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Jade's POV

I woke up with my arms still around her waist, while she had her back to me. I noticed that she had intertwined our fingers together with the hand I had resting on her stomach. I smiled when I heard her snoring ever so lightly.

It was like music to my ears. I didn't dare move, I didn't want to wake her up. I just inhaled her scent, and cherished this precious moment.

It was then I realized that this is what I want. I want to be the one to hold her when she needs someone, I want to be the one to kiss her, protect her, wake up next to her every morning, I want to be the reason for her smile, to be the one who makes her happy.

But what if she doesn't want me?

I squeezed my eyes closed tightly, in an attempt to block out that bitter thought. So far she either hasn't noticed the affection I've been showing her, or she likes it and she's playing dumb because she's done nothing to stop me or insinuate that it bothers her. That thought gives me hope.

She began to stir and I considered pulling my hands away in one swift move before she realized I'd been holding her all night, but I decided to see how she reacts.

I felt her stiffen and then she turned her head to face me. She relaxed when she saw me smiling at her.

"G'morning sleepy head." She chuckled and resumed her previous position of resting against me.

"Hey." Her voice still raspy from her previous state of sleep. I pulled her closer and buried my head in the crook between her neck and shoulder. I felt her lean back into my touch even more.

"Thank you for staying with me." She whispered.

"Stop thanking me Vega, it's the least I can do." She brought her hands to rest on mine around her waist. I turned my hand so that I could take hers in mine. I caressed the back of her hand with my thumb. She let out a heavy sigh.

"Penny for your thoughts?." I whispered in her ear, and felt her shiver slightly.

"Just.. What is this? What are we Jade?." She turned to face me. The question caught me completely off guard. When I didn't answer her gaze dropped. I curled my finger and brought it under her chin and made her look at me.

"Hey.. Look at me. What do you want us to be?." I asked, hope creeping into my voice. I saw her swallow hard at my response.

"I-I don't know, I'm so confused and I have all these mixed feelings and emotions I think I might explode." She began to shake her head.

I took a deep breath it's now or never. "Tori.. are any of those feelings.. for me?."

She closed her eyes and dropped her head down, in what? Shame?. When she finally looked back up, I could see tears in her eyes.

"Do you hate me?." Her voice cracking.

I shake my head vigorously. "What are you talking about Vega? How the hell could anybody ever hate you?. I know I never could. Even when I wanted to, I couldn't." my hand gently reached to caress her cheek.

I lifted her chin forcing her coffee brown eyes to meet mine. My gaze slowly drops to her rosy pink lips. I trace my thumb over her bottom lip, causing her mouth to open slightly.

I lean down and cover her lips with mine. Her lips are so soft, and taste like candy. At first she's motionless, which causes me to worry that I've made a mistake, but then she responds and begins to kiss me back. My heart is doing weird flips of excitement in my chest, not even Beck had that affect over me.

I pulled away cautiously, waiting to see her reaction. She's flushed and breathing like she was running out of air, much like I was.

The tension in the air was so thick you could slice it with a knife. I sit up straight in the bed, rubbing the back of my neck feverishly. She just wore a blank expression on her face, unreadable. I began to internally panic.

what the fuck did I just do? I fucked up, now I'm going to lose her for good. Nice going Jade, you just freaked out the one person who actually stuck around, the one person you truly love.

"I-I'm sorry Tori.. I don't know what came over me, I shouldn't have done tha-." She cuts me off by pressing her lips to mine. She catches me off guard and I fall back on the mattress completely. My hand reaches for the back of her neck, pulling our bodies closer, as hers rests on my cheek.

I lick her lip, requesting access inside her mouth which she grants me almost immediately. I quickly find her tongue and soon our tongues are enveloped in a dance of dominance. It was Tori who broke our connection this time.

Panting. I open my eyes to find her brown irises staring down at me. I absentmindedly smiled at her. A worrisome expression settled on her face, and she backed away from me.

We stay silent for a moment longer.

I don't know what to say, so I settle for, "Are you okay?." While turning my head towards her direction.

"Yeah just.. you know.." she sighs.

I start to get up. "I think I've overstayed my welcome and I'd best be going." She nods, and I have to admit, I'm a little disappointed she doesn't try to stop me. I don't even bother to leave the room as I change back into the clothes I was wearing yesterday.

I knew she was watching me change, I could almost feel her gaze piercing through my skin. When I'm fully clothed, I fold the pajamas Tori had lend me and leave them on the edge of her bed. I silently exit without looking back.

Eight hours later, and I'm sitting in my bedroom watching the Scissoring with a bottle of bourbon in my hand. What happened was a mistake. A big one and I shouldn't have allowed it to happen.

I decided to get Tori out of my mind and since I couldn't do it on my own, I figured a drink, - or scratch that, half a bottle of bourbon would be the perfect solution to my problem.

I felt my phone vibrate next to me. It read 3 text messages from Cat Valentine and 1 unheard voicemail.

I roll my eyes and unlock my phone.

To Jade, from Cat:

Hiiii we're going to karaoke dokie 2nite, wanna come?

I guess you're not coming..

Tori told me what happened, please call me.

I quickly type "Cat I'm fine. I just want to be left alone." I sent off the text and pressed to hear my voicemail.

"Hey umm it's me.. I can't begin to explain how sorry I am for what happened earlier. Especially after everything you did for me. Please call me, I feel so ashamed of my behavior.." I shut my eyes as some tears began to fall from them, at the sound of her voice.

I don't call her back, instead I wrap myself in a cocoon of misery and fall asleep holding my bottle to me chest.

I'm abruptly awakened by the sound of my loud ringtone. I don't bother looking at the caller ID when I answer.

"This better be good." My eyes still shut, not knowing who's voice to expect on the other end of the line.

"J-Jade.. please.." I could hear her sniffing, voice hoarse from crying. My eyes snap open, her voice sobering up any affect the alcohol had on me.

"Tori, what's wrong?." Panic in my voice.

She doesn't answer. At first I think she hung up, then I hear more crying on the other end.

"Tori, hold on, I'm on my way!."

I am so so sorry I didn't update sooner. I really wanted to but I had a bad case of writer's block.. sooo mini cliffhanger? What'd ya think?

Sooo

First Jori kiss! Yayy

What happened to Tori?

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