Christmas Eve…

Kisuke POV

I was waiting at my division's gate like the year before as I waited my three subordinates. Sara hasn't really spoken to me out of training since her first memory came back. Yoruichi was pushing me to act, but when I wanted to invite her out or something, she'd never let me finish my sentence and needed to go somewhere. Like the year before, it was Mayuri that arrived first and Hiyori second. This year, my fukutaicho was wearing a blue dress.

''Blue is a pretty color on you Hiyori-san'' I complimented her. She didn't answer and looked away. When I looked up, I saw Sara in a long black Kimono. In the front, the kimono was showing her perfect legs under a transparent dark purple tissue underneath the black one. And there was a red bow that held it all in place. Her hair was loose save for a lock tied in the red ribbon I gave her. She looked more adult from usual, more desirable. Most of my men were following her, I wasn't the only one finding her heart breaking. She barely looked at me and smiled to her superior.

''Hiyori-san, you are very lovely'' she said with a smile. My fukutaicho crossed her arms.

''Hmph! That came from the one who is giving a show'' she said as she pointed the men behind my third officer. Sara looked behind her and my men tried to hide behind something but Sara only chuckled and waved at them. When she turned back, she dared to look at me. I smiled at her.

''You are beautiful'' I whispered loud enough for only her to hear. A blush grew on her cheeks and we all left for the first division. When we came across Kyouraku, his eyes widen and give a gentle kiss on the back of my third officer's hand.

''What pleasure that we, Shinigami, to have an Angel to visit us?'' He said with a kind smile.

Sara only giggled and took back her hand.

''If angels do exist, I seriously doubt they will come to see a pervert as you'' She said with a beautiful smile.

''That's harsh Sara-Chan'' Kyouraku replied as he put his hands on his heart as if it really hurt. Then, he turned his eyes on me and came closer, completely amazed.

''Ki-Kisuke, I never realized how handsome you were, you took my breath away'' he said. I tried to move away, surprised, but he took me by the waist and pulled me closer.

''This is wrong in so many ways'' Said Lisa beside of her Taicho.

''A complete freak-show'' Agreed Hiyori.

''I'm not quite sure if I want to study this phenomenon'' chained Mayuri.

I looked at Sara and begged for her help with my eyes. She only smiled and chained with the others:

''So this must be why it never worked out between me and Kyouraku'' She shook her head and turned around. Shunsui smiled and I pushed him away. I rushed to Sara's side thinking that she was upset.

''Aww, Kisuke, don't be like that!'' Said Kyouraku as he ran to catch up with us. I heard Sara laugh and I understood that the captain of the eighth division was only acting to make her laugh.

We finally arrived at the first division quarters and we were the last one there. Genryusai got on his stage and opened the party. The music started and some went on the dance floor. I looked at Sara who was still beside of me. She was staring at the people dancing. She seemed to want to join them. I turned to her to ask her to dance, but she was already walking towards the buffet.

Sara POV

I just stood there, amazed. Seeing everyone on their 31 was something. For once, no one was a captain or vice-captain. They were themselves. I looked around and spotted the buffet. Yum! I haven't eaten today; it took forever to get prepared. I took a sandwich and practically devoured it.

''You should take the time to masticate your food or you'll chock'' Said a voice behind me. I froze when I saw Aizen. I remembered clearly when he kissed me. He walked forwards and I walked back. He rushed to grab my hand and pulled me to the dance floor. I wanted to move away but he pulled me closer.

''You don't want to make a scene now do you?'' he threaten me in my ear. I looked around and bit my lower lip. I couldn't see Urahara anywhere; knowing him, he will take me away from this freak. His arm snaked around my waist and pulled me really close before he started to dance.

''Smile a little, you are making me look bad'' he whispered. I sighed and calmed down, but didn't smile.

''What do you want from me?'' I asked as I gave him a really fake smile.

''I want you wholly my dear'' he answered as he lowered his hand.

I place his hand back on my waist before he could touch my bum. I gave him a warning look.

