Arizona walked into the kitchen after following the smell she had encountered on the stairs. What she saw was not at all what she expected. Callie was on her knees on the floor silently sobbing as she stared blankly at a spot on the floor.
Arizona reacted without thinking. She walked directly over to Callie and engrossed her in a giant hug. "It's OK Cal I've got you. You are alright." She repeated these words over and over until Callie's body finally slowly began to calm.
Callie felt Arizona embrace her body as she sobbed but instead of pushing her away she fell into her arms looking for the safety and warmth that she had found the night before. Callie cried, like really cried for the first time since her husband's death. She sobbed as a multitude of emotions hit her full force.
Callie couldn't move as she sobbed and more to the effect she didn't want to. Arizona was warm, comforting, and familiar. Callie needed all of those things. She needed stability as well though and with Arizona moving out to find her own place Callie knew that she couldn't count on her for that. Slowly Callie was pulled from her fit of sobs as she began thinking more about Arizona than the husband she was sobbing over.
"Never leave" Callie mumbled before having time to process what was coming out of her mouth.
"I'm not going anywhere Cal, I'm right here" came Arizona's soft response.
"No... I mean NEVER leave… don't move out... live here with me. Please… I need… I need you to stay with me. I can't do this.. do this alone."
"Callie" came Arizona's sympathetic voice.
"Please Zona. You don't have to stay forever… just… just a while… just until… until I'm okay… Pleeeeease Zona… Pleeease!" Callie said through tears.
Arizona was stuck… 'What do you say to something like that?' she said to herself. 'I mean it would be nice to not have to look for a place of my own after just getting here… Who am I kidding I want to make sure that Callie is okay… What the hell?'
Arizona's pause made Callie worry that she had made a wrong call in making the request. "I'm sorry… you" sniffling Callie continued "you want a life of your own. Forget I asked… you can um… you can stay as long as you want or you can leave it's… it's fine."
Arizona was confused by Callie's quick change. Callie had been riding an emotional rollercoaster lately which Arizona was she was brought on by a combo of Greg's death and her raging pregnancy hormones. "No Callie… It's not fine. I'm staying… I wont leave until you say you are ready."
"Really?" came Callie's surprised response.
"Really" Arizona answered with a smile.
Callie realized that she was still nestled deep in Arizona's arms and pulled back slightly unsure of how she really got so intertwined with Arizona.
Arizona signed at the loss of contact. Callie looked back at her as she slid away slightly on the floor but didn't put a great amount of distance between them.
"What?" Callie said looking directly into Arizona's eyes as though trying to read them before Arizona answered.
"Nothing" Arizona said averting her eyes from Callie's "I was just warm in that hug."
"We can cuddle after breakfast" came Callie's quick response. "I mean… not cuddle... shit… um… you can get a blanket after breakfast… or you know what I'll get you one now." Callie hopped up and left the room quickly to get a blanket for Arizona.
Arizona watched as Callie left the room to get her a blanket. "I would have enjoyed cuddling" Arizona said quietly to herself not realizing that Callie had heard her before exiting the room.
Callie walked into the living room and opened the linen closet on the far wall pulling out a blanket. She turned and took a deep breath calming herself before beginning her walk back to the kitchen to presumably cook breakfast all over again based on the smell of the air.
Callie knew that she was being needy asking Arizona to stay indefinitely but she couldn't make herself feel bad about it for some reason. She had this feeling in her heart that maybe Arizona didn't want to leave as much as Callie didn't want to watch her go. They needed each other, she could sense that but she wasn't sure why. Callie made a mental note to ask Arizona about it later before walking back into the kitchen to be stopped by the sight before her.
Arizona stood at the stove after discarding all of the burned breakfast back to Callie pouring a new batch of scrambled eggs into the pan. She was swaying her hips to the beat of the latin music that Callie had forgotten she turned on while cooking nearly an hour ago. Callie was stunned by the feelings she was having inside of herself she couldn't put her finger on exactly what she was feeling but she knew that it wasn't just friendship.
Arizona turned around and stared at Callie who appeared to be staring into space for the second time in the last hour. "Cal… Are you sure that you are okay?"
"huh?" came Callie's response as she moved into the kitchen and sat the blanket she had retrieved down on the table before walking over to the stove to help make breakfast.
