~A Change in Life~
***Where there is a will, there is a way***
-Toshiro POV-
"Ugh…" I walked; my hand is fumbling at everything along the way to support my body. My body is hurt, especially my arm. "Master, we should go back." Hyorinmaru suddenly said.
'I'm not going back, Hyorinmaru. I won't. She is our enemy!' I refused. I just kept walking. "I don't agree with you. She is the real Kurosaki Karin." Hyorinmaru growled in my inner world.
'In this world, there is just one Kurosaki Karin.' I stated. There are no two person that are exactly same, even twins have one or two differences. "What happen to you? Are you forgetting about her? Yesterday, you said that the one you fought is not Kurosaki Karin! But now, you just saying that there is just one Kurosaki Karin!" He growled angrily.
'I'm the one who need to ask you! What do you mean by me forgetting about her? I won't forget-' I haven't said my entire sentence when he just cut in. "you forget about her! You forget everything about her except you fought that bastard woman yesterday!" Hyorinmaru is angry. He shouted and I think his voice make my inner world shaking.
'What do you mean?' I asked him angrily. Why he is keeping saying that I forget about her? I don't understand! "Have you forgotten your feelings toward her? Have you forget the first time we met her? Have you forget about that necklace? Have you forget the last time you saw her? Have you forgotten all about it?" Hyorinmaru gave me a long speech that I think everyone that heard it will be dizzy.
'I just met her yesterday!' What the hell is this? Feelings? Necklace? I never gave anyone necklace before! "No, you DON'T! You met her 14 years ago!" Hyorinmaru said.
What is this again? Seriously, 14 years ago? What kind of joke is that? 'Don't joke around.' It isn't funny at all. I don't like a lame joke like that. "I'm not joking. It's the truth!" he said seriously.
I stop walking. I'm shocked. 'What…' I began to ask but again, he cut in. "someone must have stolen your memories about her. That is why you forget it!" he grumbled.
My brain is stop thinking for a while. I seems can't found any word in my mind. 'You are joking.' I just could say that to him even though I know he didn't. "I'm serious. After you fight with that fake Karin-san, you forget all about her. She must be the one who stole your memories." He told me his opinions.
'Why should she steal? It's not that she needs it.' In fact, those memories must be not important to her right? It will be another case if there are some secrets that will help her to do something in those memories. "How can I know? Maybe she just wanted to make you kill the real one." He growled again. He likes to growl a lot lately.
'I don't care. I need to find Urahara.' I said while continue walking. Urahara must know something. He always knows everything that is going on in Soul Society and Living world. I don't know from where he got all the information. "I think it is useless." Hyorinmaru said boringly. It seems that he has known what will happen next.
'Why it is useless?' I asked him. Have he know something that I don't know? "See it yourself." He said. I frowned hearing it. Why he doesn't want to tell me? Is he thinking that I will not believe him? But I just silently walk to Urahara's shop. I will know the reasons soon.
'This is his shop.' I arrived at Urahara's shop. I opened the door and glanced around. "Urahara!" I called him. But he didn't appear. 'Where is he?' I saw no one there. "Urahara." I called again. Then I saw him walking out from a room to the door. He stopped and looked at me. "Eh? Why the door is open here? I don't remember having any visitor today." He seems confused.
I'm shocked. 'What?' I don't understand this. Didn't he saw me standing here? Why is he acting like he saw nothing! He turned his body. "Yoruichi! Did you open the door?" he shouted. Then Yoruichi come out and gave him a puzzled look. "I didn't!" she said. "So who?" Urahara asked again.
'Eh? What is this mean? I'm standing here but they seems like didn't see me.' I walked forward and stood in front of him. "Urahara! It's me!" I shouted. But he just ignored me. He didn't even look at me.
Then a red hair man comes out with a shy woman behind him. "Jinta! Did you open the door?" Urahara asked seriously. "Of course no!" Jinta said. Then Urahara looked at the girl. "Ururu?" he asked but she just shook her head silently. Then he looked at Tessai, who just come out. "Tessai, did you open the door?" he asked. "No." Tessai said. Then they are all silent for a while.
