've never seen him like this before... so vulnerable. "Of course I find you attractive, you're downright sexy."
He looks up at me, tears in his eyes. "Then why don't you want to be with me...? You barely even let me kiss you, it's like you don't want to be touched by me..."
"Actually... that's kind of what I was talking to Riku about... Axel, I'm so scared that I'm going to screw things up with you... Hell, I already made a huge mistake just this past night... I have no idea what to do with you, how to touch you or kiss you or... anything else," I tell him, my voice shaking a little. "I don't want our first time to be horrible..."
When he starts laughing, I sit back on my knees and cock my head to the side in confusion. "Baby, I don't care if you're awkward... I don't care if you have to ask a thousand questions! Our first time together will be amazing because it's you and me. I don't want you to think about it like I'm somehow better than you... it'll be our first time together for both of us, and it's going to be silly and crazy and yeah, you'll probably make some mistakes just like I will! But then we'll just laugh together and move on, because that's what love is... making mistakes and learning from them. That's why I'm not mad about Riku... it was a mistake, and it's clear that you learned from it."
"You... are absolutely right, Axel... God, what an idiot I am!" I exclaim, face-palming. "I'm sorry I'm so dumb..."
He chuckles softly and pulls me onto his lap, looking up into my eyes. "You aren't dumb..." he says, then quickly flips us so he's straddling me. "Now shut up and let me kiss you..."
I smile up at him and he leans down, wrapping me up in the most intense, toe-curling, goosebump-raising kiss I've ever experienced.
"God damn..." is all I have to say when he pulls back.
"Roxas Fair... I want to have the most incredible, despicable sex of my life with you. ...But not here. When we get home tonight, I'm going to show you what it's like to be with a man. Believe me... you'll never doubt yourself again."
Author's Note: So, let me know if you like the different points of view! I think I might keep them around, so I can elaborate on the relationships more. At first, this was going to be the only chapter, but... I kind of like writing for everyone! Hopefully there was enough drama in this chapter to sustain you... ;P
I'd love more reviews, so I know if you like where I'm taking things! Otherwise I'll just keep writing whatever nonsense pops into my noggin! :)
Thanks for reading!