"It's so sad
How you were
Such a big
Part of my life
And now
You're
Just
Gone"
Ever since New York this year, and my fight with Peter, ever since… you, I spend more time than I care to thinking about the past. My head somehow finds its way to the sad times when Peter broke my heart 5 years ago. I guess misery loves company so my thoughts just go where they will. So often I find myself at Georgetown where I constantly fooled you into thinking I was some amazing lawyer, while the whole time I was nervous as fuck. I wind my way around to that elevator, I was so naïve and I was almost as giddy as a school girl, I actually jumped up and down in the elevator. Then suddenly there you were, in tennis shoes and a Brioni suit. It had been 15 years. I didn't realize until I sat down in New York to think how much of a difference you'd made that day. God, Will, you saved me. Not that I was a fairy tale princess that I needed saving I would have figured things out but… There you were, even when we were fighting you were there. I couldn't see you every day, I couldn't talk to you, not that you would have talked to me. But you were there. You were such a big part of my life… now you're just gone…
I miss you