A/N: OK so this chapter is really random but it came to me unfortunately I've now ruined the song Agadoo you'll find out why as you read on but I'm stuck on how to get them together I could do with your ideas.
After visiting the headstone that was made for Duncan Serena had been down again she was in theatre right now with Ric and Edward with Harry observing.
"Are you OK Ms Campbell?" Harry asked he had been studying her whilst she stitched up a liver another Pri Def case, "Ms Campbell?"
"Dr Tressler I am busy right now," Serena attempted to ignore the young Junior Registrar but he was breathing down her neck watching, "Dr Tressler will you get off my back!"
Harry jumped back shocked at the sudden outburst he hadn't intended to annoy her, "Alright keep your knickers on," Harry then tensed up as Serena's eyes locked at him, "Oh I see don't like that I said that in front of your ex."
"Out," Serena ordered Harry looked confused, "I said out!"
"Anyone would think you'd want it to happen," Harry looked smug liking that he had managed to wind up the harsh Half Celtic woman, "Ohh I can only imagine what Mr Hanssen would think if you two-"
"OUT!" Serena shouted so loud that both Ric and Edward jumped back both men eyed each other, "Dr Tressler I suggest if you still want a job, considering what happened last week you be quiet."
"Does that mean I stay?" Harry asked cheekily, "Guessing by your glare I will step out now."
"Harry stay," Edward stopped the young doctor.
"Excuse me? I said out," Serena looked at Edward then at Harry, "Go."
"Dr Tressler I suggest you go," Ric said giving him a serious look, "Before you do anymore damage."
"With pleasure… someone's on their period," Harry said whilst walking towards the door, Serena in her anger picked up a silver kidney dish and aimed it at him, Harry ducked his head, "I'll complain about that."
"Serena you can't do that," Ric looked shocked she had never flipped out like that, "Serena."
Anger, hurt, grief was sweeping over her she looked at the three men feeling all eyes on her she breathed in and out, then turned around and walked out the door, "Woah," Harry looked amused.
"What is going on with her?" Ric asked, "I know it's a difficult time but… she could've injured Harry."
Edward was more shocked by her behaviour than her sudden exit, "She'll calm down," but he had his doubts if she would calm down today.
After theatre Ric was staring at the board, "Did you know about this?" Ric noticed all his free time had been taken over by a full theatre list."
"What?" Edward looked confused, "Wasn't that her slots?"
"Exactly so where is she?" Ric took off his glasses and stared at Edward, "Well?"
Edward walked away from Ric to check the obvious places, "Serena?" he poked his head through the office door.
"Any ideas?" Ric walked over, "She needs to be at home she nearly injured Dr Tressler."
"She's just… she's just hurting," Edward tried to think of an excuse for his ex, "I'll check the other wards."
"Edward," Ric turned to him giving him a serious look, "If you find her… please for the sake of the staff take her home."
"Wish me luck," Edward walked off to find his ex hoping to find her very soon, he got out his phone to ring her he knew she wouldn't pick up but it was worth a shot. It went straight to answer phone he tilted his head back it was going to be a long search she knew where to hide if she did not want to be found and it was infuriating because it usually took ages to track her down.
Edward had searched nearly the whole hospital every ward, ever department everywhere there was only Oncology, "Come on Serena," he walked down the steps until he saw a figure at the bottom he zipped up his jacket as it was quite chilly and stood beside her, "I think I've managed to remember where everything is now… least it's not as big," he sat down, "As St George's."
"What are you doing here?" Serena asked staring at the floor she just wanted to be alone.
"Why have you put Ric for every op?" Edward sat back the wet cold steps weren't very comfy, "He's supposed to be off this evening."
"He can stand in," Serena kept staring down then she sat up, "Why are you here? Haven't you got Mary-Claire to be bedding or something?" Hearing that made his stomach twist, "Or Dr Tressler to be drinking into oblivion with?"
