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408 Harrys POV
The next couple of days rehearsals were done at Toms house, simply because Carrie wanted to keep Tom there, for some reason that only the two of them knew about. Tom himself was quieter than usual, jumpier too, constantly looking like he wanted to rip himself to shreds at any second. The only way to stop it was to have him play on the piano, or to sit him in front of cartoons, or his sketch book. Those three things kept him sane, literally, I don't think there would have been a Tom left without any one of those three things.
Also, Carrie followed him like a shadow, where Tom went, Carrie went too. I wanted to know what the hell had happened between the two of them, but it seemed like Carrie was guarding him, documenting every single move Tom made, holding onto his hand a lot too. "so, Carrie, are you coming with us to the performance tomorrow?" I asked, breaking the slightly awkward silence between the four of us. "yeah. I'm coming, for moral support and all that." Carrie smiled, sitting next to Tom on the floor as he drew in his book, completely engrossed in it.
"cool." Dougie spoke up for the first time that day, at Toms, it seemed like he had his tongue cut out. He barely said a word, just curled up to me at any available moment, like he was making sure I was still here. "yeah, it'll be fun, won't it Tom?" Carrie gently brought Tom out of his world, he nodded and went back to drawing again. Tom barely spoke either, just mostly sat there, playing when he needed to, getting it note perfect, even though he looked ready to fall asleep.
And thats how our days went until the show day, we had to be there by 10am for some strange reason, considering we weren't playing until 1 in the afternoon. But, we did it anyway, deciding to see if we could sleep in the dressing room. Dougie managed it quite well, falling asleep on my lap, finally catching some sleep, his nightmares had been getting worse, I was sure that the both of us had collectively slept for about an hour last night.
Danny managed to find a spot on a chair to fall asleep in too, and Tom managed to crawl under a table and fall asleep there, Carrie sitting in front of him like a guard. "do you think that Tom will be able to sing today? He hasn't sung once yet in front of us." I asked, playing with Dougies hair, noticing that he was clutching onto his toy dinosaur. "I think he'll be fine. He's sung in front of me a few times, testing out the lyrics. He'll be on top form for the performance, don't worry." Carrie leant against the table, deflating the first time in three days. "you sure?" I wanted to check, make sure. "yeah, he'll be fine. I've dosed him up on medication and made sure he's well slept. Just remind him that its your last performance for about two months if he looks wobbly." Carrie advised, putting me at a bit more ease. Now if this performance actually went well, it would be a miracle.
409 Dougies POV
Harry woke me up about twenty minutes before the performance, so Mellissa could do my hair and make up. He stayed with me too, giving me as much as support and courage as he could, always keeping his hands on me, making sure I knew he was there. If Harry walked away from me right now, I was actually going to faint. I was just so worried for Tom, he was practically silent, I was scared he wasn't going to get through this performance, I was almost sure he wasn't going to make it through this performance. He hadn't even sung in front of us, how was he going to cope in front of the audience and the cameras?
My nerves heightened even more as we got to the studio, I was actually shaking, almost staring at a surprising cool Tom. "good luck guys, break a leg out there. Its our last one for a few months, so, make it a good one." Tommy encouraged unhelpfully, didn't he know this was going to be terrible?! "Dougie, breathe, its going to be alright. Carrie thinks its going to be okay, and I trust her." Harry whispered, pressing a kiss to my forehead, adjusting my bandana a little. "what if its not?" I squeaked out, shoving my hand in my pocket for my dinosaur. "Doug, we'll come to that if anything goes wrong, now have we practised and practised?" Harry made me nod, "and have you got your dinosaur?" I nodded again, "then it shall be fine. This thing brings luck, right? So it'll be fine." Harry smiled a little, framing my face in his large hands.
"I don't need the luck though, Tom does." I brought it out of my pocket, looking at it like it had all the answers. "then give it to him, go on, go and give him some luck." Harry advised, pushing me gently towards my fellow band mate. "T-Tom, I brought my lucky dinosaur... do you want it for this?" I said just above a whisper, being met with a confused face. "er..." Tom looked very confused, like he had no idea what to say. "yes, thanks Doug." Carrie took it off my hand and put it in Toms jacket pocket, smiling at me, I managed a smile back before the urge to hide inside Harry took over. "didn't go too badly, did it?" Harry smiled, just as we got called on.
"good luck, I love you." He whispered, sitting at his drum kit, giving me a smile from there until I turned and faced the crowd. "and singing their new song, its McFLY!" the presenter smiled, the crowd cheered, the music started, and Tom started singing.
I'm gettin' tired of asking,
is this the final time?
So did I make you happy?
Cause' you cried an ocean
There's a thousand lines
about the way you smile
written in my mind
but every single word's a lie
I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
Don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I would never wish anyone to feel the way
I do
Is the sign from heaven
showing me the light?
was this supposed to happen?
I'm better off without you
so you can leave tonight
and don't you dare come back
and try to make things right
cause I'll be ready for a fight
Yeah
I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
You said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
Don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I would never wish anyone to feel the way
I do
I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
You said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
Don't know how the hell I fell in love with you
I would never wish anyone to feel the way
I do
you said and you said and you said and you said
do, I do, do, I do, I do, do, I do
you said and you said and you said
you said it don't matter
It was beautiful, Toms voice was beautiful, filled with so much power and emotion, it was heart breaking but beautiful. It was like we were looking into his heart, seeing how badly he was broken, how much our 'affair' had broken his heart, and now he was giving it his all, like this song was his whole life.
The sheer emotion by the third chorus was enough to make me want to cry, Tom almost was crying, the tears there, never escaping his eyes as he belted out every note like it was his last. I was left speechless by the end, the three of us were, completely in awe of the sudden life in Tom, and from the song itself. It was almost like all the emotion Tom had been feeling the past few days had been bottled up and had exploded into this performance. And wow it was mind blowing.