"Are you okay Cal?" came Arizona's voice again as Callie got closer to the stove.
"yeah… fine" said Callie back smiling.
"I hope that scrambled eggs sound good because that is what I am making" Arizona smiled back.
"That's great thanks" came Callie's response. "I'll grab some plates and set the table."
"Sounds awesome! It's going to be done in about two minutes."
Callie grabbed some plates and finished setting the table just in time as Arizona brought over the scrambled eggs and the rest of the breakfast Callie had cooked that wasn't burnt. Arizona set everything on the table and headed to the fridge for a drink.
"I'm grabbing a glass of orange juice would you like one?" came Arizona's soft voice.
"Sure" Callie answered distractedly. Callie was again watching Arizona move across the room and got lost somewhere between her hair and butt. Stopping on the small of Arizona's back. She caught herself wondering what her hand would feel like nestled against her skin.
Arizona returned to the table again this time with two tall glasses of orange juice one in each hand. She sat one in front of Callie and the other in front of herself.
"So.." Arizona began "what do you want to do today?"
"Nothing… I want to do nothing" Callie said.
Laughing Arizona responded "okay. What does doing nothing entail?"
"Um… I don't know… Not getting into nice clothes… changing back into pajamas actually… and… and laying on the couch watching tv and movies and eating junk food." Callie said with as much confidence as she could muster. She wasn't one to sit around and do nothing she was driven and rarely allowed time in her busy schedule to sit down and watch TV so she was winging it. She had no idea what doing nothing felt like or what it entailed.
"Alright" came Arizona's giggling response. "I'm all in for the changing back into pajamas but I don't know about the junk food… I mean maybe we could go with some healthy snacks too. We have to keep that baby in there healthy after all." Arizona was pointing with her fork at Callie's stomach.
"Sounds fair enough" Callie laughed. "Living with a doctor while pregnant is going to be a trip isn't it?"
"Hey! Remember you are the one who asked me to stay… I can always go if you"
"Stop! You know that's not what I meant Arizona. I'll promise to eat healthy foods if you promise to go get my crazy midnight cravings… when I have them of course, right now all I want to do is lock myself in the bathroom to be closer to the toilet." Callie said laughing at her own little joke.
"Deal!" Arizona said instantly a super magic smile on her face.
Callie and Arizona had finished breakfast quickly and placed all of the dishes into the dishwasher and cleaned the kitchen with ease. They worked together like they had been living together for years and not merely hours.
Both girls headed up the stairs and into their respective rooms to change into some clean pajamas to enjoy their day of doing nothing.
Exiting her room Arizona stopped outside of Callie's door and listened. She just had this feeling that something wasn't right. Arizona knocked gently. "Callie, you okay?" It felt like Arizona had said those words a hundred times since she woke up this morning.
"Yeah, I'm fine" came Callie's response. "If you want you can come in. I am just about done changing, just need to find a shirt."
Arizona opened the door slowly to reveal Callie in a pair of dark purple pajama bottoms and a sports bra. She was looking through her dresser for a shirt to wear with her back turned to Arizona. Finally finding the shirt she was looking for she turned around slowly stopping to take in Arizona's choice of pajamas. Arizona wore a pair of pink sweats that gathered just below her knees and a low cut v neck shirt without a bra. Callie stood stunned… 'How could someone even look pretty wearing pajamas Callie thought to herself. I mean I look like a homeless person in pajamas and Arizona looks radiant.' Callie was in her mind again… talking to herself. 'Maybe I should see someone about that' Callie again thought to herself.
Shaking her head to clear her thoughts Callie looked back at the shirt in her hands and began to place it on her arms and over her head. She was wearing one of Greg's shirts. It smelled like him, God she missed Greg. Greg's shirt was about three sizes too big for Callie but she didn't really care.
Arizona was just as mesmerized as Callie. Looking at Callie Arizona thought to herself. 'I'm not having these feelings for her, she is my best friend… Arizona turn those feelings off be her friend. She needs you to be her friend. God she even makes that oversized t-shirt look good. How is that even possible?'
"Ready?" came Callie's voice breaking Arizona out of her thoughts. Arizona was looking into thin air to the spot where Callie had once stood.
"Umm… Yeah, lets do this!" Arizona said with as much enthusiasm as she could find within herself. She was praying she could hold her thoughts inside and be the best friend Callie needed her to be.
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