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Age Fifteen

Sunshine and Clouds

"Bruder, there's someone I want you to meet."

Ludwig looked up from the textbook on his desk, his eyes staring confused at Gilbert who was now standing in his doorway, a grin on his face. "Yes?"

There was a shuffling of feet, and a soft whisper from an unknown voice. A moment later, a boy in a deep blue sweater that matched his eyes stepped out from behind a Gilbert to stand next to him, their hands knitted together.

"This is my soulmate, Matthew Williams." Gilbert explained, looking from his younger brother to his boyfriend. "Matty, this is West."

"H-Hello, I'm Matthew." The man with beautiful blue eyes hidden by glasses said, voice soft and timid. Giving a shy smile, he looked at Ludwig thoughtfully before nodding. "It's nice to meet you, Ludwig."

Ludwig was at a loss for words. His brother had found his soulmate. His heart swelled with different emotions, part of him proud and happy for his older brother who he knew had been eager to meet the love of his life for many years now, and the other part of him saddened and jealous.

His brother had found his soulmate, and yet he didn't even have words.

But as jealous and sad as he was, he had to admit that the two of them looked good together. Matthew's shiny orange-y blond hair was a nice difference with Gilbert's own white hair, and their eyes suited each other nicely, like early morning and late afternoon. Matthew was obviously shy, a soft gentle kind, while Gilbert had such a noticeable presence. Gilbert was the type to outshine the sun, but Matthew seemed content to just be one of the clouds around the sun.

Knowing that just made the hole in Ludwig's heart grow larger.

"Ja... it is nice to meet you as well, Matthew." The blond forced himself to choke out, nodding and spreading a smile on his face. "I'm very happy for you, Gilbert."

Gilbert beamed, happy to have his younger brother's approval. "Matty is really awesome, almost as awesome as me!"

"How'd you meet?" Ludwig asked, although he wasn't entirely sure if he actually wanted to know. He was happy for his brother, he truly was, but he couldn't shake the feeling of utter despair that edged it's way into his heart.

He didn't really want to hear another love story while his own would never even exist. The more love stories he heard of soulmates meeting and falling in love, the more he wanted to break down, the more he wanted to give up on the belief that his own words would appear one day.

Another bright smile from Gilbert, and Ludwig noticed Matthew's own lips twisting in a happy smile. "Luddy, the story is totally awesome! Which is only fitting considering the two of us are so awesome!" Gilbert said, excitement coating his tone as he pulled Matthew into the room to tell the tale.

"See, bruder, I was walking around college and there was this huge crowd, and I noticed Matthew here trying to get by, but no one was noticing him," Gilbert paused to smile at his boyfriend. "So like the awesome guy I am, I grabbed his hand and pushed my way through the crowd for him."

Gilbert's words read 'I can't believe you noticed me', Ludwig knew that. So he couldn't help but be curious as to what Matthew's words said as well.

"My words say 'Of course I did, you seem awesome too', in case you were wondering." Matthew said with a kind smile, as if reading Ludwig's mind.

Ludwig had to refrain from rolling his eyes. Of course that would be one of the first things Gilbert said to his soulmate. He couldn't help but sympathize with Matthew, who had quickly fallen in love with his 'awesome' idiot of a brother, and would now have to deal with his antics.

"Bruder, isn't Matthew awesome?" Gilbert asked, obviously looking for his brother's praise on having such a handsome soulmate.

"Yes, bruder, Matthew is awesome." Ludwig answered with a small smile, knowing his brother wouldn't leave him alone until he had gotten the answer he wanted. And of course, Ludwig wasn't lying. Matthew seemed like a nice person, and he was sure that the brunette would be good for his brother, and he seemed like a kind, agreeable person. "I hope you two are happy together."

"Of course we are! We're soulmates!" Gilbert said, puffing out his chest with pride.

Ludwig turned back to his textbook, pouring all his hurt, disappointment and other emotions into studying for the irritating earth science test coming up in a few days. There was a silence as Matthew and Gilbert stood in the doorway, wondering if they should continue the conversation or simply leave, and the two exchanged looks before Matthew began to walk back down the hallway.

Gilbert turned to follow his boyfriend, before confidently speaking. "You'll get your soulmate one day too, Luddy." And walking away.

Ludwig flipped his textbook shut with a grunt, and couldn't help but think that Gilbert was just lying to him. Would he ever get his Matthew? He wanted someone to have words that matched his, he wanted someone's hand to hold. He wanted someone to introduce to Gilbert.

It'd been a long time since he last believed in that promise Gilbert had made to him. If it hadn't come true then, why would it come true now? Why would he get his words now, when he was fifteen, instead of when he was born?

Why did he have to be the one without words?

For what he regretted to say wasn't the first time in his life, he was starting to wish he had never been born in the first place.

But the thought that did pop up in his mind for the first time in his life was the thought of 'you can't do anything about the fact you were born, but you can do something about being alive.'

For the first time in his life, Ludwig started to ponder what would happen if he took his own life.

To be continued

Coming next: Age 16