CHAPITRE 13
A few weeks later…
Sara's POV
I fell on my knees. Urahara's training was so rough. He was teaching me to fight with my hands in my back. I liked the idea at first, since I was always kidnapped, but now, I regret accepting the offer. We were training the morning, working the afternoon, train the evening or work, depending of the situation, and I always fall fast asleep right as my head touches the pillow.
''Again'' Urahara said as he came closer.
I shook my head in a no. I didn't have the force to speak anymore.
''Sara, the enemy will push you to your limits, now it's not the time to give up''
I looked up, I was angry with him, a lot.
''Are you freaking crazy!'' I shouted. ''I've woke up from a coma and you're first reflex is to push me to my limit!''
''You'll do as I say!'' He screamed back. Usually, we would keep up this act to motivate me, but today I was out of it. I looked down a shed into tears. Kisuke came closer to me and untied my hands. My wrists were burned by the rope and he took out some cream and rubbed my wrists. He kindly stroked my cheek.
''I'm so sorry Sara, I feel like the worst of jerks when I do this to you'' He said as he brushed the hair away from my face. I slowly moved away and smiled.
''No, I accepted and continued. I knew this wouldn't be easy'' I replied I as got up. I whipped my tears in a rough movement as Urahara got up to.
He gave me one of those looks, the one he seemed to be looking at someone else than me. Well, he was looking at me, but the old me.
''Urahara, please, don't look at me that way'' As I said that, he shook his head and concentrate on my eyes.
''Look at you what way?'' He asked innocently.
I rolled my eyes and walked away.
''Never mind'' I dropped. He wouldn't tell me what we had between each other, and each time we touched the subject, he always avoided answering. And for some reason, I always started crying after those moments.
''Sara wait!'' He called back as he grabbed my wrist. I looked at him and waited.
''I'm sorry'' he finally dropped. ''I hate see you this way''
''In what way? You know I am still me even though I lost my memory'' I replied as I freed myself.
''It's not fair of me, I know'' he said as he ran infront of me before I could leave again. ''The one who is living this really hard it's you''
''So why don't you tell me what we shared!'' I screamed. A few heads turned in our direction and Urahara lowered his voice.
''It's not something that I can explain'' he said.
''Well then, leave me alone'' I cut the conversation short. I walked away and Urahara stood there.
I left my division and walked around. Many people stopped to speak to me. I was quite popular actually. But I felt that they were all not at ease when they spoke to me. When will someone treat me as myself?
''Hoy Sara-Chan!'' Called a voice. I turned around and saw Yoruichi running towards me.
I stopped and waited for her to get at my height.
''I just dropped to see you and Kisuke and he told me that you were quite down lately'' she said worried. I sighed.
''He is the one being down, and I am just annoyed'' I said.
''What do you mean?'' She asked surprised. I looked around and, again, a few heads were turned towards us. What was everyone's problem?
''Can we speak of this in private?'' I asked. I was more begging than asking but she accepted. She brought me to the second division and she sat on her throne. She poured me a glass of sake and I drank it in one trait.
''So what's wrong?'' She asked me with a smile as she poured me a second glass.
''I don't know, I'm confused.'' I confessed. ''When Urahara looks at me, I have the feeling that I am not the one he is looking at''
I drank the other glass and she filled it up.
''I'm sensing that he looks for the old me, but memory or not, I am still me, right?''
She sighed.
''I must say that you two were very close and that you've forgotten everything must be painful'' she said to defend him.
''Well why won't he tell me everything?'' I replied a bit angry after drinking my third glass of Sake. ''Kyouraku told me that we used to go out and all, but why doesn't Urahara tell me what we shared?''
''Listen, take it from his childhood friend, there is so much going on in his head that you don't want to know what's going on in there'' she said as she drank her first glass. ''But he probably wants you to be happy, that's for sure''
''Well he isn't doing a good job'' I said as I continued drinking.
''Tell me, do you have feelings for him?'' she asked with a smirk. I poured myself my fourth glass and took a sip.
''I don't know, I'm confused'' I said in a lower voice. ''When I woke up, I was completely out of it, I had no idea where I was''
I paused and tried to find my words.
''When I saw Urahara sleeping beside of me, I felt protected, and that's how I think we used to share something important''
She smiled. ''Go on'' she demanded.
''And each time I see him, I have all these confused feelings, most of them are positive, but I fell a deep emptiness''
I felt tears run up my eyes.
''And I am fully aware that he is hurting but I can't do anything to heal him form the pain I'm causing him!''
''Sara…'' She whispered my name softly as she came closer to me.
''I am so afraid that I will never gain my memory back'' I let go before shedding into tears.
