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WHEN WE WERE KIDS
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
I woke up, due to someone poking my cheek.
"Mmmmh...get off..." I mumbled into my pillow. I heard Natsu laugh.
"School, come on." He said. I rolled over, and looked at him. The adjectives that could of described him would be god like, handsome, sexy, and that's an understatement.
"O-okay..."I mumbled, still baffled by the fact that I had just woken up with Natsu, my boyfriend, actual boyfriend, in my room. He grinned at me, got up, and climbed out the window. I lay in bed, lost in thoughts from last night...
When I was finally ready, Natsu amd I made our way down to school, when we arrived there, we were surprised to see the amount of commotion going on. Loads of the pupils were outside the school gates, in a crowd. Natsu and I pushed our way through the crowd, only to gasp in shock.
The school roof was either missing, or burnt to a char. Smoke still rose up, and the noise of water rushing could be heard, still extinguishing fire. I saw Jellal, Felicia's replacement, and rushed over to him.
"What's happened?" I asked. He looked distressed.
"The school was attacked, in the night. One minute, nothing, next minute, up in flames. Go home, school's off." He sighed. He wasn't the sociable type, but he helped give Erza litterature tutoring. I sighed, and walked back over to Natsu, who's hand was clenching the gate.
"It was burnt in the night." I told him. He didn't respond, just looked ready to kill the person who burnt it.
"Let's go home." He said, grabbing my arm, and pulling me away viciously.
"Hey! Do you mind?" I asked, yanking my arm out of his grip. He just pulled me more. "Natsu!" I shouted, but he ignored me, already taking the route home. I stumbled along, and finally yanked my arm out once we were back on Hyacinth road.
"Hey! You two!" We heard Cana, accompanied by Gray and Juvia shout. Natsu held up his hand, telling them to stop there.
"Why did you pull me like that?" I asked, holdng my arm, it was hurting from where he had had his grip.
"Why do you come to Magnolia, and shit starts to go down? First you don't tell us the truth about where you're from, which causes me to be kidnapped, next thing the school's burnt down! What is it with you? Are you just an omen of bad luck?" He snapped at me, snarling in my face. I took a step back. What...?
"I-I don't know-"
"Just shut up for at least a second! Stop blabbering on about stuff that I couldn't care less about! You're just annoying! Stop clinging onto me!" He pushed me back. "Stop fawning over me!" He pushed me again. "Just don't speak to me!" He shouted, as he pushed me onto the ground. I fell, not believing what he was saying. "I hate you!" He shouted, as he kicked my leg. I yelped, and strated to pull myself back, but he kept walking fowards, kicking me.
"Stop! Please stop!" I cried. Cana, Gray and Juvia ran over.
"Get off her!" Cana shouted, holding his arms back, but he just pulled them out. He was starring at me, teeth clenched, and trying to hurt me. I couldn't do anything but stare, and cry. Gray came over, and helped Cana hold him back. Natsu stopped.
"Let me go! I won't hurt your precious wimp!" He told them. They let him go. He looked down at me, and smiled.
He smiled. A mocking, pityfull, smile.
"Pff, pathetic bitch." He said, as he walked over to his house, and up the path. I let everything sink in.
"I adore you." He had said those words.
Why would he do that? What did I do? Was I a bad luck omen? I suppose, since, like he said, he got kidnapped because of me, as well as Silver getting totured, because I didn't tell the truth.
"Lucy!" Cana said, knealing down next to me. I had no expression on my face, apart from surprise. My mouth was a little 'o', and tears were dripping out of my eyes, without me even noticing.
"W-what?" I asked, shaking. I didn't even notice the horribble throbbing in my leg.
"What the hell was that?" Gray asked.
"I thought..." I stuttered, till what he had done and said came into perpective.
"You're just annoying!"
Was I? I thought he... I suppose I was annoying, all the times I had annoyed him, speaking about my mom or my dreams, or everything.
"Hey Lucy..." Juvia said, as she knealed down.
