Bella's POV
"The sad truth is we are all missing someone and we are hoping they are missing us too." -Unknown
Chapter 9
I woke up with a big smile on my face. Last night was the best night of my life. I felt complete with Edward and he seemed to feel the same. Now I understand what everybody talks about, love is like a drug and I want more. I want more of Edward; he makes me forget about my problems. I've never been so happy. My stomach grumbles and I am not sure if it's because I'm hungry or because I'm excited. I take a shower and choose to wear jeans and a purple blouse, I love how purple looks on me, it enhances my hair color.
I'm running late so I just grab some hot pockets and dig in on my way to school. I don't know why I'm feeling super excited; I know that it was just a kiss, maybe Edward was carried away, maybe that's how he says good-bye to people. I have to stop feeling like this, but more importantly I have to find out if there's really a future with Edward.
When I get to school I look for his car, it's nowhere to be seen; maybe he came to school with his sister. Classes pass slowly, I want to see Edward; I want to talk to him. At lunch I expect to see him or catch a glace of Alice, but neither of them is in the cafeteria. Jessica and Angela have been asking all kind of questions about Edward. I don't feel comfortable telling them all the details, and I still have to find out if it was the heat of the moment that led him to kiss me or if he really meant it. Finally I have Spanish, I hurry thru the corridors. To my disappointment Edward isn't in Spanish either. What started as a great day is now becoming more and more frustrating, I'm sure that there's a good reason why he's not in school, but still I wish I could talk to him.
As I walk to my truck an idea crosses my mind. I get in my truck and head to Edward's house. Sure it makes me look like an eager, overprotective stalker. I wrack my brain for a good reason to drive to his house. I could always say that Señor Molina gave more information about the project, in the end Edward is my project partner, so it makes sense that I visit him with this information, Right? Yeah that sounds good.
When I reach The Cullen's house and my heart feels as if it is about to explode, I've never been so nervous before. Relax Bella, everything will be ok. I take a deep breath and ring the doorbell twice. I wait and wait but no one comes to the door, I try to see thru the window but it's hard to see anything. I walk around the house and it seems that no one is in it. The house looks more stunning at daylight than how it looked at night, it has big windows, and the view is spectacular. I can't imagine how it would feel to wake up every day looking at the blue sky and breathing the fantastic aroma of nature and sunlight here.
I head home disappointed because I was really expecting to see Edward, my heart sinks, but I tell myself that I have to be strong and not let this affect me. The radio is not helping me either. I wonder if today is the day for sad songs because all the radio stations I tune in are playing depressing songs.
Mom is not home and dad is still at the conference so I have the house for myself. I turn on the computer and check my e-mail which is full of spam and nothing interesting. I decide to refocus and start working on my homework. I go to bed early thankful that my parents haven't come; I'm not in the mood to argue. I'm still concerned about Edward, what could have happened that made him and his family leave town. I just hope is nothing serious.
I dream of flowers and sunny skies. A mansion hidden in the woods, people coming and going; they all seem lost in sorrow. I see four figures standing out of the chaos, they are wearing matching outfits. Black robes clung in their bodies, I can tell they are all related, the same porcelain touch on their skins, the same posture and gracefulness as they walk toward me. I can barely see their faces, they are covered with a hood coming from their robes. I feel my heart racing and I start walking backwards something about them make me shiver. They appear to be floating now, they are fast. I start running trying to escape but fall hard. I wake up with a scream, my heart is really beating wildly and I look at the alarm clock, it's 2 a.m., I'm sweating and scared. I tell myself that it was just a dream, they're not real. I have nothing to be afraid of. I'm too charged up to try to sleep again, so I decide to turn on my laptop, I check for new messages, but nothing comes up. I'm disappointed. I'm not sure what I was expecting to find, if Edward and his family left Forks suddenly, it had to be a good reason. I check my cell phone for new messages or missed calls, but there's nothing.
I must have fallen sleep after checking my cell phone, the alarm clock tells me that it's 7 a.m., I take a shower and get clean clothes. I take my customary hot pockets and drive to school. Today we have the seniors' assembly with the Principal, Edward must be there. I'm really expecting to see him. The day passes so fast, and there's no sign of Edward and his sister. He isn't at the cafeteria, and never made it to the assembly. I send him a message asking if everything's alright. I wait and stare at my cell phone and get no reply. I wish I had Alice's number so I could ask her if Edward is okay. Angela sees my concern and nudges me; I just smile and put my phone aside.
The weekend comes and I haven't heard from Edward. I'm beginning to fear that his father was transfer back to Europe; I feel a stab hits my heart every time that I think of Edward. It all happened too fast but it felt real. But if it was real and the feelings were mutual, wouldn't he try to contact me? What if it wasn't real? No, I can't continue to think about it. Why when everything feels alright life has to turn against me and hit me where it hurts the most? I don't think my heart can handle more disappointments. To make things worst mom and dad are arguing again, their fights are becoming louder and physical. Yesterday night I even heard something crash against the floor. I always thought my parents were a decent couple -except for the part where they hit me and say nasty things to me- but overall they have been together for nineteen years. I don't even know why they're yelling about, a part of me feels glad that I'm not the center of their anger, but another part feels guilty of thinking that. I want the best for them, but if their fights escalate to another level, I'm afraid something bad would happen.
I can't stay in my room another minute, so I take my keys and head to the mall. I'm not really a person that enjoys shopping but window shopping helps me relax and forget about the things happening around me, my parents arguing every second, Edward's disappearance, and graduation. There're many things to worry about. I find myself in the food court; I guess my stomach drove me here. I'm carrying my lunch to an empty table when I see a familiar face. I let the tray fall onto the floor, I can't believe my eyes.
Author Notes: I want to thank my friend Ineke for creating the amazing banner for the story. I would also like to thank my friend Chase Corin for being my beta for this chapter. And last but not least I want to thank you for reading my story. Please review and comment, I'd be happy to hear from you.
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