Everything Is Different Now
Chapter 10
March 6, 2013
Dr. Laura Frederick
Recording data of patient Jacob Black at my facility in Boulder, Colorado
There have been no interactive sessions with the patient since February 26, 2013. On February 27,
2013 the patient had a nightmare/night terror episode which resulted in his lapse into a comatose
state which has lasted until today. He was running a high fever, which broke on March 1, and had
severe skin lesions and pain resulting in an agitated emotional state.
Patient was treated for infection and fever, but has not yet been able to maintain consciousness for
more than a few minutes at a time. Patient frequently speaks to me but appears not to be aware of
his surroundings, other than my presence. The patient's voice is occasionally exceedingly altered
from his normal speaking voice.
Though I hesitate to accept this, I feel it is crucial to report that when the patient speaks in the altered
voice and appears not to be physically conscious or aware, he states that he is the 'wolf' that Mr. Black
claims to house within his body and indeed, when this entity speaks to me, the gold rim appears
around the irises of the patient. He says that Mr. Black is fearful of my reaction and that he has
withdrawn to allow the 'Spirit Warrior' within him to speak on his behalf. Furthermore, the wolf
persona claims that he has on many previous occasions stepped forward to protect Mr. Black from
psychological trauma. I feel that further investigation of this claim is warranted.
If this is indeed a case of a split personality, or even an alter ego that manifests as a 'Spirit Warrior', I
hesitate to take his statements at face value. I also must wonder if this other essence has pushed Mr.
Black's main, or human, personality to the side in order to assert his position of power and make his
desires known to me.
The 'Wolf' has attempted to explain to me about "imprinting" or the method in which the Spirit
Warrior's soul mate is pointed out or chosen. He has explained to me that Mr. Black imprinted on
the daughter of the ex-girlfriend and the romantic rival. He has refused to discuss the interim
between that time and the period of my first contact with Mr. Black, saying that 'Jacob should explain
that to you himself'.
He says that Mr. Black has been suppressing him in an attempt to deny his true nature and self,
under the guise of living a normal human life. He claims that a normal human life is impossible for
someone who is not a normal human. He further claims that Mr. Black's comatose state is merely
this alter ego superseding his human personality so that the Wolf might assert himself and
communicate with me and specifically to shield Mr. Black from stressful stimuli. He insists that once
he has 'had his say' he will once again relinquish control back to Mr. Black and will follow whatever
wishes or urges he requires.
The wolf has manifested 4 times since Mr. Black's fever and vascular distress. I am keeping detailed
video and audio records for my own use to attempt to determine how to bring him back to full
consciousness, if possible.
(Complete medical history, records and actions taken are embedded in the attached flash file.)
LPOV
I've been sitting by Jacob's bedside for more than two weeks. He drifts in and out of consciousness.
His fever spikes and then goes away altogether. I set up an I.V. to get fluids into him and if he doesn't
come around today, I'll have to insert a feeding tube. Jacob has been speaking to me off and on for
several days now. Sometimes, it is the Jacob I met in Portland and who came to stay with us here in
Boulder. He is groggy and very confused about what's transpired in the last few days. He is fearful
and frequently asks for my reassurances that I will not abandon him or make him leave the property
or my home. I can only continue to hold his hand in my own and reassure him that he need never
leave us.
Sometimes, he speaks to me in a deep, gravelly voice that is completely lucid, fully aware and always
directing all of his comments to me alone. He refuses to speak unless we are alone in the room and
even then apparently only when he is in the mood. It is at these times, when the 'other' voice
converses with me, that Jacob's eyes exhibit the golden borders around the irises. Other times, when
it's Jacob's normal voice, his eyes are their original coffee brown.
This other entity claims to be the one who told me that he needs me and loves me. He says that Jacob
feels the same way but is hesitant to speak his true feelings out loud. He says HE has no problem
whatsoever with saying exactly what HE thinks and feels. He says he is Jacob's wolf and that he has
stepped up to express what Jacob cannot. He says he got tired of waiting for Jacob because he was
"pussyfooting around" trying to figure out how to tell me what's going on with him.
