"Hey Partner"

Nothing.

Kensi POV

He's not even looking at me. He acts like I'm not standing right next to him, he just caresses Monty's fur and sits down to enjoy the last few minutes of sun today. Wrong move, Shaggy. Wrong move.

"You're an idiot, you know that?" I start to tell him

"First you don't want to talk to me, than you left without a proper good-bye. I mean "See ya, Fern. "Really? What happened to the one's where you start talking nonsense so you don't have to go yet? You are my partner, Deeks. Talk to me about what's bothering you. I'm here for you."

Really Blye, you got nothing better than that. I should head slap myself, but that would just look stupid. Don't continue this or you will start rambling.

After what feels like hours he turned his head and looked at me. Finally.

Deeks POV

Today can't get any worse. Maybe I shouldn't have gone to the beach; I knew she would find me. Looks like Callen did talk to her, well, not about everything but the words she chose says to me she knows about the ... umm... partner-thing.

The words touched me and I know she saw that my face got somehow softer but enough is enough. I love the teasing and badgering between the four of us, I really do. We say stupid teasing things to each other and it's fun to push Kensi but talking about my job, even it is meant to be a joke or something isn't ok.

Being a cop is my life, not just 9 to 5 work. I'm good at it, maybe more than good.

But hearing otherwise from my partner, gives me doubts about me doing my job right and that means protecting her.

She can't just come to the beach, give me that speech and thinks that after that we can go back to our normal self.

Deal with it. I'm hurt and she's responsible for it. Yelling at her wouldn't help, so acting like everything's right is better for me... and her.

"Hey Fern, what are doing here? You wanted to see me surf, am I right? " I said and smiled at her.

Now she looks confused and that's really cute to watch. I can't keep thinking like this. It's not good for me.

"What..? I...-"

"You don't need my permission to watch me surf or talk along. Monty here is definitely very happy to see you. And you know you can look at my body all day, all night. You wanna touch it, Sugarbear?" I got up and walked closer to hear.

I had a smirk on my face but it didn't reach my eyes. And being Kensi Blye, NCIS she noticed that one at I knew what was about to come.

"No Deeks don't do this. Don't act like you're ok and like we're alright. I know we aren't and I want to fix our problem. I want to, Deeks" Kensi said while looking me in the eyes to see my reaction.

It's really good that I lie for living at this moment so I can hide what I feel right now.

"What is our problem? I don't k-"

"You know damn well about what I'm talking. Don't play dumb now."

Another insult, great. Maybe she wants me to yell at her so she can feel better. Well, I still can't give her that. Yet.

"Now that you remind me about me being dumb, I say a lot of stupid things, right? I mean, obviously I can't do my job right, because of it. Isn't that what you wanted to say, Fern? So, wanna talk about, let me see, that new restaurant we saw yesterday?"

"Deeks... That's not what I meant. I- I'm sorry about what I said this morning. It was a joke, a damn joke. I never meant to hurt you. You just sometimes make me- YOU are my partner, Deeks and you're one of the best. You know t-"

"DON'T TELL ME I KNOW. Don't, Kensi. How should I know that I'm good at what I do, when all I get from you are smart comments and insults? Huh, tell me how?" I said to her louder and a lot angrier.

"Deeks-"

"No, don't say anything and listen to me. You say I'm your partner, right? A few hours ago all I was for you was a guy, who is partnered with you and can't do his job because of some teasing. Think, Kensi, just think that maybe I need that to forget things I don't really want to talk about."

She opened her mouth to say something but I raised my finger to tell her that she is not allowed to speak. I want to get over it so I continue.

"Do you want to know what hurts even more? You whispered that sentence but I heard it anyway. You told me that it wouldn't help me if you train me more. Am I that bad and an even worse partner? Tell me! I thought I showed you more than once that I'm capable of protecting you. I would never let anyone hurt you, even if the result of saving you would hurt me. I would do it, again and again."

Kensi was trembling by now and I saw a hint of retained tears in her eyes.

"I thought I were a part of your family Kens, I really did." I said with tears in my eyes.

"Do you remember our day at the beach last weekend? You let me teach you how to surf and we had fun. You had a lot of fun; you laughed the whole time Fern, the whole time." I said with a sad voice.

"Later we went to get something to eat and sat on the sand to watch the sunset. We finished our little dinner and you got up to throw the trash away. You still know what you did when you came back? What did you do Kens? Tell me."

"I… I sat in front of you with my head on your chest and your arms around me in a tight hug. We sat there for hours and talked. You laughed because of one of my jokes, right? At some point you lay down and pulled me into your chest and talked some more. And you ... you ..."

"What? What did I do?"

"You kissed me… on my cheeks and on my nose more than once. We enjoyed our time together and from time to time when we didn't talk you kissed my hair and my temple. We were there the whole day and night. God, I never stayed that long on the beach." She said smiling and I saw more tears forming.

I smiled back. "Exactly, that's what I did and we both know what would have happened if we would not have fallen asleep. When I came in the mission this morning I was happy because it's almost weekend and I planned to spend it with you. I wanted to surprise you with something I was about sign this morning and I only wanted to do that because I knew you, especially you and the guys would be here but than this whole mess happened."

Kensi was silently crying be now. Tears were running down her face. I bet my face is as wet as hers is.

Definitely harder than I thought. Kens, my Kens is crying because of me. That's not what I wanted but she has to understand.

I was about touch her but she looked me in the eyes and asks me a question before I could do it.

"You wanted to… to become a... a...?" Kensi began to ask but couldn't finish because another sob came.

It was my cue to answer. "Yes, I wanted to become a NCIS-Agent. I decided it when we were at the beach that night. I realized I didn't want to be called back because of an op. That I wanted to stay right here with you. For a very long time."

I wasn't done yet but I needed a minute. "Do you understand why I wanted to sign this?"

She nodded and whispered her answer. "Us. Because of us."

"Yes, because I wanted to be with you every single day."

We were about foot apart from each other and she practically jumped into my arms and hugged me.

She was crying on my chest and since I'm in love, yeah, looks like it, just admit it, with her and can't stand seeing her like this I hug her back for the moment and caresses her hair softly.

"Don't go, Marty."

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