LeilaTheGalaxyDefender - yeah, shame he was asleep :/
xxPUDDxx - thanks! and thats awesome, thats the night i'm going too as well! its going to be so good!
309 Dougies POV
The interviews were exactly the same the past few were, Tom and Danny were gay, and together, no we were not in a four way relationship (yes, that question actually had to been asked) no we were not changing as a band because of it, everything was staying exactly the same, only now Tom and Danny were open about their relationship. It was still exhausting though, going back and forth across studios, giving interviews here there and everywhere, stopping for photos in certain places, bundling back into the minivan, somehow trying to get food in between too. It was sort of like how it used to be, to be honest, I had missed this, but I didn't like how we were all now. Tired, worn out, all keeping an eye on Tom and making sure he wasn't suffering from what everyone was saying, and making sure Fletch wasn't around, or Paul for that matter. He had gone when Fletch was fired, Tommy, Richard and Darren trusted Tom to not run off by himself, mostly because we all kept hold of him, and he didn't seem to want to run anymore. He was over that, thank god.
I did like the last interview, because it was with the girl called Avril again, who had talked to me and Harry while we were on tour. Her outfit was still as cool as last time, a white off the shoulder tshirt, with a black drum kit surrounded stars and musical notes, black skinny jeans, and black boots, splattered with green paint. Her hair was straight, the black and green running through it clear to see. "hey boys! Nice seeing you two again!" Avril smiled as we walked in, bouncing up from her seat on the sofa, shaking hands with the both of us. "again, huh?" Danny looked typically confused, wracking his brain like he was trying to remember her. "yeah, I interviewed these two while you guys were on tour a few months ago, you two were writing a song together I think." Avril explained, offering us all seats. Me and Harry sat down together, leaving a little space between ourselves like we usually did in public, but I pulled Harrys arm around me, keeping our fingers entwined together, a constant reminder of each other. I couldn't go long without at least looking at my husband, and I couldn't go into interviews without knowing he was there, so I was holding his hand now, so I knew he was there, keeping me safe.
"oh, cool." Danny shrugged and sat down next to us, his arm going around Toms waist, mostly to keep him in place, he still looked a little upset. "so anyway, I thought I would go away from the norm thats around the moment. I thought we could talk more about your songs and how you came to write them." Avril started, we all breathed a sigh of a relief, hopefully not more of the same questions. "yeah, sounds good." Danny smiled, nodding, sitting up a bit more. "good, so, I'm guessing some of the things you've previously told us about what inspired you about your songs aren't 100% true. So, with things like Obviously, were they actually about other people or about each other?" Avril started a tape, leaning forward a little. "erm, well, maybe not Obviously specifically, but I for one did slightly base the lyrics a bit on Tom, I will admit that." Danny blushed slightly, shyly peaking glances at Tom.
"I, er, sorta did the same thing with Obviously." Tom blushed a darker red, making Dannys ears go pink, and his freckles disappear. "thanks Tommy." Danny mumbled, his smile getting wider, like it did as he sang and looked over at his lover. "aw, nice nickname! So, what about All About You and The Heart Never Lies?" Avril giggled a little, pushing the recorder a little closer, in case they mumbled anymore.
"we're surplus for requirement here I think." Harry whispered almost inaudibly in my ear, basically saying, 'you can cuddle closer if you want, no-ones going to notice' so I did, leaning on Harrys side, pulling his arm further around me. "er, The Heart Never Lies was about the band at first, but, it kinda turned into a love song...about Danny." Tom made himself go deep red, and Danny go so pink it was almost like he was sunburnt. "aw thats cute! And All About You?" Avril pressed, writing down some things, probably their reactions. "well, we weren't together at the time, but, sorta, I guess. Cause we have danced on the kitchen tiles, and stuff." Tom could not get any redder, it was impossible for him to be any redder than he already was. "aw that is adorable! Danny, any other songs of note you've written about Tom here?" Avril look like she was about to melt from the conversation, I just wanted to laugh at how red they were.
"Falling In Love, Little Joanna to an extent. Erm, I think thats it to be honest." Danny shrugged, basically now lobster red, even his ears were completely pink now. "aw, well, I think its time I wrapped this up, thank you for this. It was nice to meet the four of you at last. I hope this all carries on going well for you." Avril shook each of our hands, collecting up her stuff. "thanks, we'll try." Danny smiled, the blush calming down a little now. Though, it didn't stop us taking the mick the whole way home, making them both blush so red again!
310 Toms POV
I let Danny hold me on the way home, feeling a bit embarrassed after that last interview, revealing that I had written love songs Danny, even before we got together. It was a little desperate, I would probably never hear the end of it, going on the current teasing we were receiving from Harry and Dougie. "you two are so sappy! Writing crooning love songs to each other!" Harry teased, Danny blushed so bright red I was sure it was impossible to go any redder without being sun burnt. "you wanna kiss each other, hug each other, you wanna have se-" Harry clamped a hand over Dougies mouth before he carried on with his chanting, dragging out a few words. "shut it Dougs, you've done the same!" Danny retaliated, Dougie pulled a confused face, "Transylvania?" he continued, Harrys hand dropped. "really?" Harry now looked confused.
