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422 Dannys POV
Dougie held onto Tom even tighter, his hands fisting around Toms bloody hoodie, whimpering quietly into Toms bony shoulder. "oh Tommy, you poor baby." I whispered, wiping my eyes, they had teared up as I realised how much Tom hated himself. I pushed the sketchbook away, laying down with Tom instead, thankfully that we had pushed our beds together, so I could fit. "you're beautiful baby, not ugly, you need to realise that." I kissed his cheek gently, running my fingers over Toms stomach.
Tom groaned a little, his head twitched, and turned to face me, and then he was still again. "he'll be waking up soon." Harry commented, squeezing Dougies hand. "hopefully." I nodded, resting my head against Toms, craving some closeness, even though it wasn't like Tom was awake. "Toms going to be alright, we're going to make him know that we love him, and that he's beautiful, right?" Dougie looked up at me like I knew the answer to that. "of course we will, I don't know how we'll do it, but, we'll do it somehow." I put on a smile, not sure how we were going to do it, I swore we would get Tom to believe in himself, in his looks.
"I hope so, I never want to see another drawing like that." Dougie sighed, nuzzling into Toms neck, looking so cute. "there won't be Doug, we'll find something that will work." Harry encouraged, pushing back Dougies hair, tucking it behind his husbands ear. "we will, I'll find something that will work." I promised all of us, including Tom, even if he couldn't hear me. I would never break a promise to Tom, ever. Once I made a promise to him, I wouldn't break it.
Dougie relaxed a little at our words, moving Toms arm ever so carefully, making it wrap around his tiny middle, like they were cuddling. He stayed like that for a while longer, until Tom woke up. He made to sit up, but I stopped him, smiling to say that it was alright, Tom wasn't going to freak at Dougie cuddled up to him...hopefully. I was hoping Tom would be too drowsy, too worn out to freak. "ugh, Danny." Tom moaned, lifting his hands up to his head, hissing in pain. "its okay, I'm here Tommy." I gently got hold of Toms hands, pulling them away from his face, not wanting him to realise that he was still covered in blood. "Danny." Tom mumbled, writhing to get closer. "I'm here, I'm here, don't worry. Its okay, I'm here Tommy." I squeezed him tighter, my heart pounding at the fact that he wanted me. Tom mumbled something unintelligible, sounding a little like 'help me' whimpering quietly.
"I will, don't worry, I'm here. They're not going to hurt you, don't worry, they're not even here, I won't let them touch you." I guessed he was still thinking that the hospital staff were surrounding him in his groggy state. "Danny, help." Tom cried, managing to open his eyes, almost jumping on me. He would have if there weren't so many wires, Dougie had already sat up and moved out of the way, finding comfort in Harrys arms instead. "I'm here baby, I'm here. I'll keep you safe." I whispered, kissing his hair. "I love you Tommy, I'm here, like always." I took the risk, saying that I loved him for the first time in weeks. "I'm sorry." Tom whimpered, gripping my clothes like it was the only thing he could do.
423 Toms POV
I felt so scared, so, so scared. I didn't know where I was, what was happening, the last thing I had known, I was in bed, trying to scream for help but there was something down my throat. People had been holding me down, and now I was free and in Dannys arms, what the hell happened? The only thing I could do was hold onto to Danny as tightly as I could, hide in him and try to stop anything else from happening. "Tommy its okay, stop crying. The doctors aren't here. Its only us here, no-one else." Danny promised, rubbing my back. "Danny." I whimpered, it was the only thing I could say, I was just feeling so scared. Like you should be, lab animal.
"I'm here baby, I'm right here." Danny whispered, kissing my hair, reaching out to hold my hand, shuddering a little. He doesn't want to hold your hand. But Danny had said he loved me only a few days ago, before he went into hospital, he loved me, right? No. "don't leave me. I'm sorry." I pushed out, ignoring the voice, the fear of being here beating anything else. "I won't Tommy, I won't. And its okay, its not your fault." Danny whispered, squeezing my hands. My hands felt weird, like there was something on them, stopping them from moving properly, and it wasn't a needle. "h-hands...feeling, weird." I whimpered, I couldn't even speak right now.
"its nothing Tommy, don't worry." Danny whispered, stroking my side. "feels weird!" I whined, gripping onto him even more, trying to stop the feeling of fear rise up inside me. "its nothing Tommy, don't worry. Nothing a shower later on won't fix. Now shhh, relax alright?" Danny kissed my hair again, pressing me into his shoulder. But I couldn't relax, I was scared, scared what was on my hands, scared of what was going on!
Footsteps came into the room, making me freeze, I didn't like the sound of footsteps! "ah, I see that Thomas is awake now! So, are you going to let us look at you now?" someone said, my spine went rigid. "Tommy, I'm sorry, but you've got to let them look at you, just for a few minutes." Danny sighed, bringing me to look at him, stroking my face. Here comes the prodding! "no!" I whimpered, I didn't want to be poked and prodded, touched in anyway by anyone other than Danny! I hadn't been with him for weeks, I couldn't let go now, I needed his comfort now! "you've got to baby, you have to let them touch you. Just for a little while." Danny pleaded, making me sit up. "no! They're not touching me!" I hid in his arms, no doctors were going to touch me! They caused me pain! They messed everything up! I couldn't be touched! "they've got to Tom, but they'll only be a few minutes, then we can go back to cuddling. And I'll be here, making sure that it'll be fine, they won't hurt you." Danny promised, giving me a smile and a kiss. "promise?" I whispered, holding onto his hands, not wanting him to let me go.
"promise Tommy." Danny smiled reassuringly. "do you want us to go out of here? So you have some privacy?" Harry asked, I nodded, him, Dougie and Carrie left quickly. "finally, so are you feeling any better? Any pain anywhere?" the doctor asked, looking at me as I was turned round, giving me such a scary look. I shook my head, whimpering as he scribbled over his clipboard again. "can you move your arm? Without pain, no tightness, or anything?" the doctor asked, I shook my head again. "can I check?" the doctor reached for my arm, I pulled my arm back. He couldn't touch me! "its okay Tommy, let him touch your arm." Danny encouraged, rubbing my side. I lifted it up and let the doctor pull my arm about, apparently checking things, only making me feel like my skin was crawling.
"good, now any other problems with anything? Light-headedness, blurred vision, anything?" the doctor carried on, I shook my head again. "can you actually speak at all?" he sighed now, looking slightly concerned. "y-yes." I mumbled, crawling back into Dannys arms. "he can, he just doesn't want to." Danny explained, holding me until I stopped shaking, though the fear of this man never went away.
"alright, well, thats all. All looks well, so, I would say have some rest and have a shower, clean yourself up of all this blood." The doctor finished filling out some things, walking out. Wait, what blood? I looked down at my hands, seeing my blood smothered hands, arms and clothes. Its Dannys blood. I almost screamed.