"Precious wimp!"
Wimpy? I wasn't strong like him, but I could fight. Or could I? I mean, magic was a bit like cheating. I am a wimp.
"Pathetic bitch."
What was a bitch? A disgusting female, so horrible, mean, dirty, everything. I was those, just a useless pile of crap. But I thought he...
"I hate you!"
He hated me! I didn't want him to hate me! I loved him so much, I would change for him, just to be with him, so he wouldn't find me annoying, bitchy, or wimpy, I didn't want him to hate me.
"I-I thought...I thought he loved me..." I muttered, before bursting into tears.
"Hey Lucy, I'm here, speak to me." Juvia said, as she wrapped her arms around me. I let myself be hugged, overidden with grief.
"I'm sorry..." I cried.
"What did he say?!" Cana pressed on. Juvia raised her hand, telling her to stop.
"Lucy, come on, I'll bring you home." She said, and helped me up, letting me soakher top with tears. Silver was out, and Juvia helped me into my room, sitting me on my bed.
"Lucy, tell me what he said." She asked. Cana and Gray weren't there.
"But I love him...I thought he loved me...he said he loved me..." I blubbed, curling up into a ball.
"Shh...shh..." she said, stroking my hair. I put my hand on my neck, were he always kissed.
"I'm-I'm a bad luck omen...It's my fault...I should of just stayed at-"
"Lucy, it's not your fault. What did he say?" She asked again. I sucked up my sobs.
"He-he said that since I was at Magnolia, bad stuff has happened, he got kidnapped, Silver got tortured, our house burnt, school burnt... Oh! He's right..." I cried.
"He's not. You've been nothing but nice to everyone. He's stupid."
"He's not stupid! I'm stupid! It's my fault, I should'nt of been so clingy to him in the first place!" I cried.
"Did he say that?"
"He told me not to cling to him, fawn over him, or speak to him. Or even go near him..." I cried. I felt my heart go blank. His grin... and his gorgeous everthing. He could say things like no other person could, he made me so happy, when he smiled, when he laughed, when he even just looked at me... I liked it when he stroked my cheek, he did that a lot. I couldn't think any more. I just lay down on my bed, as everything went blank. I closed my eyes, and the nothingness helped me get to sleep.
When I woke up. I heard voices outside my room.
"Juvia? What brings you here?" Silver's kind voice said.
"Hello obba-chan, it's about Lucy..."
"Oh no! Another fight? Is she okay?" Her worried voice said.
"No, well, in a manner of speaking. But it's about her and Natsu."
"Don't tell me she's pregnant!"
"No! No! Nothing like that! Well...it happned earlier. I'm not sure, but I think Natsu broke up with her."
Oh.
I remember.
"No... but they seemed so happy..." she sighed.
"Well it was rather violent. He strated pushing her, and kicking her. So she isn't really...alive, you could say. It's like he took her heart. Sorry for being a poet, but it is a bit like that. "
"Natsu did that?! I can't believe it! He wouldn't would he?" She said, her voice rising a few octaves.
"You should go and see her..." she said. I couldn't feel. Anything. Obba walked in to my room.
"Lulu?" She asked. I sat up. If I couldn't feel, might as well act.
"Hello obba! I'm sorry, I was so tired I took a nap, guess I overslept!" I laughed. "I'm going for a walk, do you mind?" I asked, not waiting for the answer, grabbing my lacrima pod, and swiveling my legs out of bed. But when I got up, I swore.
"Lucy!" Was her automatic reaction. I touched my leg where he had kicked, and flinched.
"Oh, sorry. It's nothing, I just fell." I said, before walking out.
"You can't lie to me, Lulu." She said. I stopped walking, only to continue out the door, past Juvia's gaze.
God, I needed some music. I put it on so loud, it drowned out my feelings. I started walking, so fast, not sure where my legs were taking me, but I ended up runnning, the momentum of the song blasting my mind, and ears... I would never get enough of this singer. She had the most beautifull voice, but her intentions... I'm thinking of a song and it's Make Me Wanna Die by The Pretty Reckless
My tears were blurring my vision, so I didn't realise where I was running, but when I finally stopped, I hated myslef.
