A/N: OK thank you to Guest this morning who dropped some ideas and RenaGraceSx for the this idea! Also jumped ahead of time to make things correct ha (: here's where it gets interesting for you guys (:
It's now December just to clear this all up, Adrienne's been discharged and there's going to be a surprise for you guys with her ;) and Eleanor's still at University thought I'd clear this all up in case anyone was confused.
Serena in the past two months had been acting very strange and it hadn't gone unnoticed, now in the middle of winter December to be precise they were laid in bed Serena in Edward's arms he then took a chance on bringing up a subject that he had been trying to avoid. Serena felt him tense up and she looked at him, "Out with it," she ordered.
"Have you noticed any changes in you?" Edward asked he couldn't just come out with it, it was awkward enough.
"Like what?" Serena asked to be fair she had noticed changes: two missed periods she put down to Menopause happening, but then suddenly her body was wanting jars of Nutella and when James and George had bananas at lunch a wave of nausea hit her and poor Arthur had been on the end of a bad mood swing.
"Ms urmm Campbell," Arthur stuttered nervous about talking to her, "I…well…I was wondering…could you look at a patient for me?"
"I thought you were a doctor, Doctor Digby," Serena turned to the young doctor who looked terrified.
"Yeah but it's just I need a, a second…o-o-opinion," Arthur watched as Serena eyed him dangerously.
"So when you eventually become a Consultant are you going to ask another Consultant for a second opinion?" Serena put her hands on her hips and Arthur stepped back, "Next time Doctor Digby if you want a second opinion, as someone like Mr Griffin who is too soft for his own liking and whilst you're at it rethink your career!" Serena stormed off and Arthur breathed in to stop himself from panicking, "Second opinion…fucking hell."
"Well your sudden love for Nutella again," Edward felt Serena break away from him, "And I heard you shout at Arthur yesterday. Serena is there something you need to tell me?"
"No I'm fine," Serena decided it was time to get up or avoid her way of avoiding the subject, "I'll see you at work."
…
Now she was in the bathroom toilet stall leaning against the wall, having just vomited for the second time this morning thanks to James and his effing bananas. Then another wave of nausea hit her and she vomited again, "Ughh," she leant back again but then the door opened.
"Everything OK?" She heard Jac Naylor calling, "Hello?" Jac asked again.
"I'm fine Jac," Serena flushed the toilet and dried her eyes she was worried, scared and today was a day that she would advise everyone to stay away from her.
"Serena?" Jac frowned confused she then heard the door unlock and then she came out, "Have you?" Jac studied her bosses face, "Have you been crying?"
"No I got something in my eyes," Serena studied herself in the mirror and kicked herself internally for making up such a stupid, unbelievable lie.
"Riiight," Jac nodded but Serena knew instantly that she had seen right through her, "Serena," Jac leant her hand on the sink, "How dumb do you think I am?"
"You're a smart woman Jac I don't deny you that," Serena splashed her face and then let the water momentarily drop off her nose and forehead, before ripping two paper towels out of the dispenser and then dried her face.
"Then don't insult my intelligence," Jac looked at Serena she was pale, eyes were drained and red was that from crying or as Serena said getting something in her eye? "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," Serena composed herself and then turned on her heels and walked to the door, "Now stop worrying about me," she then directed her eyes to Jac's bump, then looked back up at her, "And get to work."
"Serena," Jac frowned but it didn't stop her boss walking out, Jac rolled her eyes and followed, "Serena," Jac walked as quickly as her bump would allow her, "Stop."
"Get back to work Ms Naylor," Serena walked into AAU Jac followed her, "Back to work Ms Naylor!" Serena ordered rather loudly.
"Not until you tell me what is wrong," Jac leant against the desk making her point that she was not budging, "I've got all day, theatre list is squeaky clean."
"Back. To. Work," Serena said through gritted teeth and she then heard the familiar laughs of James and Edward, "Oh god," she leant her head down.
"Problems with Edward again?" Jac asked but Serena snapped her head up and glared, "Alright don't bite my head off…what part of don't drink coffee does anyone not understand?" Jac smelt the familiar smell and she went to talk to Serena but she was leant back against the desk head down, "Oh my god."
"Don't Jac," Serena mumbled.
"Serena…are you? It's none of my business but I know you love coffee as did I."
"Good morning," James said to Serena lifted her head up and glared, "Woah someone got out of bed on the wrong side this morning…you look terrible."
