Everything Is Different Now
Chapter 16
Dr. Laura Frederick
Recording data of patient Jacob Black at my facility, Boulder, Colorado
April 30, 2013
From today's date forward Mr. Jacob Black will no longer be considered my
patient in a professional capacity. Mr. Black will continue to be a resident of the
facility in Boulder and I will continue my research into his background and the
origins of his nature.
These records will remain confidential until the time of Mr. Black's death, or such
time after my own death as Mr. Black sees fit to make them known outside of this
facility. The files will be the sole property of Mr. Black after my death. My last
will and testament includes language that will attest to this fact as well as the
bequest of my entire estate and my complete medical practice facility and
records to Mr. Black or his Quileute descendants. Mr. Black's last will and
testament will contain instructions to be carried out upon his own death as it is
presumed that I will precede him.
Further entries into this record will be of a personal rather than a professional
nature. I have entered into a personal relationship with Mr. Black, which
precludes my consideration of him as a patient. There will be no further
professional evaluations by myself of his status. This record will be
continued in the interest of my own personal research and for no other reason.
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Once Jacob had 'introduced' me to his wolf, our relationship changed drastically.
We began to move inexorably toward a romantic liaison and away from the
patient/doctor connection. After seeing the manifestation of his shift into his wolf
form firsthand, I was completely convinced of the veracity of all of his claims,
including my status as his eternal soulmate.
For the 4 weeks following Jacob's 'reveal', I have put aside my position as his
physician and actively pursued a path of personal acquaintance and the romantic
bonding that was compelled by the imprint that had re-settled upon me from the
ex-girlfriend's daughter. Jacob and I explored all the aspects of the imprint that
he could relate to me based on his limited experience with the members of
his former Pack. It was as if we were both operating somewhat blindly through
the maze of the imprint relationship, since Jacob's experience and knowledge was
reduced by time and distance.
By mutual agreement, our physical relationship progressed extremely slowly. To
put it in layman's terms, I was nervous and Jacob didn't want to overwhelm me, or
as he likes to put it, 'freak me out'.
Jacob has been a most tender and attentive lover. We consummated our
relationship just shy of 4 weeks after I became acquainted with his wolf. I spent
many happy hours with his wolf between that first meeting and our eventual
'joining' and it was an amazing experience. There was only one surprise during
our first completely intimate physical encounter that I did not anticipate and
neither did Jacob. He was unaware that when we first became intimate, his wolf
would partially take control of his consciousness and would mark me as his mate
by biting into the flesh at the junction of my neck and my shoulder, producing an
earth-shattering simultaneous orgasm between us. Jacob was extremely
disturbed by the marking, over which he said he had no control, and apologized
profusely on behalf of his wolf, though he confessed that his wolf was telling him
that he felt no need to apologize for something that he considered natural and
desired. After the marking, Jacob repeatedly licked the wound on my shoulder
and within the span of less than 11 hours the punctures were completely healed
leaving tiny, white scars on my skin. The most astounding aspect to me was the
fact that there was no pain after an initial stab at the first entry into my flesh of
Jacob's elongated canines.
I hoped for the opportunity to 'speak' to Jacob's wolf again, as I had during the
period that Jacob was overwhelmed by the fever. Apparently, this was not
possible with Jacob in full health, which was his common state now. He indicated
that his wolf would sometimes 'speak' to him in his dreams, but that he had not
been able to communicate with him unless he was phased and then only to listen
to the information that the wolf felt compelled to share with him. The wolf was
not forthcoming with any particular information regarding the marking aspect of
our physical joining.
My plans now are to attempt to catalog all aspects of my relationship with Jacob.
He says that someday soon he may contact his former Packmates and share our
discoveries and perceptions with them so that they may have a resource to educate
the Pack and Elders as well as counsel future members who imprint. Jacob is
continuing his journal, combined into one document now, to record his own
observations and feelings about our relationship. I was most surprised to see
Jacob's secondary 'secret' journal. I was pleased by his comments in that record
and by his willingness to share it with me. He confided that his life was now an
open book to me and I could know anything I wished. All I had to do was ask.
Future readers may perceive this account to be cold, impersonal, clinical. I have
deliberately attempted to keep my personal emotions out of these records in order
to achieve complete, informative and useful data. I feel it is redundant to include
that my relationship with Jacob is exceedingly more personal and passionate than
this informational recounting can include.