"What made you lose it in theatre like that?" The one question that was on his mind, "You've never done that."
"It's nothing," Serena stood up to go her private time had been invaded but she was stopped by a hand on her wrist.
"If you think I'm letting you go no way," Edward didn't let go until she sat down again, "Ric wants you to go home."
"If he thinks I'm leaving because I'm feeling a bit upset," she sighed heavily, "I'm not."
"You could've really hurt Harry… you lost it Serena," Edward told her truthfully he had forgot they were holding hands, she had forgot too well she had realised but something about his hand right now in hers made her feel safe, "Why are you being so…" he pushed some hair out of her eyes she didn't stop him, "So out of character?" he asked Serena looked at him.
"I'm feeling a bit sensitive believe it or not I'm not a robot," Serena kept her gaze on him, "I do have feelings."
"You just don't show them," Edward looked at her his gaze fixed on her, "I know you miss him Serena but it's not Harry's fault."
"And I never said it was," Serena turned her gaze into a glare, "When did I say it was?"
"You took his jokes way too seriously," Edward pointed out, "Even you know he didn't mean what he said about us…" Edward turned his head away, "You know."
"Bedding each other?" Serena added for him, "Don't worry I won't stop you from having Mary-Claire."
Edward laughed was she threatened by the young Irish nurse? "Nothing is going on Serena."
"I've seen the way you look at her," Serena shuffled awkwardly, "It's the same look you gave me."
"Are you jealous?" Edward nudged her, "Are you feeling left out?" he said in a joking voice.
"Oh shut up," she moved away from him awkwardly, "Why would I feel jealous?"
"I don't know… it's your mind," He answered Serena rested her head on the building wall, "Go home Serena."
"No," Serena said stubbornly, "I don't need too."
"It's hit you hard I can tell," Edward moved over to her, "You should be at home with your duvet watching daytime T.V., not here."
"It's my job Edward if I went home what am I saying to patients?" Serena asked she looked at him again.
"You've given your theatre list to Ric," Edward reminded her, "You should go home."
Serena shook her head she felt a lump building in her throat, "I don't need to," she swallowed the lump but it came back only way to make it go away would be to cry, "I'm fine."
"You're fine my arse," Edward bravely put his arm around her, "You're not fine," he was shocked that she didn't shake him off, "You're far from fine Serena."
"I don't need to go home Edward… I just can't be there," Serena shook him off now placing her hands to her mouth she closed her eyes, her body was shaking fighting the urge not to cry was proving hard it was like the lump would not go, "I just can't."
"Why not?" Edward asked concerned.
"I just don't want too," Serena answered she felt cold now she wrapped her arms around herself trying to warm herself up, "I just want to be here," she suddenly felt a jacket being placed around her, "Thanks," she put her hands through the sleeves, "Since when did you wear Hoddies?"
"Since it's gotten colder," Edward answered the fluffy inside warmed her freezing body, "Come on," he stood up and held his hand out, "Take it," Serena frowned but took it anyway he lifted her up and pulled her into a hug knowing it was what she needed, "Now unfortunately for you Ric wanted me to take you home."
"And like I said I don't need too," Serena crossed her arms, "I'm fine."
"If you don't want to be alone I can be with you?" Edward suggested Serena scoffed, "What?"
"I don't need babysitting either," Serena walked ahead but Edward stopped her he pulled her back she nearly fell into him but she grabbed the wall to balance her, "Will you let me go."
"Serena please," Edward stared at her with his blue eyes, "I don't want you going home alone so please… let me help you."
"What's in it for you?" she knew there was always a catch with this man, "I know you Edward."
"There's no catch honest," Edward leant on the wall, "Just let me help you."
For some reason she felt herself trusting the cheating man in front of her, instead of doing the usual glare and walking off she let him push her by the back and walked up the stairs together, they bumped into Chrissie who was on her way to a meeting with her Oncologist, "Oh hello," Chrissie said shocked to see the pair together not actually on the verge of murder. Edward smiled at Chrissie with an understanding nod wishing her luck whilst Serena said nothing – not knowing what to say. When they walked off Chrissie looked confused, "OK then."