"Thanks James," Serena looked at her employee, "Such a lovely man, always full of compliments!" she hit his head hardly with a file and stormed off.
"Ah," he rubbed the top of his head.
"Excuse me a sec," Edward walked out of AAU to catch up with Serena, "What is going on with you?" he grabbed her wrist.
"Get off," she wriggled her wrist free but Edward grabbed it again, "I said," Serena grabbed Edward's hand and shoved it off, "Get off," she shouted and walked away.
"No not until you tell me," Edward took them outside by the entrance, "Serena I'm not stupid…are you?" he leant into her and whispered, "Are you pregnant?"
"What?!" Serena shouted, "Why do you think that?"
"Nutella, vomiting in the morning and don't take this the wrong way but…but your bum's changed," Edward said the last word quietly.
"Thanks my darling, my little ray of sunshine, light of my life what is it with you and James and your fucking insults?!" Serena shouted and anger surged through her, having been insulted twice and then her hand collided with Edward's cheek, "I'm," Serena stepped back shocked at her sudden reaction.
"Wow," Edward rubbed his cheek which was now red, "Still can do a good slap then," Edward laughed he remembered she had slapped him twice when she found out his, dirty little secret, "Ahh," he felt it twinge and guilt surged through Serena.
"I'm sorry," Serena felt her eyes welling up with guilt, "I didn't mean…I was angry and-" she was cut off by Edward pulling her into a hug.
"Don't worry OK," Edward gently kissed her head, "Look…Serena I know when you're pregnant been there before with you," Edward winked.
"Oh god what a mess," Serena broke away and dried her eyes, "It's just how could we let this happen?" Serena looked at Edward accusingly, "We were careful…I'm in my forties for god's sake!"
"First of all do a test," Edward needed to have it confirmed, "Just to be sure."
"I thought you knew when I was pregnant?" Serena questioned him from his statement a few minutes ago.
"I do but it's just to be sure," Edward smiled at her she looked away, "What's wrong?"
"Urmm let's see shall we? We're in our forties, I run a hospital, you're a locum, our daughter is eighteen…how could we let this happen?" Serena hit the window in frustration making people inside jump, "How are we going to be able to do this?"
"Like we did before," Edward smiled fondly, "We can do it," Edward tapped her nose, "Pharmacy come on."
"What are we going to tell Eleanor?" Serena suddenly thought she wondered how Eleanor would react, would she throw a tantrum? Be happy?, "She needs to know."
"First of all we go to the Pharmacy to double check, then we discuss telling Ellie," Edward put his arm around her, "You OK?" she suddenly went pale and pasty.
"Someone's got coffee," Serena answered and she found another bush, she felt Edward's hand on her back rubbing it in circles.
"Finished?" Edward asked kindly.
"Yeah," Serena stood up and sighed, "I can't stomach the smell."
Serena waited outside the Pharmacy whilst Edward brought the test, Mary-Claire was walking over, "Oh Ms Campbell just the woman."
"Hide that," Serena pointed to the coffee cup in the Irish woman's hand.
"OK," Mary-Claire looked confused and she put it on the floor, "Arthur was really upset yesterday-"
"Aww poor baby," Serena said with no sympathy at all.
"He's still traumatized from the crash and Chantelle…please can you be a bit nicer to him?" Mary-Claire approached bravely.
"Yes well maybe you should keep your blabbering Irish mouth, out of other people's business," Serena eyed Mary-Claire dangerously.
Edward walked out to find the disagreement, "Keep my nationality out of this," Mary-Claire argued back at Serena.
"What's going on?" Edward asked coming up behind the two arguing women.
"She," Mary-Claire pointed to Serena, "Insulted my nationality and she won't apologize to Arthur."
"Look," Edward put his arm around Serena, Serena kicked the coffee cup Mary-Claire put on the floor and the brown liquid poured onto the concrete, "I'll talk to Arthur OK…just leave it."
That was the first time Edward had shown any annoyance towards Mary-Claire, but it was only because he was protective over Serena, "Right…" Mary-Claire looked apologetically at Edward, "Sorry I'll see you on AAU." Mary-Claire walked away.
"Thank you," Serena sighed heavily, "Been any longer I probably would've lost it."
"I know," Edward nodded knowingly, "Done it before remember?"
