Hey guys! Thank you for all the reviews on the last chapter, there were loads! This chapter is early! 2 days after I last updated you get a new chapter Ok so here is chapter 13, and for reference in here Darren is Deeks' friend who he took a vacation with to go surfing in the last chapter, just so you know! And plus, just for this story, Kensi has now a good relationship with her mom. Here it is…

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1 week later

Kensi sat staring at her phone, willing it to ring. If it didn't, she honestly did not know what she would do. She needed Deeks, she knew she did. And leaving him there was the biggest mistake of her life, period. She just hoped that he'd understand why, but she could also understand if he didn't call, no one wants a girl who is on then suddenly off, she got that.

"Kensi honey, why don't we go get some lunch in town?" Kensi jumped in surprise from the sound of her mom's voice.

That's where she'd been staying you see, couldn't go back to their apartment obviously, and really didn't want the hassle from Nell, so she chose her mom. She'd been there at the wedding, but didn't push Kensi to tell her why she didn't turn up; just happy Kensi had come to stay with her.

"Not today, mom, I have some things… I need to sort out." Kensi explained, still watching the phone.

"Ok… Kensi, if he doesn't call what are you going to do?" Julia asked her hesitantly. She was surprised when Kensi let out a quiet sob, and bowed her head down. Julia knelt down and put a hand on her daughters shoulder.

"I… I don't know. God. I really don't. He is the only one I can picture myself spending my life with, yet I screwed it all up!" She explained angrily.

"Look Kens. I agree that you two are perfect, and I know you regret leaving him, but it's done now, ok. If he doesn't call go and see him. Don't let him go without a fight." Julia encouraged her daughter. Kensi nodded her head.

"Maybe… we'll see how this goes…" She whispered.

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"Don't call her man. If your not sure if she's going to leave you again, don't do it. You can't spend your whole life wondering whens the next time she'll leave." Darren said, whilst cleaning his surfboard. They were down in the basement of Deeks' apartment, cleaning their boards after a morning on the waves. Deeks kept on glancing over at his phone, every few seconds which was located on a washer.

"I just don't know what to do anymore, Darren… God I love her so much but I just don't know" Deeks sighed, putting the dirty cloth down, and rubbing his hand over his face.

"I know man, I know. Just think about how you feel okay? I'll see you later yeah?" Darren asked, whist picking up his surfboard and making his way toward the entrance.

"Yeah I will, later." Deeks replied, placing his surfboard back in the corner. He picked up his cell and made his way upstairs to his apartment.

It had been an hour. An hour literally spent staring at his phone, wondering what he should do. He didn't know why he was afraid; it was Kensi, his Kensi why should she scare him? He picked up his phone and dialed her number. He tapped his fingers nervously on the arm of the chair, after 3 rings she picked up.

"Deeks?" He heard a voice on the other end ask. He drew in a breath. It had been a week since he had heard her voice, her beautiful voice. He tried to gather some words to say, but nothing was happening.

"Deeks? Please answer me…" Kensi whispered into the phone. On the other end she was sat on the edge of her bed. Her mother had gone into town with friends, as she waited hopefully, praying he would call, and he did.

"Deeks?" Her voice broke this time, a tear sliding down her face at the silence on the phone. He couldn't even talk to her. What had she done? If he weren't going to talk, then she would at least tell him how sorry she was.

"I get it, ok. I'm so sorry for what I did, you have to believe me. I'm not asking for forgiveness all right, not this time. I… I want you to know I will always love you. I was a coward for walking away, I know that…" Kensi took a breath.

"I'm broken okay. I know I am. I'm scared of all of this, but at the same time I don't know what I'm scared of. Find someone Marty, please-" Her voice broke, as she bit back a sob, but carried on.

"Find someone who isn't scared like I am, who isn't broken, find someone who loves you at least half as much as I love you. You deserve that." She whispered her final words.

"Kens-" Deeks croaked, too late. All he could hear was the dial tone blaring in his ear.

He shut his eyes. He didn't have chance. Chance to tell her she isn't broken, she's perfect, that he loves her too. They always had an issue with timing.

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Kensi couldn't stop the sobs from wracking her body. They came in waves. The silence is what killed her the most. The fact that he didn't have even one thing to say to her. She knew she had ruined it, but after all that he still didn't have anything to say? The tears fell from her face, soaking the pillow under her, but she still didn't care. What was she going to do now?

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Deeks unlocked his phone again, after thinking for a few minutes. He quickly re-dialed the last number phoned and waited. It went straight to voicemail.

"Dammit." He cursed. She wasn't answering. After taking another moment to think of what his next move was, he scrolled through his contacts and clicked on the name "Nell."

"Hello?" Nell answered.

"Nell, I need your help." Deeks rushed.

"Sure what can I do for you today?" Nell asked, curious as to what Deeks wanted.

"I need you to trace Kensi's cell, okay." Deeks replied, fiddling with the thread on his white t-shirt.

"Deeks… I don't think that's a good idea. You need to give her space…" Nell told him gently.

"No, you don't understand. I messed things up ok. I don't have time to explain, but please Nell. Just track her phone I need to know where she is." Deeks pleased with the woman. There was silence on the other end of the phone for a couple seconds until Nell replied.

"Ok" She sighed defeated. Deeks could her the tapping away of keys in the background, as he nervously ran a hand through his shaggy hair. The only sound was the clicking of keys until he heard a faint 'ding'.

"She's at her moms house Deeks." Nell informed him.

"Thanks Nell. I owe you one." Deeks assured her, ending the call. He stood up from his leather couch and rushing to the door, making his way to the parking lot.

As his car tires hit the road, he just prayed she was still there and was willing to listen to him.

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Thank you all fro reading! Soooo… I updated much earlier, since I had this chapter pre wrote! Please please please leave a review on your way out they make my day And also please leave a comment as what you would like to happen, here are the options:

Kensi's left.

Kensi is there, listens to Deeks and they make up.

Kensi is there, but rejects Deeks and tells him he's be better off without her.

YOUR IDEA!

Please leave a comment, and I guess majority wins! Thanks again for all your support!:)