Chapter 3; Living Arrangement

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"It's a nice house but I'm surprised that Yi Jeong-sunbae only bought you this kind of house. I mean, I thought he will buy you a mansion consider that you actually bearing HIS child." I could feel that my ears flaring with flame when I heard Jan Di's sarcastic comment.

It was not the first time that she intentionally burned my ears, stabbed my heart with a sharp dagger, and whacked my brain with a baseball bat. She was the master of torturing, physically and psychologically and I pitied my best friend Gu Jun Pyo for had to live with her until his last breath. I had to lock my mouth and tried very hard not to answer all her nasty comments because it was really my fault to begin with.

"Jan Di-ah, I'm the one who doesn't want a big house. There's no need because it is only me and Yi Jeong-sunbae." Ga Eul tried to explain the real reason.

"So you two will start to live together today right?" Jan Di just ignoring the previous answer and started to question further.

Ga Eul just nodded her head.

"I believe that you two will sleep in separate rooms, right sunbae?"

I was shocked at that sudden question being pointed to me but I nodded energetically and said; "This house has four bedrooms and we already arranged two bedrooms to be our room."

"I know because I already inspected the entire house and surprisingly I found that each room has a king size bed. Is there a need sunbae?" I'm confused, why she asked a weird question?

"Yah, Geum Jan Di, why are you asking this stupid question? What's wrong with the king size bed? All our beds are king size bed." At least Jun Pyo also as confused as me. But I realised that Ga Eul's face started to blush and Ji Hoo and Woo Bin also showed a knowing smile.

"Arghh, just forget it, just forget that I ever ask that question. I think to be safe, let me occupy the third bedroom or I can just sleep with Ga Eul, the king size bed is HUGE ENOUGH for TWO persons to sleep."

"NO!" Jun Pyo and I simultaneously rejected that stupid idea. Everybody was looking at us as to ask further explanation. I immediately look at Jun Pyo with pleading eyes, hoping that he can come out with a reasonable explanation because I have none. Understanding my desperate need, he said;

"Jan Di-ah, you don't have time to take care of your own self, how come you want to take care of Ga Eul. You will start your internship this year, you will work 60 hours a week and most of all our wedding is just four months from now and we need to prepare for it."

"Jun Pyo-sunbae is right, Jan Di-ah I know you have a good intention but I can take care of myself, you can trust me."

"Of course I trust you Ga Eul but I don't trust HIM." Jan Di pointed her finger at me and I just feigning innocent.

"Okay I promise I won't hurt her. By the way, let just eat. I specially cooked the foods with Ga Eul for you guys as a celebration for our new house." I immediately changed the subject.

"I'm still not satisfied with all these. Why can't you just marry her? Why can't you commit to her officially when all the things you do now are the same like a married couple do….

"JAN DI-ah! Ga Eul's high voice cut off Jan Di's ranting. Everyone was shocked to see the gentle and soft spoken Ga Eul lost her temper. Jan Di didn't seem to flinch and they started the staring challenged for a moment. Silence surrounding our living room, I could feel the temperature suddenly drop to zero degree and goosebumps all over my body. I doubted that my friends didn't feel the same like me.

In the end the unexpected person surrendered. "Arasso Ga Eul-ah. I should respect your decision. Let's eat, I'm starving already. Ga Eul-ah did you make your famous kimbap?"

"Of course, I know you love kimbap." And just like that they turn back to be BFF (best friend forever) again, giggling with each other and hand in hand walking to the dining table.

That night I couldn't sleep. I tossing and turning around my bed, forcing my eyes to close but still my mind didn't want to rest. Once in a while, I glanced at the left side wall and hoping to get an x-ray vision so that I could see the person behind that wall. At last I gave up to force to sleep and I decided to take a drink at the kitchen.

As I opened my bedroom door, I realised that the light in the kitchen was turn on. I guess I'm not the only one who couldn't sleep that night. I crept to the kitchen slowly and saw her drinking her milk. She immediately noticed my silhouette and smile warmly at me.

"Can't sleep too sunbae?"

"Yeah, maybe I'm not use to the new bed and the new surroundings." I just made that excuse. Since when did I'm not use with the different beds? I remember every hotel room that I went before have different beds and still I can sleep soundly on it.

"Me too sunbae." That I knew was an honest answer.

Then I proceeded to the fridge and took the water bottle. I slowly drank the plain water from the bottle. While gulping the water, my eyes were travelling from her head to her toe. Damn she looks so sexy in her white night gown and I had to increase the speed of gulping the cold water until the bottle was empty. After a few minutes of silence, I braved myself to ask her;

"Ga Eul-yang, can I…sleep with you." Shocked was written all over her face as soon as she heard my words. "I mean it's easier for me to look after you in case you have difficulties at night."