''I will never give myself to you'' I dropped seriously.

''I'm pretty sure that you don't have a choice'' he said. He turned his head to the right and I saw Kisuke staring at us. My heart pinched.

''With my power, and can make him believe anything.'' He said with a smirk. ''And if you dare tell anything to someone, I will have him killed''

My heart stopped and before I could panic, he took a firm grip to my waist until it hurt.

''Don't worry, nothing will happen to him if you keep your mouth shut'' he said as he let me go.

Kisuke POV

When Sara walked away I leaned against the wall and look at everyone having a good time. I wasn't in the mood to have some fun. I shouldn't have come… I sighed and was about to walk to the door when I saw Aizen dancing with my third seat. My heart pinched as she smiled. Maybe I was wrong… Maybe she did like him. God, what an idiot! They both looked at me as they spoke. I shook my head and looked down.

''What's with the long face?'' Asked Yoruichi beside of me.

''Aizen was probably right, maybe that Sara will give herself completely to him…'' I said.

''What make you say that?'' She asked obviously surprised.

I pointed them. She sighed.

''Well that's a bummer, I really thought she liked you'' She said.

I looked at her voiceless.

''Well she was snuggling on you last time'' She said before walking away. I looked at her walking away when Sara's voice brought me back to the present.

''Taicho?''

I looked at her. She seemed very worried. I smiled to her to reassure her.

''It's a bit to suffocating in here, you want to go outside?'' She asked me with a smile. I nodded and we both went to the garden. We stopped beside of the fountain and she looked up to the sky.

''It's a beautiful night, don't you think'' She said as she looked at me.

I sighed and looked at the sky.

''Sara, I need to tell you something''

She seemed surprised by the serious ton I used. I came closer to her and sat her down on a nearby bench.

''Is there something wrong Taicho?'' She asked a bit worried.

''I need to come clean'' I dropped. ''Last Christmas, I made you go through Hell, and it is not fair that I keep hiding this from you''

So I told her everything about Kal and Irisashi. I even told her that Kenpachi sent me to the hospital and that's when they finally decided to use me…

''How did I survive?'' she asked after I made a long pause. I scoffed and looked at the sky before bringing my eyes on her again.

''You kissed me'' I dropped with a smirk.

She blushed to the answer and got up. She turned around, opened her mouth and closed it a few times before walking away. I smiled and rushed after her. I caught her hand at the fountain and forced her to turn towards me.

''Whoa, don't run away from me'' I said. Her face was still red and she looked down.

''I can't believe I don't remember that…'' She whispered. She had an adorable shy smile as she looked back up.

''But thank you to tell me this'' She said as she brushed her hair behind her ear.

We stared at each other until someone giggled beside of us. We looked at Yoruichi at our right and soon realized that many people were surrounding us.

''Look everyone! Urahara-Taicho and Tsukiyumi-san are under mistletoe!'' Said Mashiro, vice-captain of the ninth division.

We looked up and saw a mistletoe tied to a branch that Kyouraku was holding.

''Wait! No! You are cheating Kyouraku-Taicho!'' Sara screamed at him as she tried to walk away. But Mashiro pushed her in my arms as Yoruichi held me there.

''Cheating or not, you must kiss'' Said Yoruichi with a grin.

''On the lips'' chained Mashiro.

Sara POV

I blushed a hundred shades of red and look at my feet. Urahara put a finger under my chin forcing me to look into his eyes.

''I won't kiss you if you don't want me to'' he whispered kindly. I sighed and smiled.

''It's only a game after all'' I dropped.

I watch him come closer to my face. It was taking forever. My heart was racing, something was just ready to burse. I felt his hot breath on my face when I was holding mine. We stared at each other for a few seconds before I closed the distance. He didn't waste any time before deepening the kiss. It was like our lives were depending on this kiss. His tongue crossed my lips and danced in my mouth. He was really good at this. It seemed that nothing existed, that we were alone on our cloud, but what seemed eternal took a few seconds to end. We slowly opened our eyes and smiled to each other before breaking apart.