"So how is the door open?" Urahara looked back at the door. 'What is this mean?' I really confused. I walked backward and go out from the shop, standing in front of the door. "Maybe it's the wind." Tessai commented. "It won't be the wind." Urahara said while still looking at the door seriously. "Maybe someone come in and hide in here." Yoruichi said boringly. "I sense no outsider it here." Urahara said while holding his weird hat. "Then I have no idea." Yoruichi commented.
"Is it a ghost?" Ururu asked. "We should have seen it, stupid. We can see ghosts, remember?" Jinta said while frowning. "Then it must be a new type of ghost that is unseen to us." Ururu said again. Everyone turned their head to see her. "A new type of ghost?" Urahara asked while thinking. "Ridiculous." Jinta commented.
'No way. They can't see me. They can't hear me. What is going on?' I'm standing there, looking at them, hearing their conversation. I have no idea how can this happen. "I told you before. It is useless. The only person that you can ask for help is her." Hyorinmaru commented.
'How can she see me when even Urahara can't?' I asked, suspicious about her. I don't trust her. "She told me, she is trap in here, in the same world as you, while Urahara is in the living world. This world isn't living world. That is why she is the only one that could help you." He explained to me. 'Impossible.' I looked at the ground; don't want to believe all of this.
"Well then, maybe it is the wind. Because it seems it is going to rain…" Just right after Urahara finished his sentence, the rain pouring down from the sky. I raise my head to see the sky. It is dark. 'Raining…' the rain is so heavy, and it become heavier and heavier. Thunder and storm making this world noisy.
"Your prediction is really accurate, Kisuke." Yoruichi commented. "I just said it. Maybe I should become a fortune teller." Urahara said behind his weird fan. Yoruichi then kicked Urahara's buttocks. "Just close the door." She grumbled while go into the house. Urahara then closed the door.
I looked at the shop, thinking. 'What should I do now?' the rain had make me completely wet. I'm still standing in the middle of the rain. "Go back to her, stupid boy." Hyorinmaru growled.
I frowned. 'I'm not stupid. Since when did you call me stupid boy?' he never called me like that before. This is the first time. "Just now. I learn that phrases from that garrulous dragon." He said, while… blushing I think.
'Garrulous dragon?' I frowned again. I never think that there is a garrulous dragon. What a weird type of dragon. "She is Karin-san's zanpakuto." He whispered.
I knuckled. 'Don't tell me you have a feeling for her.' I teased him. "I'm not! She is annoying! She just keeps giving me a headache!" he growled. I think he is blushing right now. 'Ooh…' I nodded.
I started walking but the dizziness makes me fall down for three times. "Hah..." I panted. Just walking make me feel this tired. "You should go back. The rain is heavier. You are still weak." Hyorinmaru advised.
'She wouldn't allow me into her house again. She said it herself.' I remember how hurt her punch is. What a tomboy woman. I think I can't call her woman. "It is because your ridiculous action!" he said angrily.
'I'm just protecting myself.' I protested. How can I know if she won't hurt me? I'm just waking up. "But you are hurting her heart." He sounded sad.
'What do you mean?' I frowned again. Hurting her heart? I do nothing to her heart. "I won't tell you anything about her. Find it yourself. Now you MUST go back." He said strictly. I just walk.
'She will just punch me again.' I walked, tried to remember the way back to that huge house. Her house is really big. Just like Kuchiki's house. "Then let her punch! You deserved it!" he growled.
'You want your master to suffer?' I narrowed my eyes. I never think that a zanpakuto will say something like that. "It's your fault." He said clearly. 'My fault?' why is this my fault again? Just because I said that I don't need her help. "Yes." He muttered.
'So what if she punches me and won't let me in her house?' I asked him grumpily, let out my fume. "I know she won't just let you like this." He said with confident. 'Why can you be so sure?' I felt annoyed. Why can he trust her like that? "Don't know." He said unemotionally.
I'm still walking. I see her house not far anymore. I stopped and leaning against someone's fence. 'Are you sure… that she isn't our enemy?' I want to make this. I don't want to ask my enemy's help. "I'm sure." He said strictly.
'Then I think I have no choice.' I started walking again. The rain is still pouring down, it hasn't stop yet and there is no sign that the rain will stop soon. I arrived at her house, I standing in front of the gate. 'Should I knock or call her out or just go inside?' I asked Hyorinmaru's opinion.
