xxPUDDxx - i know! i'm so glad i've found them, i don't know what i'd done without them! and I'M SO EXCITED FOR MY SHOW/THE LIVESTREAM! i'm actually getting one of my best friends round who's also a GD to watch with me and we're making an evening of it xD and the hospital does sound good, but will it turn out to be in the end? mwhahahaha ;)

524 Harrys POV

I was surprised that Danny managed to not burst into hysterical tears like he had been earlier the second Tom ran into him. He managed to just about keep it together, squeezing Tom so tight it had to hurt, crying quietly into his boyfriends side. "Harry, how bad was Danny, earlier, when you phoned?" Dougie asked, clawing at my side, he was obviously stressed out and worried. "he was bad, you can't even...look, lets just say that he was so upset. Dannys in denial at the moment, he isn't exactly, coping with this idea. He doesn't want Tom to go anywhere, none of us do, but especially Danny, he loves him by an incredible amount." I explained, rubbing his side.

"ah, so, not very well." Dougie sighed, gripping my waist. "yeah, not very well. So, how did you guys get on?" I ran my fingers over his back. "not too bad really. We watched two Star Wars films, had a long cuddle, made cheese on toast, I remembered the medication, and fed Tom his lunch. So it was quite good." Dougie smiled. "wait, how did you make cheese on toast? The normal way or the fun way?" I gave Dougie a warning look. "er, the fun way? We didn't make that much of a mess, I swear! The inside of the toaster got a bit cheesy, that was it!" Dougie gave me a cheeky smile, like he knew he was going to get into trouble and was trying to get out of it by giving me a cute smile that I usually melted at.

"alright, lets leave these two to it and go see what damage you have done to the kitchen." I rolled my eyes and took my husband inside, leaving Danny to hold onto Tom like he was being ripped from his arms at any second. The kitchen actually wasn't too bad, nor was the rest of the house. Usually leaving Tom and Dougie in a house on their own spelled disaster, the place usually looked like a hurricane had flown through it. But today, it was in the same sort of mess we had left it in. It didn't take long to put the kitchen back to rights, by which time Danny had brought Tom inside, and had gotten him changed and was now drying his hair with a towel.

"so have you had a good day then Tommy?" Danny was asking, combing Toms hair with his fingers. "yeah!" Tom nodded excitedly, hugging Danny tightly. It was clear he had missed his boyfriend a lot today, maybe almost as much as Danny have missed him. "good, thats good. Did you miss me?" Danny managed a smile. "loads and loads!" Tom answered, squashing himself into his lovers arms, practically refusing to let go. "aw, I missed you loads and loads too." Danny smiled a little more, kissing Toms head gently, laying them down on the sofa so they could get closer.

They laid there for the rest of the day, exhaustion from crying and doing whatever else they had been doing taking over and making them both doze off for half the afternoon. "so Harry, what exactly is going to happen?" Dougie asked, I was wondering when he was going to start asking questions. "basically, whats going to happen is... we're taking Tom over to the place where he'll be getting treatment in the new year. He'll have to be there all the time, but we're allowed to visit him as much as we like, and are allowed to phone him too, so its not all bad." I explained, trying to make it sound better, so Dougie didn't cry. Seeing Danny crying hysterically earlier on had been enough to break my heart, seeing Dougie cry in the same day over the same thing was going to kill me.

"but, I want him to come home." Dougie whimpered, his eyes welling up with tears. "I know you do Dougs, we all do. But, we'll still be seeing him, and the place he's staying at is really nice. Toms going to like it there, and the staff are really nice, and are willing to do things that will make him feel more comfortable. We checked it all out Dougs, covered every angle, we're as happy as we can be with this, don't worry about it." I wiped his eyes gently and hugged him. "does he have to stay there? Why can't he come home?" Dougie asked, he was so innocent he had no idea about things like this, it honestly broke my heart into pieces. "because...it wont help the treatment, it'll take a whole lot longer. And also, they can look after him better there, if we take him home every day, Dannys going to be running around madly after him like he is now and end up burning out. He's already so tired Dougs, its going to give him a break too. But, the guy we talked to said that if it helped treatment, or if we came up with a convincing enough argument, we might be able to take Tom out for the day. Its not all bad." I smiled a little, wanting nothing more than to tell Dougie that it was all just a lie, that Tom was staying here and we would get through this together.

525 Dougies POV

I didn't know how to react to knowing, actually knowing for sure that we were sending Tom away. It was real, it was actually going to happen. How was this possible? Why was this happening? Couldn't we just keep Tom? I knew he would get worse if we did keep him here, but, I didn't want him going anywhere. He was my best friend, I didn't want to make him go anywhere where we couldn't hang out and be together. We had been together every single day for a year, how the hell were we just, handing him over to other people who didn't know him at new year? How? Really, someone tell me how?!

Harry told me it was because it was for the best, if we didn't, then Tom would get worse and worse and we never get the old him back. But I didn't want to send him away to get the old him back! Couldn't we make him better? Why couldn't we make him better?! "I don't know Dougs, I'm so sorry." Harry hugged me close, letting me whimper needily into his neck. Tom started to wake up soon, so I quickly shut myself up, not wanting him to know that something was up. He couldn't know about this, he was going to hate us enough to making him go away, I wanted to have a few more normal months before he hated us.

The minute Tom and Danny were awake again, I was cuddled up in Toms arms, refusing to let him go. I needed more hugs, I needed hugs right now. I was still in disbelief, trying to convince myself that this was all just a strange dream, I would wake up soon and we would be on tour, Tom would be completely normal, and Danny would be too. They would be smiling and happy, laughing and joking, running around madly after one another. This wasn't real, it wasn't real, it couldn't be! I didn't want it to be... could I wake up now? Please, I wanted to wake up now.

"Doug, move a little, I need to get out and get Tommy his dinner." Danny interrupted my inner pleading. I moved over and whined when Danny took Tom with him, pulling him into the kitchen. "they'll be back in a minute Dougs, don't worry." Harry ran his fingers comfortingly over my sides, letting me lean back against him. I just needed to be encased in comforting arms right now, it was all I needed, warm, soft, comforting arms. I needed to know that it would be okay in the end, it would be okay in the end, wouldn't it?

Soon, Tom and Danny were back, falling onto the sofa, sitting on top of each other, a mass of tangled arms and legs. Only Danny looked so guilty and worried, Tom just looked so content, happy to be in his lovers arms again. He was so oblivious to what was going on, he had no idea, at all. How was he going to feel when he found out? Would he even know what was going on? Or would he just end up, sitting there, repeatedly asking for Danny, wondering why his lover wasn't coming? How heart breaking would that be? I was tearing myself apart just thinking about it, it was so bad, I didn't want this to happen at all!