(The second tier of data regarding Jacob is stored in an encrypted file in the barn
computer system. The password is known only to myself, but is recorded and
secured in my safety deposit box at First National Bank of Boulder on Semmes
Avenue, Boulder, Colorado.)
May 2, 2013
Combined Journal of Jacob Black, Frederick Estate, Boulder, Colorado
I have decided to make another entry in this journal that Laura asked me to
keep to clear up what has happened since my last entry. I have shown all
of my journal entries to Laura, all of them, and she has accepted my
reasoning for keeping 2 journals in the beginning of my stay here at her
home.
The things that have happened since I first came here have been amazing.
Of course, I imprinted on Laura in Portland, but there was such a long road
ahead of me after the move to Boulder, that I, to put it bluntly, was afraid
to tell her everything right away, but I wanted to keep a record of my
feelings, just as she'd requested of me. That's the reason I had 2 journals
in the beginning.
Fortunately, Laura's intelligence and awareness gave her insight to what
was going on behind the scenes with me and my wolf as it related to her. It
wasn't that long before she found out the truth, and the complete depth of
our feelings for her, from my wolf. The scoundrel took over and stepped
forward and told her way too much for my comfort, but the deed was
done. She took it way better than I could have ever hoped.
Once 'HE' had spilled the beans, I came clean with Laura and professed my
deepest feelings and fears to her. She is simply perfect and not only
accepted 'us' but understood so much about our relationship without being
told, without any explanation. I may have despised imprinting in my early
years as a wolf, but I now realize that the Spirits know EXACTLY what
they're doing. They even righted their wrong in re-settling the imprint
from the hybrid spawn to Laura. What do you say about Spirits that
recognize when they've made a mistake and fix it before you even know
what's happening? I think perhaps my years in that hellacious
exile/prison/purgatory existence may have been the penance I needed to do
to atone for my initial rebellion toward the entire Spirit Warrior
experience, imprinting included. I'll try not to question them so severely
again. I'll give them a chance I think.
My relationship with Laura has grown into something so fulfilling and
sweet. She is a most wonderful mate. She is an extraordinary woman with
a deep and soulful heart. She is exactly what my wolf and I needed to live
the rest of our days happy and whole, no matter how long or short they
may be. As long as we are together, my life will be all I could've ever
wished for. She has occupied and restored my heart and my soul. What
more could anyone ever ask?
We're going out riding again today. Sometimes we stay inside and just
relax together with Jasmine. That's the puppy that Rosie gave me and
she's a permanent fixture in the household now. She's ten weeks old now
and she's just a little firecracker. When Laura and I go riding, she drapes
her little body across my saddle right behind the pommel. That puts
her right against my crotch and she loves to snuggle up to me. It's pretty
funny watching her wiggle around till she's comfortable and sometimes it
tickles, a lot. Barney and Laura get a real kick out of watching me jerk at
the sensations and cracking jokes about the wiener getting comfy up next
to her wiener. Laura says she thinks maybe Jasmine perceives my body
part as a kindred spirit. I told her I thought it was because of the extra
heat radiating down there as a result of being close to my woman.
Whatever. The pup loves it. And so, apparently, does my mate. That's all
I need to know.
JPOV
Laura and I were meandering along a new trail through the thick wilderness on
the far eastern side of the estate. Snowball, Rocky and Jasmine were blissfully
oblivious about the serious nature of their human companions' conversation.
"So, Jacob, have you any report for me about your process of processing?"
"Hah! Funny my girl. You can always make me smile. I'd like to discuss all this
with you in depth if you don't mind. Should we turn back so we can kick back in
your office?"
"No not at all. We're fine right here as long as you're comfortable. Tell me. What
are you thinking about your status, your title, your future? How do you feel all
this will affect you?"
"Oh baby, I love it when you transition into "Doctor Shrink" mode. It's so sexy."
"Well, thank you very much. Now stop deflecting the question and stay on topic."
"You are good. Okay, okay. Barney and Phillip say there's been a legend within
the shifter lore for many centuries, about an Ultimate Alpha that will rise someday
and will lead the entire shifter population in the 'Great Battle'."
"That's what I heard. It's supposedly going to make the entire world safe for
humans and shifters alike from now into eternity. That's a pretty tall order."
"Yeah, well legends are like that. That part didn't really surprise me. The part
that's always hard to get a grip on is that the legends are true. Legends are easy to
handle. You don't have to think about them too hard because they're just scary
stories. When they are actual prophesies, you have to change your whole
mindset. You have to not only accept them as truth, you have to operate as if the
knowledge has always been a part of your existence. I have to become this Alpha
and be firm in my faith that I was always expecting to be this Alpha and was just
waiting on it to happen."
