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Therapeutic Weekend

Waking up in Kendall's arms was always Logan's favorite part of the day. He felt pride in thinking that he managed to sleep through the whole night without a single nightmare. Somehow sleeping with Kendall granted that wish. Maybe it was his subconscious telling him that the blonde would protect him from anything so therefore he didn't need nightmares. Logan sighed, remembering how yesterday he revealed his mental breakdown. He thought Kendall knew and was trying to make him feel guilty by saying he trusted him. Turns out, he didn't know, and Logan blew it. Slipping out from the protective muscle, Logan walked into the kitchen. Kendall stirred but didn't wake.

No one was up yet, so he might as well make breakfast. Smiling to himself, he started to work. His cooking skills improved through the month due to Alex's demands for perfect meals. He wondered if the guys would notice. Katie certainly would. But she was always so observant. So was James too, now that he thought about it. Speaking of James, at that precise moment, he decided to walk in. "Making breakfast?" James grinned.

"Yep," Logan smiled back.

"I'll help," James cut in, grabbing some of the eggs. "Um… what are we making?"

"Pancakes."

"Awesome."

They worked in silence for a bit, cracking the eggs and pouring milk. James reluctantly glanced at Logan. "Um… Logie?"

He flinched at the nickname. "Yeah? Need help?"

"No," James sighed. "Um… I want to apologize for how I treated you… when you were with Alex. I don't think I really properly apologized for it."

Logan nodded, his exterior mood not changing at all. "It's fine, James. I would have done the same thing if I were you."

The taller boy frowned. "It's not fine. I said some pretty nasty things to you."

"But you didn't know the situation," Logan dejected. "So you had every right to say those things."

"I didn't bother asking for your side of the story," James whispered, hurt filling his brown eyes. "Just accept my apology. It'll make both of us feel better. I know you're still bothered by everything so don't pretend you aren't. You just have to trust us."

"I trust you guys," Logan exclaimed, looking almost insulted by the accusation.

James shook his head. "You used to trust us. But you don't anymore. You rarely tell us how you're feeling and try to keep secrets from us. Don't bother saying you don't because we both know that's a lie. You used to trust us, and I get that it might be hard to open up again especially to me. I was harsh, and I said some pretty nasty things. But you don't have to act like it doesn't matter. You don't have to act like it's alright. You can tell me that I pissed you off or that I really hurt you. Because I'd rather have that then you holding in all your emotions and exploding."

Logan narrowed his dangerously rage-filled eyes. James tried not to flinch or back away. That would defeat the purpose of his long speech about how he could take it, how he wanted to take it. Logan breathed in and out calmly before speaking. "Fine. You said a lot of things that really hurt. Things I expected to hear from people like the Jenifers or Alex or… well anyone but you guys! Carlos was mad at me, but he never called me anything to my face. Kendall looked at me sadly but never said anything. You, on the other hand…"

James nodded, preparing for the worst.

"You hurt me worse than Alex did," Logan hissed. "I was never planning on telling Kendall because he deserved more than just some guy being randomly fucked in the back of a store." James opened his mouth, about to butt in that Alex raped him but shut it at the glare Logan gave him. "Yes, he called me those things when he fucked me. But I never truly felt like one until you called me that. You. James Diamond, one of my best friends. Not Camille or Jo, who don't have our history. You. And it fucking hurt."

His voice rose and his hand gestures started wildly changing pace. His breathing became more erratic. "Why not believe Alex? Why not believe him when he calls me a slut? Or a whore? My best friend thinks it, so it must be true, right? The only time you were civil to me was when you forced off my cover up! That was one time. You never reached out to me or tried to help me or anything. And that would still be fine if you didn't! But you had to add the insults, the degrading terms, and just about anything without asking how I felt! Who cares about dumb old Logan's side of the story? It can't possibly be that bad!"

His shouting must have woken up the others because all at once Carlos, Mama Knight, Katie, and Kendall walked into the room with wide eyes as Logan continued to shout and scream at James, who looked as though he was going to burst into tears. Kendall reacted instantly, rushing over and wrapping his arms around Logan and whispering to him softly. Unlike when anyone else touched him, Logan relaxed, his screams reducing to small whimpers. "I'm sorry," Logan choked out. "Sorry James…"

"It's… it's fine. I asked for it… literally," James let out a hoarse laugh.

