A/N: Quick update, see? :3. Mainly because 3 and 4 were originally one big chapter.

I'm sorry to the amount of people who don't like Ichiru. I'm like "D: whyy" But then I remember "Well yeah, Ichiru is a bitch to the max in this story." Meep, I just love writing him.

Actual boy/boy is in this. More twincest hints.

Chapter title inspired by "Crying Shame" by Muse. Quote in the beginning from the same song.

Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Knight, no no no.

"And time has made the spell abate.
And now it's time to desecrate."

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Chapter 4: BLAME

The taste.

Why had he denied himself this taste when it had been offered to him countless times? He had been insane.

He was insane.

The blood was warm and so delicious. Zero could feel it in him, running fast and powerful through his veins. The dark scarlet ambrosia spilled around Zero's lips, dripping down his jaw and sliding along Kaname's pale neck.

Nothing compared to the first taste. A human could never appreciate this.

And he was not human.

"Ze…" Kaname hissed, his fist suddenly tightening on Zero's shirt.

Zero didn't even register the voice. He continued to drink, quickly and brutally. His control was shot; he'd fought the thirst for too long.

Kaname's back knocked against the wall. The pureblood let out a small grunt. Zero's fangs sank in even deeper as the hunter's body tried to recover from four years of denied need. Denied desire.

Want. He wanted this.

Kaname shut his eyes tightly, his body reeling in shock from how…accepting his body seemed to be of the situation, how nonexistent his instincts were.

This boy…what is he doing to me?

A small growl came from Zero's throat. Power thrummed in his body, and gradually, he felt it inside him just as he had felt the thirst. A rhythmic, filling, thrum, that seemed to start at his toes and work its way up, a tangible taste coating his tongue in a thick, bloody red.

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Slowly, slowly, the running colors began to melt back into place. Zero became aware of more than the blood spilling into and around his lips.

Aware of the fact that Kaname's breathing was a tad louder, a few pants faster than normal. Aware of Kaname's hand in his hair, his fingers gripping and massaging. His other hand's tight grip on his shirt, his body pressed flushed against Zero's.

Which made him very aware of his own arousal pressing against Kaname's inner thigh, and extremely aware of the way his cheeks flamed, red dusting across his nose.

It was like something snapped inside his head, inducing a sharp sting that brought him back to himself.

He extracted his fangs from Kaname's neck quickly, and the pureblood jerked, clasping a hand to the mauled skin. Zero stood frozen pressed against him, staring at the wall behind the pureblood's shoulder.

The only noise in the room was their breathing. Zero could barely hear over his own loud, quick pants.

"Zero…"

Zero automatically looked around and his eyes widened when he met Kaname's gaze.

"Zero Kiryuu," Kaname murmured softly.

There, in that one split second when Zero looked up, Kaname had seen it. He'd seen that little boy, that wide-eyed, blushing, confused, broken innocence. So, so different from that cold night, that night where Kaname had picked up all those taped together pieces of purity and crushed them in his fingers, into something completely irreparable.

Zero's glare was fierce, unforgiving, full of hate.

Zero stepped back, suddenly feeling very open, and very stupid. I'm going to kill myself later. He looked away, avoiding Kaname's red eyes, which were burning dully, clouded and lustful. It was very similar to the lust from that cold night, but at the same time, something more…he couldn't place it. He was afraid to name it.

"Vampire," he hissed, more blood welling up from his insides and dripping from his mouth. His vision suddenly spun, going in and out of focus, and he was once more aware of how broken he was.

"I…" Zero ground his teeth together and looked away, this time over his shoulder.

But Kaname's hand was suddenly holding his chin, turning the hunter's head, and then their lips were melding, touching, and Kaname was kissing him.

—lips.

His heart seemed to freeze over for a cold moment.

And the shock was worse this time, before, before he had been so weak, so vulnerable, dead.

The ice shattered as an unbearable heat smothered Zero's body. "Mm!" he grunted in shock, the blush on his face darkening considerably. Kaname gripped Zero's shirt bottom in one hand and tugged him closer, and Zero was completely shocked to feel Kaname's own arousal rub against his.

Zero gasped, his face now uncomfortably warm. Kaname's tongue slid teasingly along his parted lips before darting in and moving over Zero's.

Zero's mind was a total blur. His head still swam from the sudden boost in strength, and his vampire instincts were still whirling around just beneath the surface.

So technically speaking, he shouldn't have blamed himself when he growled low in his throat and shoved back against Kaname, working his lips against his.

Kaname pulled his head away by tugging on the tousled, silvery locks. Zero looked torn between utter shock and embarrassment and pure unadulterated lust.

Kaname's eyes were blazing with so many emotions; Zero had only seen the pureblood look like this once before.

That winter night, four years ago. His eyes now held that exact same look he'd had then.