"Don't think she got the wrong end of the stick do you?" Serena asked concerned.
"For all she knows we were just talking," Edward answered trying to calm her down, "I'll take you home and then the rest is up to you."
"What exactly do you mean by that?" Serena stopped and glared.
"I didn't mean it like that," Edward corrected going slightly red, "I meant I can drop you home and go or if you want me to stay I'll stay."
"Oh," Serena went red complete wrong end of the stick there, "Thank you."
"No problem," they entered AAU, "I'll talk to Ric you get yourself ready," Edward watched Serena walk into her office, "I've managed to convince her."
"Thank you," Ric said, "Make sure she's OK by tomorrow," Ric nodded and walked off leaving Edward to wait for Serena. He walked into her office without knocking.
"Ever heard of knocking?" Serena was sat at her laptop, "If I allow you to take me home it means nothing."
"Of course," Edward sat on the sofa, "So are you leaving?"
Serena tried to sneak out of AAU looking normal Edward followed the pair tried to act like they hated each other, but it wasn't working. Once they reached the car park Edward pulled her over to his car, "Edward."
"In," he ordered point his finger down, "Now," Edward got in himself he just waited, "Serena get in," he folded his arms god this woman was a nightmare sometimes, "In."
"You don't get to tell me what to do anymore," but she got in anyway looking very annoyed, "In fact you never did in the first place."
"You'll have to show me where you live," Edward started the engine Serena twiddled with her hair, "Yoo hoo," he waved his hand in front of her face, "Where do you live?"
"Oh sorry," she sat forward, "Just keep driving I'll tell you where to go," she felt drained from everything that had happened today; emotionally and physically drained she couldn't say how she was feeling numb was a word she had cut all emotions off from her like she did nineteen years ago, "Once you get off the dual carriage way turn left."
"Oh a posh area," Edward realised where she meant, "Thought it would be," he looked at the motorway, "Ric must care about you to make you go home."
"I recall it being you who made me," Serena corrected, "Ric just ordered you too," she rested her forehead on her the palm of her hand, "Don't forget to turn left."
"I know," Edward got off the motorway and turned left into the place where Serena lived, "Very nice," he observed.
"You don't need to come in I'm fine," Serena got out the car but Edward did too, "Like I said I'm fine," she looked at annoyed at his action.
"You think I was going to leave you?" Edward shut the door and locked it, "For a smart woman you can be stupid," he gave her shoulders a squeeze and guided her to the door, "What kind of friend would I be if I left you like this?" he asked Serena looked at him.
"I don't need babysitting," he pushed her in the doorway, "I said I'm fine."
"I'll be the judge of that," Edward stood awkwardly in the doorway forgetting it was her house.
"Well come in then," she gave Edward back the hoddie he leant her, "Here."
"I can go if you want," Edward then saw Serena shake her head, "Does that mean?"
"Just shut up and come in," she sighed heavily Edward nodded and walked into the kitchen, "Coffee?" she offered on autopilot she kicked herself for it, after being divorced for seventeen years she still offered him a hot beverage.
"If that's OK," Edward stood by the counter observing the kitchen.
"I wouldn't have offered if it wasn't," she clicked the boil button she found it weird him being in her house, once upon a time they both owned a house one they could call their own but now they lived separate lives. Since Edward was back in her life she had missed him a bit, "Here," she gave him the steaming hot mug.
"Thank you," he sat took it in his hands then Serena went into the living room Edward followed anyway, "You OK?" he asked whilst she sat down on the sofa legs curled up.
"Sit down if you want," Serena offered he sat next to her she felt a bit uncomfortable but also slightly happy he had chose to sit down next to her.
"You were brave today," Edward said kindly Serena turned her head to face him, "Going to see the headstone… it was brave."