"Okay, you need professional help," Kendall changed the subject. No longer was the soft, gentle Kendall but the stern leader. The one that you listened to no matter what. Logan shook his head, trying to use puppy eyes or something. "No Logie, you need help. You aren't dealing with this, not in a healthy way, and if you're not going to talk to us, you have to talk to someone!"

Mama Knight took charge after that declaration, already coaxing Logan to say yes. Carlos and Katie stood in the sidelines, unsure of where they stood in this predicament. James reluctantly walked away from the scene towards them. "What happened?" Carlos whispered.

"I'm a horrible person." James mumbled, not going any farther.

Mama Knight set up the call with Kelly. Apparently there was a therapist open for celebrities. This woman promised to keep everything confidential not just from family and friends but from the press. Kelly stated that this woman could be trusted, and Jenifer trusted Kelly. It all worked out for the better. Logan still didn't want to go, but he wasn't given much choice in the matter.

In an attempt to sooth Logan, Kendall took him out for some milkshakes which left Mama Knight home alone with the rest of the boys and Katie. Though James locked himself in his room while Katie tried playing video games to distract herself from the emotional mess. "I need to go shopping," she murmured to herself. Shopping, especially for food, always calmed her down for some reason. She never understood why.

"Can I come with?" a bubbly voice popped out of nowhere. Jenifer literally screamed out of pure fear. But it was just Carlos standing there with an innocent expression. "What happened? Why did you scream?"

"You scared me," Jenifer mumbled, laughing a bit at just how fast her heart was pounding from that little fright.

Carlos frowned. "Oh! Sorry…"

"It's fine," she reassured him. "Why don't we go grocery shopping for a bit? I need some more chicken nuggets for tonight anyway."

Carlos grinned, nodding happily. Jenifer shouted down the halls at Katie and James that she was leaving. Grabbing her purse, she let Carlos lead her out of the Palm Woods. He chatted happily the whole time on such strange topics like hockey and school. Like he didn't just witness another mental breakdown from Logan. While he wasn't violent, he wasn't in control either. So Jenifer decided if Carlos was going to ignore it for the time being, she would too.

"I didn't mean to snap at him," Logan sighed, sipping his milkshake. "He asked me what I thought about him being kind of mean, and I just… I don't know."

Kendall nodded in slight understanding. "You never realize how angry you are about something until you talk about it. I get that. Believe me, I get it. When Dad left, I kept saying I wasn't mad or sad. I lied all the time. But my mom sat me down and got me to talk about it. By the end, I was a crying, screaming mess. That's what happens when you try to hold it all in: it comes out one way or another but it'll always be worse than if you talk about it."

Logan remembered that. Kendall's dad left him in the fourth grade and it hurt him a lot. The boys tried to comfort him, but Kendall insisted over and over again that he was fine. Logan recalled feeling so frustrated, wondering why Kendall couldn't just trust him and tell him how he felt...

Oh.

That's how Kendall was feeling about him now. The roles were being reversed in some twisted way.

"I'm not that mad at James," Logan corrected. "But I'm mad at everything, and I took it out on James because he asked. I shouldn't have yelled at him as much. I should have calmly talked about it with him but I've just felt so helpless and angry and… I've changed a lot."

Kendall's noticed. "What caused the first breakdown? The violent one that everyone decided to keep from me?"

Logan blushed. "Sarah… I was really jealous of her, and we didn't get along."

"What!" Kendall exclaimed loudly, drawing some attention. He smiled apologetically at the audience before whispering to Logan, "But you guys looked so friendly…"

"She called me a slut, and I called her a manipulative bitch. Both of us were pretty mean to each other. The point is I thought something was going on between you two, and I got mad, and I just attacked everything around me. I shouldn't have been so jealous."

Kendall frowned. "She called you a slut? Why? I told her not to-"

"What's past is past." Logan interrupted. "It's not like I said anything nice to her either. It wasn't one of those 'she insulted me so I insulted back' situations. We both mutually disliked each other and we both knew it. So why fake it?"