She took quite some times to think and just stared at the glass of milk that almost empty but I waited for her answer patiently. Slowly she rose up her face and staring at me. Her eyes were searching for something. At first I stared back at her but then I remembered that she had a telemetry power that can read my actual mind that connected straight to my heart. It was funny that I myself can't or slowed to read my mind. Maybe the junction of my synapses was too big or blocked that forbid the signal to reach the destination. That was why my mind and heart seems disconnected; remind me to meet with the neurologist later.

To prevent her from sucking all the secret information from my brain any further, I immediately look at anything except her. Then I heard her voice again;

"Okay sunbae."

"REALLY!" Unintentionally I raised my voice along with a big grin on my lips. She just chuckled at my weird (for me) behaviour.

"Yes sunbae, you can sleep with me. Just don't tell Jan Di about it."

"Of course I won't tell her. I still want to live you know." Again she was laughing at my remarked. "Come on let sleep now, although we don't have to work tomorrow, we still have lots to unpack and cleaning to do."

"Let me wash this glass first."

And here I am, still tossing and turning beside her in her bedroom. She was at my side yet I still felt that she was too far, now I started to hate the wideness of this king size bed. I don't know if she already asleep or not because her back was facing me and she was not moving at all ever since she laid on the bed.

"Ga Eul-yang, are you asleep?"

"Not yet sunbae." She still not moving.

"Ga Eul-yang can I …hold you?"

"Yes sunbae." Surprisingly she didn't need time to think and just agreed with my request.

Slowly I moved to her side and placed my arm around her waist and no rejection from her. So I tighten my hold and brought her closer to my body, her back crash with my chest and still no rejection from her. She felt so warm and she smelled good. I nuzzled my nose at her smooth and silky hair and I became greedy, I want more.

"Ga Eul-yang can I …kiss you."

I can feel her body stiffen in my arms, maybe she was surprised at my greedy request. I can't blame her because I'm also surprised with myself, bad bad mouth (I reprimanded myself). Just as I'm about to undo my words, she finally said;

"You can sunbae."

I was shocked at first but immediately replaced by a joyful feeling. The same feeling that I got when I received a toy from my father during my childhood year.

I started to kiss her shoulder, than I rose myself a bit and kiss her cheek and I pulled her shoulder gently to see her face. Maybe my vision already adapt with the darkness of the room because I could see her face clearly. Her beautiful shinning eyes staring lovingly at me and I couldn't help to descending my face to capture her luscious lips. I kissed her lips gently, nibbling at her lower lip and took time to taste her. She shyly returned my kissed and I can tell that she was an amateur kisser.

Suddenly my naughty little light bulb appeared over my head as I recalled the request that I had asked her before. I did asked her permission to kiss her but I never stated specifically where I wanted to kiss her. So if I kissed her in different places, would she stop me? Only one way to know.

My lips moved down to her jaw line and descended further to her neck. I could feel her hands grasped at the back of my head and silently I prayed that she won't push me away and my prayer had been heard. She pulled me closer and soft moans escaped from her throat. Then all the scene that happen eight weeks ago replayed on my mind and I felt the urged to taste it again. I stopped kissing her and stared at her face again. I gulped my dried throat and said;

"Ga Eul-yang, can I … can I…" Damn it was hard to ask.

"Sunbae, you only need to asked permission to get something that was not belong to you." She then took a deep breath. "I'm already yours sunbae, since the past, now and forever." She then cupped my cheeks and gently caresses it. "Saranghae Yi Jeong-sunbae."

"Ga Eul-yang…." I was speechless to hear her sudden confession. She continued to caresses my face and her soft touched made me weak and then I kissed her hungrily. I'm starving for her sweet taste, hungered for her soft touch and keened to find the warmth from her soft skin.

After a few hours, we laid together nakedly at the centre of the bed. She was already asleep on my bare chest and I could hear her soft and calm breathing. I held her closely, not even wanting to let her go.

"What did I do?" I mentally asked myself. "Maybe you actually drinking a soju instead of plain water and maybe she was drinking a rice wine instead of milk." The voice from my left side tried to calm me. "Well that was the stupidest excused I ever heard." That was the voice from my right side.

I closed my eyes and realised that there was only one explanation to all this mess, yes only because of that reason. It was because I'm a certified jerk. A jerk who like to take advantage over a naïve and innocent lady. The first time I took advantage while she was drunk and now I took advantage on her love to me. But the worst thing was why I never regretted it although I knew it was wrong? Why I never learn the lesson and did it again and again and again like a married couple.

Because from the first day we live in this house, I never ever again step in my bedroom at nights. My designated bedroom was left deserted and I only entered that room to change my cloth, or the time when Ga Eul's parent came to visit us or when Ga Eul kicked me out from her room.

At least now I know why Jan Di's hate that king size bed. Ga Eul should listen to her when she said that I can't be trusted. I should listen to Jan Di and just married Ga Eul because she was right from the beginning, we did look like a married couple already.

I admitted that I have this strange feeling towards Ga Eul and its weird because that feeling getting bigger and stronger every day. I hope she can wait until I can define the meaning of that strange feeling because the thought of her leaving me scared me out of my wits.