"Oh it was nothing," Serena looked down she hadn't expected her visiting the headstone to effect her, as much as it did but in all honesty she felt really down and drained all emotions were confused. Once upon a time she wouldn't have let it affect her much but now she just wanted to go into bed and stay for days, "I needed to do it."
"It was still a brave thing to do though," Edward pointed out he knew that she wouldn't have gone if he hadn't suggested it, "I hope I didn't pressurise you though."
"No I knew it was the right thing to do," Serena sipped from her mug the coffee didn't seem nice to drink she wasn't feeling happy it was making her feel sick, she put it down and pulled the blanket over her she felt tears build up in her eyes but she pushed them away keeping her emotions safe inside her.
"Are you cold?" Edward asked sounding concerned he sat forward, "Are you? Hey are you crying?"
"No," Serena sat up, "I'm fine."
Edward shuffled towards her studying her face taking in her looks, "Look at me," he placed his thumb and index on under her chin and lifted her head up, "Why are you crying?" but he knew that he already knew the answer.
"I'm not," she wiped two stray tears off her face, "I'm fine," she looked down and more came pouring out dripping onto the Edward's thumb and index finger.
Without saying anything he just pulled her into a hug she cried into his chest, "It's OK," he said whilst rubbing her back, "Let it out," he knew that she rarely cried so it was a miracle she was actually crying on him. Serena's kept in feelings from years ago were pouring out on the one person least expected to cry on, he expected that she was emotionally drained so it was no wonder she was the way she was in theatre and then how she acted so out of character around him, even when they were sat on the steps outside Oncology she wasn't as cold and harsh around him in fact she was quite open.
"Sorry," she pulled away but Edward kept his grip, "I shouldn't put this on you."
"Don't be sorry," Edward said gently knowing she was quite venerable at the moment, "I'm glad I could help," he let her pull away, "Here," he used his thumb to clear away stray tears.
"Oh this is so embarrassing," she put her face in her hands, "Last thing you need is me…"
Edward smiled lightly, "Like I said what kind of friend would I?" he pushed some hair behind her ear, "A pretty rubbish one."
Serena looked at the mantel piece, "Thank you," she then turned her face to him.
"You don't need to keep saying thank you," Edward reminded he looked at her this time their eyes connected, "OK."
"OK," Serena kept her gaze on him eyes weren't leaving each other, Serena felt a tight knotting in her stomach and the urge to meet his lips. Edward had the same feeling only he didn't want to take advantage of her venerable state. When neither of their eyes looked away they were just sat in complete silence the tightening in their stomach's wasn't leaving it was sending an electrical charge around their bodies. Serena couldn't help it Edward couldn't help it before they knew it there lips were connecting the charge had gripped hold of them, kissing Edward was like relighting a candle which had never really burnt out they both had their eyes closed. Kissing Serena was like the nearly frazzled candle was being relit. Serena wrapped her arms around his neck they fell off the sofa Edward on top of her, "Slight problem," Serena whispered.
"What's that?" Edward asked he looked down at her.
"TOM," Serena answered Edward frowned, "T.O.M."
After five seconds it registered, "Ohhhh well surely doesn't mean?" Edward didn't know why he asked a few times during their marriage he had asked during TOM and it ended badly.
"It bloody well hurts," Serena playfully slapped him Edward tickled her sides, "Stooop."
"No," Edward carried on, "Come on a bit of blood is nothing… we deal with it every day!" Edward laughed as Serena glared, "Besides it's only once a month."
"We have no means of protection and not that I do not love Eleanor… I don't want to become pregnant again," Serena pointed out Edward frowned and dug in pockets, "Hoping for some?"
"I'm a single bloke," Edward shrugged, "So are doing this or not?"
"I guess we are close the curtains and lock the door," Serena didn't want to risk her mother or daughter walking in, "Quick."
After double checking everything was locked he ran back in, "So then my half-Celtic ex."