''Whoa, that was one amazing kiss'' Said Shinji his eyes wide open.

I saw Shunsui with a smirk before he ran to Kisuke.

''Now that you are free, it's our turn!'' he said as he put the mistletoe above his own head. Urahara's eyes widen and he walked back. Lisa, who just came outside, got caught by Mashiro and pushed on her Taicho. Kyouraku took his fukutaicho by the waist.

''Lisa-Chan, I never thought you liked me this way'' he said before kissing her.

We all laugh when Lisa slapped him. Ukitake stopped beside of me and sighed.

''Everyone is losing it'' he said with a smile.

''I must agree'' I said with a chuckle.

''But you know, Shunsui acts this way to make you smile'' he said. I looked at him a bit surprised. ''You've been down since you lost your memory, but he tries hard to make you feel apart'' I looked at Shunsui who was still goofing around and smiled.

''He is a kind hearted man… It's a shame he is such a lady's man'' I said with a chuckle. ''But everyone has their flaws, right?''

He smiled and walk towards his friend. He stopped and looked at me over his shoulder.

''You know, you should become a captain, you'll be perfect for the job'' he said before leaving.

He left me there speechless. Me? Become a captain? I could barely take care of myself!

''Everyone, if you can all come inside, we'll have a vote for this year Ice Queen and the Ice King!'' Said Love Aikawa captain of the seventh division.

''Ice King?'' repeated Kisuke who just appeared next to me. ''That's new''

We walked inside and looked at Genryusai. He had two boxes on each side of him.

''This year, I will pick two names and the couple will dance infront of everyone and we will vote for the ice couple'' he explained. So the couple is completely random? ''But since we are more boys than girls, I add a few woman from my division''

A dozen girls came in the room. They were all dressed with the same red dress. They seemed more like clones.

''First couple'' he called as he put his hands in the boxes. He took out two piece to paper. ''Kensei and Lisa''

So it went on like that. The couples were:

Love and Soi Fon, Yoruichi and Ukitake, Shunsui and Mashiro, Kuchiki and Unohana, Kisuke with a clone, Shuhei and I, Shinji and Hiyori, Rose, Seinosuke, Aizen and the others were with clones. Mayuri refused to participate and left.

Everyone voted for Shinji and Hiyori since their performance was hilarious. It almost ended up in a fight but Yamamoto stopped them before they could. And the party ended. It was almost morning. It was still dark outside though, but I had some fun.

''I can't believe you all vote for me and the idiot Shinji'' muttered Hiyori, not very pleased.

''You shouldn't speak of other captains that way, your Highness'' said Kisuke with a chuckle. That cost him a kick in the face.

''You are the worst of idiots!'' She screamed as she ran away.

''Hiyori-Chan!'' I called her back. But it was completely useless. I turned to my Taicho who was getting up.

''You are completely hopeless, no wonder she keeps beating you up'' I said with a sigh.

''I guess that even you lost your memory, I'm not safe from being scold?'' He said with a smile. ''I guess I should clean up my office before you walk in then''

I smiled. Yeah, that sounded like something I would do.

We walked side by side in silence until we finally arrived infront of my room. I silently wished for him to kiss me again. He seemed to have read my thoughts because he didn't left to his own room. He turned around and leaned against the wall.

''Did I told you that you were beautiful?'' he asked as he eyes tendered on me.

''I think so, but I don't really remember'' I answered with a smile. He sighed and came closer to me.

''You are beautiful'' he said with a kind smile. I smiled and had a smirk.

''Are you trying to seduce me Urahara Kisuke?'' I asked as my smile grew.

''I will never force you into anything Sara'' he said as he turned around. My heart raced. Wait, that's it? I rushed to grab his captain's cloak and as he turned around, I kissed him.

He pushed me away and looked at me very surprised.

''I think you've drank too much tonight'' he said before trying to turn away. But I caught his wrist and forced him to look at me.

