100 years ago…
Sara's POV
A few years have passed and all my memory came back. I still needed to do those stupid tests every day, but it was now a routine. Kisuke and I became closer because of that, we would pass hours together, working on whatever after the tests. I was now coming back from a mission passed in the real world. I passed a month without the tests and I felt great. I missed Kisuke though but it felt like a holiday. I walked towards my division as I enjoyed the feeling of 'home sweet home' when I bumped into Aizen.
''Oh there is my beautiful Tsukiyumi-san'' He said as he tried to take me in his arms.
''Leave me alone Aizen'' I snapped as I walked back.
''Oh dear, that is not a way to speak to a superior'' he said as he brushed my hair behind my ear. I stayed perfectly still. I hated his touch. The month far away from him was releasing. But I couldn't do or say anything about this, I was afraid of what he could do. Last time, he slipped that Arashi Cho was working for him. He moved towards me and I walked back, but my back hit the wall. His face got closer to mine and I knew that he was about to kiss me. But as he brushed his lips on mine, I turned my head.
''I need to report to my captain'' I dropped. He sighed and walked back. I used that opportunity to walk away, but he caught my wrist.
''He will break your heart'' he whispered in my ear before letting me go away. It took all my will to not run away. I walked in my division and take the route to my room but bumped into Kisuke.
''Hey there, it has been a while!'' he said as he stopped me. I didn't answer, I tried to take a hold of myself, but he saw that something was off.
''What's wrong?'' he said as he took my face between his hands. I forced myself to smile.
''It's nothing, nothing at all'' I lied.
''Sara, do I need to follow you from now on?'' he warned me. I remembered our promise a few years back. My eyes filled up with tears against my will. I tried to push him away but he held me there.
''Please, Taicho, don't make me say it, I'm begging you'' I said as I tried to push him away again. This time, he let me go and sighed.
''Tell me that you are feeling okay'' He said as he scratch the top of his head.
''I'm feeling fine, I promise'' I answered as I whipped the tears from my eyes.
''Good then, come to the lab later on'' He said as he walked pass me. I nodded and was about to walked away.
''Oh, and if Aizen make you cry again, I'll take care of him myself'' He let go turning the corner. My eyes widen; how did he know? This time I ran to my room and closed the door. My heart was pounding. He knew, he knew about Aizen! This was bad, if Aizen comes to learn that Urahara knew about this, Kami knows what he will do.
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''Come on Sara, have a little faith'' I encouraged myself. I opened the door of my room to join Kisuke at the lab, but an angry Sosuke was infront of it. I opened my mouth to scream but he put his hand on my mouth. He gave me a grin before pushing me on the floor of my room. He closed the door behind him and bounced. He pinned me to the floor and his face came dangerously close to mine. I tried to move, but I was completely powerless. The step between fukutaicho and lieutenant was high. He kissed me and nipped my ear.
''I thought I warned you on telling your Taicho'' he said.
''I didn't say anything!'' I defended myself. ''Urahara is a brilliant man, he can see right through you''
''Is that so?'' He mocked. ''Anyhow, he won't see this coming''
He unknotted my uniform's slash. He opened my uniform and grabbed my breast. I opened my mouth to scream, but I couldn't; not a sound wanted to come out. He took off my pants and ripped off my panties. The only I could do was to cry as he forced my legs open. I closed my eyes and felt something shake me. When I opened my eyes, I saw Yoruichi there.
''Sara! Snap out of it!'' She was finishing saying. I looked around, so very lost.
''Wh-what happened?'' I asked.
''I came to see you, and here I find you all twisted on yourself'' She explained as she helped me up. I looked at myself; I had all my clothes on. So all of that was an illusion? I rubbed my face and cried as laughed out of relief. But I knew so well that Aizen was behind my hallucination. I looked at my friend and whipped my tears.
''I guess I was exhausted from my mission and had a bad dream'' I said with a smile.
She looked at me very unsure.
''What the hell you were dreaming about!'' She exclaimed.
''I don't remember'' I lied with a laugh. ''It wasn't pleasant that's for sure''
''Well bad dream or not, I want to celebrate your first mission back from the real world'' She said with a smile. She pulled me up and wrapped her arm around my shoulders.