"I guess," he sighed then paused. Logan was jealous, so that meant he still loved him, right? He wasn't going to ask considering what happened this morning. No, it would have to be a slow process to even consider asking Logan about how he felt about their past relationship. This talk gave him hope though. Maybe it would work out in the future. Maybe they could get together again after all this was left behind as just bad memories. Maybe. "Promise you'll start talking to me again?"

Memories of how Kendall shut him out filled Logan's mind. Of how Kendall refused to talk about his dad, of how worried and stressed Logan became due to that. Did he really want to put Kendall through that? No, he didn't. "I will," Logan gave him a tiny smile, holding out his pinkie. Kendall chuckled, hooking his own pinkie finger around Logan's.

Things really were looking up.

Carlos picked out the unhealthiest of cereals. Katie would surely appreciate that, Jenifer thought to herself. As Carlos stacked unhealthy food after unhealthy food, she noticed how quiet he became. On the way to the store, he talked without pause. Why was he so silent now? "Carlos?" Jenifer asked calmly. "Why are you so quiet?"

"Logan's going to get better, right?" the boy asked, looking more like a scared child than a grown teenage boy.

Jenifer's heart sank. "Of course he is!"

"His parents aren't here," Carlos grumbled. "They never are. My dad's come to visit and so has James' mom. She nearly took him away she missed him so much. But never Logan's. I never liked them."

Jenifer couldn't argue. Before all of this, Jenifer assumed Logan called them in order to contact him. The few times she spoke to Logan's parents she thought they were nice people. Her entire opinion changed after one phone call. Looks like the boys never liked them in the first place. "We're his family," she smiled encouragingly. "And we'll help him. I think he will get better with all of our help. Remember Carlos, this all doesn't go away in a day. He needs time and love. The most we can do is give him a shoulder to lean on, and he's going to need it."

"So you believe in him?" Carlos whispered.

"I never stopped. Not once."

"James?" Logan bit his lip, knocking on the wooden door. Carlos and Mama Knight apparently went out to go shopping. Kendall told him that he should probably apologize to James sooner than later, so Logan decided to do that now. The blonde boy went right to his sister to talk about what happened as well. After a couple seconds, the door was pushed open by James, whose eyes were red. Obviously from crying. Logan flinched.

"Hey!" James faked a smile.

"I'm sorry!" Logan burst out. "I'm sorry I said all those things. They weren't true. Well, some if it was. Yes, you did hurt me but I was exaggerating. I was mad, I have been mad at everything for a while, and I just needed to take it out on something. You offered, and I just exploded. I'm really sorry!"

James blinked, trying to digest Logan's word vomit. "I… have no idea what you just said."

Logan pouted making James laugh. Logan smiled in return. "I'm sorry I said all of that. I didn't mean it."

"But I hurt you!" James exclaimed. "I said all those things…"

"I over exaggerated," Logan apologized. "I just had so much anger in me. Not just from you but from everything. From the abuse and the rapes… I just-"

"You said it!" James interrupted, eyes wide.

"Said what?"

"The r word," James whispered. "You've always just said that he fucked you and made it sound less serious than it was. It's the first time you've really admitted that you didn't want it… that it was sexual abuse."

"Oh… I guess so," he thought out loud. He didn't know what that mean exactly. Did it mean he accepted that he was a victim? That he wanted to get better? Many people did say the first step to getting over a problem is admitting you have one. Was that what he just did? "But back to the subject! I was angry, and I took it out on you. I shouldn't have done that, and I'm sorry. You know I love you guys, right?"

James grinned. "Yeah… we know."

Another pause. "C-can I hug you?" James asked reluctantly.

"Sure."

James beamed, throwing his arms around the smaller boy. The boys never hugged much. They touched a lot, like a hand on the shoulder or something along those lines, but not much hugging. Logan hugged back just as happily.

He would get better. He just knew it.

Alice: Hope you enjoyed it! Don't forget to vote on my poll on which story I should write after this. Both have Kogan.

Emily: Sadly neither have Jarlos.

Alice: But the gang story will be out soon enough anyway.

Emily: I also have that same poll on Tumblr, so the final numbers on the poll won't be the actual thing. I am going to add those votes to the ones I got from my blog.

Alice: So yeah. Thanks for reading! Only two chapters left… crazy, right?

Emily: Thanks for reading!