"Look do you want this or not?" Serena asked frustrated.
"Sexually frustrated?" Edward raised an eyebrow Serena glared, "That can be fixed," he winked.
"And I drive you to distraction?" Serena asked but then she laughed as he kissed her neck, then finally after two minutes it happened, "Careful," she giggled then her phone started to ring.
"Leave it," Edward said but Serena reached over.
"It's Ellie," Serena clicked the answer button how awkward was this? Luckily she was at a friend's else it could be awkward, "Hello darling what you ringing me for?"
"Only just to say I hope you're OK," Eleanor asked Serena looked up at Edward who was smiling humorously, "Mum?"
"I'm fine darling," Serena saw Edward trying to grab the phone but she pointed her finger in his face, "Urmm what time do you think you'll be back?"
"Quite late Gabby and me we're going out tonight, but I'm coming back for tea if that's OK?" Eleanor answered, "Mum are you sure you're OK?"
Edward had to let out a laugh Serena glared at him to stop, "I'm fine why wouldn't I be?" she let out a silent laugh when Edward tickled her sides, "I've got to go darling I'll see you tonight," Serena cut the call off, "Idiot she could have heard."
"Turn it on silent," Edward took it anyway and put her phone on silent, "Now where were we?" he asked whilst he looked down at Serena who looked at him with wide eyes.
"Isn't it obvious?" Serena asked she hadn't intended this to happen but he had broken the barriers she had made, his charm and smile had broken her once again.
Giggling like their university days and each other's touch was something both they admitted secretly had missed, one hour later they were finished. "Wow," Edward said happily he leaned his head down and they touched noses, "You're good."
Serena pushed him off gently and stood up to put her clothes back on, "So much for what I said earlier."
"Oh come on it was a bit of harmless fun," Edward shrugged.
"For you," Serena frowned she put her top back on, "What does this mean?"
Edward shrugged unsure about where they were going, "I really don't know," Edward done up his shirt, "What do you think?"
"No idea," Serena answered truthfully, "I don't know," she sat on the sofa feeling a little light headed and sore.
"Maybe we could discuss it," Edward shrugged his shoulders but then there was a knock at the door, "Who's that?"
"Quickly turn on the T.V. and get rid of anything," Serena opened the curtains, "It's just the postman."
"I thought it was Eleanor or your mother," Edward said worried, "How awkward would that be?" he laughed at his own panic.
Serena laughed a bit and sat back on the sofa Edward sat down too, "Well that was…"
"Interesting?" Edward finished off her sentence, "I still find it weird your first name is Latin your middle name is Gaelic and your last name is Scottish."
"Problem with it?" Serena asked confused by his comment, "Why's it weird?" She asked curiously.
"Serena Imogen it goes quite well," Edward said and laughed, "I used to find it so funny when you got into rows with your dad and he would call you by your full name."
"Serena Imogen McKinnie but now it's Serena Imogen Campbell… McKinnie has more of a ring to it," Serena shrugged, "We need to talk about…"
"Yes we do," Edward sat down and pulled Serena onto his lap.
"Edward," she looked at him weirdly, "What?"
"You said we need to talk so let's talk," Edward sat back, "So where do you think we should go from here?"
"I have no idea," Serena twiddled with her necklace, "I don't know."
"Well do you want to another try?" Edward asked bravely he knew she was still a bit sensitive.
"I don't know Edward," Serena laid down on the sofa her cramps were coming back, "I told you it hurt."
"Oh dear," Edward said unsympathetically, "Well maybe sitting on you might help," he got off and sat on her stomach and smiled.
"You're restricting my breathing and squashing my organs especially the kidneys and liver," Serena glared, "That was a hint to remove your bony ass of my abdomen."
"It's not bony!" Edward sounded insulted, "Besides you have another kidney."
"Off!" she hit his arm Edward stayed smiling, "Off."
"No," Edward was quite comfy, "Pay back for those times you stopped me peeing when you laid on me when pregnant."