"Why are you asking me?" he asked me back. 'I asked your opinion.' I stated calmly. "You don't need to do both of them." He said boringly. I frowned again. I think I have been frowning a lot today. 'So? Just Wait?' I asked again. "She will out soon." Right after he said that sentence, I saw her open the gate. She glared at me.
"What do you want? I thought I told you DON'T EVER COME BACK!" she said while punch me again. "Arg! Ouch! It is hurt, you know." I said angrily. But then I remember that I need her help. Ignoring the pain in my cheek, I standing up.
"Uum… I'm sorry about that… I have heard Hyorinmaru's explanation." I stopped. I don't know how to continue. I looked at her and shocked to see her eyes are turned from angry to sad. "Have you remembered?" she asked with a really small voice, almost unheard between the sounds of the rain. "No." I whispered.
She is wet, she isn't using an umbrella. "Umm... Would you mind… helping me?" I asked carefully. I'm worried that she will just kick me and sent me flying to other house. She frowned and just sent me death glares while saying nothing. I gulped. 'I think she won't.'
"No, but with one condition." She suddenly said. "What is it?" I hurriedly asked. "You must obey what I told you to do." She said seriously.
'What? This is ridiculous! How can I…' I'm mutely standing there, not giving any comment. "Just say yes, master!" Hyorinmaru growled inside my inner world. 'What?' No way will I be obeying her! "Say yes, then you will live longer. Say no, if you want to die sooner. Choose one." He said impatiently. This is a hard choice.
I closed my eyes. "Fine." I muttered. Then I opened my eyes again and seeing her walked forward to my place. She holds my hand and helps me walking into her house. "I can walk by myself." I coldly stated. She glared at me. "Wha-" before I finished my question, I fall down.
GUBRAK
"Ouch… what is that for!" I said while glaring at her. She let go her hands without telling me! "You said you can walk by yourself." She said innocently. 'What the hell?' I gritted. "She is pretty mad at you." Hyorinmaru commented.
'Fine, I will walk by myself!' I stood up and walked forward, but my dizziness is coming back again. And I lose my balance. "Ugh…" I fall down, but I felt a hand holding my body. It is that girl's hand. "I thought you said you can walk by yourself." She mocked me. "Shut up." I muttered. With her help, I walked inside her house. She led me to a room, a big room. I sit down on the floor.
She went out and came back within five minutes. She gave me a towel and a dry blue kimono. "Here. Dry yourself and change your clothes." She said. "Thanks." I whispered and took the things from her. She then went out again.
'She is good.' I don't know why, but I feel save with her. I don't know what kind of feeling is this. "I told you, didn't I?" Hyorinmaru commented. I just ignored him. I quickly dried my body and change my kimono.
She comes back again after a while. She put down a futon beside me. "This is your futon. Give me your zanpakuto. I should keep it." She said while taking the wet towel and kimono. "Why? If someone attacks me, I won't have a weapon to fight back!" I protested. I won't be giving my one weapon to other people.
"Don't worry. Suzaku will guard this house." She said while looking straight at me. 'I must obey her, right?' I have said that I will obey her. Now I think I regret it a lot. "Right." Hyorinmaru commented.
"Fine." I sighed. I gave her my zanpakuto. She took it and in instant my zanpakuto is disappeared. I'm shocked. My eyes widened. "What did you-" I was going to asked when she cut in. "don't worry. I just keep it with me. He is at my inner world now." She said. Her eyes show that she is saying the truth.
"You are not lying, are you?" I asked worriedly. "I'm not. Now sleep and take rest. Your body needs a lot of rest." She commanded me. "This is still morning." I protested. I think I'm just waking up not long ago. "When you lie down, you won't say that this is still morning anymore." She said, stood up while carrying the wet towel and kimono.
She walked to the door, closed the lamp and walked out. "I will wake you up when it is lunch time." She said while closing the window. 'She is really mad with me. She still sounded angry. Her voice, her action. She is too calm. It's different from the one that hugged me. However, I still can't trust her like Hyorinmaru does.' I lay down. I don't want to sleep but my eyes are so heavy. I feel my body is really tired. Before I even notice it, my eyes closed and I sleep with a peaceful mind.
~To be Continued~
This is all Toshiro's POV.
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