''Please, Taicho, I'm begging you, I need to know''

He sighed and smiled.

''What?''

''I need to remember that kiss'' I said. He stared at me and came closer. ''The one I gave you when you wanted to kill me''

''Sara, I-''

''Please Urahara, let me have this'' I begged. He rubbed his head and sighed.

''I'm afraid that if I start, I won't able to stop like last time'' he admitted as he came closer.

''In that case, don't let it stop'' I said as I got on the tip of my toes. He didn't waste a second and kiss me.

He opened the door and pushed me in. He broke the kiss and closed and locked the door. He turned around and caught me by the waist. He looked at me for a second before crashing his lips on mine again. I was completely blown away. As I suspected, breaches of my memory came back. I saw myself kissing Urahara in the woods. He licked my lips begging for an entrance, that I granted. He pulled me in the air and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He pushed me in the wall and took firm grip on my legs. I remembered when he attacked me in the backyard in the first division. He kissed down my jaw line and worked to find my sweet spot. When I woke up, I was tied to a chair and he was conscious. He apologized for what he had done to me, that he was prisoner of his own body. I let out a small moan when I realized why they used my own Taicho against me. I loved him. It was the best way for them to make me pay. I felt tears come up my eyes. It's true, I loved him so very much but it was impossible that he could return my feelings.

To prove it, he stopped kissing me. He put me down and he turned around.

''I'm sorry Sara, I can't do this'' he said. I didn't answer and fell on my knees. ''It's just, you are not… you are not like…''

He stopped talking before walking out of the room. I stared at the door for a moment before burying my face in my hands. I cried every tear I had in stock. I knew it. He probably was going to say that I wasn't like her… I couldn't help my heart who was screaming out of jealousy. I felt my stomach twist and I screamed out of pain. I felt electricity flow in my body. Kisuke told me about my condition and if this would happen, I needed to fetch him right away. But as I got up, another discharge ran through my body and I fell back on my knees spitting a lot of blood.

''Urahara-Taicho!'' I called weakly. I didn't hear an answer so I screamed his name; but no one came. I couldn't handle the pain, I screamed. Someone opened the door of my room. It wasn't someone I knew. He looked at me terrified and told me that he would go fetch Urahara-Taicho. It took a minute before my Taicho came running in the room. As he came closer to me, another discharge attack him. I was angry with him; so bad that I wanted him to pay for what I was feeling.

''Sara, you need to calm down!'' He said as he ignored the pain.

Yeah right, I'm getting electrocuted and I needed to calm down. He made another step and another discharge attacked him.

''Please Sara, you are the one controlling this, let me pass'' he begged.

Kisuke POV

As I kissed her, I wanted her so bad to remember everything. I wanted her to be the same as before. But body felt so familiar, but she seemed so distant. It was so unfair to force this new Sara into what old Sara would gladly do. They weren't the same person anymore. I knew that Sara's memories were coming back slowly depending on the events… I couldn't force her memory back, I knew that. So I broke the kiss and let her down before I could completely lose control of myself.

''I'm sorry Sara, I can't do this'' I said. She didn't answer and fell on her knees. I turned around and walked to the door. ''It's just, you are not… you are not like…''

I couldn't finish. So I left her like that. I closed the door behind me and heard my third officer cry. My heart pinched. I had no choice; I couldn't do anything about her condition. I needed to wait. I crossed the garden and went into my room. I looked around and looked at my futon. I didn't felt like sleeping, but if I don't, Sara will be angry with me again. I left my room and walked towards the lab. I saw one of my officers who seemed panicked. He ran towards me and took a second to catch his breath.

''Taicho-'' he panted. ''Tsukiyumi-san…''

My eyes widen, I ran to Sara's room and rushed in. I saw her on the floor holding her stomach. She looked up and an electric discharge attacked me. I bit my lower lip to hold in the pain and realized that she coughed up blood.