A thought suddenly washed over Serena like waves washing over the sand on a beach, "Even if it is positive…we can't keep it," the words hit Edward like a punch in the gut.
"What?" Edward asked confused, "You can't kill a child Serena."
"By this time tomorrow you'll be gone and then it'll be just with Ellie all over-" Serena was cut off by Edward kissing her and she kissed back. Serena broke their kiss apart and looked in his eyes, she placed her hand on his cheek and leant into his chest, "You won't stay," she whispered and Edward lifted her head off his chest, "You won't Edward," Serena felt tears slip out of her eyes, hormones already taking over, "I know you won't."
Edward leant into her and kissed the top of her head, "I will Serena," he cuddled her to make her feel safe, "I've been the world's worst father to Eleanor, but I couldn't do that to you again Serena I love you."
"What about when it gets hard? When we're up every hour? When we're surviving on less than two hours of sleep? When it gets hard Edward you go…I can't bring another child into this world knowing that his or hers father is not going to be there," Serena looked at Edward she searched his face for an answer.
Edward looked at Serena they stood still holding hands for five minutes. Edward finally spoke he kept her hands in his squeezing them lightly, "I'm going to be there Serena, geez I couldn't leave you to raise another child on your own, you need me there and sounds selfish but I guess we could see it as a second chance?"
"Fuck up the first child and raise the other one right is that what you're saying?" Serena asked Edward sheepishly nodded, "Oh what did we do with Eleanor? How did we manage to mess her up?"
"Because in all honesty both of us were selfish," the pair walked over to the Peace Garden and sat on the two small coloured chairs near the play house, "Think about it…we always argued around her to the point where she would be in tears."
"And I always used you flaws against you," Serena sighed heavily remembering how whenever Edward, used her work load and schedule as an excuse to make him look good she always bit back with: getting with a child bride, leaving your infant daughter, "Oh we really messed up," Serena put her hands in the praying position and rested her forehead breathing in the winter air.
"Right put us out of our misery hope you need to pee," Edward gave her the plastic which contained a Clear Blue pregnancy test, "Thought it's best to get the most reliable brand."
"Can you come to the bathroom with me?" Serena asked, Edward nodded and held out his hand which in return Serena took and they went right down to the basement toilets, they stood in the same bathroom which unfortunately had no cubicles so Edward turned to the door and read some of the rude messages people had wrote, "I can't wait five minutes," Serena held the stick in her hand and placed it on top of the tank lid. The pair waited both breathing heavily Serena had a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach and finally it beeped indicating them to check, "You look," Serena gave Edward the stick, "Well?" she raised her eyebrows.
Edward looked down and it read: 12 weeks pregnant, "Geez you're already two months gone."
"So I am pregnant then?" Serena leant her head back not sure whether to feel happy or annoyed.
"I had a inkling you know…but I didn't know how to bring it up," Edward shrugged which made Serena laugh, "So what do you want to do?"
"I can't kill a child," Serena folded her arms she sighed heavily.
"So we're keeping it?" Edward asked.
"Yeah," Serena nodded, "We're keeping…but it means you'll have to be a man and grow up and just please I beg you," Serena took his hand in hers, "Please don't let me down…I can't take another heartbreak off you."
"I'm going to be there every step of the way," Edward wrapped his arms around Serena and she wrapped her arms around Edward, "OK," he kissed the top of her head, "And we're doing this together."
"We should go to St James's and get a scan booked," Serena said.
"Or if you wanted to go even further I'm sure SG's would welcome you back," Edward laughed and Serena did too, "Let's save some time," Edward pulled away, "Come on," Edward opened the door and they walked out.
"Where we going?" Serena asked.
"Just trust me," Edward and Serena walked back up to AAU, "Oh no…no, no, no," she held her hands up.
"Just wait you impatient bugger," Edward rolled his eyes as Serena glared at him, "I need to get something from the locker room."
James came over looking very apologetic, "Sorry about earlier," James said to Serena, "I've never been one for tact."
"It's fine," Serena looked James and he noticed a warmth in her eyes, "You're all good."
James looked at Edward, then at Serena and then looked confused, "Sure you're OK Rena?"
"I'm fine," Serena breathed out and James tapped her shoulder, "Yes?"
"You've been eating Nutella endlessly for two months and chucking up at the smell of coffee… knew you were pregnant," He smiled at her and walked away leaving Serena to kick herself.
"How does he do it? How does he work these things out?!" Serena asked fuming.