"How in the world could you possibly behave as if you knew this would happen?
That's crazy! Oh, I didn't just say that out loud, did I?"
"Jasmine, your Mommy is about to give herself a massive headache. Shall we stop
for a while and give her a moment to regroup?"
We stopped at the edge of a clearing and climbed down from the boys. Snowball
and Rocky were always content to walk with us, but stopping to rest and get some
sweet, green grass as a snack, they would never turn down. I scooped Jasmine up
in my hand as I dismounted and gave her a snuggle against my neck. With her
perpetual motion tail in high gear, she licked me up and down my face, aiming for
my ear if I'd let her get close enough. But no, that shit was cold and wet and it
tickled.
I set her down and she instantly ran to Laura who also scooped her into her
shoulder for a nuzzle. She then held the puppy in both hands and rubbed her all
over her head. I laughed at the scene of my woman dragging my puppy across her
scalp and neck.
"Is that a new therapy you haven't told me about?"
"In a way, it is. You were right about the headache and I find that if I rub Jasmine
around on my head, it makes it ease up. As my brilliant Alpha man often says,
'whatever works' dontcha know."
"Now how did you ever happen to figure out that rubbing Jasmine on your head
will cure a headache?"
"Well, it's silly I guess. I had a headache a couple weeks ago and I had stretched
out on the couch in the library. Little Jassy trotted in and since my hand was
resting on the floor by the couch, she gave it a lick. I picked her up and put her in
my lap but she began to squirm around and scoot up until she was finally draped
around my head. Within 20 minutes, a 3-hour-old headache was gone. I tried it
again a week later and it worked again. I think we need another puppy so I can
say 'take two of these and call me in the morning'."
I didn't mean to laugh at my mate and make her mad. But I did. I couldn't help
it. And the look she gave me would wilt fresh flowers so I stifled myself and
leaned against a fallen tree so I could hold Laura in my arms. I draped Jasmine
across one shoulder so she could reach Laura's head and give her a lick every now
and then.
"Okay Honey, let's talk this through. I need to filter my thoughts through your
brilliant mind to gain some perspective."
"Okay, let's take it from the top. The legends state that 'someday' an Ultimate
Alpha will arise, who will lead the entire shifter population of planet Earth. There
will be a great confrontation, the Great Battle, that will rid the Earth once and for
all of vampires, the scourge of humankind. Though the legends are so old, nobody
believed they were true or would ever happen, it turns out that YOU are that
Alpha. And it was predestined that you would be in that nasty place in Oregon. It
was predestined that I would find you there and that equally nasty imprint would
re-situate itself from the spawn to me. My purpose is not accidental. I'm
supposedly here to give you love and support but there's something else I'm
supposed to do. THAT we don't yet know what it is. It will apparently make itself
manifest all in good time, according to the legend and we don't know how far back
that originated. It's just a legend and nobody knows where it was born, or how
many times it's been told and adjusted by the teller."
"Barney and Phillip had heard the legend and never quite believed it either until
you brought me home with you. When you found out about me and where I was,
you felt compelled to come and investigate the stories. When we met and I
imprinted on you, you knew something was up but you didn't realize that Barney
and Phillip had nudged you in that direction. Boy, when people want you to do
something important, you'd think they'd just come right out and say so wouldn't
you? All this beating around the bush and secretiveness is annoying."
"I'm with you on that account baby. Just tell me what you want and I'll handle it.
No pussyfooting allowed."
"I'll tell you what I want baby. And you got part of the word right."
"You're incorrigible Mr. Black. And I don't want you to ever change. But right
now, we're busy with something else. We're waiting on Barney and Phillip to fill
us in on a timeline, if they can find one, and tell you what's expected of you, if they
can figure that out. Until then, we wait. At least we can wait together, right?"
"You got that right honey. I'd go insane, again, if I had to wait this out or face this
alone. You are my strength Laura. I need you more than I need air to breathe. I
love you."
"I love you too, Jacob. I'm here. And I couldn't take another step without you
beside me and in my heart. And Jasmine loves her Alpha Daddy, don't you baby?
And you know what? My headache is almost gone. Let's head back. It's
dinnertime. For everyone."
"That sounds good to me. Brace yourself Marie! We're stormin' in."