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278 Dougies POV
I awoke late after two long lazy days, not really caring what time it was or anything, too happy to just lay in bed and not move for a while longer. Looking at the clock, I realised it was only 9am, so it wasn't actually late, maybe I could get a few more hours sleep? I liked that idea, a lot, so I curled up again, resting on my husbands chest, my multicoloured arm resting on his abs, holding him close.
I started dreaming as I fell asleep, about when everything was still good, and we were on tour, belting out some awesome tunes. Tom was laughing, he didn't have scarred arms, and neither did Danny. We were all so happy, so, so happy, why did everything go wrong? Why couldn't everything be happy again? I knew that things were on the up again, but would it last like that? I didn't know, and to be honest, I was scared too, even my dream had a slight edge to it, scars slowly appeared on Tom and Dannys arms, Toms skin got paler and paler, he deflated more and more until he was barely holding himself up. Why wasn't I allowed one good nights sleep? I just wanted to escape my troubles at night, I didn't want to be followed like this!
"Dougs, Dougie wake up, you're dreaming again." Harry shook me awake, stroking my hair gently as I woke up. "I hate dreams." I groaned, lifting my head up then let it fall back down again. "I know you do, they'll get better soon though. I'm sure they'll get better eventually." Harry sighed, tangling his fingers into my long hair, brushing it and sorting it so it was neater on my head. "I hope they do. I hate this." I grumbled, I really did hate this, I just wanted to have a full nights sleep, just once. No nightmares, no dreams, just relaxing, safe, sleep.
"I do too, and we will make them better, I swear we will make them better." Harry reassured me, rubbing my bare back, letting me climb almost on top of him. "but how?" I asked, pressing myself close to Harrys body, nuzzling into his neck. "well, your nightmares are caused by the stress of thinking of Tom and Danny, so if we get them better, then your nightmares will hopefully go away because you won't be stressing out anymore." Harry explained, playing with my hair and kissing my nose, something that always helped calm me down. "I hope so, I really do. I hate these nightmares." I leant into him, so glad to feel his safe, strong arms around me.
"I hate them too. Look, how about we go round Tom and Dannys now, we'll probably end up watching a film together and you can fall asleep again there. You know you sleep easier when you're around the others." Harry suggested, running his fingers over my back, tracing patterns and shapes over it, making me shiver. "yeah, alright." I agreed, reluctantly getting up, but dragging Harry to the shower with me, I wasn't going to go anywhere on my own, I wanted to be together.
279 Harrys POV
I stayed with Dougie as he got ready that morning, letting him pull me close and make me hold him, I didn't mind really, I loved hugging Dougie, it was one of my favourite things to do. And when it was making him feel better, how could I possibly refuse holding the cute little boy in my arms? I couldn't, not ever, not when it made him feel a little better.
I even had to hold Dougie close when we wandered down the road to Tom and Dannys, he made me piggy back him down the road, his arms and legs tight around my shoulders and hips. "hey! Dougie, why are you on Harrys back?" Carrie answered the door, laughing a little. "I'm tired!" Dougie yawned, nuzzling into my neck. "he is, and what Captain Dougwash commands, he gets." I joked, heaving Dougie up a little more, hearing him yawn. "aw, well, he can doze for a while until Tom and Danny wake up, they're still getting ready at the moment." Carrie laughed, letting us in properly. I dropped Dougie down on the sofa, hearing him whine loudly as I stood back up again. "no! You're warm! I wanna cuddle! Come back!" he whined, yanking on my shirt until I sat down. "alright, I was only going to sit down too, don't worry." I pulled Dougie onto my lap, letting him curl up in my arms, pulling my large hoodie around him so we were both encased in it.
"I feel safer now." Dougie whispered, almost silently. "good, just wait a while longer alright? Cause then maybe we can all curl up together." I smiled, I couldn't help it, Dougie looked so sweet as he curled up to me, he looked so relaxed and calm again. It was the best thing to see him so calm after he had looked so distressed before he woke up this morning. I missed being able to see him sleeping soundly, curled up on his side, looking so cute I just wanted to pick him up and mother him like you would with a baby. I couldn't wait for him to fall asleep when Tom and Danny around, because then he would sleep properly, because he could hear them talking and moving about, subconsciously that would stop his nightmares for a while.
We didn't have to wait long, Tom and Danny appeared downstairs within about half an hour, still in their pyjamas. Danny hadn't even bothered to brush his hair, it was still all over the place, sticking up in weird tufts of curls. Tom had made of an effort by the looks of things, he had at least brushed his hair before shoving a beanie hat over the top, and pulled on his Jedi dressing gown, which he hadn't worn in ages. The smile of Dougies face (because he had bought it for him 2 years ago) was the biggest I had ever seen, his eyes completely disappeared.
"you're in your dressing gown!" Dougie almost bounced, seemingly gaining a bit of energy. "er, yeah, I was cold and...yeah." Tom blushed a little, pulling at the huge piece of material self consciously. "good job I found it yesterday then isn't it? Otherwise you would have frozen!" Danny smiled, leading the small blonde onto the sofa by gently pulling his hips, his hands almost wrapping around said bones and meeting in the middle. "yeah, thanks." Tom sighed, falling silent again, curling up on the sofa, for the first time in ages. Then I noticed that Danny had his hands still on Toms side, keeping him on the sofa, not letting him move away. Neither seemed to really mind about the contact, which was a change, at least they looked relaxed for once, relaxed enough for Dougie to feel calm enough to at least snooze.
The small boy curled up on my lap properly, making himself comfy against my chest. I ran hands through his hair to calm him down more, feeling Dougies body relax, inch by inch, until he was almost like a floppy doll, like Toms Mickey Mouse. "sleep tight Dougs, we'll all be here, don't worry. You won't have nightmares today." I whispered, kissing his forehead. Dougie smiled a little and fell limp against me, falling asleep in my arms, holding my jacket in his hand.