She pulled me into a hug and held me tight.
''Sara, you need to be more confident, just be yourself when you are near him'' she whispered as she rocked me like a child.
''But I don't even remember who I am'' I said as I moved away. ''I realized today that my favourite color was purple and I didn't find out what's my favourite dish!''
She stared at me, not knowing what to answer. I finished my glass and got up.
''I'll walk it off'' I said as I turned away.
As I got out of the second division, I bumped into someone with brown hair and thick black glasses.
''Oh, Tsukiyumi-san, I am very sorry!'' He apologized. I looked at his left arm and saw his division plaque. He was higher ranked than I was. I bowed slowly.
''No I should be the one to apologize'' I said, but I slightly lost balance and he caught me before I could touch the ground.
''Tsukiyumi, you smell like alcohol'' he said with a sigh. ''Let me walk you home''
''What a kind gentleman'' I said with a smile.
''Oh, you must have forgotten me, my name is Aizen Sosuke, I'm the fukutaicho of the fifth division'' he present himself.
''Yoroshiku onegai shimasu'' I said. (It means pleased to meet you)
I took his arm and walked with him. But for a reason, my gut was telling me to walk away, but I was too drunk to listen to it. He brought me to my division and let me at the front gate.
''Thank you Aizen, you are very sweet'' I said as I let go of his arm. But he grabbed my hand and gently pulled me to his chest.
''Sara, I know you don't remember me, but I wanted you to know that I love you'' he confessed. I looked at him obviously surprised and my gut told me to get away and now. But he kissed me on the lips. I tried to move away, but he held me there. My heart panicked and tripled the speed. I remembered that I hated this guy. I managed to push him away and slap him across the face when my division's gate opened. I turned to see a very surprised Kisuke.
''What are you doing to my third officer Aizen?'' he said as he pulled on my arm.
''Just taking the price for walking her home when she is completely drunk'' he answered with a smirk.
''You were going to take advantage of her!'' asked Urahara on a very strict tone.
''Soon, she will give herself willingly to me'' he said before walking away.
Kisuke POV
''Soon, she will give herself willingly to me'' he said before walking away.
My fists rolled up in a ball and my anger fell Sara pulled on my sleeve. Her cheeks were red and she smelled like alcohol. I sighed and pulled her inside. I brought her to her room and lay her down on her bed.
''Sara, you should be more careful'' I said as I put her blankets over her. I sat next to her and looked at her deeply.
''Why are you so worried about me?'' She asked as she sat up.
I sighed and looked away.
''I've once sent you on a delivery, and in the end, you almost got killed'' I decided to confess.
''Why won't you tell me these things?'' She asked on a calm tone.
''Because that time, I was the one who barely killed you'' I dropped as I got up. I was about to leave but Sara caught my hand.
''Please, don't leave me'' She begged. I turned around quickly and realized that she was crying. I got on my knees and took her in my arms.
''I can't bear to be far from you Taicho, it hurts'' She manage to say. I pulled her closer.
''I'm not going anywhere'' I said to reassure her. I lay down on her futon pulling her with me. I caressed her head as she calmed down until she fell asleep. The sun was already down and it was kind of chilly. She shivered and snuggled onto me. She was so cute. Two months ago, she would never let me sleep in her bed. Someone stopped infront of the door and I heard Yoruichi's chuckle.
''Well well, what do we have here?'' she asked as she came in the room.
''Can you stop laughing and help me here? I don't want to wake her'' I said with a smile. She came closer and together we free me from Sara's grasps.
''So what are you doing here?'' I asked her.
''She left my division a bit too drunk, so I came to check on her'' she said with a smirk. ''But I didn't expect to find her in such good care''
I sighed.
''I saw her slap Aizen across the face, to be honest, I never want to see him near Sara ever again''
Her jaw fell.
''What? Why did she slap him?'' She asked a bit too loud. Sara grumbled something in her sleep but didn't wake up. Yoruichi lowered her voice.
''Why did she slap him?'' She asked again.
''He forced her to kiss him on what I understood'' I said with a sigh.
''But why don't you want him to come close to her ever again? She took care of herself''
''to quote what he said: 'Soon, she will give herself willingly to me' ''
''Well, that's creepy'' she said as she crossed her arms. ''But Shinji has a good eye on him, he won't be a problem anymore''
She had a smirk. I questioned her with my eyes.
''I've came across Shinji earlier, he was going nuts since he lost his fukutaicho of sight''
She lost her smirk.
''I guess he doesn't trust him either'' she said. She looked at Sara sleep for a few seconds before sighing.
