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*the morning after*

Beca POV

My eyelids were heavy, my head felt like it had a brick on it. I'd never experienced a feeling like this before. I was completely hanging. I tried to lift my arms to push myself up, but they felt like lead. I sighed as my arms dropped back onto the bed. Jeez what on earth happened last night?! I closed my eyes, trying to remember what had happened. Suddenly it all came back to me, the shots, Joey, the near kiss, then Jesse. I was all of a sudden filled with emotions. Hate, anger, sadness. Everything was there. I was angry that Jesse had treated me like, angry that Joey had tried to take advantage of me, sad that I'd woken up alone, and hateful of Joey, again. Gathering the energy and strength I got out of bed, noticing I was still in the clothes from last night, I stripped and headed into Jesse's bathroom for a shower. As I stepped into the shower I heard the door of his room open. I guessed it was him, I debated about whether I should go out and see him. I thought I'd just leave it, if he wanted to see me, he'd come and find me. A few minutes later I heard him leave the room and the door slam shut. I washed myself and turned the shower to cold. I quickly blasted the cold water over me, the almost icy temperature shocked my into life. I was wide awake now, and didn't feel anywhere near as dead as I did before. Stepping out of the shower I grabbed one of Jesse's towels. It smelled of his cologne and I suddenly felt sad that he wasn't here, sad that I'd woken up in his bed, alone. I wanted his arms around me, but things needed to be sorted before that could happen. I walked into his room and dressed quickly in his sweats and his t-shirt. As I headed over to make his bed, I noticed a glass of water and two small pills on the bedside table. Even when things were bad between us, he still cared. It made my heart flutter that he'd been so thoughtful. Taking the pills and putting them in my mouth I downed the water. It felt good to have a drink of something so refreshing. I decided it was time to face the music. I opened his bedroom door and headed to find him.

Jesse POV

When I finally woke up, I wondered where I was. Then I realized I was on the sofa in the gym. I was confused for a couple of minutes, then I remembered last night. Guilt rushed over me as the events of last night came back. I'd blamed Beca for that lowlife kissing her. I needed to make things right. Getting up off the sofa, my head suddenly felt heavy. Eurgh. I wiped my face with my hands, as I did so I felt a stab of pain. I looked at my hands, they were cut and bruised. Fuck how did I do that?! I brushed it off, it was the last thing I needed to worry about now. I headed up to the kitchen, thinking that maybe a peace offering would help. Grabbing some Paracetamol and water I headed to my room.

Gingerly, I opened the door. Peering around I noticed a pile of clothes on the floor, but not Beca. The shower was on so I guessed she was in there. Placing the offering on the table I grabbed some clothes from my dresser and went to the other bathroom for a shower. Soon things would need to be sorted out, things were left badly last night and I felt like a dick for how I acted.

After my shower I headed to the kitchen, I wasn't hungry so I just put some coffee on. After switching the machine on, I turned towards the fridge. I stopped in my tracks as I saw Beca standing in the doorway. She looked tired and a bit groggy, but she still looked beautiful.

"Bec, please, im so sorry about how I acted last night!" I spilled as I stepped towards her.

"I know you are." She replied, her tone was dull and quiet, she was hurt and I'd done that.

"Please babygirl, forgive me? I was drunk, angry I didn't know what came over me?" I went to hug her, but she pulled away, my heart broke.

"you were DRUNK? How comes you're allowed to get drunk but I'm not?!" she screamed at me. "I trust you, I thought you trusted me! Clearly not with the way you treated me last night, thinking I LET him kiss me? How dare you accuse me of that? You looked at me as if I was disgusting last night, you embarrassed me in front of everyone Jesse."

I looked at the floor, there was nothing I could say to redeem myself. I went to say something to her but she put her hands up.

"I'm done for now Jesse, the way you made me feel last night, I can't forgive that so easy." She looked at me with tears in her eyes. My own eyes were filled with tears as she turned and left. I'd ruined things, I'd ruined things for us. I slammed my fist down on the kitchen side, knocking a glass onto the floor, causing it to smash. Hearing the noise Donald came running down, quickly followed by Benji. They looked at me as a tear rolled down my red cheek. They knew. They both knew what had happened, they looked sorry for me, but at the same time they didn't. I deserved this for the way I acted, they both thought the same. In turn they came and gave me a pat on the back. It was thoughtful and I thanked them for it, but it didn't help. I needed some space.

Grabbing my keys I headed for my car. I wanted to get away for a few hours. I only had one class this afternoon, and even that didn't seem important anymore. I drove off campus, unsure of where I was going. I joined the highway and sped off. Before I knew it, I was at the little lake that I'd brought Beca only last week. It made my heart ache as I skimmed stones across the water. After about an hour I headed back to the car. Tears filled my eyes as I drove off, I pulled out when there was a loud crashing, screeching noise. I was flying through the air, tumbling over and over and over. I was laying on my side, something was sticking in my leg, sending sharp stabbing pains through my entire body. I could hear people calling to me, but I couldn't answer. My eyes got heavy, I heard the faint noise of sirens before everything went black.

*was meant to me a less dramatic chapter which in a way it is? its not as fiesty. i hope you enjoy! sorry for leaving you on a cliff hanger ;) but its time for bed now! if i cant sleep you'll be getting another one but chances are that wont happen so check back tomorrow for another chapter ;)*