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Right-oh… I'm going to display some deeeeep emotions here... ( hopefully not my own ;D )

ANGST.

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Hikaru slammed a fist against his wall, then sat heavily down on his bed, nursing his throbbing hand.

"Why, why now?!"

He fell backwards, and ended up sprawled on his bed, his feet dangling off the end. His eyes closed as he fell into past memories and his subconscious took over.

[Flashback]

"Hey… Hikaru?"

"W-w-what do you want, Kaoru?"

"I love you…"

The small boy sniffed and looked up, eyes watery, cheeks pink.

"R-really?"

Kaoru nodded and pressed his forehead against his brothers'.

"M-m-more than s-she did?"

"Hikaru… I will love you more than any girl will ever love you. I promise. We'll always have eachother."

Tears welled up in both children's eyes, as their arms crept around each other, and they closed themselves off from the outside world for the first time.

[End of flashback]

Something that seemed so stupid now, had meant so much. When they were eight, Hikaru had met a girl. She had moved to a different country not long after they met, and the relationship was cute, but short, not to mention silly. Still, it had seemed so real then.

So how, exactly, was he meant to know what love is? He had thought what he had then was love, but now that he was able to look back on it, it meant nothing to him. The memory had helped him in the past; reminded him that Kaoru was the only one he needed, but now, it just complicated things.

He loved Kaoru, he knew that much, but apart from Haruhi, there had never been anyone else. In all of the years since that incident, nobody had ever been able to convince him that it would be okay without Kaoru. It would still be hard to survive without his best friend and brother, but he felt, that if he had Haruhi, then it wouldn't be that bad to venture out into the outside world; let his barriers down.

But how could he leave Kaoru?

Kaoru had been there for him when nobody else was.

Kaoru had loved him before anyone had.

It was Kaoru, who, despite being the younger sibling, had taken care of Hikaru when their parents hadn't.

That was why his brother was his whole world. They would die for one another, and they felt each other's pain.

His fists clenched as he came to a conclusion; no matter what, he would never abandon his brother.

Honey groaned.

Why him?

Why was he the one, who never had a chance?

He loved Haruhi. He loved Takashi. It could be said that he was bisexual. It could definitely be said he was bisexual.

Yet he had to stand back and watch while the two loves of his life fell in love.

Or not; they may not even fall in love... She may pick someone else, and break both of their hearts. It was a possibility, after all.

And anyway, if it came down to it, who would he choose; Haruhi or Takashi?

Takashi, he guessed, he had known him longer, but Haruhi had had such a huge effect on his life. He loved them.

Some people would say that it was impossible to love two people at once. He disagreed. For that is what he was feeling. Love. And a lot of it.

Kyouya let out an irritated mumble, and proceeded to write with more vigour than before. His pen close to snapping in his hand. The letter read:

To Fujioka-San

I am writing to inquire about asking your daughter to a ball.
If you allow it, we shall be back by 10pm, and she will not come to any harm while in my company.

I hope that you approve of this, as I have good intentions, and if she allows it, I intent to marry Haruhi one day.

Thank you,

Kyouya Ohtori.

He put his pen down, and smiled to himself. A bit cheesy, it may be, but it would have to do.

Somewhat of a rush!

'Til next time.