FLOYNTERxxx - its okay! well it may have to get a little worse before it can get better i'm afraid :/
440 Dannys POV
No matter what we did, Tom wouldn't even look up, let alone touch the food we had given him. Doctor Tennant was giving us a very disapproving look the whole time, like he knew that we weren't getting anywhere and he highly doubted that we would get anywhere. Eventually, he left, as Tom fell into my arms, sobbing out how sorry he felt. My heart broke all over again, just hearing how upset Tom was, and how this situation was affecting Tom, making him so scared. I knew I shouldn't have pushed that much that quickly either, because it didn't help Tom much, but I had been so desperate to get Tom to eat to prove to that doctor that he could eat. I just wanted us to go home together now, I was willing to do anything to get Tom home.
"I-I'm so sorry! I-I can't, I just can't!" Tom cried, holding onto my shirt and clinging to me. "its okay, you were scared baby. We haven't tried to eat in a while, its scary. We'll get better at it, I'm sure we'll get better at it." I sighed, nuzzling into Toms hair, squeezing him close. "I-I'm so sorry." Tom whimpered, turning to hide inside my shoulder, the poor boy looking so heartbreakingly tiny it made me want to pick him up and take him home right now. "shhh Tommy, we'll work on it, we'll get better at it." I whispered, kissing his head, rubbing his arm.
Footsteps were heard at the door again, I looked up to see Doctor Tennant again, I could always see everyone turn to glare at him at the same time. "I need to talk to you all, would you come with me?" the doctor asked, I froze again, no way was I going near him! "no, I'm staying here." I shook my head, he wasn't going to talk to me, he would fill our heads with lies. "I need you too Danny, this directly effects you, and I think you want whats best for Tom, am I right?" the doctor raised an eyebrow, Tom whimpered as his name was mentioned.
"fine, two minutes." I growled, helping Tom up, taking him to the bed and sitting him down gently. "I'll be a minute Tommy, just sit here and watch Fairly Odd Parents, alright?" I kissed his forehead, making sure Tom was alright on the bed, before trudging over to the doctor, joining Harry, Dougie and Carrie. "I think you know that todays lunch plan didn't go the way you planned it." The doctor started, I already hated the way this was going. "well, Tom doesn't like people staring at him, it put him off." I defended, Tom was not going to be put under this doctors care, so this doctor could shut up right now.
"well his behaviour didn't seem to reflect that. I think its best for everyone involved if you guys go home at the end of the day, so we can try ourselves with Tom." Doctor Tennant explained, my heart actually stopped inside my chest, was he serious?! "what? No, hell no! I'm not going home, I'm not leaving Tom here with you, no way!" I almost shouted, I wasn't leaving Tom here! "and why not?" he asked, looking too cool for someone who was being glared at by four separate people. "cause, you'll hurt him! You'll scare him, and I'm not letting you hurt or scare my Tommy!" I growled, no-one touched Tom, ever, I didn't care what was wrong with him, no-one touched him. He was mine, I could handle him, this doctor didn't know Tom, didn't know all his little problems and his little quirks, he would see everything as something wrong with him, I wasn't letting him near my boyfriend!
"no I won't, I'll be helping him. From what I see, you seem to give make Tom worse, you panic him more by overcrowding him. It'll be better to try again without him being pushed and told a hundred and one different things, and go at the pace we need to go at." The doctor gave me a dirty look, like it was me who was to blame! "no, f*ck off! You're not going near Tom!" Harry argued, subconsciously grabbing hold of Dougie, pulling him behind his larger body, like somehow he was in danger too.
"I can if I want to, you three have to go soon anyway, and we can discharge Danny any time we like, he's finished his treatment, we've only really kept him here to keep an eye on him and because he seemed to calm Tom down. But we've now seen that you seem to distress him more." The doctor shrugged, he wasn't going to do this! He wasn't going to take me away from Tom, he wasn't touching him!
441 Toms POV
Danny was shouting something, arguing with the doctor outside the room, the door was closed, I couldn't hear what he was saying. Its about you, why else would you be in here by yourself? But, why wasn't I being involved in the conversation if it was about me? Because you can't make your own decisions, so they're not talking to you. But, I wanted to know what was going on! Go and see then, idiot. Slowly, I got up, walking out to the door, opening it to hear what was going on.