I was at Lily bridge, where he had bought me. It was just like the day he bought me there. The sun was throwing little shards of light into the clear water, the crystal sound of the flowing river mixed with the occasional croak of a frog, and the stones that were called a bridge made the water calmer where the waterlilies were. I sat down by the river side, remembering. My music was off.
We had a water fight, and he had fallen into the water, before splashing me. He showed me a waterlily, and opend up the petals, revealing a little green frog. I had laughed, and so had he, so much that we didn't see the time fly, but...
I heard the cracking of branches behind me. I snapped my head around, and gasped when I saw Natsu. He saw me too, and immediatly, his face became apolagetic.
"Lucy! Oh god Lucy! I'm am so sorry! I don't know what's going on-"
"Save your breath." I said, getting up and walking away.
"Hey!" He called, grabbing my arm. My reaction was to yelp, scared of more pain, but none came. He pulled me towards him. "Lucy, just let me tell you that I have no-"
"I told you. I don't want to know. You made your mind clear enough earlier."
"I told you, I...tsch... I would never ever say those things to you, I've told you, I want to spend my life with you, be with you, and, I love-"
"No. Don't say that. It's gone. I can't feel it." I said. I wasn't making sense, but he seemed to understand.
"Will you believe me! It wasn't me! What about all the times I've told you, and...god, Lucy! Believe me! You are everything to me, you, just...what about last night? Huh? Last night, when we agreed on it. That wasn't nothing, that was something. Please believe me! I'm serious! I just... Just-" He interupted himself, and pulled me closer, and before I coud react, he was kissing me, so hurriedly, so long, so deep, I didn't react, I didn't kiss him back. What he had said. How could I believe him? After what he had done, and everything. The problem was, I did believe him. I would always believe him. He took his lips off.
"Lucy..." he sighed, putting his forehead against mine, his hands around my waist. I felt again, the pain.
"Get off me." I whispered, before tearing myself away, rushing out of the mini forest. Of course I didn't want to say that, but, my decision to just run was self defense. I needed to make sure that my heart could withstand another blow before looking him in the eye.
I got home, and went directly into my room. Juvia had gone.
"Lulu." Obba said, as she walked into my room.
"What?" I aksed, lying down into the pillow.
"Talk to me, or else I shall kill Natsu." She said. I snapped my head up.
"Hebrokeupwithmethat'sallnothingelsehedidn'thurtmeI'moverit." I said in one gasp. "Done, talked, I'm off to sleep land again." I said.
"Lulu...I know he hurt you, and I can't just sit here. You know how I am when I'm angry, and I won't stand for him playing you like that." She said. She could turn into a monster when she was angry. The door knocked. "I'm going to get that, and when I'm back, you'll talk." She ordered, before going out. I sighed, and watched from my door, as she opened the front door.
It was Natsu.
"Hey obba, could you say something to Lucy from me? I suppose I didn't say it officaly enough, between me and her, it's over." He said, no remorse in his voice, it was actually cheerfull.
"I don't believe you would do that to her, Natsu." Obba said. I recognised that voice. Not angry, just dissapointed. "She loves you so much, how on earth could you do that to her?!" Obba said, the shouting starting.
"Oh spare me the talk!" Natsu said back. She took a breath.
"Now I'm warning you. Hurt her again, and I don't mean just physicaly, I will make sure that you get what you deserve." She said, so low, before slamming the door. She turned around, closed her eyes, and took another calming breath. She opened them again, and saw me. "Lulu..."
"Do you mind if I skip lunch? I'm not hungry, and I'm tired." I said, but my voice betrayed me and cracked. I closed the door before Silver could get another word in, and lay down on my bed, burrying my face in the pillows. I cried, I'm not sure for how long, but my eyes felt red and sore. My eyes closed, and I feel to sleep.