In spite of claiming to be taking the lead because he wants me to "know the score" he has been
extremely cryptic and not as forthcoming with information as I would like. What I have been able to
piece together is that Jacob's wolf has chosen me to replace the ex-girlfriend's daughter as his
soulmate since she was deemed unsuitable, by virtue of being half vampire. He says Jacob is
completely unaware of my feelings on the matter and was uncomfortable with the idea of just
blurting it out to me and declaring his love at first sight for fear of sending me screaming into the
hills. He does have a point.
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March 15, 2013
"Jacob, can you hear me? Jacob?"
"No, he can't hear you just yet."
"Ah, it's you again."
"Yeah, it's me. You act like you're not happy to speak to me. What's the matter? Don't you like me
too?"
"I think I would like you better if you let Jacob come back and speak to me."
"Oh, he will, he will. When I'm finished."
"You've been in control for over 2 weeks, you've only allowed Jacob to speak to me briefly though
you've not spoken to me but on 4 occasions, and you still haven't answered my questions about
everything. When do you suppose you'll be finished? Are you ever going to tell me why you're really
here and where Jacob has gone?"
"Of course. What do you want to know?"
"You said you stepped up to protect Jacob. Why?"
"It was entirely necessary, I can assure you. You need to understand what my function has been for
the past seven years. You must understand some specific elements of werewolf physiology. You
should also understand exactly who I am. About werewolves, they heal very rapidly, from virtually
any injury. The institution where Jacob was held concealed a brutal atmosphere. The treatment he
received in that place was more than any normal human could stand. Even Jacob suffered greatly.
I pulled him into a comatose state to protect him from the worst of the trauma. I'm the one who
made him not sure who he was, where he came from...to protect him. There was a nurse and an
orderly who inadvertently discovered this circumstance of aggressive healing in Jacob's nature. It
was an accidental thing, once when Jacob was fighting and struggling against personnel, he got a
gash on his forearm in the process of striking out against that orderly. He and the nurse observed
firsthand that the gash, which on a normal human would have required stitches, healed in seconds
on Jacob. Being unbelievably sadistic even for humans, they both decided it would be fun to 'play'
with Jacob. They would antagonize him, causing him to lash out, giving them the excuse to strap
him down. They would then take a scalpel and slowly and repeatedly make slices on his body,
watching excitedly as the incisions healed before their eyes."
"Oh my God! No! Jacob!"
"You can't even begin to understand what he went through. I had to step up and defend his sanity.
I had to take the pain from him and absorb it myself. I had to handle the horror and
compartmentalize it so he could deal with it tiny bit at a time in the future. I had to shield his mind
from the pain. Before Jacob could be driven completely and utterly insane, I took over. I am the
Alpha, you see. And I have a duty to protect my Pack. I am honor-bound in particular to protect
Jacob for he is mine. That's my job. It's been my job for many years. And now it's your job too.
This is why I'm talking to you now. At the time he was being tortured in the institution, I took his
personality and tucked it away in a safe place inside his head. I took over the consciousness of his
body to save him from the traumatic nature of the treatment he was receiving. I can take it. He
could not. The times when he was listed as comatose or unresponsive were the times that I was in
charge. This is why he was there for so long. It took time for me to guide you to his side. And now,
he has you. And I have you. You can help both of us. You must understand your importance to us.
All I really need to do is make sure you understand who I am, and believe that's who I am. I have to
know that you have faith in my existence. But, perhaps I have said enough for now. Suffice to say;
Jacob needs you, as do I."
"When will you relinquish your control and let Jacob return to us?"
"Very soon. I must be certain you accept the truth of my tale."
"Why is that so important?"
"Oh Laura, please understand. If I had not taken the full force of Jacob's trauma, he would not be
alive now. He is damaged. But he survives, for you. He would have simply given in to the despair
and pain and he would be dead, were it not for you. And if he dies, I die. And if you die, he dies.
You see the connection I'm certain. You are his salvation. You are therefore, my salvation. You
can't imagine the depth of the pain he has endured. You can't imagine the scope of the sorrow and
heartbreak he feels. He needs you like he needs his next breath. Only you can heal him. I can only
take so much from his shoulders. You must step up to strengthen him with your love. Because,
Laura, YOU are very important to Jacob and me. It is something you and he need to discuss in
depth, but I have a huge stake in this matter. I have to believe that you believe. You must make me
believe that you trust me."
"I've been talking and listening to you for 17 days, Wolf. What more assurance can I give?"
"You just did."