''And I need to speak to you about Sara, but we should talk somewhere else.'' She said as she walked out. I sighed before kissing my third seat on her forehead. I got up and looked at her sleeping face before leaving the room. I followed Yoruichi to my own room that was across from Sara's and I closed the door behind me.
''What do you want to talk about?'' I asked as I sat down on my futon.
''Sara came by earlier and you should be more considerate'' She scolded me.
''What do you want me to do! She lost her memories, she forgotten everything about me!'' I shouted as I got back up.
''Make her fall in love with you all over again!'' She cut firmly.
''But she never will love me as I love her!'' I strike back. Yoruichi gave me a hard look before kissing me. I didn't move or kiss back. She walked away.
''Now tell me, which of our kisses or more passionate, Sara's or mine?''
''Your no match for Sara'' I said as I sat back down. ''No one ever kissed me like she did''
I stayed silent for a moment and sighed.
''Besides, our relationship is different than before'' I said getting discouraged. ''If she liked me then, it is too late now…''
''I can't believe it'' Said another voice. I turned around to see that Kyouraku had walked into the room. ''You are maybe the brightest man in the soul society but you are the stupidest''
''For once, I agree with you Shunsui'' Said Yoruichi with a nod. I ignore them both.
''What are you doing here Kyouraku?'' I asked very annoyed now.
''I came to visit you silly!'' He said sarcastically.
''Oh yeah, we are Thursday'' I grumbled. Each Thursday, Kyouraku would have dinner with Sara. They started this ever since Sara woke up from her coma a month ago... ''She is already asleep'' I said.
''I know, I just been there until I heard you two argue'' he said with a smirk. ''You know, you were the one who told me that it was a waste of time to try to go out with Sara since she'll probably break up with me all over again''
''And what's your point?'' I asked, a bit impatient.
''That if you are meant to be, she will come around'' he said with a smile. Before I could reply, he turned and left the room.
''Wow, talking about random'' Yoruichi said with a smile. She turned to me and became serious again. ''But he does have a point''
''Cut me some slack Yoruichi, I get it, I am an idiot, can you please leave now?'' I begged her. She shook her head and left. I fell in my pillows. Why was everyone siding against me? I covered my eyes with my arm and thought about it. What Yoruichi said wasn't crazy. Maybe I should make her fall for me all over again. Come to think of it, she probably liked me then since we kissed so passionately so many times.
The door of my room opened and a sleepy Sara appeared. I sat up.
''Sara, is there something wrong?'' I asked.
She didn't answer and walk towards me. She got on her knees and looked at me right in the eye. I soon realized that she was sleep-walking. I sighed and took her hands to put her back in bed when she spoke.
''Why Urahara-san?'' she asked. I stopped my movement. ''Why was I assigned to the mission?''
My eyes widen as she started crying.
''I was too careless, they died under my orders'' she managed to say. ''You shouldn't have saved me, I should have died back then''
I understood what she meant; she was talking about the murderers from the Rukongai. The funniest thing was that she was still sleeping. I took her face between my hands and she looked up at me. I opened my mouth to speak but she cut me off.
''Taicho?'' She looked around her. ''What am I doing in your room?'' She got up and before she could panic; I caught her hand. She looked at me surprised.
''You were sleep-walking'' I said with a smile.
She stared at me before sitting down again.
''The dream!'' She exclaimed. ''I had this crazy dream, and you were in it!'' She looked down trying to remember her dream. ''I was a leader of a mission; we needed to stop the murders in Rukongai and we got-''
She paused and held her head. She let out a grunt of pain.
''Sara, don't force yourself'' I said as I took her face between my hands again.
''Back then you still called me Tsukiyumi-san'' she said as she dropped her arms from her head. ''Urahara-Taicho, please, did this really happened?'' She asked.
I sighed and nodded.
''It happened a year ago, so don't feel guilty or anything'' I said as I caressed her cheek.
''But they died!'' She protested. She was about to cry again but I didn't let her.
''And I almost got you killed more than once and yet you asked me not to feel guilty, I am sure that those men would have asked the same thing''
She took a deep breath and looked at me straight in the eye.
''Is there something's I need to know Urahara-san?'' she asked as her face came closer to mine.
I sighed and got up.
''Sara, you have a year to catch up, I don't know what to tell you'' I said as a rubbed the back of my head. I looked outside and sighed. ''You should get some sleep''
She looked at me and got up after a moment. She stopped beside of me.
''I get it'' she dropped. ''I won't disturb you more with this, I am very sorry Taicho'' she finished with a bow. I looked at her surprised, but before I could replied, she ran away. I punched in a wall. Why was everything needed to be complicated with her? Couldn't I have a normal relationship with her?
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