Once again I wake up to crying. This time I hear both of them. I walk over to their room and see both Evie and Nate. Sometimes it's hard for me to look at Nate, he reminds me so much of Tobias. His deep blue eyes are like I'm staring right at Tobias himself. Days like today are especially worse. Where I can't stop thinking about him. I fell asleep crying. I know I asked for him to come and grab his things but when he left my room yesterday he looked so hurt. I've never seen him like that. Not even when he'll come over after Marcus beat him.
I should be the one hurting not him. But yet I never want to see him hurt.
I pick both of them up and put them on the floor.
"Who wants to go downstairs for pancakes?"
I get to our kitchen and place the twins in their high chair. I start to make pancakes.
"Morning sweethearts." My mum walks in the room and head over to the twins and kisses them then kisses me and helps me make pancakes.
"So what are you up to today?"
"Don't know, maybe take them to the park."
"Sounds nice."
We eat and I head upstairs to get ready with the twins. I know I'm only going to the park so I wear my black legging with a white t-shirt and put on my green cargo jacket. I wear my black converse high tops. I dress Evie first and once again put her in a dress. I wouldn't dare put her in pants. Nate is easier. Just some comfy jeans and a cute navy shirt.
I get my bag ready and head off to the park. Lucky I had my car in the garage so no one will see me taking the twins outside. I get to the park and no one is around, which I'm grateful.
I get a text from Christina and I tell her to join us at the park. She arrives after 5 minutes and plays with the twins on the slide. I'm reading my book when she comes up to me.
"Hey, there the cutest things ever."
"Yeah they are. Couldn't imagine life without them." I smile at her.
"I'm sorry about bring up yours and Four's first time at D and C yesterday. I honestly had no idea he'll say Nita."
"It's fine, honestly didn't bother me. If he wants to forget that that's his business."
"Your so clam about it."
"It's been 2 years, and right now, they are all that matters not high school drama." I say pointing at the twins.
"That high school drama is their father, you need to tell him."
"I will, when I'm ready." I had changed my mind last night, I realized maybe he should know about them but right now I'm still not ready and don't know when I will be.
"Please Chris, can we talk about something else."
"Ok, tell me what's going on between you and Eric?"
"Eric? What about him?"
"Tris, don't play dumb, I've seen the way you guys are in English, and Four has noticed too."
"What, his nice now, and we're just friends."
"Tris, this is Eric. You know the Eric that picked on you and Four."
"Well I guess now that there is no "me and Four" he see no reason to be mean to me. After all it was always Eric and Four who had the issues. I just become apart of it because of Four."
"I guess, but its still Eric."
"Oh he's not so bad."
The day goes on and I'm sitting at home. The twins are having their nap and I decide to go for a run.
I'm on my way back home from my run when I realize I have to go pass Tobias house. And of course he arrives home just at the exact moment.
"Tris." He says getting out of his car.
"Yeah?" I stop.
"We still have that art project to finish."
"Oh right, I totally forgot. Umm, I wasn't really listening that day, what was the assignment?"
"Self portrait of each other, we have to answer questions."
"Ok, well I already know all about you so I guess it's something I can do on my own right?"
"Tris, I don't want to fail because your too suborn to do an assignment together."
"Fine, come over at 8:30pm."
"Why so late?"
"Because, I have things to do." I say and leave.
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Later that night, I've put the twins to bed and take the monitor to my mum so if they cry she can go to them and I tell her Tobias's coming over.
"Oh, I thought you guys weren't together anymore."
"We're not, and it's an Art project."
"Homework on a Saturday night." She winks at me.
"It was his idea. I rather be doing something else"
The door bell rings and I open it.
"Tobias, its nice to see you again. How's your father?"
"Well thank you Mrs. Prior."
I tell him to follow me to my room, hoping that tonight isn't a night the twins wake up.
"So where do you want to start?"
"Questions?"
"1. Favorite color. 2. Favorite movie/tv show. 's your favorite thing to do on a beautiful day. 4. If I asked you to cook me dinner, what would you make me." Tobias reads out the question and goes on.
"10. Have you ever had your heart broken?" He stops and looks up at me.
"I already know your answers to all these questions, can we move along to the self-portrait."
"Well, I don't know your answers, tell Tris, What would you cook me if I asked you to make dinner?" he says lightening the mood.
"Pancakes."
"Really, Pancakes for dinner?" he smiles
"Yes, nothing wrong with pancakes for dinner." We both laugh.
"Well, I think that's covered."
"It's late and I'll work on the self-portrait tomorrow." I say to him.
"Ok, I better get home, see you at school." He says as he grabs his things and head out. He stops half way through the door and turns to me.
"Oh and answer 10 is…. yes, very much. Hurts like hell" He turns and leaves.
He was the one who broke my heart, it's still broken and break even more every time I see him. I grab a piece of paper and start to draw. Hours later I've finished. I look at my work. I've drawed Tobias smiling, his deep blue eyes are looking straight at the person, the way he looks at me. He's holding a heart, my heart. It's a very dark drawing, probably wasn't what Mrs. Johanna had in mind but it's my self-portrait of Tobias. It's how I see him now. I then answer all the questions and decided to go to sleep.