Kaname grabbed onto Zero's arms and propelled him backwards until the back of his knees hit the bed and he fell sprawled onto it.

"Zero," Kaname whispered, licking up Zero's neck. Zero jerked, arching back off the bed with a gasp.

Kaname ran a finger down Zero's blazing cheek.

"Embarrassed?" Kaname smirked and Zero shut his eyes, wishing his desire would disappear completely. If I have any sense of self preservation I will take out my Bloody Rose and shoot him in the head right now.

"Don't do that, Zero. I want you to look at me."

"No—"

Kaname gripped Zero's hips in his hands and pulled them up so their crotches rubbed together.

"Hah! Stop!"

Kaname kissed him hard again and Zero stifled a moan when Kaname rubbed up against him.

He never did have a good sense of self preservation.

"No…" he gasped, his voice breathless and pleasured. "I…I hate you."

Kaname let out a low laugh. "I know that. But…"

He didn't finish his sentence, but Zero wasn't afforded the luxury to ponder on it. Kaname slid his hands down along Zero's thighs and pulled them up, hooking the flushed boy's legs up around his hips.

Zero's body seemed to have a mind of its own. He rocked up against Kaname, panting and flushed, his eyes half closed. Kaname pulled one of Zero's hands up close to his mouth and sucked one of his fingers into his mouth.

"Nng," Zero gasped as Kaname's tongue slid across the skin.

"Zero…" Kaname let the finger slip out of his mouth and Zero flushed darker, if possible.

A single, breathy laugh escaped from Kaname's mouth and he gently pressed his lips to Zero's flaming cheek.

"You look so cute like that."

Zero jerked in surprise and annoyance. That, if anything, snapped him back into sanity.

"Get the hell off me!"

"No."

"You fucker, get—ah!"

Kaname smirked slightly as he rubbed his arousal against Zero's. Zero thrust up against him with several loud gasps, his eyes falling shut.

"Yes," he moaned mindlessly before he could stop himself. "Ah—more."

Kaname smiled, his fangs glinting in the moonlight shining through the open window. "More?" he murmured.

"Ahh," Zero grabbed at Kaname's arms so he could push up against Kaname with more force. "Mm…"

Kaname spread himself over Zero's body, lifting his head to kiss lightly at Zero's lips. Zero shivered and ignoring his brain's screaming protests, opened his mouth to let Kaname's tongue enter his mouth.

While his lips worked against Zero's, Kaname's tongue slid skillfully over the hunter's, covering every part of the hot, wet cavern that was possible. Zero squeezed his eyes shut and sucked hard on the wet appendage, his rocking against the pureblood developing a hot, fast rhythm.

Kaname abruptly pulled back and buried his face into the crook of Zero's neck. He moaned, licking the pale, sensitive skin passionately.

Zero froze, his already rapid heartbeat speeding up tenfold.

"Get—stop," Zero whispered, his eyes in a sudden panic. "Kaname, don't—nng…hah."

Kaname had moved his mouth up to Zero's ear, where his tongue worked around the tender skin. He bit down on one of Zero's piercings and pulled. Zero's face scrunched up, torn between pain and pleasure.

"What made you get these, Zero?" Kaname whispered into the hunter's ear.

"I…dunno," Zero mumbled, trying to keep his voice under control, his earrings the last thing on his mind. Kaname tongue dipped into Zero's ear and he let out a choked groan, bucking up against the pureblood violently.

"They're fitting," Kaname murmured, a smirk evident in his cocky tone. After one final tug on a silver stud, Kaname pushed himself up so he hovered over Zero on his hands and knees.

Zero moaned quietly at the loss of contact, and his hand immediately went down to his throbbing arousal.

"Stop," Kaname grabbed his wrist easily and pushed it back over Zero's head. The hunter looked up at him, his lilac eyes glazed and heavy lidded.

Kaname almost lost it right there.

He leaned down, slipping a hand to the back of Zero's head and bringing it up so that their lips crushed together.

"Mmph!" Zero's eyes fluttered open wide, then he let them slide shut and lifted one hand to weave into Kaname's dark hair, leaving the other one behind him for a support.

Kaname grip on Zero's silver hair became painful, but Zero didn't notice. He was too lost in the feel of Kaname lips against him, too distracted by the gentle ferocity of his tongue, too intrigued by the fact that he felt he could feel Kaname' pulse beating at a high rate.

It excited him.

He felt shirt buttons being undone, and arched up into Kaname's body when the pureblood's fingers stroked the bare skin of his chest.

"Mhm…" Kaname murmured against Zero's parted lips, his fingers trailing down lower and fingering the skin above Zero's pants. "You're beautiful. So beautiful…"

Zero blushed hotly, turning his head away. Kaname kissed Zero's cheek, trailing his lips down. Lower, sliding them over his neck. Parting his lips, letting his teeth scrape against the sensitive skin.

