Hi guys. I am so sorry; I can only apologise for the amount of time this has taken to update; I would explain but I'm not going to keep you here bored out of your minds :P I've decided to break the last chapter into two parts; both will probably go up today but its easier to write and make sense in two parts. So here goes...
"Elias Crane"
I whispered softly every part of my instinct shutting down. It was too late; I had given up. I couldn't do this anymore.
"Good girl Cameron; but we need more; then the pain will stop. I promise"
Catherine stroked my hair, shuddering I started to retch; I had finally let my body's basic needs take over and the effects were starting to take place. Catherine jumped back as I threw up bile everywhere; no food to sick up.
"Come on Cam, good girl tell me the whole list"
I shook my head
"Just make it stop, please"
"I will"
"Make it stop! NOW"
I howled as the pain truly started to hit me. Everything starting to jumble in my mind. Catherine stoked my stomach with the tazer and my body, to weak to move, bruised almost immediately. I didn't care; I was past caring about anything.
Physical pain is my best friend; it's one of the only things I have now and it's better than the emotional pain. The emotional pain just takes over; you don't get used to it. Ever. It slowly kills you inside. But never takes your life. At least, not when you have no means of committing suicide. Physical pain is like a friend now. I mean, I had to befriend something. I made the best decision.
I opened my eyes, my eyesight blurry. The sun starting to set. I hadn't fallen asleep; it just takes so long to even think. It took so long to think about my new best friend. Suddenly there was a needle going into my arm; I didn't think about the pain; it was minimal anyway and pains my friend.
"Operation time"
Catherine said happily clapping her hands together. I choked, blocking out the emotions.
"Who gives a damn about kids anyway? I'd be a rubbish mother"
I mumble sleepily.