Afetr that, when I woke up, everything felt unrealistic. I didn't know what time it was, and I didn't know who I was, or where I was. All that I knew was that Natsu didn't love me. Even though I couldn't feel, my eyes stung, and a silent stream of tears came pouring out.
"Lucy?" Obba said, as she opened the door to my room. I wiped my eyes.
"Yes?" I said, with a soar throat.
"Do you want to talk?" She asked. I didn't answer. She walked in, and sat down next to me on my bed.
"I don't know what to say..." I sighed.
"You know, when I was your age, I was in love as well." She told me. I gave a weak chuckle.
"For some reason that doesn't surprise me."
"I told him, just like that. He looked at me, with a face I'll never understand. And I walked away. We talked after that. He said he didn't know, he said he wouldn't say no, and he also said he didn't want to play with my feelings. I told him that leaving me on no man's land was playing with my feelings. A few days later, he said yes. I gave everything to him, my time, my heart, my soul, my mind, and he seemed to give me that back. But then, he ended it. The thing is, Lulu, I gave to much of myself away, just like you." She told me, as I leant against her arm, and she stroked my hair. Her story, it hurt, she had given too much of herself away... just like me...
That evening, Cana came round, with Juvia.
"Hey Lucy! How are you?" She asked, holding up a bottle of amber liquid.
"Cana..." Juvia sighed, facepalming.
"Fine." I said, having bottled up everything.
"Okay, in that case, we are sleeping over at yours tonight, do you mind?" She asked, not waiting for the answer, and just walking in. I smiled.
A few hours later, we were tipsy, boarding on very drunk.
"You know, you're lucky." Cana said, as she hiccuped.
"Whoooooo?" Juvia said.
"Yoooouuuuu." I answered, my head feeling light. We were sitting on my bed, holding ourselves up by leaning against each others backs. I giggled.
"What?" Cana asked.
"Whaaaaaat?" Juvia repeated.
"It's funny, isn't it? Natsu's eyes are black, but they actually have a slight rim of olive around the edge." I sighed, smiling.
"Let him go, already Lucy. He wasn't good enough for you." Cana said.
"Shaddap. Olive green, some olives are black too. Maybe the black in his eyes is olive black? No..." I sighed, frowning, trying to remember.
"Gray's are dark bluuuuuueeeee." Juvia said.
"How did I get myself into this..." Caa sighed.
"Oh..." I said.
"What?"
"Natsu doesn't love me..." I mumbled, before crying again.
"Here she goes." Cana muttered.
"It's okay, Luuuuucyyyyyy." Juvia said, as she patted my head.
"I guess, crying won't change anything..." I mumbled, stopping. "Did you know he likes to bite my neck?" I said, smiling.
"Liked, Lucy, face it, liked." She said using the past tense.
"Yeah, yeah."
"Why am I not surprised?" Juvia asked. "Gray kisses my nose." She hiccuped.
"I used to trace his lips, he liked that." Cana added.
"Oh yeah, I forgot, you two were a couple." I said.
"Were, because he's Juviiiiiaaaaa's nooooooow."
"Well, after that , you could say we were like sex friends." She said.
"What?" Juvia and I said at the same time.
"You're not a virgin?" I asked.
"Please. You're asking the drunk if she's avirgin. Of course not. I said goodbye to the V at thirteen."
"Holy mother of gooooooood."
"What's it like?" I asked.
"I'll put it in two words. Ouch, then wow."
"That's threeeeeee."
"Whatever. First time it hurts, a lot, and then, it just makes you go all woozy, like smoking weed and then drinking some wiskey, with a side dish of intense pleasure." She laughed.
We passed the rest of the night drunkingly speaking about girl stuff (period, sex, drugs, and then the meaning of life) before we finally went to sleep, on the bed, in our clothes.
Hehehe...sorry...hehe...hehehe...HAHAHA... whatever... hope you enjoyed this chpater, any questions? Ask me, I'll answer, bisous, :* Roji
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