Tris POV

"Breathe…..In…Release….Do it with me."

I follow the technique over with my mum, who keep repeating these words over and over. It will only take three minutes before my brain passes out if I don't slow my heartbeat, which right now is pumping out extra blood that is causing my adrenaline.

It's been a while since I've had a panic attack so it will take longer for me to control.

xXxXx

I've now been awake for 24 hours. I'm still lying in my bed staring up at my ceiling. I knew this day would come, in a why I do feel lighter, like all my worries have been lifted off me. I know it often how people describe this feeling but I really do feel lighter.

It's light outside and since I know I won't be able to sleep I decided to get up. I walk over to my window and look outside to the house next door. I can see his bedroom window. Knowing him he probably didn't get my sleep either.

"Honey!" I hear my mum after she peeks her head through my door. "Did you get any sleep?" She asks as she walks in. I just shake my head.

"How are you feeling?" she asks. I just shrug. She walks over and sits on my bed. I know she's just worried about me.

"You rest ok. I'll stay with Evie and Nate today." I just nod and just crawl back into bed. She tacks me in and kisses my forehead. I end up finally dozing off.

xXxXx

I wake up to a door bell. I open my eyes and look over to my watch and see it's 3:23pm. I get up and head for the nursery. I slowly walk over and open their room door and peck inside. They're both napping. I decided to go have a shower and change into some sweats and am about to head downstairs when there is a knock at my bedroom door followed the door opening.

"Aunt Tori…" I cry and run over to her and hug her so hard.

"Hey Tris, miss me."

"What are you doing here?"

"Your mum call me late last night, I'm here for moral support." She says and I hug her tighter.

"He knows, he hates me now." I say I feel more water building up in my eyes.

"He doesn't hate you." She says and I let go of her. "His just mad….probably will be for a while but he doesn't hate you."

"No, he hates me. He said some horrible things to me last night. And I don't blame him. I hate myself too."

"Beatrice, sweetheart. He probably doesn't even remember the things he said last night. He would have been in shock. You did drop a bomb on him. Actually two." We both start giggling. Then my laughing turns into crying. It's the first time I've really cried since he left last night.

Aunt Tori just hugs me. "Shhh…..it will work out…just let it all go."

Tobias POV

I slam my front door.

"Tobias, where have you been." My dad says from the kitchen table. Shit, I didn't expect him to be still awake. I don't answer and start to walk up the stairs.

"Tobias." I stop and turn to face him. "I hope you won't chasing that she-devil again. Just cause she's return doesn't mean she is worth any of your time. You can do a lot better son." He says.

"Yes, your right." I start to climb up to my room. Normally I wouldn't let Marcus speak about Tris like that but tonight I don't care. I walk to my bathroom cabinet and take out some sleeping pills. I work over to my bed and just fall and pray for sleep to take me.

xXxXx

I hear a buzzing noise. Then I hear it again. I open my eyes and search for my phone. It's a text from Zeke. I open it and read it.

"Yo, come over."

"Be there soon." I text him back. I look at the time it's 1 o'clock. I must of slept right through. I get up and have a shower and get dress. I go downstairs and look for something to eat in the kitchen. I leave and am about to hop in my car. Before I open my car door I look over to next door. I know I should go in but I can't move my feet, I'm not ready to face her just yet. I just hop in my car and drive away fast.

xXxXx

"So that's why see left?" Zeke says pretty shocked.

"Yep, seems that was the reason." I reply.

"So you guys did it and never told us." Uriah says as Zeke punches him.

"Really, that's the bit that shocks you." Zeke says and I can help but chuckle.

"What are you going to do then?"

"I don't know yet. I mean she lied to me. I was in her house a few times and she could of told me." I start pacing in their living room.

"Have you seen them yet?" Uriah asks.

"No, well not really, no."

"Do you want to?"

"Of course I do. I'm just in shock right now. First I need to calm down. I can't be around them like this." I'm a nerves wreck. I don't want to have my first memory of them like this, I think to myself.

"Hey Uri, go get us some snacks." Uriah looks offended that his talking to him like a salve but he doesn't question, he gets up and leaves the room.

"Do you still love her?" Zeke asks me.

I shrug.

"If you asked me this 24 hours ago I would of said yes, but right now I honestly don't know. The way I feel right now I've never hated anyone more." I say

"You need to speak with Tris again." Zeke advices.

"I can't. I don't know what I'll do if I see her."

"Well, you've got till tomorrow to work that out." And his right.