"I'm not going home! No way! You can't make me, I refuse!" Danny shook his head, looked terrified. "none of us are going home if you think you're going anywhere near Tom, you can't make us!" Harry agreed, gripping Dougie so close like he was going to be ripped from his arms. "I'm sorry, but thats my decision to make, you'll all be going home tonight." The doctor shrugged like he didn't care at all, I whimpered, making everyone turn to me. Nice one, now they're going to lie to you. "Tom go back inside, you don't have to worry about this. Go back inside and watch your cartoons." Danny looked at me with such fear, he was about to cry. "b-but why are you crying?" I whimpered, not used to asking questions, I never asked questions. Because you shouldn't.
"I'm not crying baby, I'm just... I don't even know, its fine, okay? Go back inside, alright? We'll sort it out." Danny came over, kissing my nose gently, framing my face with his hands. "your cheeks are wet though." I wiped away the tears, scared over them. "its nothing Tommy, I swear. The lights burn a little, alright? Go back inside, its fine." Danny leant his head against mine, sniffing loudly. "w-why can't I stay with you?" I whispered, pressing closer for once, feeling so scared, and I don't even know why.
"you don't want to hear this Tommy, trust me. Its for the best if you stay inside." Danny shook his head, kissing me again, gently pushing me back inside the room and closing the door. They don't want you there, of course they don't, just go and sit in a corner again. Its for the best to stay in the corner, keeping out of the way. I followed orders and went to hide in a corner, curling up there until the door opened again, revealing Danny, Harry, Dougie, Carrie and Doctor Tennant. "oh, visiting hours are over, better get moving then." The doctor smirked, as Danny ran to hug me close.
"I-I'm sorry Tommy, he's making me go, I-I'm sorry. But I'll be back tomorrow, I promise, I'll be back tomorrow." Danny ran his hand over my face, actually crying now. "w-what? Whats going on?" I asked, standing up as he did. "Tommy, I'm going home, they're making me go home. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, but he's making me go home. He won't let me stay, he'll force me if I don't go. I don't want to, but they're making me." Danny whimpered, hugging me close. "no don't go! Please don't go!" I cried, they'll leave you here to die! "I have to Tommy, I'm so sorry. I'll be back tomorrow though, I swear, I will be back tomorrow." Danny kissed my head again, letting me go.
"no, no, please. Stay! Don't go, don't leave me here!" I begged, grabbing hold of him again, desperately. "I'm sorry, he's making me, I have to go." Danny pulled me close again, squeezing me so close it hurt. I didn't care, I need this, I needed this hug, I needed his warmth and his strength to survive. "don't leave me, please don't leave me!" I sobbed, feeling so scared, I couldn't spend a night on my own here! At home, maybe, but not here! Not in this evil place, full of evil doctors and evil machines and just...evil! "I'm sorry baby, I'm so sorry, I'll be back tomorrow. I swear I'll be back tomorrow." Danny cried, giving me the biggest kiss I had possibly ever been given.
"don't leave, please don't leave." I whispered, chasing Danny to the door, watching him leave and crying hysterically. Wanting to just go home. "I'm coming back tomorrow, okay, I'm coming back tomorrow." Danny called one last time, a nurse coming over and holding me back, so I didn't run after him as he got dragged down the corridor behind Harry, Dougie and Carrie. "back inside Tom, we have some work to do." The nurse yanked me back inside, the second they all disappeared from the end of the corridor.
I scrambled backwards into a corner, wanting to scream as the Doctor Tennant came in, holding dreaded food. "go away! Leave me alone! I want to go home!" I shouted, shoving him and the nurse away. "now Thomas, we need to do this, its a serious matter not eating. Now come on, open your mouth and eat, it'll make things easier." Doctor Tennant warned, coming back, starting to pin me to the wall. He's touching you! He's getting disgusted, he'll realise you're worthless and just shove food down your throat! "get off me! Leave me alone!" I screamed, trying to push him away, but I couldn't! He was too strong, I couldn't push him even a little away from me.
