Ana POV

I have know I am in the hospital and was in a car accident for a long time now. It is torture living in a body you can't move. You can hear and feel everything going on around you but you can't respond. I have been in and out of sleep for a long time. I just can't open my eyes yet. Grace and Carrick were here telling me they loved me. Things sound ok at home and Grace is been the rock for my man. Mom and Dad had to take Kate back to school so they have not visited in a while but they do phone Christian to check up on me.

My girls come here often to visit me. Or should I rather say they have found a new place for them to gossip to one another. I am not complaining because you learn a lot of juicy stuff.

I know that Katy my cousin and Stacey apparently Elliot and Christian's ex were responsible for our accident and the asshole Matt. Good thing I broke his arm when I did. They still have not been caught though.

I know Elliot and Megan are engaged and are waiting for me to wake up to get hitched. No pressure on me guys.

Tom and Kate got engaged.

Bruno and Jess moved in together

Matthew and Sarah also moved in together into his and Megan's flat.

Megan has moved in with Elliot giving Matthew the flat.

Cary and Pam are going to visit her folks for 3 weeks in England. And are also engaged.

Tammy is now working at GreySteel helping Megan out which makes me very happy to hear.

Alex and Mia also got engaged

Luke and Jazz are just dating

Bulldog has been taking my accident very hard and over working himself in physiotherapy.

Terry is engaged and I can't wait to attend that wedding. He promised me it will not happen unless I am there.

Grey Construction have started construction on my second club.

Christian is doing a good job running the businesses.

A while ago I over heard Elliot and Megan talking about me loosing my baby that I didn't even know was there. I cried internally for a long time till I finally accepted it. It still hurts but it just was not the right time, I believe everything happens for a reason. I will have more kids when I am safe and healed. I know I have been lying here a long time because Storm came by so I know my secret is out and I know Christian and Elliot got my letter. I am glad they have kept it a secret. Only Taylor is aware its mine and Christian's.

It feels so good when Christian holds me in his arms and talks to me about his day. I have actual learnt a lot about the business world lately. Though I can't respond it's still comforting. Every evening he lies next to me and sings me to sleep and it was the best sound in the world. Terry, Elliot and Bulldog fight with me a lot about me been lazy and not wanting to get up it makes me laugh to myself. Christian left with Taylor to sort out a problem at the club. Leaving me with an irritating bulldog.

Bulldog has been sitting next to me and shouting at me for the last hour to get up. He is causing me a serious headache. He needs to shut the fuck up already. He is seriously getting on my fucking nerves. I want to just shut him up. I scream in my mind as loud as I can. "SHUT THE FUCK UP". And he gasps loudly and says.

"Ana baby you are up?"

Oh shit did I say that out loud? No it can't be. I am not up yet. Or am I. I slowly try to peel my eyes open and I close them quickly the light is too bright. He notices and goes and closes the blinds. It is easier in the dark. I am finally awake. I try again and look up to find him looking down at me. He is crying so I say in a whisper.

"Max I'm ok. Water." I reach out with my left hand and take his making him laugh. He hates that name and I know it. He just stares at me like a statue. He rings the bell and the doctor comes in and checks me out. I am still very tired.

"Mrs. Grey welcome back to us. You need to please take it easy. I will allow you to have some water but small sips please. Try getting more rest till you feel stronger. Do you have any questions?" I nod my head.

"Christian? When can I go home? Can I have food?" he laughs at me.

"That's a lot of questions Mrs. Grey. I am not sure were your husband is but believe me, he has rarely left your side the entire time so he will be back soon. You can go home when you are stronger maybe 1 more week. Yes you can eat but maybe start with a light meal like soup. Does that answer your questions?" I nod and he leaves saying he will be back later.

I notice that the entire time Bulldog has held my hand and I relies how hard this has all been on him. He is also in a wheelchair. And I ask him what's wrong. He explains his injuries but says he is getting stronger. He can walk on his own a little and I understand. After I finally get water down my throat I feel human again.

"Max tell me what's been going on I want the truth?" he looks at me funny making me laugh. So I say.

"Sorry. Bulldog tell me what's been going on I want the truth?"

"That's better baby. It's so good to hear your voice. It has been torture waiting for you to get up. You have been in a coma for 10 weeks. 8 of those 10 weeks I was also in a coma."

I am stunned. 10 weeks. I notice he is crying again and I wipe his tears away and hold him tight and he breaks down in my arms causing me to cry to. I think he just needed to get it all out. I can see everyone crying at some point today. When he pulls himself together he carries on.

"You had reconstructive surgery on your right ankle and right arm and your elbow. They have reconstructed and rebuilt your bones with titanium. It is all heeled up and you now need physiotherapy to be able to walk again. You had to have your spleen removed so except the flu shot often and your lung had to be fixed but all that went ok. You are all heeled now. We were only waiting for you to decide to wake up and stop being so darn lazy."

"Very funny Max. But I have been awake most of the time. I just couldn't open my eyes. You have visited me every day for the past two weeks. Everybody else is either engaged or moving in together. So what's your excuse for staying single?"

I can see the surprise and embarrassment on his face but he gives me an honest answer.

"I am not ready to make a commitment with Tammy until I am completely healed. We did speak about it and she is also not ready for this. We decided to take it real slow and not rush into anything long-term."

"Ok that makes sense. I also heard Elliot and Megan discuss me loosing a pregnancy. It was hard for me to come to terms with it. I am still very sad I allowed that to happen to my baby. If I knew things would have been so different. Christian is going to blame me for killing his child. I am too scared to face him."

"That is bullshit Ana and you know it. He is a man of his word and he made you a promise. In sickness and in health he will be by your side. And he has every single day for 10 weeks and 4 days in total. They had to bring in a cot for him to sleep because he said he made you a promise to you that he will never sleep a night without you."

"He is blaming himself. Actually we all are blaming ourselves for not keeping you safe. It was our jobs and we failed you once again. Your husband loves you with his everything, he would never give you up. The day of the accident when his mom told him what had happened to you he tore up the waiting room. It took 3 strong men to pin him down and Grace had to sedate him. He was out for a few hours. When he came back he promised Elliot he is going to be strong for you. So please get that shit out of your head because it will break his heart if you push him away now."

I couldn't stop crying. The things he was telling me was breaking my heart. I needed my Christian to be with me now. I wanted to be in his arms, to hear his lovely voice and to feel his soft lips on mine.

"Bulldog can I please use your phone I need Christian?"

"Bulldog is everything ok with Ana?" Oh my husband sounds so good. I can't help but giggle giving myself away.

"Ana? Ana Is that you baby?" I can here how desperate he sounds.

"Christian I have been waiting for you?"

"Baby I am on my way now." I can hear the joy and excitement in his voice. It makes me giggle more.

"That's the best sound in the world baby." He says and I can hear he is shuffling probably trying to get to me.

"Christian I am starving, please could you bring me Chicken Noodle soup, garlic bread, coke and chocolate brownies?" He starts laughing making me laugh and he says.

"Are you sure that's all my love? Is there nothing else you need?"

"Maybe some clean clothes so I can have a shower."

"I will fetch it all for you baby. I love you and I have missed you so much Ana."

"I love you to. See you soon."