"I did not stop you peeing," Serena argued, "I let you go."
"After I nagged you to move," Edward reminded her Serena sighed, "You were mean to me."
"Hardly," She tilted her eyebrow, "Seriously Edward get off your really hurting me… ouch."
"Oh come on they can't be that bad?" Edward asked of course being a man he knew nothing about the T.O.M. pain, "Compare it to your labour."
"I have the right to complain it's not my fault," Serena tried to push him off but he was too heavy, "You men don't realise how lucky you are," Serena tried again to push him off, "Off now please!"
"Fine," Edward got off, finally Serena was able to breathe normally again, "Look how about we just give it a few days… then we discuss what could happen."
"You're forgetting one small factor," Serena sat up slightly, "Teenage girl, spit of you, temper of me, we need to think about Ellie… I'm not damaging her again she was effected all those years ago I can't do that to her now."
"You're a good mum," Edward complimented her, "I completely understand Ellie comes first."
"She always will," Serena tilted her head back she was sort of regretting her actions now, "She's not just a toy you can return once you get bored," Suddenly she became overly-protective, "She's your child too Edward," she reminded him with a nod.
"I know I'm just saying that I understand," Edward wished she wouldn't assume these things, he really did love Eleanor, "She'll always be my little girl."
"Like I said you can't just return once you get bored," Serena sat with one leg crossed over the other and she sighed, "She's been hurt by this too."
Edward looked down he really had left a mess, not only had he hurt the woman in front of him he had also hurt the daughter he left behind, "You know I think it's cute how maternal you are." he changed the subject.
"It's not cute it's natural," Serena crossed her arms, "Someone had to step up."
"No it's just well I don't know," Edward frowned, "I just think you've done a good job considering what I done," Edward patted her leg, "You've done amazing."
Serena smiled lightly, "How about you… stay for dinner tonight? Ellie should be home soon and well she'd like to see you."
"Yeah sure," Edward took the offer Serena tilted her head left to right, "Permission to hug?" he asked Serena nodded she turned the other way he pulled her in, "Thank you."
"It's for Ellie's sake," Serena looked up at him she felt herself becoming weak again, "And I'm not going to give you false hope Edward… what happened earlier I don't know but… just don't get your hopes up."
"Of course," Edward lifted his hands then placed one on her hair, "I won't get them up… oh I was going to tell you," Serena looked up worried, "A rumour went round after we danced that… we're friends with benefits."
"Oh for goodness sakes!" Serena exclaimed, "Honestly haven't they anything better to be doing?"
Edward looked down, "We can't talk we just done exactly what they said," he tapped her nose laughing, "But it's obvious."
"What is?" Serena asked eyebrows now frowned.
"Well they want Sedward," Edward made it sound so obvious, like it wasn't anything to be embarrassed about, "Oh it's something Sacha told me… apparently we're dubbed as Sedward."
"How lovely," Serena said sarcastically, "Least James and Amelia never did anything that stupid," Serena sat up and rubbed her neck, "They didn't dare."
"They were too scared of you," Edward corrected he then stood up, "Neck problem?" he asked.
"I think I'm a little… sore," Serena admitted going red, "I did tell you."
"You really are tense when was the last time you relaxed?" Edward felt how tight her shoulders were, "Properly?"
"I'm a surgeon I'm constantly on edge I cannot relax," Serena turned to him and looked up at him, "Ellie should be home soon."
"Well best get the table set then," Edward raised his eyebrows as he walked around Serena was torn between her own feelings and not wanting to cause anymore damage to her well their daughter, "I suggest a hot bath or a lavender pillow for the neck," he said cheekily Serena needed to push these old feelings aside he had hurt her once and he could easily do it again.
A/N: Once again this chapter is really weird and probably bad I honestly don't know where it came from I've ruined the song Agadoo lmao but let me know some of your ideas on how Sedward can get together I'm stuck! Haha review as well xx