xxPUDDxx - i hope everything does sort itself out! i hate knowing someone's having troubles, in whatever warp of their life!
R:A is just amazing, and yeah i saw them at R:A and been to every tour ever since, i kinda got addicted to seeing them! xD and yeah Greg The Grill is the microphone logo thingy on the album, i love it so much, if i ever got over my intense fear of needles, i really want to tattoo on me somewhere! i nearly cry every time i hear Not Alone, especially when its live, i love it so damn much it reduces me to tears xD and yeah, vlogging is great fun! i don't have a good camera, or a good video editor, but i do love coming up with scripts and filming/editing the videos, its another way for me to be creative, i love it so much!
and thank you! i'm really glad you're enjoying it still! only a few chapters left!
546 Dougies POV
The next day could not have come quicker, I was practically running out of the house the minute I was ready to run out of the door. I actually jumped on Tom when I saw him, hugging him so close, I missed him so much for the past couple of days, I was going to miss him so much more when he left us! "hey Dougs, you're eager this morning!" Danny laughed, ruffling my hair. "he is, been looking forward to having a Tom hug for days now, haven't you?" Harry said in a teasing tone, sorting out my messed up hair. "aw, well do I get a hug too or am I unloved?" Danny joked, I half let Tom go, giving Danny a hug at the same time. I had missed them both so much for the past couple of days, and I wanted to remember being like this, happy and smiling and together. I knew that Danny wasn't going to be his smiley self without Tom there, he was going to be feeling so guilty for at least a couple of weeks until Tom got used to it and started getting better. He was going to end up going round like he was while Tom was missing, looking like a lost little boy with no idea where to go or what to do with himself. While poor Tom, god knows how poor little Tom was going to be behaving, I didn't even want to think about it, I just wanted to be in this moment, with my arms around the people I loved the most, all of us as happy as we could be.
I refused to let go for ages, I only let go when I did because Tom got bored and a bit agitated, starting to wriggle about until he got free. It made me sigh, I didn't really want to let go. "you'll get to hug him loads when he's better Dougs, you know what Toms like, he loves a Dougie cuddle. He'll give you a massive hug when he's better." Harry whispered gently in my ear, reaching down to hold my hands. I nodded and pushed into him a little, still needing someone to hug right now. "just because you can't hug doesn't mean you can't talk you know, go and ask Tom about his new teddy." Harry encouraged, pushing us both forward a little.
"is that a new teddy Tom?" I asked as Tom turned to look at us from whatever Danny had been saying. "yeah, its from Danny." Tom smiled and hugged the toy, leaning on his boyfriend, "its special." He continued. "why is it special?" I stepped forward a little more, looking at the bear that was being hugged by Tom and Danny, the long freckled arms being wrapped around the tiny body of the blonde. "cause look! It lights up and makes sounds and opens up!" Tom showed us all the things his new teddy could do, he looked so excited about it. He was incredibly excited by it all, obviously very pleased with his new toy, with no idea why it did the things it did. Obviously Danny was preparing Tom for the psych ward, giving him a toy that would make him feel safe. I hoped it would work.
"wow! Thats a really special toy." I smiled, hoping Tom would feel safe with it. "yep! Danny got it for me, I love it." Tom grinned, pressing his face to Dannys in a loving way. Danny just grinned back at him, kissing his hair. "glad you do baby." Danny smiled, straightening Toms three eyed alien tshirt. I hadn't seen it before, so I guessed it was one of his presents. It was looking a bit rumpled at the moment, like he had worn it for a few days now. Our conversation turned to what had happened over the past few days, and, as I had guessed, Tom liked his new tshirt so much he hadn't taken it off, accept to shower.
I wasn't paying much attention to the conversation, because I was busy watching Tom. He was happily sat, playing with his new teddy and his lion, talking to them again. It seemed like he was having a full blown conversation, leaving spaces for his toys to speak, answering them back. "yeah, he loves me. He's strong like you, and really likes cuddles." Tom smiled, grabbing hold of Dannys hand, looking down at his lion. "yeah, he loves me, and I do too with him." Tom answered after a pause. "who are you talking to Tommy?" Danny seemed to click in that Tom was talking to someone. "Simba and James." Tom looked round, facing his boyfriend. "ah, is that what you've named him?" Danny asked, Tom nodded. "James was your friend, now I have a friend called James too." Tom explained, looking proud of himself. "aw, thats so cute!" Danny seemed to melt with cuteness, squeezing Tom close.
547 Toms POV
I don't even know what happened for the rest of the day, I just knew that there was a lot of talking and lots of cuddles between all of us. Everyone wanted to hug me today, especially my yellow haired friend, he hugged me the hardest. I didn't mind it, I liked being hugged, it was fun. And what was even better, was that I got to fall asleep in all their arms. I liked that, I felt warm and loved like that.
When I woke up, it was the next morning, Danny was already awake, he was looking at me like he always did. "morning Tommy, did you sleep well?" he asked, pressing his lips to my hair. I nodded, looking down to see two more sets of arms around my middle. One was really colourful and the other had two words on it, they were holding hands. "good. So, wanna lay here or get up?" Danny ran his hand over my cheek. "lay here." I wanted to cuddle some more, I liked it when we cuddled up close and didn't let go for ages. Danny did what I wanted, he came closer to me and hugged me, not letting go of me at all until our friends woke up. They hugged us too and had a talk with Danny before going home for a while, to get changed or something.
"alright, time for a shower I think. Come on." Danny pulled me out of bed and started the shower running. I got in first, standing under the warm water, it was like fast rain. Danny got in behind me too, his clothes were still on because he was silly and never took his clothes off when he was in the bath or the shower with me. "I love you Tommy, I really do. Don't forget that." Danny said really quietly, hugging my middle and pressing his lips to my shoulder. "I wont, I promise." I replied, holding his hands. "good..." Danny mumbled something else, grabbing hold of the sponge. He helped me get washed and dried, taking me to the wardrobe to get more clothes. But I wanted my new tshirt! I wanted to wear that! Why couldn't I wear that again?
"so, whats todays outfit then?" Danny asked, holding me close to his chest. "new tshirt! Want new tshirt!" I told him, I wanted to wear that again! "you can't wear that one right now Tommy, it needs to be washed, how about Wolverine instead?" Danny pulled out my Wolverine tshirt, but I wanted my new one! "no! Want new one!" why couldn't I wear my new one? I had done for the past few days! "Tom, you've worn that one for days now, you need to let it be washed, so its ready for you to wear next week... Don't fight this please, it'll be washed and back before you know it, just choose a different top for now." Danny gulped a little in the middle of that, looking at my face but not in my eyes, even though I couldn't focus on him, I could tell when he looked in my eyes.
"but, new one!" I just wanted my new one, that was all! "please, just use a different one today, I don't want to fight you on this, please, just wear a different tshirt today, so your new one can be washed." Danny begged, he sounded so sad again, so I gave in. You're making him sad. I knew that, thats why I stopped, so he wasn't sad anymore, I didn't want to make him sad. Danny ended up sad far too much, I didn't like it, he should have been happy, not sad.
"thank you, which one do you want today then?" Danny asked, going through all my tshirts and hoodies. I chose a Ghostbusters tshirt with a hoodie that was brown and said 'McFly' on it. I guessed it meant Marty McFly from Back To The Future, because he was cool enough to have his name on a hoodie. Though, weren't we a group called McFly too? But why would I have a hoodie with our name on it? It was probably a Back To The Future thing.