Entry 15, October 21, 2012
I felt a bit hesitant to go up in my tree-house tonight. After what happened yesterday, I just didn't think it would be right. I was feeling bad about the whole thing pretty much all day. I just couldn't get my mind off of the subject. Last night, I wished that I never went to that daytime spot. Some people probably wouldn't think anything about scaring an animal away from where it was resting, but I just felt like I was being aggressive (in a slightly alternate form than what I would think of as being aggressive). When sunset came, I questioned myself if there were any reasons why I would go back up to the tree-house. It didn't take long to think of one big one. I wanted to apologize to the creature about yesterday. I knew this was a good enough reason to justify my original thoughts today. I went out to my backyard. It had been starting to get chilly recently. It wasn't anything severe. Maybe 45-50 degrees. I'm not one for cold weather. I like the cool weather in the fall, just to get away from those few 100+ degree days. I climbed up in my tree-house and just waited. I waited to see if the creature would even come back to my backyard. It wasn't even 10 minutes before I heard trees shaking. I was already feeling glad for deciding to go up there. The creature stopped on a nearby tree. I'm glad it stopped jumping on the trees holding up my tree-house. It was kinda hard to stand and keep things in one place. I walked out onto the deck slowly. Because the creature came back, I felt like I was already forgiven. I looked up into the tree and tried to find a tail. It was too dark tonight and I didn't bring my flashlight. I hesitated to say anything immediately, but then started to slowly apologize. I said something along the lines of this: "Hey...uh...I...I wanted to apologize about yesterday. I didn't mean to scare you away from your resting spot or anything. I just wanted to get a better look at you, that's all. I didn't think you would come back after that. I'm glad you proved me wrong. I don't know if you understand anything I'm saying, but I just want you to know I'm sorry..." After that, I sat down, leaning up against the side railing. I heard a noise from the creature. This noise sounded like some kind of low, purring type sound. I didn't know if this was a positive response or not. I guess it coming back is something of a positive response, even before I said anything. I just sat where I was for a while, with a grin. Tonight was a success. I'm happy I reasoned with myself. If I didn't, I probably would have thought the creature would never come back. That would have really depressed me. I think I might have some kind of attachment to this creature. At first, all I wanted to know was what the creature looked like. Now, it seems like a little bit more. I just hope I'll be able to see more of it in the future.