"He's just very vigilant," Edward then walked into the locker room with his blazer, "Come with me."
"Why do I have a feeling I'm going to regret this?" Serena followed Edward to a side room, "What's this?"
"Maconie came to me a few weeks ago and he noticed the changes with you," Edward saw Serena roll her eyes, "He hasn't said anything has he?" Serena shook her head, "Exactly…so he gave me the idea about the scan in private, makes it more special or something…"
"Yes well Maconie's all for a cliché," Serena recalled Jac telling her how he loved clichés and that he winds her up with them.
"You ready?" Edward asked Serena got up on the bed, lifted her top up and tucked the tissue in the top of her raspberry coloured scrub trousers, Edward squeezed the gel onto the probe, "This will be-"
"Yes I know," Serena remembered from all those years ago the gel being very, very cold.
"OK," Edward went to place the probe on her stomach, but he got distracted by her stomach which was a tiny bit swollen, "You did hide it well…even when we had interesting nights…knew something was different as well your breasts have swollen, seriously was I that stupid?"
"Oh my god," Serena suddenly realised something.
"What?" Edward asked concerned.
"Wine I've been drinking…oh god," Serena leant her head back Edward grabbed her hand, "I've been drinking."
"It'll be fine," he squeezed her hand gently, "OK can I continue?" he placed it on her stomach and she squirmed.
"Ah that's cold!" Serena exclaimed and shivered, "Oh…that's cold."
"Hey I warned you," Edward reminded her and he moved the probe around, both watched the screen and appearing on it was the baby it's head was on the right and they saw that it's hand was behind it's head. Both looked contented at the screen and jumped when they heard the heartbeat Serena's face softened and Edward squeezed her hand subconsciously, "That's our baby."
Serena was lost eyes fixated on the tiny thing on the screen and she came round when Edward clicked his fingers, "Sorry?"
"Right in your own world there," Edward laughed he clicked the button for the image to be printed off, "Here," he handed her another piece of paper towel, "Seriously how did I not realise?"
"You did you just didn't want to bring it up," Serena reminded him that it wasn't his fault, "I thought I was going through Menopause."
"Well how are we going to tell Ellie?" Edward asked.
"When she's home from Uni we'll talk to her," Serena felt her eyes welling up.
"Hey don't cry," he used his thumb to wipe away two silent tears, "Is it because you're happy?"
"Hormonal," Serena corrected him, "Oh god I need to say sorry to Doctor Digby."
"Leave Digby to me," Edward pushed her back down and rested his hand on hers, "Take it easy…and I mean it this time," Edward clarified, "How are we going to tell everyone?"
"Ha we are not telling anyone just yet," Serena got off the bed and pulled her top down, "But knowing my luck it'll get found out anyway."
"Does that matter?" Edward asked smiling gently he took the image, "Shall I keep it?"
"Uh yeah," Serena and Edward walked out, "Thank you…you didn't have to do that."
"I wanted to," He pulled her into a hug, "Eighteen years later…and we're back to where we started."
"Nutella," Serena said to Edward, "Well chop, chop."
"And now it begins," Edward squeezed her shoulder and laughed as she looked insulted, "Don't start crying…please…I beg you."
"Nutella," Serena repeated she was unaware that James was behind them, "Oh you do realise James is going to torment me."
"Is that so?" James said from behind, "Well Ms Campbell you make me sound like a right evil bastard."
"Bananas do I need to repeat? Amelia's going to love me," Serena laughed.
"Make sure you don't look like you're about to vomit in theatre," James added.
"Because George will be on your case," Edward finished.
"Nutella now!" Serena said to both men, "And whilst you're getting me Nutella, also pick up some biscuits."
"Oh we love you pregnant Rena," James ruffled her hair, "It makes you human."
"Go and don't come back until I have Nutella and biscuits with you," Serena ordered and they scurried off because no one disobeyed Serena especially when Serena is pregnant.
A/N: Once again thank you to RenaGraceSx hope you enjoyed this chapter pretty cheesy but I finally have something to go on (: let me know what you think hope you like the idea going to be fun poor juniors they better watch out ;) review please xx I did quite a bit of research ha from signs of pregnancy to 12 week scan so its as acuarate as NHS Online told me ha but also I remembered a Casualty episode from years back and a woman in her fifties fell pregnant and mistaked it for Menopause so thanks to Casualty 2004 there haha! xx