A few days later…
Kisuke POV
I was in the lab, it was late at night and I was the last one left, as usual. I heard the door opened behind me and I sighed loudly.
''You are still up Sara-Chan?'' I said without even turn to see who it was.
I heard her chuckle.
''I brought you tea'' She dropped as she put a cup beside of me. I looked at her and pulled a chair beside of me. When she sat down; I looked at her longly.
''You are still having nightmares?'' I asked after taking a sip of her tea. Her eyes widen and it was my turn to slip a chuckle.
''Don't act so surprised, you can't hide anything from me, you know that''
She lost her smile and looked down.
''I'm too afraid to go to sleep: I only fall from exhaustion'' She confessed with a nervous laugh. I saw tears come up to her eyes. I came closer to her and put my hand on hers. I didn't say anything; I made her feel that I was all ears.
''Ever since I came back from earth, I've been having these dreams where I am-'' She took her hands to bury her face in them. ''Where I am touched, night over night in ways you can't even imagine''
My eyes widen, I was horrified. I just knew that it was Aizen who was behind all this. I needed to stop him, and anyway I just knew that he was….
I got up and pulled my third seat in my arms. She let her tears run freely on her cheeks as she cried. We stayed liked that until she stopped crying, but I didn't let go just yet. I looked outside; it was now spring and the cherry blossoms were in full bloom. I took her face in my hands and whipped her tears for her. She gave me a shy smile as she brought her hands on mine. I gently kissed her forehead and knotted my fingers with hers to pull her outside. I went in my private garden behind my room and sat on a bench I installed. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and she rested her head on my shoulder. We just talked about everything. She talked about her mission on earth and how different our lives were from theirs. But when we passed a few minutes without talking she fell fast asleep. I took her in my arms and hesitated. Maybe she will sleep better if I stayed with her? It was worth the shot. I brought her to my room and I lied her down on my futon. I took off my uniform and got in my pyjamas before slipping under my blankets. I kissed her forehead before falling asleep to.
The next morning when I woke up, Sara was snuggling onto me. She was still sleeping deeply with a smile on her lips. I guess she didn't have one of her dreams. I slowly freed myself form her grasps and got up. I just had time to change back into my captain's uniform when she woke up.
''Good morning'' I said with a smile.
She looked around and rubbed her eyes. When she looked at me again; her eyes widen with horror. She got up in a jump and threw a pillow at me as she screamed.
''WHAT THE HELL!''
She looked for something to throw at me and I grabbed her arms.
''Sara, calm down!'' I said with a smile. ''You fell asleep on my shoulder last night''
''And you brought me in your room why?'' She snapped.
''Did you have any nightmares?'' I questioned. She opened her mouth to reply but resigned. She looked down and freed her arms.
''Well thanks, I guess'' she whispered with a blush. ''But you didn't do anything to me, now did you?''
I laughed at that.
''I thought you knew me better than that'' I replied as I rubbed the back of my head. She shook her head and turned towards the door.
''It's hard to believe that there is actually nice guys out there'' she dropped before leaving.
I looked at the door for a while. What she said stunted me. After all these years, was she finally considering me as a man? It's true it had been a while since she recovered her memories and we were practically always together… Maybe there was a chance that she liked me?
''No, I'm not her type, she likes men more like Kyouraku'' I said out loud.
''What about Kyouraku?'' said a familiar voice. I looked up and realized that Yoruichi came in my room. She chuckled and came closer to me.
''You still believe that Sara doesn't feel anything for you?'' She said as she studied my face. ''Well believe what you want, but she isn't indifferent towards you''
''Well, I am her captain'' I said as I scratch my chin as I thought about it.
''You really are clueless'' she dropped before leaving the room. I looked at her as she left and sighed. What did she meant?
Sara POV
I was training a bit; it has been a while since I moved like this. At noon; the sun was too hot to keep this up. I whipped the sweat from my forehead and sat down under a tree. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the fresh breeze when someone sat beside of me. I didn't need to open my eyes to know that it was Urahara.
''How can I help you?'' I asked with a smile.
''I need to be certain of something'' I opened my eyes to look at him. He seemed a bit perturbed. ''Yoruichi told me something and, well, I'm not sure what to think about it.''
''I'm all ears'' I said as I took my bottle of water.