"er, yeah, cause, your family didn't approve of me at first, did they? So I wrote that song...cause, I love you, and I didn't want anything but to be together." Dougie now went quiet, reminded me a little of that awkward 15 year old boy who couldn't talk to anyone, no matter who they were, until he had seen them a few times. "aw, Pugsley! Come here, I love you too!" Harry practically melted, pulling Dougie into his arms, squeezing his husband like it was the last thing he would ever do. "you should have told me sooner about this! Why didn't you?" Harry carried on, pulling away slightly to look at Dougie properly. "because, its kinda embarrassing...and I was an awkward 18 year old, I didn't know how to tell you how much I loved you. I'm only good at song writing, so-" Dougie got cut off by Harry kissing him, before he really did turn the colour of his headband. "my god I love you so much." Harry grinned as they broke apart, stroking Dougies fringe from his face. "I love you too." Dougie smiled shyly, burrowing himself into his drummer boys arms, both boys kissing again.
I could only feel jealously towards them, they could do things like this, without any problems, nothing stopped them. They were so happy together, unlike me and Danny. There were times where I felt like were a little like that, but then that was shattered by the monster inside my head growling at me that I wasn't good enough for this relationship, I would wind Danny up eventually and he would leave me. And I sadly believed it, because my inner monster was always telling me the truth, he was probably right about this as well, and it was just me being hopeful believing anything different. But, I really did want to have a relationship like Harry and Dougies with Danny, and in the moments where I believed we were like that, it either my voice or my worries telling me that I couldn't kiss Danny, I couldn't hug him, I couldn't hold his hand. I couldn't do anything with him, I was too ugly, too stupid, too pale, not perfect like him, so I couldn't do what I wanted, because it was disgusting. Thats right, you're not worth it, don't ever think you are, you're lucky that you have that hand on you right now. You're not sleeping with him tonight, you're giving him freedom tonight, don't think you'll be close all day. My monster told me, so this was my punishment for having the little thought that maybe I could have something nice.
"Tommy, wanna come back to mine tonight?" Danny asked, right on queue, like he was reading my mind. "er, no, I want...to spend the night alone." I answered slowly, not even trying to make my head face Dannys, not wanting to see the disappointment. More like relief. "oh, alright. I'm okay with that. Want me to stay round now, or...?" Danny sounded heartbroken, I winced. Don't, you, DARE say yes. "yeah, alright." I nodded, I would like Danny to come round now, feeling a sense of achievement for defying the voice. "awesome, come on, lets leave the love birds making out and get some peace." Danny giggled as we rolled up to my house again, me and him getting out of the car, leaving Harry and Dougie in there, still kissing, it seemed to be getting a little X-rated now.
They didn't join us for the rest of the night, just left me and Danny and Carrie in my front room, watching old comedy reruns. I honestly tried to focus on them, but I was so occupied with the thought of sleeping on my own tonight, I was so caught up in that, I didn't even have my monster telling me how stupid I was. The night crept way too fast, and soon, it was midnight, time for Danny to leave. Don't say you've changed your mind, stick with this, you will stick with this. "so, better get going, shouldn't I?" Danny sighed at the door, holding my hands. "yeah, I guess." I shrugged, not wanting this, I wanted to say I had changed my mind and I wanted him to come upstairs and sleep with me. I know I was never in the bed, but I found hearing his snores comforting, knowing that he was just there was enough. "I'll be back round tomorrow. Alright? Maybe we could walk the dogs together or something." Danny managed a smile, bringing me closer. "yeah, that could be cool." I agreed, letting myself be hugged close. "awesome, I'll swing by around 10ish." Danny opened the door one handed, letting me go at the last minute, but giving me a goodbye kiss before going off back down the road to his house.
I watched him go down there, and once he had disappeared inside his door, I went to my own room, getting ready for bed and trying to go to sleep. But I couldn't, it was too quiet, I was so used to loud snores, that not hearing that anymore scared me, the darkness seemed darker, it felt less safe. I didn't want to be here, I wanted to be with Danny, in every sense of the word, so badly. You can't go over there, you're freeing him tonight from you. Do not go over there. I was warned, but I so badly wanted to, not to get into bed or anything, I wasn't crazy. But, what if I curled up on the floor in Dannys room, and fell asleep to his snores? I would be gone by morning, I would get up early to go, even though Danny liked to sleep in for hours. Don't you dare, I will make you cut so much into your thighs if you go over there! To be honest, I didn't even care, I just wanted to go to sleep comfortably, hearing my boyfriends snores. So, I did, ignoring the monsters words, I got up and went over to Dannys house, curling up on the floor at the foot of his bed, falling asleep almost instantly as I heard his snores.