"go away! Leave me-" I got cut off as a spoon full of yoghurt got shoved into my mouth, making me gag. "swallow it, go on, swallow it." The nurse encouraged, pinning my arms to the wall so I couldn't push anyone away. "never! Go away! Leave me alone!" I screamed out again, resorting to kicking them away, trying to spit out as much of the mouthful as possible. "Thomas, stop kicking now. Its not a good behaviour." The doctor growled, pressing a button on the remote to make more people come in.
I screamed again as they all jumped on me, man handling me to the ground, forcing me to lay there. I couldn't move a muscle, I was stuck to the ground, incapable of movement because of all the hands keeping me to the floor. "stop screaming will you? You'll wake up the other patients." Doctor Tennant put his hand over my mouth, stopping me screaming. Get his hand off now and carry on screaming! Get someone to help! I was warned, I tried being nice and licking his hand, it didn't do anything, so I bit, hard. "ow! You little sh*t!" the doctor swore, glaring at me as I started screaming again.
"get off of me! Help me! Someone help me! Please!" I screamed, trying my hardest to get out of this hold. "he's hysterical, we're not going to get him to calm down, we have to restrain him." Tennant ordered, the nurses hauling me up and onto the bed, holding me down until things came round my wrists and ankles, even as everyone let go I couldn't move. Pinned like an animal, next will be a cage, you'll never be let go of. The voice made me panic so much, I swear I have never screamed and fought so much in my whole entire life. Panic gripped my whole body, making my heart rush and everything go into overdrive. I just needed to get free, the whole world felt like it was going into cave in and suffocate me.
"let me go! Let me go! Help me!" I writhed, panicking so much I almost lost my voice, making myself choke. "he's not getting any better, and we can't leave him to scream, waking up the other patients. Give him something that will calm him down a little, not enough to send him out completely, but enough to shut him up." The doctor ordered, I screamed even more, until something was pushed into my arm and everything slowed down. Slowly, my arms stopped moving, the same with my legs, my screaming stopped too, it was like I physically couldn't do anything, I was just...stuck, unable to move or talk, but still awake.
"there we go, thats better, isn't it? Thats much better. You're going to take a lot of work." The doctor walked out, leaving me by myself, unable to move or cry out anymore. I just laid there, sobbing and sobbing until there was nothing left for me to cry. Pathetic, simply pathetic. The monster tutted, giving the most unhelpful comments ever, making me feel even worse, if that possible. "p-please, h-help me." I whimpered a few hours later, as a nurse came in, lifting up the barriers on either side of the bed.
"thats what I'm doing, now keep still." She mumbled, undoing the restraints and taking them away. Freedom! Run! I tried, but I couldn't, I was still incapable of movement! I whimpered, my head falling to the side as I started crying. The bed moved through corridor after corridor, until it stopped outside the examination room again... what the hell?! "ah, now we can actually get something done without Danny being in the way, and without you freaking out." The medical doctor smiled, lifting up my paralysed body and doing even more tests on me, taking off my tshirt and trousers, looking at all my scars and tutting disapprovingly. "n-no! G-go away!" I cried uselessly, unable to push him away as his hands ran over my arms and legs, feeling all the cuts, pain shooting up my arms and legs.
"cuts healing well, still causing pain, but thats understandable. Now do a weight check." He lifted me up and put me on the scales, making me start to sob as the scales showed '5 stone'. I knew it was bad, just looking down at myself was enough to make myself feel physically sick. But I hadn't thought that I was that bad yet! Told you, you were horrible and disgusting. But 5 stone was better than 15 stone, no-one took the mick when people were this small, because they're too disgusted. "dangerously underweight, as I thought. Someone get his feeding tube. Better get something good out of this." The doctor ordered, the nurses coming in and shoving the choking tube down my throat as the doctor finished and laid me back down on the bed.
The wordlessly rolled me back to my room again, shoving more needles into my skin and restraining me again as I started to move again. Tied down, gagged and unable to go anywhere, pretty much an animal, wouldn't you say?