Zero let out a choked yell, slamming his hand into Kaname's shoulder and shoving the pureblood back.

Kaname fingered his lips, staring at Zero with glazed, lust filled eyes.

"Don't touch me!" Zero snarled. He let out a strangled choking sound, bending his head and covering his face with one hand. "Damn it! How dare you?"

He looked up at Kaname, and his eyes were a blazing, bright red. "Get away from me." He shoved himself off the other side of the bed and bared his teeth in warning. "Don't touch me. Don't ever touch me again. Don't you dare!"

Kaname laughed, pushing his damp hair back from his face. "Zero, how will you drink my blood again?"

"I won't!"

"Yes, you will. You thought it was hard before? Once you take that first taste, resisting is impossible." He looked up at Zero, a cruel smile dominating his beautiful face. "Even for you, who resisted his master's will for years."

Zero's eyes widened and he let out a furious little gasp. "Master? Fuck you. You're not anything like that to me."

Kaname's eyes burned. "I created you."

Zero flushed angrily. "I have my own will."

Kaname smiled at him, almost gently, then turned his face away. Zero moved back, his breathing hard.

Damn! What the hell was that?

Kaname turned to look at Zero over his shoulder, and Zero was almost relieved to see the regular impassive look on his face. He said nothing, only looked at Zero, his fingers almost thoughtfully kneading the covers of his bed.

Zero stumbled backwards. Door, where is the goddamn door…? I need to get the hell out of here.

"Go out the window," Kaname said, laying back on the bed calmly, closing his eyes. "The scent of my blood is filling this building. Go out the window to avoid running into anyone."

Zero glared at Kaname for a moment, then without further ado, ran for the window. He banged it open and launched out of the room, sailing through the cool night air. He hit the ground hard, but the impact didn't hurt him.

He hated that. Gritting his teeth, he tore off in the direction of his own dorm room.

He knew he must look suspicious, and he prayed to God he wouldn't run into Yuuki. His shirt was hanging open. Blood—Kaname's blood—stained his shirt here and there. His hair was hopeless, still a little sweaty in total disarray. He nervously knitted his fingers through it, but feared he was only making it worse.

Oh please don't let me run into her. I couldn't face her now. I couldn't, I couldn't explain….

Thank God, he made it to his room without incident.

But Ichiru was awake.

Zero made a small noise of surprise as the door clicked shut behind him.

Ichiru sat up and gave Zero a swift once over. Zero made to quickly button up his shirt, but then stopped himself. The damage was done, and he was a complete idiot for not buttoning up before. He'd been so bent on getting to his room as fast as possible…

Ichiru's brow rippled. "What happened to you?"

Zero didn't know how to answer.

"Zero?"

Zero walked slowly over to his bed. "I…ran into Kaname."

Ichiru frowned and swung his legs over the side of the bed. He was still for a few moments, then moved with calculating swiftness.

He stood and then Zero felt a fist knock painfully into the side of his head. He blinked, though wasn't half as dazed as he normally would have been, with the blood of a pureblood surging through his body. But Ichiru hitting him stunned him enough, and therefore, he didn't fully register a mouth on his mouth, a tongue swirling over his, licking the insides of his cheeks, tasting.

Before he had the time to protest or go totally berserk, Ichiru had pulled away; there was a keenness in his eyes as he ran a tongue over his lips.

"You bit him."'

Zero's eyes widened, touching his fingers to his lips. "You—"

"I can taste it, Zero," Ichiru said quietly. "I know what pureblood tastes like. There are traces of it everywhere in your mouth."

Zero fully covered his mouth with his hand, looking sickened. "I—"

Ichiru looked at him silently for a moment, and then warm, familiar arms were around his neck, pulling him close.

"Zero, don't be upset," Ichiru whispered. Zero stood, shocked, in his twin's embrace. "I could see your thirst was gone the moment you came in." His arms tightened. "I woke up half an hour ago, and you were gone. I was worried. But you're okay."

Zero shoved Ichiru away, a feeling of horror welling up in his gut. His eyes were wide, wild. "I don't want to be!" he yelled. "I don't want to feel okay because I drank his blood. I don't want to be a monster!"

Ichiru places his hands on either side of Zero's face and drew him close. He rested his forehead against his twin's and closed his eyes, a calm smile on his face. "Don't be upset, Zero. It's okay. I love you however you are."

Zero didn't realize he was crying until he felt Ichiru brushing the tears away.

A/N: Oh, my.

Ew nasty, why did Ichiru have to kiss him to figure out Zero bit him?
Obvsly, that was the funner approach.

A note on the pureblood: I haven't said who is giving Ichiru blood. Secret for now :x but it'll get more obvious later. Well, hopefully, lmao.