Chapter 14: Make up or Break Up?

CeCe was extremely worried about Jess; she only goes to work then gets back into bed until the cycle happens all over again. Nick has called every five minutes and not only Jess, he had tried her as well. She felt really sorry for Nick, she saw how he blew up at Caroline after she attacked him. Being the good friend she is she hadn't pushed Jess to talk to him but time to time she would slip in that maybe she should trust him. However Jess just couldn't see past Spencer and what happened with him. But it has been two weeks now and CeCe couldn't take this anymore, she knew what made her friend happy and Jess being Jess she couldn't see it.

"Jess, how you doing?"

"I've been better. Do you need me to do something?" Jess replied in a monotone voice still lying on her bed.

"Well there is something, maybe get up and come out with me. Get a little bit of fresh air."

"I don't want to go out. I'm fine here thank you."

"Come on Jess please, I had a really hard day at work today and I could really blow off some steam with my best friend."

"Where do you want to go? Not that I am defiantly going."

"That is a surprise, but come on Jess for me." Jess huffed, but got up anyway. "Fine. Give me 20 minutes to get ready."

"Thanks Jess." CeCe gave her a hug and left the room to let Jess get ready. She picked up her phone and dialled the number she has come accustomed to these last few days. "Hey Nick she's coming out I can't guarantee she will come in when we get there but I'll give it my best shot."

"Thanks CeCe you've done more than I could ask for thanks."

"No problem, she's just getting ready we should be there in about half an hour."

Nick hung up and looked around his apartment that he and the guys had been setting up all day, being manager at his bar he was able to take a day off. He had laid candles and flowers around everywhere; he wanted to make an effort so had his best shirt on and cologne. Ok, this sounded like a proposal but they had only been dating 4 months and the last month wasn't that great with all the Caroline trouble. But he wanted her to know that, he wanted a future with her that he couldn't see his life without her.

They pulled up outside Nick's building "CeCe what are we doing here? I don't want to see him."

"Jess you have to talk to him, I know you love him but you can't keep avoiding him in this limbo, either you have to forgive him or break up with him. Both things need to be done in person."

Tears were forming in Jess' eyes, "I do love him CeCe, but … I don't know what to do? What if he does leave me for her I would be heartbroken?"

"But what are you now Jess? You're not in any better position avoiding him, your heartbroken either way but if he does love you as he says he does and doesn't leave you for her which I know for a fact he won't you can be with him and be happy."

Jess looked at CeCe and gave a small weak smile and leaned over and gave her a hug, "Thanks CeCe you're right ok I'm going to go up."

Knock Knock

Nick opened the door to see Jess stood there, he couldn't be happier to see her. He opened the door to let her in and her eyes were wide with shock at how the loft looked. It was beautiful. "Wow" she whispered.

"Thank you for coming Jess, I've been wanting to talk to you for ages, please just let me explain."

"No, let me talk first. Look I'm sorry that I have been avoiding you for so long but it's just hard because of my past relationships. Not that I think your anything like Spencer, and I love you so much more than him and I think that's why it hurts more. I want to forgive you so badly but something inside of me is stopping me and I don't know how to fix it." Jess looked down feeling tears rising again.

"Jess, look at me." She didn't so Nick lifted her face with his finger under her chin. "I have never in my whole life felt the way you have made me feel. To be honest my life has pretty much sucked. My dad was never around, my mum was always worried about him so I had to keep the family together, I was a law school dropout, I worked in a bar at 30 and I have four guy roommates. Only recently was my life starting to look up, with me getting the manager role at the bar I could see the point of carrying on but when I met you I could see the point of living. These last few months have been incredible and I couldn't of imagined 5 years ago that I would be here standing in front of the most amazing women I have ever met and could even been in the running of getting to spend my life with her. Look I know what you saw would have hurt and I couldn't be sorrier that it happened. But I can truthfully say that she kissed me and I pulled away as soon as I could, that I would never ever go back to Caroline even if you decided not to give me another chance. Jess I love you and any guy in this whole world would be lucky to call you his and if that's not me I would understand; you could do a lot better and deserve a lot better. But know that I will never stop loving you, and my life would not be the same without you." Nick dropped his finger and waited for a response. But he didn't have to wait too long because Jess crashed her lips on his, wrapping her arms around his neck, Nick immediately responding and placing his hands on her waist, fireworks exploding in his head never had he felt so elated.

Jess pulled away keeping her arms around his neck, "Thank you for saying that Nick, no one has ever said that to me. I'm sorry for over reacting about all of this and I want to be better, but you don't have to worry about me going off with some other guy; you're the man I want. I have never loved someone as much as I love you and I don't want to spend another minute without you. The only reason I have been avoiding you is because I was scared you would go back to her and that I didn't know how to forgive you because you knew about Spencer. I think in time I can get over all of this and everything will be ok. I don't want to waste more time being apart when we could be together. If we take it day by day that trust I know is in there for you will come back stronger than ever and we can completely happy. But I do forgive you and I believe you that it wasn't your fault. I just need a little time to sort out my insecurities. But I think we can do that together if you want."

"Jess of course I want, take as much time as you need. Remember though I would never ever do something like that to you, I never want you to be hurt again and more than that I never want to be the reason. I love you Jess."

"I love you too Nick."

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