Tris POV

"I'll get it." I say as I walk over to the door and open it. I had asked Eric to pick me up from my house then we'll head over to Zeke's before heading off to the beach.

"Hey, you ready." He asks.

"Yeah, sure lets go."

We arrive at Zeke's and plan who's going with who. I just pray I don't get stuck with Tobias seeing as how we've avoided each other all week. Lucky it's Will, Christina and Marlene.

Once at the beach everyone is setting our things up. I decided to help Eric set up the beach umbrellas and tent. I really don't want to start getting undress. Since having the twins I know my body has changed heaps, I now have fuller thighs and wider hips. I am also worried someone will noticed either my stretch marks or scar from the caesarian I had. I try and prolong it as much as I can. Everyone is now in the water apart from Eric, Tobias and I.

"You wanna go in?" Eric asks me after he undresses.

"Yeah, go right ahead, I'll be there soon." I say. I know Tobias is left and I know him well enough to know he won't get undress before me. I see his pretending to play on his phone. I take my chances and hope he doesn't look at me today. Once I'm undress I quickly turn and head off to the water. Tobias soon follows.

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Once we're out of the water and been sunbaking for some time, Eric asks me if I want to go for a walk. It's been very awkward being around Tobias and his high-maintenance girlfriend, honestly how he can handle her is beyond me. I can actually use a break so decided to go. I quickly get up and get dressed hopefully I've dogde a bullet and no one noticed my scar and marks, after all Tobias has been getting away with his scar for years.

"It's actually quite nice here." Eric says to me as we're walking along the shore.

"Yeah, it is. Do you come much to the beach?"

"Not really, like I've said before, I tent to avoid areas that I know Four hangs out at."

"Why is that, I mean I don't stop hanging out with my friends cause of Four or Nita who both drive me crazy. You shouldn't stop your life because of someone else." I say

"Easy for you to say, you and Four have a love, hate relationship, Four and I have a I want to poke your eyes out relationship."

"More like knock each others teeth out relationship."

"Well, yeah. Not my greatest moment." He smirks while we come to a stop near some rocks on the shore and he sits down on them, I sit on a flat rock next to him.

"How about I make a deal with you." He asks as he moves a lose hair from my face. I see his eyes focusing on my mouth.

"What kind of deal?"

"How about from now on we stop talking about Four or Nita or anyone else for that matter." He says. His eyes are on mine now, then he leans his face closer to mine, and brushing my lips with his. I tense up first, unsure of myself. I start to loosen up but he pulls away.

"Sorry." He says.

Eric just kissed me, and I didn't mind it. Yes I freaked out at first but I wasn't expecting it.

"I think I like that deal." I finally say to avoid the awkwardness. He takes my face in his hands again, his fingers strong against my skin and kisses me again, firmer this time, more certain. I wrap an arm around him, sliding my hand up his neck and into his hair.

For a few minutes we kiss, with the roar of the ocean all around us.

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We are back at the beach with the gang. Eric is playing Volleyball with Will. I'm sitting next to Christina while we watch them play. The rest of the group are under the tent drinking, they have just finished a game.

"I got to tell you something but I don't want you to freak out." Chris say while watching the boys play.

"If it's got something to do with Four I don't want to know."

"I think you want to know this. When you left to go for a walk…"

"Christina, I'm serious. I don't want to heard it. I honestly don't care what he said."

"Fine, when he comes asking questions don't say I didn't warn you." She gets up and leaves. Gees she can be dramatic sometimes. What on earth is she pissed off at me for.

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Our game of Candor and Dauntless didn't end well. Eric is now dropping me off at home. It's late and I haven't seen the twins all day, I've missed them. He pulls up my driveway and stops the car.

"Thanks for keeping me company today." I say to him.

"Thanks for asking me to come keep you company."

"I'll see you at school on Monday then." This is starting to get awkward.

"Yeah see you Monday, in English." He leans in and kisses my check. Thank god.

"Ok, bye." I say and then get out of the car and he drives away.

I head straight to my room and drop my things off, I go and have a shower. In the shower I think about the kiss. Do I like Eric. I mean I did kiss him back. I enjoyed the kiss but it didn't have the spark that I normally got when Tobias kissed me and the tingles. God I miss those tingle. I think about Tobias and then I remember about Tobias and Nita. Does he have the same spark when he kisses her.

No Stop. I'm just making myself crazy, I need to stop comparing Eric to him. The kiss was nice, I like the kiss, I like Eric's company therefore I must like Eric, right. I stop the shower and get out. I head into my room and change into my pajamas, just a black singlet and some short shorts. I blow dry my hair and moisturize my face. Once I'm done, I quickly head into the twins room before I head into bed, I've missed them all day and need to see them sleeping.

I look into Nate's crib and lean over and kiss him on his head. What am I thinking, I don't have the time to be in a new relationship. Yes Eric would be a nice distraction but I need to be an adult, these two need me and all my attention. I didn't come back to Chicago to start dating. I have a goal and so far I haven't been focusing on it.

I walk over to Evie crib and lean over and kiss her goodnight. She tosses, and I've realized I might have waken her up. So much for going to sleep. She opens her eyes and starts to cry. I pick her up.

"It's alright sweetie, mummy is here." I say and hug her tight. "I've missed you all day today." I say as I keep rocking her. She is still crying. And I realize she must be hungry. She has a smaller percentile of her height and weight then Nate, so she needs to drink more to catch up. I'm lucky cause I still get enough breast milk to feed her once a day. I walk over to the rocking chair in their nursery and sit down with Evie. I attach her to my breast and she settles down and starts drinking.

She is so cute when I look at her from this angle. As hard as having kids at my age is I still wouldn't change anything about my life.

I'm so focused looking at Evie that I don't even hear or see anything. I feel like my mind has just left my body when I hear him, like an out of this world experience.

I look up and see him standing in the hallway, in front of my bedroom door across the hall. He stares straight at me with I don't know, a shocked expression on his face.

"Tris?" He says again. "What are you doing?" Tobias asks.

I'm still in shock, and can't respond.

No, what is he doing here.

He starts to walks into the nursery.

"Wait." I say and he stops dead in his track.

"Tris, what is going on?" He asks.

"Please…..Get out….Go away." I half beg, half cry.

"Not till you tell me what'g going on."

Why, why did he climb the window. Why tonight of all night. I close my eyes and feel the tears fell from my eyes. It has to be now. I can't lie to myself any longer. He needs to know. But not like this. Not with Evie on me.

"Ok, fine." I say finally getting the courage. I look up at him and stare him in the eye. He still looks shocked but he also looks broken, hurt even.

"Just give me a few minutes. Can you just wait in my room and close the door. I'll be in there soon." I ask pleading with him.

He just stares at me. "Please….just wait in my room, I'm begging you, please go."

"Ok fine." he walks back in my rooms and closes the door…...