A/N: I had a surgery on my right wrist (I'm right handed) and now I have a cast, then in a month I'll have another surgery to remove a metal piece that attaches the bones, this is what I had written so far, not sure when I'll post again, I supposed it'll be after the second surgery. Thank you for your support.
Chapter 23
Remember me when I am gone away/ Gone far away into the silent land/ When you can no more hold me by the hand…And afterwards remember, do not grieve/For if the darkness and corruption leave/ A vestige of the thoughts that once I had/ Better by far you should forget and smile/ Than that you should remember and be sad. ―Remember (extract) by Christina Rossetti
Bella's POV
After waiting with the Cullens what it seemed to be hours, we are advised by the doctors that we could go ahead and see Edward but they informed us that he's still unconscious. My heart sinks as I hear those words; I feel dizzy. Luckily Emmett is near me and he steadies me.
"Are you sure you want to see him?" he asks with concern on his face.
"Yes, I need to see him. I have to be there for him."
We finally reach Edward's room. Esme and Carlisle are the first to enter. Esme crumbles next to the bed, Carlisle holds her. He's also suffering, he's pale and I can see some tears sticking out. Emmett and I wait outside, there can only be two people in the room. After recovering, Esme settles next to the bed. She caresses Edward's face which is plug to tubes. He looks so frail. I always wondered what it would be like to watch him sleep, but this is not how I wanted to fulfill my wish. I turn to see Emmett, he's not his usual self. No comic quotes or impersonations, instead he's serious and pensive. "Are you alright?" I ask, of course he's not fine, but I didn't know what else to ask.
"Not really. If I hadn't argued with dad, Edward would have stayed with you and we wouldn't be here." So Edward left because things weren't good at home, I thought he had left because he couldn't handle what was going on with me. I feel a sudden relief, but as quickly as it came it leaves too. I have no words to say to Emmett, I just hug him and pat his back.
"Tell mom I'm in the waiting room" he says wiping some tears from his eyes.
"Aren't you going to come and see Edward?"
"I j-j-just can't handle it." I try to get closer but he's a lot faster than me. Esme and Carlisle should be out in some minutes. Reality starts to sink deeper and deeper, what if Edward never wakes up? What would happen if he wakes up but has a permanent damage in any part of his body? Will I be strong enough?