''Well, she told me that you liked me'' he dropped.
I spit the water I was drinking. What the hell was she thinking? He laughed.
''She is pretty incredible, don't you think?'' He said as he rubbed the back of his head. ''I told her that you only appreciate me as your superior and that was it''
My heart shattered. I fake a smile.
''That Yoruichi is quite something'' I said. ''Thinking that I actually like you as a man, that's quite silly''
I couldn't say that I did love him. Because he clearly just rejected me. He looked at me. My answer seemed to have a certain effect on him. He sighed and smiled.
''Well, I'm glad that we had this sorted out'' He dropped as he got up. I looked at him and got up as well.
''Well then, I'm going to change and we'll meet at the lab?'' I asked as I forced myself to keep my smile. He looked at me very seriously before nodding with a smile.
I put my sword in its sheath and walked away. I kept my head cool as I walked back, but the moment I closed my bedroom's door, I fell to my knees. It was completely meaningless to cry over this; but a tear came out of my eye. I shouldn't waste any more effort on him. I needed to start the healing…
A few days later…
Kisuke and I barely spoke since then. He was working on some project that he wouldn't let anyone else touch it. He was getting quite isolated. My nightmares had stop, but I'd always bump into Aizen one way or another. Even when I decide to stay at my division, Shinji came by with him. I sat down on my balcony enjoying my tea when Urahara stopped next to me. I looked up at him as he sat down next to me.
''Did I say anything to offend you?'' He asked.
I thought about it for a second before shaking my head.
''No, why?'' I asked back. He sighed out of relief.
''I don't know, you seemed quite distant for a few days, so I was only wondering'' he said honestly as he rubbed the back of his head. I sighed and got up.
''Well, I'm not the one isolated everyday'' I replied as I crossed my arms. I thought on what I just said and I silently hope he was too stupid to believe I wasn't reproaching him anything. He look down and nodded before getting up very determined. He took my hand, forcing me to uncross my arms.
''In that case, I'll show you, but you must keep it a secret, 'kay?''
''wh-what?'' He pulled on my arm and brought me in the room where he was isolated for the past few days. There was nothing particular in there, except for a body without any skin.
''Umm… What's that?'' I asked as I pointed the body.
''It's an artificial body!'' He said with much enthusiasm. ''You know how souls are disappearing for the last few days?''
''Yeah?''
''Well, I thought that their bodies might not be strong enough for a reason, so I've conceived an artificial body that a soul can wear with no problem'' he explained.
I took a good look at his creation and realized something.
''You do realized that people are taller than this, right?''
He had a slight blush.
''Yeah, I know, but I've created a body that I am very familiar with…''
''You are taller than this Urahara-Taicho'' I said with a smile.
''No, it's yours'' he dropped as he looked away. My eyes widen, I haven't even realized that it was my height and my size.
''Mine? B-But why me?'' I asked with a blush.
''Because I've study you inch by inch, I know how your body works and-''
''I think you should stop there Urahara, you are freaking me out'' I cut as I moved away. ''And why did you show me this anyway?''
''But I thought-'' he started.
''You already have a fukutaicho'' I reproach. ''If you want to exchange secrets with someone; she is the one you should talk to''
He shook his head, but I couldn't keep this going. I couldn't bear to be his accomplice anymore. It hurt so badly. I turned around. I needed to reject him once and for all; to be on a same foot as Mayuri and nothing more.
''Sara, what are you saying, I trust you with my own life-''
I didn't even let him finish.
''Don't you get it?'' I turned around to face him. ''I'm tired that the others treat me differently because they think I'm your favourite!''
I only realized this after ten years. People avoided me because they all thought I was going out with Urahara or something.
"That's because you are" I opened my mouth to continue my speech but I realized what he just said. I looked at him as he walked towards me. I backed up until my back his the wall.
"We owe each other lives, no wonder why you are my favorite" He said as he put his hands each side of my head, cornering me. "Not only you are the most intriguing subordinate I have, but what I feel about you is close enough to what I feel for Yoruichi" I shook my head and slapped his hands away and continued my speech as if he never said anything.
''B-besides, you were the one who told me that the others won't take you seriously because of me'' I said as I calmed down. ''So please, stop, it will be better for both of us''
He opened his mouth to reply, but I walked away.