''Sara, you need to calm down'' I ordered. Last time it happened, she was angry or something. Damn! I was the one causing her pain! I tried to walk forward, but she didn't let me.

''Please Sara, you are the one controlling this, let me pass'' I begged. People started to gather around the room as she screamed out of pain.

''Is she going to die Taicho?'' Someone asked behind me. My fists rolled up in a ball.

''Not if I can help it!'' I said before rushing to her. When I took her in my arms, she tried to push me away but she coughed dangerously hard. Blood came out of her mouth and stained my captain's cloak, but I didn't mind. Her body was very humid; she probably had a high fever. I took a good grip of her and rushed to the fourth division. It's not true that I would watch her die. She kept coughing and she took a firm grip on my uniform.

''Am I going to die Taicho?' She asked suddenly. I slowed down and held her close to my chest. I smelled to nice perfume of her hair.

''Not under my watch'' I said. ''I'll never let you die Sara, even though things between us isn't the same as before but-''

She coughed again and I sighed. This isn't the time to come clean about my feelings towards her. She was half conscious and I knew she was forcing herself to stay awake. I stopped infront the fourth division's gate.

''This is Captain Urahara, I need to treat Tsukiyumi Sara right away!'' I screamed. The door opened and Unohana appeared with a tray. I put my third seat on it and we went into the hospital. I ran with them and held her hand. We were about to go in the operation's room, but Unohana stopped me.

''Sorry Kisuke, but you need to stay here'' she said.

''But that's my officer in there and-'' I started but she sat me on a chair; and I was surprise by the force she did it too.

''You'll only be in our way, I'll save her life and you will stay here kindly'' she said. She was very persuasive; I nod my head docile and watch her rush into the operation's room. I heard Sara scream out of pain again. I let my head drop in my hands and ask myself for the thousand times; why? Why her? She isn't important or anything, but why is she the only Shinigami living this hell? I couldn't take her sword away. All I could do was watch and bring her to the hospital. I sighed and waited. I waited for an hour before Sara stopped screaming. A lot of curious healers came to see who was screaming like that on Christmas but didn't ask.

Half an hour later, Unohana came out. She smiled kindly and moved away from the door. I slowly got up and she nodded. I rushed to my third seat's side. She had a mask on her mouth and nose to help her to breath. I came closer to her and gently brushed her hair away from her face. I hated to see her like this. If I could, I would take her place anytime.

''Urahara-san'' Whispered Sara weakly. I looked in her eyes to see that she was looking at me.

''I'm here Sara'' I said as I caught the hand she was handing.

''It's not your fault'' She said with a sad smile. ''You couldn't know that she was an intruder''

My eyes widen; how did she-?

''Yoruichi told me that the reason you were always in your office was because you let pass an intruder in our division and she almost killed one of your subordinates''

We looked at each other longly and she took off her mask to cough loudly. Once calmed down, she looked back up to me.

''The funny thing is; it was what it took for me to call you by your name'' She dropped with a smile.

I opened my mouth to reply but the door opened.

''Kisuke, you should let her rest'' Said Unohana. I slowly nodded and kissed the back of Sara's hand.

''We will continue this conversation once you are released'' I said before putting her mask back on. She nodded and closed her eyes. I walked to Unohana and closed the door behind me. She looked at me kindly. I felt her eyes read my soul.

''You really do care about her, don't you?'' She said with a complicit smile. I lost my smile and sighed heavily.

''Why is she the one to live this hell?'' I asked. I didn't expect an answer but I got one.

''She is promise to an extraordinary destiny'' she explained. ''The ones who had Xion weren't anyone, but she is the first to have come this far'' She looked for a reaction. ''Don't they speak of this in school?'' She asked.

I tried to remember what she was talking about and remembered an old story.

''Wasn't it only fiction?''

She smiled.

''You tell me; you are the closest person to her'' She said as she gave me a pile of paper. ''This is paper of diagnosis that I want you to fill up every day, so we can keep track on our dear Tsukiyumi Sara''